Hermela

( She/her ) Cancer Sun 2h, Cancer Moon 2h, Taurus Rising 17yrs old

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“Jenny and Shane were so random”

The shit they were doing in the INTRO

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Other than that fuck ass ending. I remember being so angry at the casual mention and overall disregard of the fact LITERAL KIDS WERE SHIFTING as a consequence of vampires gathering at the fucking Cullens. You rich pasty fucks couldn’t have rented out another mansion in the middle of nowhere…

LIKE GO AWAY MY GOD

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Shane & Jenny S1 E12

Shane grabbing Jenny a water bottle and gently putting it beside her UGHHHHHH + They end up sleeping in the same bed that night.

I remember first watching this scene and it solidifying my need for the both of them to be together 💔💔. This entire episode honestly…I can’t imagine watching this and then being surprised they get together at all ?!?!

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ANA LUCIA aka my wife

and what if I said, I watched every season after she died, wondering what could’ve been 💔💔

anyway on a serious note it genuinely took me like 3 months to pick up after she died….i was devastated…

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Michelle Rodriguez/Ana Lucia

She’s such a baddie, there is honestly nothing she could have done on lost to get me to hate her like !?!?!?

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Ana Lucia & Sayid

Ship so bad you’re too ashamed to even think about it 💔 I’m probably lowkey the only person in the world who thinks this but I love them, even though there really isn’t even a “them”.

they had so much chemistry or tension, whichever one really…the scene where sayid says “what’s the point in killing you if we’re both already dead”, had me thinking they were gonna go somewhere with them anyway..shit was lowkey romantic

+ that episode where her and sawyer bang is hot !!!

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Rewatching for the millionth time and I’m going insane.

Haven’t posted anything Shenny related in months and this is the only thing I could come up with BUT REALLY WHAT DEOS THIS MEAN ???

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Random rant

Probably very unpopular opinion - Genuinely crazy how quick people went to be racist, homophobic, and misogynistic in expressing any dislike towards belly, Benito and Jeremiah. Jeremiah: like it’s seems so widely normalized to do so when defending Conrad, the videos I saw disregarding Jeremiah’s bisexuality using it as a way to explain why him and belly don’t work why he can’t be with her cause he’s been with guy !?!? Like tf. Insinuating that his “promiscuity”. and previous relationships with men make it so he isn’t manly enough or isn’t a good partner, not like one video but multiple and comments using his sexuality as a means of hating on him and defending Conrad/bonrad.

Belly : the way Bella was getting dragged for not reacting correctly when faced with Conrad’s confession or his yearning, not treating him well enough. As if she owes him anything and if his suffering is her responsibility as if she isn’t entitled to her wants and opinions and fucking choices. I don’t really feel like going in depth into the genuine ignorance layering so many of the thoughts and opinions of so many people, or the amount of people I see genuinely spewing some of the most dehumanizing and degrading shit about belly not treating Conrad well enough her not deserving him….fucking insane. Benito : I didn’t necessarily think I’d see him receiving the criticism he did, I liked him and found him hot and charming, obviously very late in his entrance but nothing to outwardly hate about. the jokes, the ignorant racist jokes, using his race as a way to make fun of him. You don’t want him to end up with belly ok, but to make racially insensitive jokes so comfortably, calling him burrito etc…like it’s so weird, aggressive and genuinely appalling.

anyway probably wildly unpopular but i always find it so weird how usually when a male character is favored and loved so heavily and ends up needing to be defended, or done even slightly wrong in a show, the quickness to run towards shaming and degrading every character whether considered responsible or in direct comparison is disgusting. Like I don’t hate Conrad or bonrad and seeing as the show is over Idgaf anymore but the videos im seeing from grown as women are weird, inappropriate and just fucking crazy. Like grow tf up.

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Me when I come across a vid shitting on a character/ship I love but I gotta sit there cause they lowkey got a point and there in the majority…..

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I don't know what it is but I love me a despised, misunderstood, complex-female character...

Each of these characters in some way has their trauma, depth and complexity minimized and disregarded. They are then watered down and instead just crazy, evil, horrible people, victims of poor writing and a lack of respect/care.

You can critique them while still acknowledging the things that shaped them

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Fuck ass movies

Rewatching the movies cause Netflix is about to get rid of them and always heartbroken when I see the Jacob erasure in the movies. The way they change/alter things to make sure Bella’s senior citizen isn’t as decrepit and fucking creepy as he is in the book. The racism, prejudice and predatory behavior isn’t as prevalent ….Jacob and Bella’s relationship being diminished and minimized entire scenes cut out like important character and relationship establishing scenes. The significance of Jacobs tribe, his relationship with the members Bella’s relationship with the tribe. The fucking members in general UGH so much cut tf out.

don’t get me wrong I love the movies (ehh) and every time I’ve read the books I imagine Taylor, Kristen and Robert as the characters it just sucks how shitty Jacob is done in the movies how badly his character is altered esp considering HOW BADLY HE IS ALREADY FUCKED OVER IN THE BOOKS.

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Jacob & Bella's Similarities

People so easily disregarding that both Jacob and Bella were parentified,

Bella forced to care for her mother emotionally ( act like a mother rather than child) & Jacob physically ( responsible for the well being of his father) both given an immense amount of responsibility as kids/minors and forced to mature. As twilight progresses they both make decisions and face situations that are not appropriate for their age.

Bella married at 18 and baby at 19...put into the role of mother and wife way before she is meant to...her education put aside and not considered a priority

Jacob forced in the role of protecter....responsible for protecting not just his pack and tribe, but his entire community/Forks....He then imprints on Rasputin and is now forced into the role of slave/bodyguard/lover/whatever other fucked up thing....at only 17 years old.

Both Bella and Jacob similarly go through journeys that cause them to act older than they are or that are inappropriate for individuals of their age...both are isolated from their communities and families and have responsibilities that they shouldn't and most of these things happen without their consent (specifically Jacob) + also wanna add that the werewolf transformation is shit for all members and gives them the same responsibilities (forcing them to mature)...and not only causes them physical pain but changes the way they function, and has detrimental effects to them mentally, emotionally and just to their overall lives....but I am talking about Jacob here so I wanted to specify

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How am I genuinely supposed to root for Edward...like the 107 year old freak that gets with a 17 year old girl....The mentally stuck at 17 thing makes no sense and is fucking stupid... it doesn't justify the imbalance between the both of them mentally and physically...

The guy that snuck into a 17 year old girls room and watched her sleep, without her consent and before they even knew each other...

The guy that grabbed Bella's face so hard that she could barely speak....

Who consistently tries to control and manipulate Bella through out the books, Destroying Bella's engine to stop her from seeing Jacob, (and I am pretty sure her friends too), Getting Alice to kidnap Bella, so they could have a "sleepover" (stop her from seeing Jacob)...She than has to SNEAK OUT to see him, on her way back she realizes her senior citizen is following her and goes over to Jessica's...

The excuse that he just wants to protect her is so pathetic and tired, Jacob has never had a "werewolf slip up", which was one of Edwards excuses for him not wanting Bella to see Jacob. The power imbalance not just physically like I mention here, but mentally is so icky....she didn't even want to marry him at first but does so only with the deal that she gets turned. Edward treats her like a baby, infantilizes her and does not see her as a human being but as property....

This isn't to discredit the wrong doings of Jacob, because I can acknowledge said wrong doings....I just feel like Edward gets away with so much, and I also hate that chalk faced freak....

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changing jasper's confederate backstory to fix twilight but refusing to do anything similar for jacob is weird. there's no nuance, you're just really weird and probably have bad takes about most media you engage with. you can headcanon the white, sparkly, southern vampire for your guilt-free personal fantasies but can't recognize that jacob's character was equally if not more affected by smeyer's blatant racism? loser behavior tbh

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Edwards "Self-Awareness" + Power Imbalances

Ive seen people online defend Edward (for a multitude of reasons) by pointing out his "self awareness". "He knows he is dangerous, he knows his power over Bella..so in turn he actually isn't a creepy, perverse weirdo". Which is great if he actually did anything about said knowledge...but he doesn't (don't get me started on the shit he pulled in new moon). I get that self awareness is important but knowing your a piece of shit is only productive if you plan on doing shit to change but he does not want to...cause he is quote a "selfish creature". This entire convo is so manipulative, and sets up a dynamic a lot more prevalent later on...

+ its also heavily implied/canon that he is like all vampires inhumanly alluring, there isn't anything natural about Bella's attraction to him (at least not entirely) , we know that him being a vampire plays a lot into the both of them developing such WEIRDLY CLOSE and CO-DEPENDENT relationship so quickly...to the point that Bella genuinely doesn't believe he would leave her in new moon, when Edward says to her he needs to leave she reacts first with confusion because again she can't/doesn't believe he would leave....This is to me just another example of how unequal and toxic their relationship is from the very beginning. Edward is in every way in power in his relationship with Bella. His mentally stuck at 17 thing does not make sense and changes nothing about the unfair dynamic between the both of them and doesn't quell the questionable ethics of someone as mature/old as him dating someone as immature/young as Bella. and because of said immaturity and naivety you can't expect the decisions she makes and the things she so adamantly fight for to be good or right...ig. IN conclusion this just all ties to my opinion that Bella turning is tragic...and that Edward and Bella are everything but good together...

Another long rant....I swear this saga and the books are all I think about in my spare time. Let me know if I sound stupid.

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lowkey fucking hate twilight, genuine hate love relationship with it…cause wtf is that ending..

Me watching Jacob involuntarily imprint on Range Rover…knowing he is now shackled to the decaying colonizing racists that destroyed the lives of his community and his best friend/true love and his free will and life forever lost to the demon baby, meaning he can never move on and LIVE LIKE A NORMAL TEENAGE BOY…

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The way people demonize Jacob and do everything they can to diminish his complexity or any of his redeeming qualities in hopes of explaining why Edward is better (the "right choice) or just how Jacob is shitty and you shouldn't like him... Im used to people online missing nuance or just ignoring it when its come to certain characters...but most of the criticism revolving Jacobs character is just so fucking stupid.

The imprinting - Stated multiple times not a fucking choice, Jacob States how much he hates it. The idea of losing control or at least just autonomy, I was genuinely baffled when people online managed to shit on him for something he literally can't fucking control. His disdain for imprinting is a lot more prevalent in the books or at least just explained. A lot of his fights with Bella about Edward are about her potentially losing herself to become a vampire. and The sacrifices of which she will be making if she turns into a vampire. His immaturity in comparison to pasty white disco ball - Is he immature yes, but he is also 16 years old and that pasty tampon is 107 I think....It makes more sense for Jacob to struggle to be as mature because he isn't an adult, he is a minor. I know that Edward is supposed to be mentally stuck at 17 but wtf does that mean like really explain...maturity is something learnt through experience, cognitive development etc. The werewolf transformation is also insinuated to not just affect them physically but mentally. Its more than just the ability to shape shift. It changes the nature of which they fucking function. Regardless of whether you ship Edward an Bella or just like Edward there is a prevalent power imbalance...He is controlling and overbearing..he isn't young or youthful he has "lived", he acts like An adult and treats his peers and especially Bella as if she is younger. There relationship isn't equal.

anyway, long redundant probably incorrect rant, I just wanted to defend Jacob...