Stormy Nights and Broken Minds

Neruda, 22 but I feel like I’ve lived an eternity and like I have yet to live ••• This blog used to have a long ass description warning everyone it’s sad and shit and that I don’t tag any posts. I tag them. They’re all sad as fuck. So am I. I’m pretty fucking suicidal but I don’t actually post anything in detail about it nor do I promote self harm (although I do it sometimes). I don’t care enough to try and get better nor do I really want to but I still appreciate any advice people have to offer because it helps me to know people somewhat care. Also- I am NOT a blog that’s good to talk to for help or comfort. I can’t take care of myself, I’m afraid I have nothing to offer anyone else.

[killed-long-ago-deactivated2021]

I don’t know what the fuck is inside my head, is there anything at all? if so please take it out it’s no good

[rollinginthedeepdepression]

every year I wonder “will this be my last?”

[rollinginthedeepdepression]

I’m really gonna die alone huh

[jennyhoelzer-deactivated2016120]

anyone else lose their youth to depression  haha

[rollinginthedeepdepression]

how do you make a serious cry for help when you’ve already been making them your whole life

[thedarkperidot]

The problem with having mental illnesses since being a child is that your whole identity grew around them and you have no idea who you really are.

[bioshocked-astroghost]

I’m sick of joking around about “yearning” and “haha ima be alone forever” and “damn I wish someone would love me like that lmao” I fucking MEAN it when I say I’m so goddamn lonely and desperate for romantic love and I am SICK OF IT!!

I want to date someone!!! I want to know what it’s like to be fucking loved romantically!!!! I want someone to look at me like I’m the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen!!! I want someone to TELL me I’m the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen!!! I want someone to hug me randomly because they’re in love with me and can’t help it!!! I want to be held and kissed!!!! I am at the point where I don’t even care how long it lasts because I just wanna fucking KNOW!!!

And don’t anyone come at me about how I better be willing to reciprocate all that love and attention because I’ve been waiting so goddamn long to find someone to give everything I have to!!! Y’all best BET i would never leave them tf alone!!!! Y’all I tell my FRIENDS that I would bottle the goddamn stars for them and I MEAN THAT SHIT!!!! Y’all don’t even know what kinda love I could give to someone romantically!!!

I have so much fucking love to give to someone if only they’d just love me too. I’m so tired of waiting and I’m only 19. The worlds falling apart and I just know I’m gonna find myself alone at the end. I’m just asking the universe to show some mercy. Please.

[meghanmclovin]

You know what’s really hot? Not having to guess someone’s feelings or intentions

[fighting-ghosts]

[destroyedlonelysoul]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[anxietyproblem]

[fuck2everything]

[rollinginthedeepdepression]

I want to die and it’s not a fucking joke anymore.

[everybodyiswatchingher]

whats keeping me up at night

[anxietyproblem]