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So I'm financially in a supermassive black hole atm. It's been really stressful and scary, actually, but I'm so privileged to live in my childhood home, where I don't have the burden of rent and utilities, so I can't complain too much. The everyday expenses of life get so overwhelming, like being a commuter for work and school, running a small farm (jokes but kinda not), broken home appliances, car shit, healthcare/dentistry needs, and what the fuck ever else there is, because there's always something that needs to be bought or fixed or healed lol. It's a fucking LOT, for anyone and everyone. We are in an economic crisis, and the effects of that, alongside a regime dedicated to funneling all the country's money into their own pockets rather than dispersing it among civilians, have become exhausting. It's wacky, weird, scary, devastating shit, and I constantly feel like I'm drowning in it all - the worry, the doubt, the fear, the anger, the pain - it is all encompassing. I feel like there is also a lot of shame because I do feel like I am in a more privileged position than others might be, and still feel like this is the end of the world. I am posting this here to hold myself and those feelings accountable.

A GIGANTIC number of college students, office workers, influencers, regular fucking human beings, etc., are quietly overdrafted, behind on bills, using BNPL firms, or just generally terrified about money.

Especially right now.

We are not uniquely failing at being adults because we hit a rough financial stretch after a pandemic, during a horrific presidency, or through the death of democracy as we knew it in America.

We are trying to stabilize ourselves while building a future that is enriching and purposeful at the same time, all while in a much worse financial position than other generations during this time of their lives.

Regardless of our financial situations, we have no choice but to continue with our everyday lives; none of that stops because we're depressed, in school, or have been fired. Rather than feeling shame and fear over whatever debts we have, we have to stop isolating ourselves in those feelings of debt-shame (similar to cockshame but with debt) and realize we (the real-life people) are literally all the same, living the same shitty, broke bitch life created by the puppet strings of capitalism, each in different contexts. I will probably pay off my debts before I die, so will you. We will probably pay them off sooner than we think, or we don't, and we die with them sumbitches. It doesn't really matter either way because, say it with me, debt doesn't exist when you're dead

#mind if a white girl rants once in a while #rant #debt #us government #college life #college student #grad school #minimum wage #jobsearch

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You should be able to listen to a full album without looking at your phone. You should be able to watch a 3 hour film from beginning to end without checking social media. If you can't do this, you need to start training your attention span as if it were a physical muscle. I don't experience boredom or restlessness because I've trained my brain to not be dependent on quick stimuli and dopamine hits. If you can't chill on a park bench while waiting for a friend with just your imagination to keep you company, you need to learn how to do it ASAP because one day we may not have access to the internet.