Stuck in Flower Purgatory

She/Her | 25 | I draw mostly fanart of whatever is currently consuming my mind

[ryuumarsart]

Hello! I’m Ryuumars, but you can also call me Ryuu (”Rye-You”) or Ryuuface. I’m a hobbyist artist who draws mostly cats, dragons, and fan art. My main is @ryuumars

All interpretations of characters here are MY own headcanons or interpretations of canon. I am not arguing that they are “correct” or better than anyone else’s. If you are uncomfortable with them, that is okay and I encourage you to stop interacting. Canon is a suggestion here and I will play with these dolls as I like. 

My ask box is open and I take art requests. It’s up to my discretion though. (I have so little energy.)

I prefer 18+ on this blog because I may post suggestive jokes and about dark topics, but I won’t post anything explicitly nsfw. I’m also too tired to vet people.

You can tag any of my art as “kin”/”me” or another character except for things tagged “personal”/”vent”.

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Maybe a hot take but

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No one asked, but I did get tickets to the TADC finale in theaters on the 4th. I'm not posting anything about it (except maybe a vague raw reaction) until it releases on YT. I am trying to avoid spoilers like the plague. People suck.

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I'm not asking this to question your orientation, but I'm wondering how exactly you define the leftover 1%. I'm an aro ace myself, but I don't see myself having a leftover 1%, so I'm curious what you feel the difference is. Only if you're comfortable, of course.

Honestly, it's from years of questioning and coming to the conclusion that I'm kinda weird.

Romantic-wise, I've had very close connections to women that I could almost define as crushes, but could also call queerplatonic attraction? There's at least one person in my past that I feel like my attachment went beyond friendship, like the whole ordeal of butterflies in the stomach, jealousy, heart racing, thinking about her all the time, feeling like she's the only one I can be myself with, etc. etc. However, I've never understood where the line exactly is between friendship and romantic attraction especially considering my fucked up upbringing screwing me up. But because I feel like I've felt something resembling romantic attraction before, I'm hesitant to say I'm 100% aro. Even if it hasn't been happened in the last decade.

Sexuality-wise, I've definitely seen men, women, and those in between and been like...oh. (Not going into detail on this blog HA). Enough to be like "am I sure I'm ace?" But it's fleeting and the idea of acting on it with another human being is the least appealing thing to me. The thought of it =/= actually doing it. Again, this is enough to make me hesitate saying I'm 100% ace. Also can we talk about how both being ace and having a libido/kinks is the weirdest fucking experience ever or no?

However, any doubt of being aroace gets vaporized as soon as I talk to an allo person. Holy shit does it feel like being an alien. It's a whole other world out there. Cannot relate at all. I'm constantly thinking things like "you people actually feel like that when you're in love??? you want to have sex with people and actually do it??? are you all ok???" I'm just fine without romance or sex in my life, thank you very much. Even if it causes people irl to ask uncomfortable questions and act like I'm defective for not wanting these things. FUN.

TL;DR I get brief flashes of romantic or sexual attraction (???) that I don't want to ignore (hence the 1%), but I also know for sure that I am aroace.

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Happy Pride Month!

This is partially a joke but I unironically think that label fits me best. Basically, I am like 99% aroace, but that last 1% is homoromantic and bisexual (so technically it should be "lesbian-bi" but "bi-lesbian rolls off the tongue better).

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Return of kitty Clover...for this one post

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Playdate's over

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You know the hyperfixation is bad when you make a brush to better draw the blorbo

This is the result of being tired of suffering for so long but wanting stuff in my own style lmao

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What if Clover tried to tame Flowey as a yard cat?

They'd learn pretty quickly that he cannot be tamed or contained

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Am I too late to this?

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What's your favorite comic you've done?

That's actually a funny question because I honestly hate looking at my own art as soon as I post it. I get more cringe from a single one of my artworks than anything anyone else has made. But I'll try to be nice to myself for once lol.

The Flowey flower pot one is probably the one I'm most proud of drawing-wise? Those backgrounds took forever but I'm still pretty happy with them. And multiple characters including Papyrus who I struggle to draw for some reason.

The "you're not so lucky" one is the one I like emotionally the most. (Not sure if it counts as a comic with just two images?) I just randomly decided that the first part would be them in Snowdin and it ended up working well. Their current "friendship" is cold and dark with what little warmth there is coming from Clover. And then what could have been is warm and nostalgic but so clearly fake. Oof

And the dissection one is the longest fully rendered comic I've done which is an achievement since I give up on things easily. Also I like the flow of it, especially the 3rd page. That was fun to do.

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Heart of Gold AU by @ryuumarsart. Thank you for your service to the Luckypatch community; never stop being weird and I hope things get better for you soon 💛

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ALJDKSLF;SDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU!!! And oh my god themmm. Not me having the almost exact same idea except reverse with Clover internally losing it as he demands the souls of the innocent. Truly autism to autism connection lol

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are you okay???

I'm not sure what specifically prompted this, but I'm fine. Just stressed and a bit overwhelmed. Which is why I'm not having a usual upload today. And why I haven't answered many asks even though I appreciate them a bunch. I'm not good at responding to people at the best of times.

Anyway, here's some bad sketches of something I'm working on:

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So dramatic...

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Headcanon that Flowey doesn't get back pain. How else would he get away with having that god awful posture? Also, Clover learned that he's insecure about his lack of hands and will clap back at him with it.

"Bullying ain't cool. Unless it's Flowey" - Clover probably

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NYEH HEH HEH! FRET NOT! I, THE GREAT PAPYRUS, SHALL RESCUE FELL FLOWEY! FLOWERS SHOULD BEFRIENDED, NOT CONSUMED!

Ugh, fine. (How did bro get here?)

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An average too...