Summary: You’ve grown up your whole life being Seth Clearwaters best friend, but what happens when he changes, and you’re now torn between worlds and wolves
Pairing: Seth Clearwater x f!reader
Includes: Fluff, angst, suggestive
My story isn’t like many, I’m Billy blacks daughter…..well I’m his adopted daughter but her never treated me as such, he always made me feel just like any of his other children, maybe even had a bit of a soft spot for me, Jacob was practically the best brother ever to me, we are the same age so he always took me around to hang out with his friends, whether it be just hanging out or at bonfires
That’s how I met Seth when we were little, it was a big rez bonfire and Billy and sue were chatting and Seth was peeking out from behind her legs and I was peeking behind Billy’s wheelchair, I giggled when our eyes met and the rest of the night we ran around playing together
Ever since then we’ve been inseparable, everyone accepted me as part of the family, it all started when Billy and Charlie were watching a game and having a barbecue
It was a fall evening and while they were inside munching on ribs and preoccupied by the game, a rapid knock came from the door of the Balcks house
Billy went to open the door thinking it could be anyone just to stop by to join them but instead he’s meet with a woven basket at the doorstep with a little baby girl swaddled in a white blanket, her soft babbling immediately clenched at Billy’s heart and he knew he would be the one to raise her as his own
That brings me to now, me and Jake had our friend group and Bella Swan moved back so he was head over heels to make an excuse to see her whenever he could
Tonight we were having a big supper out at the Clearwaters and I was beyond excited, I never knew if it was because I was thrilled to be with my best friend or that maybe there was another underlining reason why only Seth could make my heart feel so calm yet excited at the same time
I brush it to the side as I pull on my camo hoodie and a pair of black leggings, I hear Jake honk the horn of the truck wanting me to hurry up, I quickly spray the vanilla perfume that Seth had gotten me for my birthday, pulling on my dark brown uggs and running out of the house to my awaiting father and brother
“Well don’t you look awfully pretty for just a tribe supper” dad said nudging my arm
“What? No i….i just wanted to look nice is all” I said as Jake pulled out of the drive way and we made our way to the Clearwaters
Some kind of ghost by black rebel motorcycle club played gently over the radio as we fell into a comfortable silence
Pulling up to Seth’s the place was already humming with joy and a semblance of family, hopping out I jog over to Seth where he’s sat on a log around the fire
I hold my hands over his eyes from behind and I notice Leah smirking from across the fire where she’s sat with Sue and Harry
“Hmmm I’m smelling vanilla so it must be my pretty best friend” I giggle as my heart leapt and I sat next to him and hes quick to pick me up and sit me in his lap
He’s had a major growth spurt recently, making him a bit more muscular and a lot taller, but I’m not complaining because now I could perfectly curl up against his chest as we watched the fire together
“I missed you” he sighs as he runs his warm hand up and down my arm
“Awe you’re so cute Seth” Embry teases as he sits next to us with a burger in his hand
“Shut it Embry, let them live in their little bubble” Leah says and Harry and Sue chuckle, I look up at Seth and he’s a blushing mess, sure he was my best friend and this big buff guy but he was always so easy to fluster
“Come on I’m hungry, let’s get some food and away from these jackals” he takes my hand and we walk over to the tables covered in varying food but as we moved around the table picking up food I could still feel his warmth enveloping me and it felt like home
But that’s how best friends feel…..right?
“You’ve been awfully quiet after Embry teased us” Seth says as the party was dying down more as more of the older people start to leave one by one
“Just….im just tired” I make an excuse because I can’t make sense of these feelings and thoughts I feel towards him, he’s my best friend but every time I see him this feeling in my chest just gets stronger and stronger
“You can stay with me tonight! We can have a sleepover” he perks up at the thought, we’ve had millions of sleepovers and he was always thrilled every chance he got to have me stay the night
“Yeah I’d like that” he takes my hand and we walk over to where our parents are sat chatting
“Dad I’m gonna stay with Seth tonight if that’s okay” all three of them give eachother knowing looks
“Yeah that’s fine, but no funny business young lady” he says and I almost burst from the seams
“Dad! Oh my god” I cover my face as they laugh and I feel Seth’s hand squeeze mine
“Come on bunny” he didn’t use the nickname much but when he did it always settled me, he first called me bunny when we were kids, playing out in the mud and a white bunny came running past us, he said it looked like me and from then that was my nickname
He led me inside and straight to his room, it wasn’t huge but it was so cozy, his plaid brown comforter, the walls a light brown, a book case cover in random books and decor like dreamcatchers and figurines of wolves, they were always his favorite, he turns on the lamp that excludes a warm hue across the room as I sit on the bed
He rummages through his drawers and pulls out a grey t shirt for me and a pair of plaid pj shorts I always left here for nights like this
“Here you go, I’ll let you change in here” as he turns to leave I grab his arm and my knees go weak as I feel his muscles flex
“Wait…..we’ve been friends forever….you can stay” for a split second I saw a twinkle in his eye and I had to keep from giggling like a little girl
“Yes Seth you can stay” he awkwardly moves to sit on the bed trying to look anywhere but me as I pulled off my hoodie then my leggings but I could feel his eyes practically burning through me and I can’t help but smile
I put on the pjs and crawl onto the bed and he’s as red as a tomato
“See not a big deal” I say running my hand down his back and he jumps up from the bed
“My turn I guess” he says giddy, he pulls his jacket off, followed by his shirt and he looks like he’s been sculpted by the gods
“What? I can’t appreciate my best friend?” I joke and he continues to unbuckle his belt letting his jeans hit the floor, he pulls on sweatpants and crawls under the covers next to me
Now laying face to face as we just look at eachother, I run my hand through his hair playing with the ends
“Can I ask you something?” I ask feeling my heart speed up
“Is this how best friends are suppose to feel and act with eachother?” I practically whisper out as I continue to curl his long black hair around my fingers
“I don’t know……you’re the only girl best friend I’ve ever had” his hand came up to my hip gently stroking his thumb up and down
“The others seem to know something we don’t, with all the jokes they make” his brown eyes soften and I could melt
“Maybe they’re just jealous of how close we are and the bond we have” he adds, the urge in me grows strong to get closer but the door swings open and we jump apart, sitting up seeing Leah and Jake standing there
“Sorry to interrupt but Jake wanted to say bye” Leah smirks, she was always like an older sister to me
“Uhhh yeah dad and I are heading out now, night sis” Jake says awkwardly as he rubs the back of his neck
“Umm okay, drive safe, night Jake” I felt like we just got caught but we weren’t even doing anything
“Night guys” Leah smiles as she closes the door and we both let out a sigh and lay back down, I turn my back to him and he pulls me to his chest wrapping his arm around me
“Goodnight bunny” he whispers into my hair
“Night Seth” I felt content in his arms like I was always meant to be here
It’s been a week since what almost happened between Seth and I, I didn’t really think it was that big of a deal, I mean we’ve been through everything together but slowly he’s barely been responding to my texts and when I call the house they’ve been saying he’s under the weather and that k shouldn’t stop by
And I can’t help but think…..did I make him uncomfortable, did I ruin everything we had, did I lose my best friend
After another unanswered call I hang up the phone on the wall and sigh
“Everything okay honey?” Dad asks as he rolls into the kitchen
“I don’t know, I think I ruined everything”
“I……me and Seth had a moment I guess, I thought everything was fine but he’s been cutting me out, even Sue and Harry have been saying I shouldn’t come by, I can’t be without him dad he’s my…..he’s my best friend” I hang my head feeling torn, I didn’t wanna disrespect their wishes to leave it alone, or to see for myself what was going on with the one person I really needed
“Look im sure he’s is just sick, that boy would never mean to hurt you, he looks at you like you hung the moon”
“No he doesn’t, you’re just saying that so I don’t go over there”
“I’m serious, just give it some time kid I’m sure you’ll both be back to sleepovers and walks on the beach in no time” he pats my arm as he leaves back to the game with Charlie
I tried to brush it off but I had a nagging feeling in the back of my head that I need to go there, I can’t even talk to Jake about this, I don’t know what’s gone on with him either, he’s cut his hair and got a tattoo and barely talks to me
I grab my jacket and head out, I took the truck and drove down to the Clearwaters, I never felt nervous pulling up to their place but now I didn’t know what was awaiting me, if I’d even be welcomed
I wring my hands as I walk up to the front door and knock, my heart thrumming as I hear footsteps and the door opens, it’s Sue and her smile fades when she sees it’s me
“Y/n what’re you doing here, we told you he’s sick and we don’t want you catching it”
“I…..did I do something wrong? He’s been sick before and I’ve always come to see him” her eyes soften and she sighs
“No sweetheart it’s just really complicated and we wanted to keep you safe”
“Safe from what, first Jake does a complete 180 and now my best friend won’t talk to me and it’s killing me, I need him Sue” I know I sounded completely desperate but this hole in my chest could only ever be filled by Seth
“I’m sorry sweetie, it’s just not a good time”
“But I…..” she closes the door before I can even say another word and that tight feeling in my chest worsens, I hang my head in defeat as I walk back to the truck and drive down to La Push beach, hoping it’ll help clear my head and ease the darkness on my heart
The weather is cloudy as usual, on days that would rain Seth would always come get me and we’d play around the beach, writing in the sand, him chasing after me, sometimes even sitting in the tree line when the rain would get heavy and just lean against each other waiting it out
I walk along the sand huffing when I sit against a piece of drift wood, I didn’t have many bad memories of this beach because I always had my friends, I had Seth, but now I’m alone, all my friends have dissapeared, my brothers always gone, the elders are obviously keeping something from me
Maybe they were finally realizing that I didn’t fit in, that Billy shouldn’t have taken me in
While I’m deep in my self deprecating thoughts I hear cheerful screams coming from the cliffs, I look up and see people jumping off, they’re moving so fast I can barely make them out but guessing from the size of the group it’s all my “friends”
Wanting to just talk to them, to just see them I decide to hike up there, it’s a steep walk but I’m determined to get to the bottom of this, if my thoughts were true
I finally manage to get over the hardest part and back onto flat ground, weaving my way around pine trees I hear faint hushed voices, frantic even
I get closer and closer expecting to see the group there but when I move around the last tree to the edge of the cliff it’s desolate, not a single soul and I feel my heart drop, they left, they saw me coming and purposefully left
I walk quickly to the edge of the cliff thinking maybe they went to the lower ledge but there’s nobody there either
I fall to my knees and just let the emotions and despair wash over me, why were they treating me like this
“What did I do wrong” I cry as the tears continue to stream down my cold face, the world feels like it’s turning on me and I can’t handle it, I fall to the ground in a crumpled heap, curling my legs up to my chest
I felt so cold inside, like something was being torn out of me, I’ve lost friends in the past, from just drifting apart but it never felt like this, god why does it hurt so much
My tears lull me to sleep and I can’t even bring myself to care that I’m in the forest, maybe it’ll take all my pain away one way or another
Billy is at the door of the little red house watching for his daughter to come back, he knows where his son is but y/n has been gone all day, it’s the middle of the night now and still no call, nothing
Jake emerges from the trees and walks towards the house exhausted from the day of patrol
“Thank god you’re back” Billy sighs alerting Jake
“Yeah, is everything alright?”
“Have you seen your sister?” The memory of having to run away before she saw they at the cliffs plays over in his mind and it kills him a bit to have to do that to her, he knew how much she was struggling with losing everyone to the pack, but he literally couldn’t tell her
“Last time I saw her was probably noon out at the cliff”
“She hasn’t been home all day, she won’t respond to my calls, I’m worried Jake, she’s never done this before”
“It’ll be okay dad, I’ll get the pack and we’ll look for her”
Jake shifts and howls out as he runs back into the dense forest as the moon shines high above
“Jake what’s going on?” He hears Sam in his head
“Y/ns missing, we need to find her”
“Everyone spread out and look, she could be anywhere” Sam orders and there’s a silent agreement through the one stream of consciousness
Something in my chest was guiding me, leading me through the trees and bushes and it felt right to follow it, bringing me right back to the cliffs where we had to leave her
God I missed her so much, having to lie to her was torture, and especially after the moment we had I knew she was thinking this was all her fault, I know how she thinks but with Sam’s gag order I had no choice, and I’d do anything to protect her
I catch her sent on the breeze and it’s even stronger as a wolf, her warm vanilla and pine made me shudder in delight
But when I got to her she was curled up on the cold hard ground, with tear streaks down her pretty cheeks
“I found her” I say to the others and they all come running from all corners of the forest, giving me time to just admire her
I huff nudging her with my nose, not being able to contain the painful whine that left me, so looked so lost and broken and in the cause
I lay down circling my body completely around her easily, to keep her warm, I breath in her scent as I nuzzle my snout against her neck hoping she’ll wake up, that the elements haven’t gotten to her
The others get here and I can’t find it in me to leave her or let the others touch her as they’ve all shifted back to humans
“Seth we need to get her home she’s freezing” Leah said hoping to convince me, I whine again but let Jake pick her up, we all follow him back to the Blacks house to make sure everything is okay
Sam looks at me, seeing how painful this is for me
“Do you think you have enough control?” He asks and my heart leaps
“Yes Sam, please I need to be with her” he nods his head and I’m running to the house so fast I thought I might fall, I barge in not caring to knock
“Seth……it’s good you’re here boy, she’s been needing you” Billy says as the three of us watch over her, laid on the couch covered in blankets infront of the fire place
