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god i'm tired. but i'm still excited and determined to keep going and get my education and moving out but my god. learning all of the things that come with the day to day is exhausting

i'm learning that you have to do a little bit, constantly. and that has been exhausting and i'm only doing basic tasks. like going to get packages, doing laundry, and then also constantly needing to keep track of dishes (and if you're messy like me, cleaning can be really difficult so you also have to do that as you go) and it's just a lot of small things. even on my days off i have to complete atleast some tasks. and idk i'm just really tired these days.

luckily i have friends to keep me company and a mom to pick up where i fall

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i got a job!!!!

so latest update i just got a job! and it's my first one ever!

so i start mid october after all my plans are past

idk how to feel. i'm excited but terrified, like everyone i'm sure, it's also starting to sink in that i'm moving. not the moving itsself i've done that loads but this time for the first time i'm moving away from my rock the person who was always there every move, breakdown, struggle. i'm moving 2 hours away from my mom and that's terrifying but i'm not gonna quit cuz it's scary and new. most everything about it is scary and new. but that's what i have to accept. the new. the scary. and i'm determined to do it anyways because i really want to

i'm so excited to move. but jesus am i terrified. luckily the job will help me too. another of the scary scary things i need to overcome in order to move

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how do adults do this shit every day i did laundry and shoppedfor/made dinner and i was so exhausted from it i fell asleep for 2,5 hours as soon as i finished hanginf it up

i do not give y'all enough credit

oi adults. you pretty chill and kewl

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i actually got an like an interview, like a continuation after an initial phonecall!!!! it's so great. also ive implemented a system so i can learn to get a better understamding of stuff like groceries and how to efficiently cook. also! i now have also started a blanket, like for the appartment, so now i have smaller projects for at school and a big boy for when i'm at home and this weekend i went physically to a job i applied for online to just say hi, and the guy i talked to said it could help my chances!!!!

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it sure has been a couple days. not that much has happened, it's just been a couple days. i sent out my first couple job applications yesterday but i'll keep at it today, i hope some of them respond. at the same time i have school which is luckily only 3 days a week but it means i cant just take any job. it has to align with my schoolweek. and i would die in a nightshift. aaaaaaaaaa. started a teatowel though, a tad too big but it's a mix of colors and very pretty so it's okay. it'll be added to the box of useful stuff for moving

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i today started making a list with my mom on what i need/need to learn over the course of the months leading up to moving. this is what we did today because i dont want to overwhelm myself. since i am also looking into making my first job application and how that weird shit works

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so i applied for a website for babysitting jobs, i have near no experience but i'm really good with kids and they seem to like me. would be a good way to earn a little on the side while i'm in school

also i started knitting stupid patterned dishcloths just cuz we'll need them and i'm bored

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today marks the day i've decided to move to the other side of the country and live with my best friend and roomie from boarding school.

i know nothing about living alone and have barely been home alone at all for longer than 24 hours in my entire life.

we plan to move sometime next year, i hope

pros: - i'm moving in with my best friend - cheaper to live there - more nature - i'm spending a lot more time in that part of the country recently - the city is pretty central so transport is practical - bestie has a cat that's joining

cons: - i'm moving away from my entire family and a lot of friends - mentally unstable and panic when i'm home alone - have no good skills at most things in the home - i am starting with 0 money or job experience

i'm gonna try to use this as an outlet for my thoughts, emotions, what i learn, and progress i make

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Yeah, I'm a bitch