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should I swear less?

should I swear more?

#see luz? i used italics. i know how to work this site #doesn't have the same energy as calligraphy italics though. that was prettier

should I swear less?

speeDrunning breaYing rifht noe. Just have ing a wongrrful time. yrp

sorry I haven't posted in nine days, I saw a bird and got distracted

beautiful coloration, I don't know what species this one is

#i stole this picture. there's credits in the alt thing

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bloodied-dagger

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is this a fucking threat

bloodied-dagger

What? no no no, friend, it's a game! Disregard what's under the read more, that's not for you.

Just follow the instructions at the top to play! It's fun, I promise.

rulerzreachf5n

luz meowed at me until I gave in and made one. so. yayyyy.

look, I don't choose the birds, the birds choose me

#you have a hair noodle too? of course you fuckin do. take any oppertunity to act like you know me more than you do #you don't know me. there are a total of five people that know me and you are not one of them

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is this a fucking threat

bloodied-dagger

What? no no no, friend, it's a game! Disregard what's under the read more, that's not for you.

Just follow the instructions at the top to play! It's fun, I promise.

rulerzreachf5n

luz meowed at me until I gave in and made one. so. yayyyy.

look, I don't choose the birds, the birds choose me

#they don't have a #quote unquote #“hair noodle”#so i had to make do #or a cut ear #but i couldnt do anything about that #anyway #i know how to use these things #just know that

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is this a fucking threat

#while i agree. what thebfuck

rulerzreachf5n

Does anyone know if Luz has her own Penstagram now, or does she just use one of the Owl Lady's accounts?

rulerzreachf5n

Or, Tumblr account. They're all Penstagram to me.

Does anyone know if Luz has her own Penstagram now, or does she just use one of the Owl Lady's accounts?

#if so‚ would you please link me to her/the Owl Lady's account #i don't think i actually have her contacts adter the Owl Lady got banned again

she's so cool

#none of you know who i'm talking about. so none of you can laugh at me! foolproof #and i am a fool‚ certainly

tlirsgender

Weird peeve time. Calling lab grown gemstones “fake” is stupid because it’s the same shit just not formed naturally. An artificially grown diamond is the same shit as a natural diamond it is the exact same material bro it’s all fuckign carbon

tlirsgender

It’s carbon it’s pretty and it didn’t involve slave labor what’s not to love??? Hi I’m having geology opinions tonight apparently. And I’m right

tlirsgender

There is so much bullshit in the diamonds industry to be mad about tbh. It also ties into the bullshit of the wedding industry as a whole but we don’t have the time to unpack all that

val-ritz

not even going to lie, the day i learned i could get like 15 lab grown rubies the size of dimes for $20 is the day i spent $20 on rubies, and i have never once said to myself “man, i wish this cost $1,600 and the lives of eight children to produce”

fuckyeahmineralogy

We are a pro-lab-grown mineral blog here, not only is it massively cheaper but massively more ethical as well in many cases.

thegreenpea

another very cool lab grown gem is Moissanite. It has a 9.25 on the mohs hardness scale where diamond is a 10. Moissanote also has a 2.69 refractive index in comparison to diamond’s 2.419 and here is the difference

and the best thing about moissanite? It is all lab grown and it costs only a fraction of what diamond costs. So fuck the diamond indsutry and buy lab grown gems which cost significantly less

rubixpsyche

Also it’s just cool to think of some mad scientist lookin person doing shit against the law of the universe and making pretty gems for you. Like cmon. This shouldnt be allowed probably. But humans really be like on gOD i want some shiny an just started MAKIN em

zathechaosgod

for years people wanted alchemy, well now we have alchemy and we’re making gemstones out of it and suddenly “it doesn’t count” anymore

half-duck

@rulerzreachf5n your carbon ,I’m carbon ,we’re all carbon

?????

do you even care

How couldn't you? I'm the face of so much oppression and disgust and bold-faced malice. I'm the symbol of your trauma. What isn't there to hate?

rulerzreachf5n

Does it even matter what I feel? The damage has already been done.

bloodied-dagger

You were manipulated, my friend. Trust me, you were by and large not the only one.

He tricked you, it's what he does best, didn't you say it yourself?

Oh, and don't blame your friend Luz for my knowledge. She's not said a word to me, promise.

rulerzreachf5n

alright ha ha tumblr user bloodied-dagger, you're so cool and deceptive. have your fun.

that's not what we're talking about. I don't care whether I was manipulated or not, whether I'm a good person or not, what matters is what I've done to all of you. This isn't about me. It's about you, and your emotions. whether or not you care. and surely you do, one way or the other, either i'm a child or a soldier.

don't you care? doesn't it matter? why are you all just shrugging it off like I haven't hurt you?

bloodied-dagger

you couldn't point out the difference between a deceptive man and Steve even if the deceptive man was making you wear his mask, so I'd watch who you're calling deceptive, Hunter.

Do you think this is enjoyable for me? Trying to convince a traumatized former child soldier that he's loved and his mistakes were mistakes that have been forgiven?

And frankly, you haven't done much. So you gathered a few "wild witches", at the end of the day they're all free now.

To answer your last question, we're shrugging it off because whatever hurt that's been done has been forgiven. They way I see it, Belos made you hurt others, and once you realized what you were doing, you stopped. You weren't hurting others out of maliciousness, for all intents and purposes we can call it all an accident.

Not to mention you risked your life confronting Belos, what, three times? That's worth something to people.

I can't say much more for now. Let me leave you with this; Remember what you said to Luz right before walking into the portal back to the demon realm? All of that applies to you too, Hunter.

"You were tricked. It's what Belos does, he tricks people. If it wasn't you, it would've been someone else."

rulerzreachf5n

you don't even know me

#unless you DO #and you're just luz trying to act all edgy. which i wouldn't doubt #you don't have to infantilize me. i knew what i was doing. i have killed people. that is not something to be forgiven.

rulerzreachf5n

do you even care

rulerzreachf5n

How couldn't you? I'm the face of so much oppression and disgust and bold-faced malice. I'm the symbol of your trauma. What isn't there to hate?

rulerzreachf5n

Does it even matter what I feel? The damage has already been done.

bloodied-dagger

You were manipulated, my friend. Trust me, you were by and large not the only one.

He tricked you, it's what he does best, didn't you say it yourself?

Oh, and don't blame your friend Luz for my knowledge. She's not said a word to me, promise.

rulerzreachf5n

alright ha ha tumblr user bloodied-dagger, you're so cool and deceptive. have your fun.

that's not what we're talking about. I don't care whether I was manipulated or not, whether I'm a good person or not, what matters is what I've done to all of you. This isn't about me. It's about you, and your emotions. whether or not you care. and surely you do, one way or the other, either i'm a child or a soldier.

don't you care? doesn't it matter? why are you all just shrugging it off like I haven't hurt you?

I remember when I looked at the sunsets and was certain I could count how many I had left to see on my fingers.

Before that, I never knew if it'd be thousands or none at all. I think I preferred knowing how little I had left over the uncertainty. That way, I knew to cherish the colors while I still could. I knew exactly how much time I had left.

And then I didn't die.

I should have. I was supposed to. My life was being torn from me through my wrist. By the end of it, I don't think I was even really conscious.

But he died instead. And I lived.

And he didn't even die, either, but I didn't know that. To me, I woke up to a dead Emperor and an apocalypse I wasn't a part of. I woke up to rain that didn't boil, like it even mattered, like it wouldn't bounce off my skin anyway.

and the sunsets are yellow.

and it was torture, to look at these bright, blazing, yellow sunsets and not know if it'd be my last again.

and shit hit the fan once again, but now the apocalypse is over. and I know it's not gonna be my last. but I can't shake the feeling that i need to stare at the sun for as long as i can. i need to memorize that image because i don't know if i'll see it again.

and it's not. and I know it's not. I'm safe now and it's okay and I'm not gonna die, I've got my whole life ahead of me and I'm only like seventeen, but I can barely imagine tomorrow, let alone a future like this. I spent every day fighting to be able to see the next, and now I don't do that. I never HAD to plan past a couple days in advance. I don't know how to do that. I don't know how to conceptualize a lifetime.

what am I supposed to do when I don't fight for my life?

do I just ignore the sunsets?

they're yellow.

#unreality #ooc but uh. i dont know how to tag this. i dont know the words for these feelings #hunter toh #the golden guard #the owl house #toh #owl house #hunter noceda