your smile makes my heart explode!

◆CARRD◆ ♥︎Id LOVE to be tagged in any Shadouge, Kurahi, or nonshippy Shadow, Rouge, Kurama, or Hiei content you see!!♥︎ 🌙🌙🌸 { Lo/Lov Fae/Faer Ro/Rose Vi/Vix Di/Devi (or any pronouns) Genderfluid | Bi Lesbian Ace | 26 y/o | May 19 | Artist } Hewwo you can call me Rouge or Kurama! Im obsessed with a variety of things (mainly video games) and shadouge and kurahi are my major special interests that consume me in brain, heart, and soul :3 my other blogs are: @rougeyrose (art blog) @rougelabatte (fickin blog) @shadouge (ship blog) @thekingofthieves (kurama ask blog) @reikai-records (yyh frame collection blog) @dawn-hikari (wip pokemon irl blog) @rubyllusions (wip blog for fanfic) @bi-lesbian (positivity & explanations) @les-bi-cons (pride icon request blog) @aphrodolite (love spam blog) @locketknife (whump, yandere, god complex blog) B♡NUS: my girlfriend is over at @ashtwinproject22 (general/main blog), @mobius-prime (sonic analysis blog), and @mid-knife-crisis (whump blog)! yall should absolutely go follow her bc shes wonderful and sweet and cute and smart and (goes on with a million compliments bc theyre true and also shes practically tsundere about me complimenting her so i gotta tease her a bit uwu) ♡

[rouge-the-bat]

💖 Carrd 🖤

♥︎♡ old url: starfaerry ♡♥︎

♥︎♡ ~ my things i wanna spotlight ~ ♡♥︎

yu yu jukebox ♡ reikai-records

kurama ask blog ♡ yyh/kurahi playlist

kurama stimboard ♡ yyh hcs

♥︎♡ you can tip me if youd like! ♡♥︎

cashapp: $RougeyRose

paypal: @ rougeyrose

important: do not bring up any anti vs proshipping stuff up to me in asks or otherwise, csa tw for these two posts. do not bring me up in shipcourse in the slightest. respect fucking csa victims wishes for fucks sake.

[molabuddy]

the insane experience of missing a fictional character . like you can always go back and reread the book , replay the game , rewatch the show or movie , you can always go back & see them , but you can never experience them & their story for the first time again . its absurd to miss them because they'll always be there , but you'll miss when there were still new things for them to say .

for a small time they were real & growing and changing and you hung onto every new word, but now all they can do is repeat the same story forever&ever & they're not real anymore because you know everything they're going to do. & you miss them. its fucked man...

[molabuddy]

in this way fanworks are like necromancy

[sawed-on-shotgun]

I have been in multiple situations where a friend group I'm not so familiar with starts making jokes about being into weirdo pervert stuff and there is a slight edge of competition to who is The Most Freakish I know for a goddamn fact that I have everyone beat in the pervert department but I can't say anything because they're probably just talking about light BDSM at most and I like things that are complete social suicide in 90% of spaces

[sawed-on-shotgun]

like oh when you like puppyplay and choking its subversive and edgy but when I talk about getting my sexual awakening at 8 years old from the really fucking weird plant vore sequence in the third ice age movie it's WEIRD and EMBARRASSING i see how it is,

[sawed-on-shotgun]

oh so this post stops getting notes when I make that addition, i see how it is,

[redstonedust]

when you think about it a rollercoaster is probably safer than a car. i mean you crash any vehicle going over 60mph and youre likely to be gravely injured so id rather be in one thats stuck in a tested loop and not driven by my road-rage prone mother. this is why im about to make a bold new proposition for public transport,

[redstonedust]

and you may say "if you want transport that goes on a predetermined on rails route you want trains" and thats true i do want trains. but i want trains that do sick loops and make me vomit. its an improvement for nobody and it would be awesome.

[left-lateral-incisor]

[zillychu]

hey guys check it out I can do a frontside 180 with my stomach haha

[zillychu]

hopital

[zillychu]

just 4 u. I braved Phone Art while on Turbo Morphine (I think they called it dilaudid. it's Turbo Morphine 2 me)

oh ur super flexible? yeah well lmao can u do THIS??? (throws up and dies)

[zillychu]

u know in retrospect my stomach shrimping wasn't even the worst part so far. it was the tube that went to third base with my floppy ass cardia. through my sinuses. just straight up cockwarmed a silly straw all the way thru my esophagus for 2 days

[zillychu]

I'm a fool. a fucking fool. an absolute clown. do u know what happened minutes after I posted this.

I found out my body cannot handle opioids.

my muscles lock tf up and deliver the worst pain imaginable in every direction at once. I can't describe it. it's not just pain it's the sensation of every disgusting awful flu ache you've ever experienced in your life condensed into one square inch of your body, all over your body.

do u know what alternatives hospitals have to opioids? HA, HAHAHA

they don't

[zillychu]

GUESS WHOSE HOSPITAL IS GETTING HIT BY A TORNADO

[zillychu]

made the saving throw 😎 not today, Satan

[zillychu]

Y'ALL WILL NOT FUCKING BELIEVE WHAT BIOLOGICAL PROCESS STARTED LITERALLY THE DAY BEFORE SURGERY

[zillychu]

THERE'S ANOTHER FUCKING TORNADO

[zillychu]

I'd love to say this has been an educational experience, but unfortunately I run on Spite and simply vow to torture my blorbos even more now

which is saying something while being in the Vivisect the Half Dead Child fandom

[zillychu]

I LIVED BITCH!!

Stomach is back where it should be, I got some guts stapled and skin glued, and recited Dexter's Lab every time the nurses mixed powdered medicine in with my applesauce. I'm bored of drinking ramen and watching Resident Alien reruns so I'm gonna peruse the tags!

I cannot tell you how many times I unironically gazed into the middle distance and thought this

I've learned things can be true and also a shit post at the same time. unfortunately

starting to think maybe I've been saying this too much all my life and karmic justice just backed up in the pipes before exploding. still gonna obliterate those twinks tho. get back here Siffrin I'm not done with you yet

this guy is getting the true moral of this story

I HAVEN'T IN YEARS so either the AO3 curse has a disconcerting half-life, or it extends to discord servers and Google docs. both are horrifying and deserve a federal grant for further investigation

you and me both! isn't nature beautiful

you've made me realize my most recent fic in my gdocs is in fact the darkest thing I've written. so maybe all the ppl in the tags claiming AO3 curse aren't as wrong as I've been thinking they are

god's a bitch and I'm into omegaverse

I feel like I should get a medal for enduring something so fucked up that randos on the internet think I must be lying. yeah bro me too

did I stutter

[zillychu]

honestly the worst part about all of this is the fact that I can't watch Murderbot. I want to so bad. but I refuse until I'm feeling halfway alive again

fuck life. I give myself lemons. AO3 on hospital Wi-Fi

you do not. like emphatically, I don't think that's a great idea

I'd say I'm sorry but tbh this seems very on theme for ISAT so

THANK you I need everyone to remember I'm a gamer first, god's favorite crusty sock in the bottom of the drawer second

the ARE a lot of people in the tags calling me Jesus Christ

I'll admit that one's on me. when I started being unable to eat anything, my first thought was not "stomach straight up saying the abdomen's haunted"

I hate that I was actually considering getting white haired anime boy haircut right before all this happened. could you fucking imagine

don't carbon date me like this

Rascal Flatts was right. life is a highway and it's riding me all night long

[zillychu]

the abortion was a success! (/silly)

they snipped and stitched some things, yanked the whole sucker back down UNDER my diaphragm where it belongs, and did this thing called a fundoplication where they wrap and stitch the top of the stomach around the bottom of the esophagus. it’s supposed to help keep that little bastard in its assigned seating

what I had was a called a combination sliding hiatal hernia (stomach wants uppies) and paraesophageal hiatal hernia (stomach wants uppies but through a different hole in the diaphragm bc it’s not like other girls, making it look like it’s trying to phone home), along with combined organoaxial and mesenteroaxial gastric volvulus (stomach flops around like a dead fish and twists itself shut like a bread bag AND goes upside down). the former usually ends up cutting off blood flow and starts necrotizing the stomach (very dangerous), but I was extremely lucky that hadn’t happened yet!

the hernias are uncommon but not terribly rare. the stomach flopping around? that’s rare. the fact that I had both of these at the same time, where they both did ALL AVAILABLE BAD THINGS POSSIBLE?

to put it gently, according to one resident, I had surgeons fighting over me. pictures were taken. I had like six separate groups of medical professionals coming into my room regularly. my surgeon shook my hand like I was a celebrity. it was honest to god hilarious.

all in all, I spent 3 months thinking I was being a huge wimpy diaper baby, only to find out I narrowly evaded death bc my friend Moth told me to go to the ER right away, and it triggered a panic attack big enough to make me do just that. the poor ER doc came in sweating with the initial CT scans like “I’m gonna be real with you I’m not entirely sure I know what I’m looking at but it’s giving INCREDIBLE Emergency Surgery”

I’m upset I don’t get to birth an alien baby, but considering how it was Rapturing into my chest, it probably would have been a chest burster anyway. I want to kiss Miss Xenomorph as much as the next guy but I think I’ll just stick to sending prime numbers out into space until one returns my booty call

EDIT: btw I love the dog jokes lmao I had no idea volvulus was common in dogs! don't worry I'm not a werewolf (unfortunately), I simply have hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos, which makes all my connective tissue soft and stretchy. So we're waaaay more prone to having organs (and joints) slip n slide around and do things they REALLY aren't supposed to. But I wish I was a werewolf even more now. when will it be my turn

[zillychu]

haha that was a fun near-death experience glad it's over though GUESS WHO JUST GOT FIRED

[zillychu]

ARE YOU KIDDING ME THERE'S ANOTHER FUCKING TORNADO

[zillychu]

my clowns in hellsite, I have no idea how my house is intact when there are trees uprooted by my mailbox. if I had less staples in me I'd bend over and moon the sky

I'm not gonna keep dragging this post on I swear I'm just still on pain meds (I can handle higher doses of weaker opioids for some reason! yippee!) so I'm gonna look through the tags one more time and address a couple things I've seen often

- no, I wasn't doing anything in particular to fuck up my guts. sometimes our organs just Tony Hawk Pro Skater 2 right through the polygons. don't worry about it, it's rare and you get a fun story to tell ur friends

- yes, I was fired because I missed too many days nearly dying and requested more to recover from nearly dying. what can I say I'm a needy unreasonable bitch

- yes it's pretty lame to do this to someone right as they stumble off the operating table and get dumped with expensive medical bills. yes this is legal. yes I'm filing for unemployment. yes I would leave mouse poops in the CEO's coco rice krispies if given the chance. love and peace ✌️

- it's cool my dudes I live in the Midwest, basements are an evolutionary aspect of natural selection here. we've also got Steve Templeton I'm pretty sure he fights the tornadoes off himself

- Murderbot TV series good :)

- don't worry guys I know the original artist for Life is a Highway. Lightning McQueen

- there are a LOT of you offering advice on how to avoid the torment nexus. while having a Siffrin pfp. just an observation

- who the fuck is Job

please laugh. every drop of joy I squeeze from this karmic fart parade is another finger shoved firmly up god's withered asshole

can everyone stop being funnier than me for 2 minutes

I only fucked someone once and it was bc they replied to my reply on their comment to the fic I filled for their kink meme prompt on Livejournal. it was vore. and my name's not Jesus

no I'm going I want to ask Joshua how he got that gay

can y'all stop comparing me to deities I'm already on thin ice here with one or possibly more of them

no this is Patrick

I'm sorry to disappoint but I only have 2 weed smoking girlfriends. if anyone lets me borrow one of theirs tho it would really help the Make A Wish Foundation. I beg them once a week and they keep telling me I'm "not a child" and "already got two wishes fulfilled"

take a ticket and get in line if you're gonna make an attempt on my life, you goddamn heathen

you can't give me this after I was just accused of being Dave Strider

DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE

[worldheritagepostorganization]

World Heritage Post

[dtlk]

well that’s it. doomsday is coming. i’ve been slacking on my checklist, need to get back to it lol

[dtlk]

btw remember that home generates individual pokemon trackers SERVER SIDE which will make it extremely difficult if not impossible for anyone to develop a method to do bank -> home transfers after this shutdown. you will NOT be able to just emulate a transfer with hacking tools after this. miracles can happen but absolutely assume that this is a permanent change and get any transfers you need done BEFORE the deadline. you should NOT rely on believing that there will be some way to do this after the deadline

[kragehund-est]

some people can't fathom "rudeness" as a concept outside of identity, power, and oppression dynamics. so you point out they're being assholes and they start doing identity math at you to prove they're justified.

like sure, it's true that you are technically "punching up" in terms of that framework. but we're just hanging out rn, so why are you punching at all? you aren't challenging any power structures, you're just being mean to my friend kayla who has been nothing but lovely this evening.

[softness-and-shattering]

"Punching up" is a concept from comedy anyway, its not a universal rule. Comedy has to have a punchline, so make it the people in power.

A discussion, a hangout, a barbecue doesnt need a punchline doesnt need any punching. Lower your fists. Try a differrent method of connecting to someone. Youre not immune to being an asshole, no one is.

[tboy-cock]

i do not understand people who say "dont date your friends." who are you supposed to date then? do you just find someone and try to date them?? and you dont even know them???? alloromantics are perplexing man wtf is this

[fauxtasm]

they should invent a term for shipping were I don't think they should be in a romantic relationship however I believe they are each others parasite and separating them is not an option

[gyrovagi]

the problem with employment is it gives you money to purchase video games but it takes away your time to play video games. Mao spoke of this

[chipellini]

[rouge-the-bat]

*finds out that in fields of mistria you can go to the settings and turn off the "break up with everyone else when you get married" option* YOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I CAN MARRY MARCH AND STILL BE POLY !!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉

[xenogears]

Shout out to the (many) times I got called an elitist gatekeeper for saying that the only real way to fully understand a work of fiction is to experience it firsthand and that summaries and reviews are not a replacement for that

[the-lincyclopedia]

Me, reading the first 80% of the post: What do you mean, "experience it firsthand"? How am I supposed to join the Hunger Games or go the Odyssey?

Me, reading the final clause of the post: Oh, you literally meant that people have to read the book/listen to the audiobook in order to fully understand it. And people got mad. Oh dear.

[fidgetyhands]

And this doesn't mean you need to read / watch / listen to absolutely everything! (not that that's remotely possible)

It's perfectly reasonable that I have decided, based on ambient cultural information, that Ready Player One will not be my jam and I'm not going to read it. What that means, though, is that I have very little information about Ready Player One. I am not an authority on Ready Player One. If there's a discussion of the character development or worldbuilding or plot structure in Ready Player One, I can listen, but I can't really contribute, because I have not read it and thus am missing quite a lot of information about it.

There are more things in the world that I am not an authority on than there are things that I am an authority on, and that's okay! I should just be honest with myself and others about it.

[rouge-the-bat]

[looking at fields of mistria mods and sees naked and huge boobs mods] not for me but not surprised to see that. yall have fun ig 👍

[sees mods that put a few girl characters in more modest clothing] TO HELL WITH YOU 🔥🔥🔥🔥

[stopoftouchingmywingsihurt]

[smallrat36wagon-deactivated2021]

LOL whos tye saultry little binch on the bottom lsft????

[foxyclock]

this post is less than 1% away from being completely incomprehensible

[grootficguy]

I saw this tweet:

and thought “ah okay, so like probably just some normal guy with a slight-to-moderate looking eccentricity about him” brother i

[cerastes]

How did Joe Rogan get Baron Ashura on his cast

[im-mender]

wait a second that's the fucker from decrease the increase

[koth-harvest-final]

[rouge-the-bat]

its funny peeking into the fields of mistria fandom occasionally and mostly seeing people portraying their farmers as either silly dorks or gentle + cottagecorey, and meanwhile the whole time ive been playing ive been formulating the idea of my farmer being a fancy little bitch that used to be extremely well off. but he did a lot of shady/manipulative shit that ended up getting them in Severe Hot Water, but just when things were getting dire she was lucky enough to hear about the land up for grabs in mistria, and so they faked their death, took a small amount of what he owned, and made a new identity. tho while she never got rid of her pompous attitude, he did start out acting friendly and helpful enough to get integrated into the town and gain peoples trust for their advantage. but she did gradually become more and more compassionate and caring towards the people there until they were like family <3

unfortunately starting out farming for that little prissy bitch had him constantly trying to suppress how pissy she felt from her fancy clothes getting all dirty + missing a lot of their stuff they had to leave behind + frustration at having ended up in this situation at all n such. thankfully tho she had a lot of fun + stress relief from fucking with march all the time after meeting him and immediately going "ohhh i need to piss this bitch off." switching between snark/teases, overt faux friendliness (like telling olric "oh dont worry me and march are practically best friends already :)" in front of march and watching her try to light my farmer on fire with his glare), and playful flirting. neither of them expected that theyd end up falling for each other eventually LOL