Lonely

[rosieretriever]

Well shit

Things were great with her.

She was beautiful and so fucking cute and flirt

Shy, understanding, and has the entire ocean in her eyes.. I love blue eyes. Her hair was always perfect and she wanted to do shit

But there’s always a catch

She, like the others, wasn’t over her ex completely

And she for some reason let it get to her a month into our relationship and two weeks into the official one.

So she still wanted to be friends and talk a lot but I simply told her that I just couldn’t do that

Bc I had experienced that before. Where I’m talking to my crush while being forced into the friend zone with the POTENTIAL to be in a deeper relationship. It hurt every second into it

So I told her that if she ever happened to want me again, to hit me up.

I want that day to come

Bc while having her in my life I was happy to wake up every morning

School was easy

Life was simple

I had energy everyday and I was filled with morivation.

I was excited for the future.

Now everything sucks again. And obiously so because I’m in this dumbass app again.

Ugh

Megan I want you back

I love you so much 💙

I’m a bigger nobody without you.

Without you there’s no point to my life.

[my-bundle-of-thoughts]

“In you, I found and lost myself.”

— Annedi Bergsma

[rosieretriever]

Aye this is great

She’s reallly reEAAALLY pretty and she’s so chill

I’m love with her laugh her smile her hair her eyes her body her everything

I don’t want to get all caught up and have nothing happen buT UGHHHH ITS seems to be going well so far 💙

She makes me forget all the shit I’ve been through recently

She also has anxiety and is shy but we can actually relate there and understand each other on a whole diff level

And I’m able to wake up in the morning willing to live my life and enjoy it too

Things are beginning to line up.

[teenagecrush]

[arabwife]

Understand that even an “understanding heart” grows tired of being understanding and never understood.

[dailypsychologyfacts]

10 Signs You’re Being Manipulated | psych2go 

[time-forchxnge]

Hey, love watching these as much as any nerd but wow why does this describe my mother? And brother? And stepfather?

[britts-galaxy-brain]

!IMPORTANT!

[thevaudevilledemon]

Reblogging so I can see it later, and in case any of my followers wish to see it.

[peachsandcreams]

[thegoodvybe]

[rosieretriever]

That’s it.

I’m done!! I’m fuckigm done!!!!

I’ve been chasing you for two years now. You’ve led me on numerous times, ESPECIALLY recently. You’ve sent me down to the worse times I’ve ever been in in my life. You keep being indecisive about me bc you keep considering the other guys. Why would I ever want to be in that? You placed me into this area where I have to fight against them to win you over in this invisible competition. You were going to Fucking TEST with me with dates!?!? You reFUSE to stop hurting me. I have the BEST FUCKING INTENTIONS A N Y. O T H E R GUY WILL EVER HAVE IN YOUR ENTIRE L I F E.

Your ex only refused to change and become a better person. Three times in a row. AND HE CAME BACK DEPRESSED and yet he was still a reason why you stopped your feeling s for me.

THEY ALL JUST WANTED TO FUCK YOU

And all I wanted was cute dates(picnics, walks, movies, everyTHING), to give you flowers everyday, love you unconditionally. I... how is this not enough????

In the beginning of my feelings I was called a creep. I was shamed and looked down just bc I was hurt bc you liked someone else.

Then comes recently where you let those people who liked you get in the way between us....?

All the stars could’ve lined up.

Your family is fucking great. You play games and we share lots of interests. We enjoy drum cores together, we love the same color and weather...

Your personality is what hit it off for me. You’re so fucking corky and I love it. I love you hair smmmmmmm, your voice is beautiful, your hands when you drive, your lips... ugh,

But you still seem to lead me on and then shoot me down.

WHY DO TOU DO THIS WHEN IT COULD WORK OUT PERFECTLY

What’s the issue?? What’s wrong with me?????

But

I can’t keep doing this anymore. I’m giving you by the end of 2018 to get with me or don’t. From then on I will not chase you for love. If you want me you fucking tell me. If there’s A N Y KIND of interest towards me. You. Tell. Me.

You already failed to do that before.

I can’t keep staying in this world where control my every emotion and mood.

I was fine before you started liking me, then I dropped my walls for you and you stepped in for a night, then abandoned me. You abandoned me when I set everything to rubble for you.

You seem to only want me as far as your best friend anyways...

How was he different? How was he better?

Ugghhhhjj.

Gn.

[femruri]

[theselfcarelifestyle]

Sometimes you don’t get what you want, because you deserve better.

[rosieretriever]

I LOVE how they always choose me AFTER their first/second/THIRD/FOURTH doesn’t work out.

But when they do, they’re absolutely in love.

[rosieretriever]

If she’s talking about him B

I will face the deepest depression I’ve ever gone through.

However if she’s talking about me

I will be completely free of depression and sadness. I will be truely happy.

Why is it that I let her do this to me?

[rosieretriever]

yOu kEeP hUrTiNg mE

[rosieretriever]

It hurts, to know you love talking to someone else so much that it boosted your mood and made you happy.

It hurts that I couldn’t do that.

Even though I was the one that tried that hardest, that suffered the most to attempt to achieve that.

[rosieretriever]

I’m sorry I couldn’t be your favorite

I’m sorry I suck at talking

I’m sorry I’m not outgoing

I’m sorry I’m not attractive

I’m sorry I’m not enough

[anxietyproblem]