the crack of a smile was still tainted with bits of despair . it’s a falsely that rosine knows rodolphus had become expertly trained on growing up - and probably even more so now that he was pushed to carry a family name that she still wanted to be a part of . ❝ at least share some of the burden with me this time , ❞ she says as if the last few years hadn’t happened . they were simply born to live , right ?
but that had never been the reality for them , she thinks . rodolphus was the agent , rabastan the defender , and rosine … she wasn’t even exactly sure . she’d wasted years imagining a life that was different , pushing for it to happen with a stubborn mind but here she stood and she felt so flat . to stand in the middle suddenly felt like a sham , a farce to make one feel invincible but with two sides battling for attention , one must always win . to imagine the darkest power in the same room as them sinks the last shred of hope , ❝ what’s it like ? are the stories true ? ❞ even with his two hands balanced on her shoulders , they fail to hold her steady . she’s to say yes , she’s to look brave , she’s supposed to willingly give up everything .
she averts her gaze at the prick of water , refusing to fall into the need to look or even feel defeated . ❝ i’m scared , ❞ it’s the truth that he deserves to hear . it had been her choice to show up , she had decided to to take this on – a choice she’d been forced to take . ❝ i just don’t understand . what do i have to offer , rod ? i’ve got nothing to lose . not anymore - ❞ and what was rodolphus losing ?
this wasn’t the life that he had wanted for himself, but when you’re the eldest and had the last name like lestrange he knew that it was inevitable the life that you were meant to live, he had only hoped that his siblings could go unscathed. it was different now, he knows that, he knew the expectations that their parents had bestowed on them, and he had tried his best to be enough so that it could be enough for their parents, when it came to betrothed's but blood status always won in the end but could be forced down if you were part of something more—like the death eaters—he had never wanted this for his siblings but he had to live with the consequences that weren’t his fault—but still felt apart of anyway. he had tried to protect rosine from the world of all the vipers but in the end they ended up stinging her anyway, infecting her in a way that rodolphus couldn’t fix. he loved her too much and tried to shelter her from this world before it inevitably caught up with her—it wasn’t fair.
“i am my brother and sisters keeper—“ he says with a slight smile, “so you don’t have to be,” he had took on much more than he should have, but with his position at work and death eaters he should be used to it—and he was, it’s just when it came to his own family it was much different—it was personal. “they’re all true,” he says, his voice is more quiet than usual, he had tried to keep his grip on her enough to hold on to himself and the reality they were both about to face. he had looked at his sister with enough care and worry that he could manage without trying to frighten her, but he was scared. he never wanted this, and now his biggest fears were happening in front of his eyes and he could do nothing about it.
“i’m sorry,” he says, without saying much else. “i wanted to protect you from this world but i failed,” even if she had reached out for it for herself, it didn’t make him feel less guilty. he had wanted so much more for her, and he hoped that despite all of this—she would still get all of that. “it doesn’t matter,” he says quietly what she does and doesn’t have to offer, he will take anything good and suck you dry from it. “we are all just vessels in his game.” he whispers, and then within seconds of saying it, voldemort appears in his fire place, looking at his surroundings before giving rosine and rodolphus an uneasy smile, and rod thinks its on purpose as he tries to shield his sister he loves so much away from him—but its useless, he already sees her, and its too late.