I remember how you
use to stare so deep
into my eyes.
You were never like
those other guys.
They were all
embarrassed by me.
Didn't want to be
seen with me.
But not you.
No, you would
stand still.
And stare me down.
You listened without
flinching. Never
did you wince at me.
And I always was
grateful for that.
I never got to
tell you that.
I thought you were
so cool with your
punk rock ways.
I wanted to be like
you. I wanted you
to like me.
I changed my
looks to get your
attention.
I never had too.
But I did.
And with that,
You set me on a
coarse that led
me to who I am
today.
And I've always
been grateful
for that.
I never got to
tell you that.
I loved you
when we were
young. 10 years
ago, it was.
It's scary
what I would
have done for you.
I don't think it
was mistake
that you left.
I just wish I
could have
said goodbye.
But maybe it
was better that
way?
Just rip it off
like a bandaid.
Either way,
I missed you.
I never got to
tell you that.
Over the years,
you'd think I'd
forget you.
But I haven't.
I remember
the things we did.
And things you said.
I don't know
why I can't
forget you.
Maybe I'm not
meant too?
Either way,
over the years,
I've still thought
of you. I've even
dreamed of you.
And it's for that
reason that I
pray for you.
I never got to
tell you that.
I still think about
you and I care.
And I still have
certain feelings
that are there.
It's like I still
love you.
And I don't know
what to do.
So I lift you up
to God.
Hoping my prayers
will pull through.
I want you to
be happy.
I want you to
be safe.
I don't want you
to walk blindly
and be like a waif.
I want you to
be in God's will,
And living for
Him in perfect
peace.
I want you to
be filled with joy.
That all sorrow
would cease.
I just wish you'd
give your heart
to Him, if you
haven't already.
I never got to
tell you that.
Sometimes,
I wish I could
see again.
Reunite and
go back to
the way things
used to be.
See how you
are and how
you've grown.
And tell you
how proud I am
of you.
But what if we
don't need too?
What if I didn't
like I what I saw?
What if you've
gone down the
wrong path?
And I didn't
have pride in
my eyes.
Maybe it's
better for me
to not see.
For me to not
know.
But even so,
it doesn't
mean I don't
think about it.
Because I do.
Especially
when I think
of you.
I never got to
tell you that.
Probably
never will.
But I thought
at least, I'd let it
out in this long,
poetic reel.
If you'll ever
see it or not,
I may never
know.
I just had to
let my feelings
out and try
to let you go.
I don't know
if I'll ever forget
you. Or stop
carrying you
around.
But I hope my
prayers are
touching your
life. And that
one day I'll
hear the sound,
of a punk kid
who grew to
be a Godly man,
thanking me
for the prayers.
Saying "hey,
it paid off.
Just wanted to
tell you that."
Written: (for my friend Brad K.) March 9th, 2016, 11:46 PM
Brad, if you ever see this, I know it's cheesy.
But it's really what I had in my heart. And I just
wanted to get it out some way. And this is how
it came. I hope you like it. Should you ever see it.
And hopefully you won't laugh at it like you did
that one song I wrote that started off like "I'm sitting
in the bathroom, alone in the dark". You just looked
at me like I was weird. But it's okay. Because I am
weird. And that song was weird. But I care about you.
And I hope everything is going good for you. Take care my friend.