A Quick Checklist on Self Exploration
Hello everyone! Today I’m going to write down some of a quick checklist of my own self exploration based on question provided by ELE on this twitter link! (https://twitter.com/xlittle_ele/status/1275847156629475328)
I will write things here in order not to spam your Twitter Timeline too much.
1. First of all, introduce yourself! What’s your name?
My name is Runa. People usually call me by that name, but some others call me Ruru, Na-chan, some call me by the name of Xiao Wei and some other more.
2. Where are you from?
From this universe; specifically, my mother’s womb.
3. Do you have any hobbies? If so, which one?
I have plenty of things that I could call as my hobbies.
I do music, specifically piano, but lately I’m trying out some other instrument as well, like kalimba/ ukulele. I like to write stories/ letters to friends/ daily journal, I like to re-arranged my room when I got the mood and time to do it, I love to watch some movies/ series and read stories/ manga as well.
4. If you could travel anywhere in the world, where will you go?
Hhm...Lemme see...I think I would love to go to Tasmania.
I personally loves to go to those minor places that people are not really put an eye to. Rather than going to those mainstream places. Partially, I want to go to Tasmania ever since I watch a Singapore drama series [Sudden] and part of the scenery in that series was taken at Tasmania. It makes me want to go there and visit the real place someday.
5. Do you believe in love at the first sight?
Hmm...Not really, actually. Maybe because I’m a person who usually fall in love after I have interacted with the person for quite some time. Maybe because I rarely deeply attracted with how someone’s physical looks, but more into the personality they have within them.
6. What’s your favourite song at the moment? If you don’t have one, what’s the last song you listened to?
I’m listening to quite a lot of Hiroyuki Sawano’s composed OST songs these days lately and also currently re-listen to Rachmaninoff piano concerto in C minor.
7. What’s your favourite food?
A lot (?) But mostly I love those salty food rather than sweet stuffs.
8. What’s the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
It is either I’m trying to remember about the dream I dream of last night, or I feel grateful that I’m still be able to stay alive today. Sometimes, I could think of some random stuffs that suddenly struck me when I’m awake in the morning.
9. Do you believe in soulmates?
Not really, but I believe that people are attracting people with the same/ similar frequencies with them, so if I want to see how my future soulmates is, I just need to mirror on myself and see how I’m living my life so far and how’s my true personality is.
10. What do you want to become in the future?
A wonderful lady artist (musician) for myself, wife for my husband and an awesome mother of two or three.
11. What’s your favorite book?
Kate DiCamillo’s The miraculous journey of Edward Tulane
All poetry books by Lang Leav
Le petite prince - Antoine de Saint-Exupery
Steal like an artist - Austin Kleon
12. Favorite Season?
Hmm...Spring time?
13. What’s the best memory you have with your friends?
Hmm..Actually I couldn’t really recall any. Maybe there was, but I’m a forgetful person, really.
14. What’s your biggest dream?
To have a peaceful and healthy (both physically and mentally) life with my beloved family and dearest people.
15. If you could change one thing about yourself, what it’ll be?
I wonder...Maybe my cowardness?
16. What’s your favorite movie?
Hmm...There are a lot too, but lemme spell out some that I could still remember the title. It’s kinda hard to name, since I’m usually more into series than movie. The Devil wears prada, Up in the air, Habibie & Ainun, Yes Man, How to train your dragon 1 & 2, Finding Mr. Right.
17. Do you have a crush on someone?
Hmm...I currently have a fiance. Does this count as one?
18. If you knew you were gonna die tomorrow, what will you do?
Write a letter and prepare parting gift for everyone. Have a good talk and convey everything that I would love to tell to my beloved dearest people surround me.
19. Do you feel proud of yourself?
Yes I do
20. What do you think is your safe place? Y’know, that place/ thing that helps you feel better when you need it the most?
Bathroom, because it gives you privacy though you are surrounded by people. I mean, it’s rare to see other people following you into bathroom right? So the sense of personal space is there in the bathroom. At least, for me personally.
21. Do you believe in ghosts?
I believe it exist in terms of frequencies. This universe is filled by various frequencies and they are unseen, but you could sometimes feel it. That’s how I define feelings, and ghosts.
22. Do you miss someone?
I miss myself, sometimes, and some people that have passed away, sometimes.
23. Do you have any pets? What are their names?
I used to have hedgehogs, but I don’t have any with me now after their death.
24. Are you a night person or a morning one?
I could say I’m a night owl. Morning doesn’t really work well for me.
25. Are you part of the LGBT community?
Nope, but I’m okay with being friend with people who are part of the LGBT community.
26. What’s your favorite video game?
Hmm...Those old games, like Fatal Frame series, La pucelle, phantom brave, disgaea, some otome games like amnesia series/ hakuoki.
27. What’s the reason you wake up every morning?
Life goes on, so yeah.
28. Do you look up to someone?
Hmm...it’s a yes and a no.
29. What’s something you’ve wanted to try for a while, but haven’t done it yet?
Go somewhere far away, enjoy tranquility and the nature, alone.
30. What’s the meaning of life for you?
It’s an endless journey of finding oneself and spreading positivity and love to people surround us.
31. Do you play any instruments?
I play mostly piano and those instruments within the same family like keyboard, electone, pianika, etc. Side: I tried ukulele, kalimba, recorder, etc.
32. What’s the most annoying thing you had to deal with?
The battle within myself,
How to deal with the society surrounds me.
33. How would you define “art”?
Wabisabi - the beauty in imperfection.
34. Do you think you’re a different person now because of quarantine and everything that happened in the world?
Not really, but I do find out how lazy I actually am after this quarantine.
How I am really a jak-of-all-trades; well, it just some self-exploration,
but to say that I’m a different person now? Nah, no! I’m still me.
35. Name one thing you hate that others love?
Those material related stuffs.
36. What do you think that happens after we die?
My soul with emerge with this universe and my physical body will blend into one to the soil. I will become frequencies and when the right moment comes, I will be born again in this universe in a different form.
37. Do you have any regrets?
I do, but I don’t want to dwell into things in the past too much as there is no way we could change the past, but I’m striving to change now to change the future instead.
38. Love or being loved?
Being loved is awesome.
39. What’s the best advice someone has ever given to you?
Marriage is not about love, because love won’t last for years,
but please keep enhancing yourself to be the best version of yourself and never forget to build consciousness within yourself. Based on that, you support each other, appreciate each other and trust each other as couple.
(Advice given by Nichiren Daishonin Buddha to his disciple, Shijo Kingo)
I really like this a lot when I stumble on this, and apparently it’s one of advice that I took dearly within my heart until now as a guidance.
40. What are you afraid of?
When I make my family upset/ something bad happen to them
41. Describe yourself in 5 words
Simplicated Jack of all trades
42. How’s your relationship with your parents/ siblings?
Very good. We never really have any toxic relationship with each other though of course we are all not perfect and there are things that we should work on for each of us.
43. Would you rather live in a big city or in a small town?
Hmm...A small town that is able to travel to a big city for a travel distance less than an hour by train. I miss my time spent when I was in Diemen. It was a nice small city near Amsterdam.
44. Have you ever been on a relationship?
Yes
45. What’s the happiest memory that comes to your mind right now?
I’m actually pretty sleepy and zombie mode right now, so I couldn’t think off any specific moment, but I think most of moments in my life is a bit bitter with lots of sweetness on it, so yeah! Those moments spent with my family are the best.
46. Do you easily trust others?
Nope. I usually have minus trust with other people other than my own core family. Even I couldn’t trust my extended family too much.
47. Have you ever dyed your hair?
Nope, but I usually try some wigs instead.
48. What’s the first thing you notice when you meet someone new?
Of course, it’s physical appearance (though I should say I don’t put much attention on physical thing) since it’s the first thing that we could see with bare eyes.
49. If you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life, which one it’ll be?
I’ll just pick one from KOKIA album. I love her so much. Any album could do, but maybe I’ll choose the best collection album since it contains more songs there LMAO
50. Tag someone to remind them how much you love and care about them...
Hmm..I will tag my sister perhaps XD The other family members of mine don’t have twitter.
51. What was your favourite toy when you were a kid?
Dolls? I forgot. ahahaha.
52. What’s your biggest pet peeve?
When people in society only judge people based on material possession they have rather than by their hearts. It annoys me so much when I encounter one.
53. If you could change one thing in the world to make it a better place, what will you do?
I don’t have any idea right now. Writer’s block.
54. Have you ever got involved with drugs/ alcohol?
Nope. Never.
55. What do you think is your aesthetic?
Hmm... All of me?
56. Do you enjoy traveling?
Yes, but sometimes not really since traveling is tiring, but it’s good to see a different scenery once in a while.
57. What’s your favorite show?
Hmm...I don’t really have one maybe?
Is anime consider as show? I don’t think so huh.
58. Are you into witchcraft?
Nope.
59. What would be your ideal gift?
Hmm...I never really have any specific desire in life, but usually I love letterset/ notebook/ fluffy stuffs/ tea/ coffee/ any aesthetic/ vintage stuffs around. I usually treasure more intangible things than tangible one, so yea.
60. Do you think you’re a good person?
It depends on how you define a good person is.
61. Are you more of an introvert or an extrovert?
I’m introvert.
62. Have you ever gone to a concert?
Yes, I did. Some classical concert and Kingdom Heart orchestra tour concert.
63. How will your ideal first date be?
When there is no drama occurs and compatibility is there, ah, with good food and tea as well.
64. Do you think there’s life in others planets?
Mayhap. Why not? I’m open to any possibilities.
65. What do you do when you feel sad?
I play/ listen to music, watch something, write something, take a good shower with favorite scented soap.
66. If you could travel back in time to another century, which one will you pick?
Hmm....The year where I’m born.
67. Do you often remember your dreams?
Yes, I do!
68. Name one thing you hate about your country
I don’t really have one.
69. If you won the lottery, what will you do with all the money?
I’ll buy a house for myself (and my future family) and another one to build a public library/ an orphanage.
70. Any guilty pleasure?
Quite a lot, actually.
