My name's Ryuuka! not the real legal one im not japanese but thats what ive been using online at least, internet safety 101 etc.
I'm a weird, tired, trans girl and have a habit of making a fool of myself on the internet, mostly here but also often on twitch.
I made this blog with the initial intent to talk about My Hobbying (3dprinting, warhammering, gunpla building), buuutt I lost the other places I used to use for stream-of-consciousness babbling, so that migrated here too and now this is just a place for babbling Nonsense.
All the places i can be found and have accounts are in the linktree in my bio but like nobody likes to click those things so imma list a couple here;
in a move that anyone except me couldve seen coming, Ive pivoted from roleplaying a catgirl online/onstream and nosedived off the deep end and become WhaleGirl! my tags on this blog are well-used though and i like calling myself a kitties catte so they'll remain unchanged :)
might be fun to make a little thread of this, if I remember:
while driving home from visiting the wife on tuesday I made a stop at an outright massive hobby store, which in one hidden corner had little spinny shelves filled with bagged, half assembled, used 'rescue' models
most of them were full squads, or mighty heroes that even used commanded a higher price tag than my wallet could commit.
but there was one...
an old terminator model, half built, with huge runner nubs and a very spotty paint job, all alone in her own little baggie for $5.
of course I took her home with me
image taken after gentle disassembly, nub cleaning, and reassembly. tonight I'm planning to try some paint stripping.
I haven't quite decided how to paint her yet. I know I want to have her be a Killteam Nemesis Operative, as I think a single terminator makes a great example of a small size NemOp, but I can't decide if I want her to join my Blood Angels of Death team, or the Wolf Scouts that I've only just started printing. maybe she should just have her own colours, and tag along with allied chapters as independent aid? much to consider,,
picture including the first of the Wolf Scouts, because I have decided they'll be her Battle-Sisters.
for their colour scheme, and hers, I've consulted with my wife @just-a-wolp. and my wife was very firm on that the scouts should be Iron Hounds chapter (though with the primary colour having a blue tone to it), and that miss $5 Rescue should be a Space Wolf.
the known wolf and by extension dogs liker chose the wolves and dogs chapters.... I love them so much for this.
ive done some priming and built a few more models, they're coming along!
just waiting on the Fenrisian Wolf to print now, then once thats assembled I'll prime all the rest at the same time and the painting can begin! I haven't really decided what kind of method I want to use get, but ive got some ideas percolating that might do something good :>
might be fun to make a little thread of this, if I remember:
while driving home from visiting the wife on tuesday I made a stop at an outright massive hobby store, which in one hidden corner had little spinny shelves filled with bagged, half assembled, used 'rescue' models
most of them were full squads, or mighty heroes that even used commanded a higher price tag than my wallet could commit.
but there was one...
an old terminator model, half built, with huge runner nubs and a very spotty paint job, all alone in her own little baggie for $5.
of course I took her home with me
image taken after gentle disassembly, nub cleaning, and reassembly. tonight I'm planning to try some paint stripping.
I haven't quite decided how to paint her yet. I know I want to have her be a Killteam Nemesis Operative, as I think a single terminator makes a great example of a small size NemOp, but I can't decide if I want her to join my Blood Angels of Death team, or the Wolf Scouts that I've only just started printing. maybe she should just have her own colours, and tag along with allied chapters as independent aid? much to consider,,
picture including the first of the Wolf Scouts, because I have decided they'll be her Battle-Sisters.
for their colour scheme, and hers, I've consulted with my wife @just-a-wolp. and my wife was very firm on that the scouts should be Iron Hounds chapter (though with the primary colour having a blue tone to it), and that miss $5 Rescue should be a Space Wolf.
the known wolf and by extension dogs liker chose the wolves and dogs chapters.... I love them so much for this.
might be fun to make a little thread of this, if I remember:
while driving home from visiting the wife on tuesday I made a stop at an outright massive hobby store, which in one hidden corner had little spinny shelves filled with bagged, half assembled, used 'rescue' models
most of them were full squads, or mighty heroes that even used commanded a higher price tag than my wallet could commit.
but there was one...
an old terminator model, half built, with huge runner nubs and a very spotty paint job, all alone in her own little baggie for $5.
of course I took her home with me
image taken after gentle disassembly, nub cleaning, and reassembly. tonight I'm planning to try some paint stripping.
I haven't quite decided how to paint her yet. I know I want to have her be a Killteam Nemesis Operative, as I think a single terminator makes a great example of a small size NemOp, but I can't decide if I want her to join my Blood Angels of Death team, or the Wolf Scouts that I've only just started printing. maybe she should just have her own colours, and tag along with allied chapters as independent aid? much to consider,,
might be fun to make a little thread of this, if I remember:
while driving home from visiting the wife on tuesday I made a stop at an outright massive hobby store, which in one hidden corner had little spinny shelves filled with bagged, half assembled, used 'rescue' models
most of them were full squads, or mighty heroes that even used commanded a higher price tag than my wallet could commit.
but there was one...
an old terminator model, half built, with huge runner nubs and a very spotty paint job, all alone in her own little baggie for $5.
of course I took her home with me
image taken after gentle disassembly, nub cleaning, and reassembly. tonight I'm planning to try some paint stripping.
I haven't quite decided how to paint her yet. I know I want to have her be a Killteam Nemesis Operative, as I think a single terminator makes a great example of a small size NemOp, but I can't decide if I want her to join my Blood Angels of Death team, or the Wolf Scouts that I've only just started printing. maybe she should just have her own colours, and tag along with allied chapters as independent aid? much to consider,,
okay so i just went for a really really long drive to another country and Yesterday was the drive back day, while i was there i got to play some killteam and try out the brand new Nemesis Ops Dossier that i had got really lucky and found and so !
heres some Long Drive Thoughts. copy-pasted and slightly edited from my rambling in discord, as i often do.
its got Rules Bloat
things that interrupt the flow of the game without really adding value
so like. I've said it before and I'll yell about it forever
warcry is just PERFECT for what I want in a game
well, almost. the faction rules are a little underwhelming.
its pretty damn close.
none of the rules interrupt or slow gameplay, and it doesn't lose any tactical depth for it
but it doesn't work for a SciFi setting, fundamentally, because the existence of Guns totally changes how the game needs to be played
so the warcry framework can't really be applied to SciFi game
and OPR Firefight, the simplified SciFi skirmisher, has a good framework but its got a couple big fundamental flaws;
the 'shaken' wounding system makes it feel REALLY BAD when you've got one poor guy that just doesn't get to okay for three rounds in a row. its distinctly not heroic feeling.
the lack of activated abilities or distinct faction rules makes every faction feel like it plays kinda the same, and there isn't really any good cohesion between models
killteam has one absolutely BANGIN thing going for it; being only 'bespoke' teams, each of them has some kind of Gimmick that most of them go kinda crazy
awesome example; the raveners
they get to tunnel??
they just disappear????
then ambush predator on your ass only when and where THEY want to fight
and if they want to lurk and lie in wait in their tunnels they just can, for as long as they want
it gives them a GREAT game feel, very unique playstyle that really gives them character and feeling
but. killteam suffers a lot from Bloat
there are just so many ploys to remember all the time that have super specific activation conditions and a proper game having both crit op and three tac ops and kill op and choosing from universal and faction equipment Every Game and dear goodness the sheer number of KEYWORDS
I was kinda on the fence about it but ultimately the conceal/engage orders I think ARE a good central mechanic that add good interest and decisions to the game, but there's just so much layered on top that thats totally buried and doesn't really get an opportunity to be as significant to the game as it should be
like, I think that if the Orders game mechanic could be as big and central to the game as warcry's Ability Dice that alone is enough to give the gameplay good tactical depth!
its just everything else to worry about and occupy brainspace, to me, overshadows it and overall makes the game feel bad in a way that I previously didn't see any enjoyment in the orders mechanic
game image intermission;
so my preliminary thoughts on making killteam feel better;
equipment is almost good. I think that reducing or even dropping entirely the universal equipment, and allowing only two selections per player, generally feels pretty good.
ploys have just gotta go.
not entirely but like they can't stay as they are. the split between strategy and firefight, some of them being so hyperspecific, and having Eight to remember per team is just crazy. I'm not against having an Ability Resource, but this is not good implementation to me. I think that most of the ploys should be worked into activated abilities on datacards (once per round or once per battle), and each player should be allowed to just declare one of their four strategy ploys each round for free
scoring.. crit ops are all good generally. but tac ops are too much, and kill op disincentivizes going for objectives which is I think just generally ungood. so playing one crit op and one tac op each maybe, and ignoring the archetype shittery, might feel better.
the lite rules generally are pretty good and smooth, but there are a few things that need to be included like Vantage and a few that really need to be avoided like the distinction between Heavy Cover/Light Cover/Obscured
the keywords,, ouh. oof ouchies. at minimum they need TRIMMED. that whole situation is rough and i really dont know how to approach it. like i dont hate the idea of weapon keywords and they do add meaning to choices but that list is too damn long and every description it super difficult to parse and just... that needs so much help. and like 5 for ranged and 5 for melee AT MOST.
and now, about the nemesis operative book;
generally, pretty good ! they really feel like something big and scary that you have to respect.
that said, a couple small changes that I think are really necessary; the way the rules are written, every nemesis get the Bulky, Extra Defence, and Towering core rules applied to them. this feels BAD, especially for smaller models being used as nemesis ops.
its a bit weird that the Bulky and Towering keywords both are mostly negative with a good thing tacked on, and Extra Defence is Just Good™ so I think that a good way to look at that maybe is that, as there are three size classes, every step up adds an additional one of those rules. so small=ED, med=ED+Bulky, Lrg=ED+Bulky+Towering.
Aside from that, the Nemesis Traits are just a bit underwhelming (ESPECIALLY as an option to give up a weapon slot for???), and despite activating twice per round it feels like the NemOps' options are a bit.. bland. it would be really nice if they had some kind of activated abilities to choose from, so I think it might be a nice idea to go through each team and steal one firefight ploy each to have as a list for NemOps to choose from in building and use as a once per round kind of a thing
GOT MY PAWS ON THE KILLTEAM NEMESIS OPERATIVE RULES, THAT MEANS ITS TIME FOR
BOSS FIGHTS
PLACE YOUR BETS NOW GAMERS
(I recognise that this isn't directly how it actually works, i haven't properly read the rules yet but you bet your ass I'll be running something along these lines the moment I get the chance)
so like, I had written that with the smashbros voice in my head but now you've infected me...
anyway if anyone was wondering, in the end two of the knights and the warglaive teamed up against some raveners lead by a winged prime and we didn't get to finish the game but preliminary reports definitely had SOME bells being rung and it wasn't any of theirs!
GOT MY PAWS ON THE KILLTEAM NEMESIS OPERATIVE RULES, THAT MEANS ITS TIME FOR
BOSS FIGHTS
PLACE YOUR BETS NOW GAMERS
(I recognise that this isn't directly how it actually works, i haven't properly read the rules yet but you bet your ass I'll be running something along these lines the moment I get the chance)
thank you for bringing this up, its actually something I'd wanted to talk about!
the course that I'm taking has four scheduled Assignments; a tool box, a flower planter, a picnic table, and a doghouse. each Assignment is intended to take one week for the trainees to complete, with that schedule specifically being designed for people who have not handled the tools used before.
(oopsies I'd forgot to point out my flowerbox beside the picnic tables in the video)
I had used the tools before, though i never had much practice with them. so because I had that headstart of knowing already how to hold them and how to position my body and how to Read A Tapemeasure and how to Measure A Cut, even with taking my time and going as slow as I could on those assignments I spent at least two days less on each of them than I was supposed to. That resulted in me having essentially a week of free time, and instead of starting on the last Assignment a week early, my Journeyman said 'let's find something else for you to do, rebuild those shitty signs'.
All that to say... If I had really wanted to, if I had just been trying to get them done as if I had been on a time limit at an actual jobsite, I could've knocked out all 8 of the signs I've framed so far in just one eight hour day. instead, I spent four full days on just those signs.
I didn't do it that way to try to kill time, though that is why I was asked to do them, but rather because of a personal philosophy I have regarding practice and work; when someone goes to do something for work at their job, I believe that the actual work that they do, the finished product they produce will ALWAYS be at least 30% worse/lower quality than what they had been doing as practice. I spent four days doing what I could've had done in just eight hours because I was actively double and triple checking my work as I went, doing things the long way, and trying to do the best damn job I could.
I was trying to build up the fundamental skills of doing good quality work, so that when I have to do it as a job, under pressure, my final product will be better than if I hadn't taken the time to work on those skills
all that to say... Always Practice Slowly. because slow is smooth, and smooth is fast.
I'm doing what Einstein and Hawking were too afraid to do. I'm making Frankenstein look like a fourth grader. Can't you see? I'm creating a goddess with my own mortal hands... Forging something bigger than myself... Bigger than us all! It's already been set in motion! The gears are turning, and soon, a new world shall be born under her guidance! If you're so short sighted that you'll stand in my way... then you wouldn't have a place in her world anyways. Join me. It's the better - and only - way.
I think sometimes about how I'd be okay if I never had to eat food again, if I never had to worry about this annoying need that distracts me from other things I like doing or find interesting.
I just retweeted a threat of books on staple crops and the history of food and I didn't want to hijack a thread of people sharing books studying food and cultural history to talk about a weird element of my general experience with the Internet. I understand that it's such an important part of culture for people and forms a large portion of civilization, but it's something I haven't really ever really understood or been able to share the enthusiasm for.
So much of internet is soaked in food language (and probably accelerates this due to the Internet meaning that every voice spreads instantly and reinforces loudly). There's so much media time to food and so much celebration of food and so much of our cultures are built around restaurants and groceries, and the fact that those necessary survival things are core to the entire economy to the point where companies can raise their prices endlessly to instantly affect everyone makes the pressure to love it so much unsettling.
I chalk it up to the many so called Formative and Transformative Experiences that people swear by and get frustrated are not universal but that have never resonated with me the same way, like Homestuck or hiking. Even the best food I ever had wasn't enough to enkindle the kind of joy people seem to feel so strongly that they insist everyone MUST feel it too.
But I've also never had a kind of passion that lasted in perpetuity, despite it apparently being a requirement for artists and writers and journalists or just any kind of job that makes money.
real and true, I (as a general rule) hate food and the requirement of eating. its an active and constant detriment and if I had the option to never eat again I would take it without hesitation or regret.
like, there are some foods I like and will even be excited to eat (fish!), but. if I didn't have to eat? it wouldn't be a significant enough loss to be worthy of note, especially weighed against how uncomfortable and generally unpleasant eating is.
I'd really much rather just plug into a wall for a little while every day, thanks.
