i know that someday i'll be fine

i know that it's gonna take time.

[robertseanleonardthinker]

intro post 🦦

(blinkies below - flash warning!)

cain / matthew (+ nicknames welcome!)

it/its + he/him

19 years old

photography blog | house md oc blog | ao3 | last.fm | letterboxd

interests of mine - house md, robert sean leonard and his various works (my favorite is the boys next door!), wildlife (especially birds), quantum leap, daredevil, photography

music i enjoy - jack kays, grandson, badflower, fall out boy, wafia, k flay, superet, OLD panic at the disco, idkhbtfm, the brobecks, lincoln, dreamers, shinedown, and godsmack. generally, i just enjoy alt rock lol.

disclaimer - i am disabled + live with mental illness. my adolescence has been largely shaped by that. i sometimes post about that, as well as my time in inpatient treatment. i also just love complaining. i don't really post anything triggering ever, though. if you need anything tagged, please let me know! i am happy to.

finally - absolutely feel free to send asks, dms, and tag me in tag games! just know that i am supremely shitty at responding. i try my best, but social interaction is exhausting for me sometimes, even if i'm interacting with people i like. it is NOT personal if i don't reply right away!

(by gifdog)

[robertseanleonardthinker]

THERE ARE TWO MINI DONKEYS AND A HORSE OUTSIDE MY WORKPLACE RN 😭😭😭😭😭😭 WHAT THE FUCKKK THEY'RE SO CUTE

[robertseanleonardthinker]

bro 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[robertseanleonardthinker]

THERE ARE TWO MINI DONKEYS AND A HORSE OUTSIDE MY WORKPLACE RN 😭😭😭😭😭😭 WHAT THE FUCKKK THEY'RE SO CUTE

[grimoiremanifest]

2026 was 8 years ago. christ

[grimoiremanifest]

Wait. Fuck. Wrong year. Don't

[robertseanleonardthinker]

THERE'S A WIKIPEDIA APP??????

[littleguysdaily]

[hymnism]

[kosmogrl]

[idiot-haul]

Why is it referred to as coming out of the closet? 

[idiot-haul]

It could be coming out of anything. What wasted potential.

[idiot-haul]

Coming out of my cage and I’ve been doing just guys

[excitementshewrote]

[robertseanleonardthinker]

i wanna start quilting but everything is so expensive ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[eonblueinmay]

Watching the process of this absolutely stunning painting makes it even more beautiful.

The artist is Sydney Swisher

[robertseanleonardthinker]

i don't think i'll ever get over touching my chest and just feeling nothing there

[boringkate]

You listen to music regularly? Why? Have you even tried quitting? Could you quit? You get music stuck in your head? Wow. You're so ruined and music brained. I bet you make your partners listen to music with you when you have sex. Music addiction has really ruined a whole generation. You know it's not realistic to expect reverb in real life, right? You're probably so desensitized that you don't even feel anything anymore when you hear a bird singing that it wants some fuck.

[paradigm-adrift]

I don't have a problem with people listening to music per se, but I do have a problem with the music industry exploiting & mistreating artists.

Personally, I abstain from all music in order to keep my hands clean but really music should just be illegal outright to protect musicians from abuse.

[terramythos]

holy shit this person in the notes

[discodyke-dogthing]

[wifegideonnav]

“bits to use in everyday conversations”