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[s4kasaki]

I LOVED YOUR DOMESTIC FLUFF POST FROM BEFORE uhm-uh could i request natsume and arashi one ( ꈍᴗꈍ)

^—^ thank you anon !! & here ya go

♡ — natsume & arashi | domestic fluff

‣ tw/cws: none

‣ reader: gender netural - they/them

‣ authors note: hai guys, it's been ages since I actually posted help...

☆ — ARASHI.

now let me tell you, shopping sprees. 100%, Arashi is all about taking you out to go shopping. It's quite literally you and her thing. Sometimes Leo questions why she's always leaving practice as soon as it's over, is Arashi picking somebody over her unit? (he does eventually learn that it's you for the reason she leaves so soon)

she usually buys you new shampoo, conditioner, and other self-care products when she notices you’re running out or just cause she thinks you'll like the smell (because she also likes the smell) before you even know the bottle’s empty, she already bought new ones for you~★ not to mention she also buys toothpaste and floss when they’re on sale. Arashi pays close attention to all the makeup and skin-care products you buy. if they leave bad results.... she’ll make a mental note to not buy that brand again! (￣ ￣|||)

Arashi usually insists on you coming with her when going abroad but sometimes Arashi has to go without you cause business is on the line of course! and you're most definitely aware-- and usually can accept her missing presence. but that doesn't stop the fact that Arashi feels a little bad if you're left behind for long on her trips! especially if you happen to be clingier than usual when she returns. If that happens she always makes sure to fit you into her next flight so you don't get too lonely

speaking of you two when she's away: phone calls and facetime are frequent! even if she's somewhere where the time zones are different & she ends up calling you at 3 in the morning- she's still calling!

all in to listen to you ramble about things and your day, as she finds it very adorable in a way how passionate you are when you speak on things you like... does prefer to be actively involved in conversations though! so do try to conversate with her too!

Arashi usually wakes up before you do but she won’t get out of bed right away (unless truly necessary), instead she will stay in bed with you and watch you while you’re peacefully sleeping ( ꈍᴗꈍ) her lips curled into a highly smile from just how adorable you are, cupping your cheek before letting out a giggle. “Good morning, my love~” she whispers as you start to wake up and finally lift your body from the bed before pressing a little kiss to your forehead~. She loves lying in bed with you in the morning, peppering your face in small kisses, and snuggling up close to you with no intentions of letting you go either! It's a blessing almost, when she gets to do these things- since she's mostly occupied with work and Knights and when she returns from a long day of working, modeling.. performing.. you’re already knocked out like a bear, so she adores the hours in the morning she can spend some time alone with you, even going as far to risk some of her time on just staying in bed with you :heart:

☆ — NATSUME.

This dude takes an unhealthy amount of nighters, either have it be cause he's in his room in the underground archives or because he's playing video games like overwatch in the house you two share together— so you might wake up at midnight seeing this dude's back in your face & you have to force this idiot into going to bed (ノ_<。)ヾ(´ — ` )

You know it's mentioned he has a cat, or multiple cats… at his parent's house? Well, once he invited you over in hopes for you to meet his parents, and his parents and the kitties seemed to like you. Which to him was quite a surprise since his cats are similar to him, and not very quick to open up. Smelling on you and nuzzling your legs as soon as you came around them "(^._.^)ﾉ meow"

Natsume has a habit of waking up early despite being the horrible night owl he is, he's usually out of bed by the time you open your eyes to make breakfast or shower, the only indication he was still there is his phone's bright light. But sometimes, he just can't resist waking you up with him, the way your cheek was smooshed against the pillows o((*^▽^*))o eyes closed as you clutched onto the blankets, a leg strewn on top of his. His gaze rests on you, softly taking in the scenery, him unable to resist leaning down to press a light kiss to your cheek, pulling back just to press another one, soon enough peppering your entire face with kisses, feeling you stir underneath him, groggily rubbing your eyes “Natsu— what time is it” you mumble, struggling to push him off you “7:24, so go baCK to sleep”

“But you're the one who woke me up?....” and you can feel him snicker on top of you as he moves to pull himself off of you, only to be stopped when he feels your hand loop around his wrist, pulling him back “You woke me up so you gotta stay” you murmur, pulling the blankets aside to make room for him to lay back on you and much to your satisfaction, he doesn’t resist.

Contrary to popular belief! He likes to go on dates with his partner in the public eye, dare I say he also likes the thrill of getting seen with you by fans so they ask him a bunch of questions and he gets a reason to lovemail you. Knowing that you might be incredibly happy if that were to happen, or maybe embarassed... Knowing that those words of love he said will sooner or later he heard by thousands of his fans. ♡˖꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱ and probably even some back at ensquare, you might get a nose full from some curious teasing oddballs (wataru and rei especially)

He has some sort of nickname for you, the "kitten" nickname stays forever though even though it makes you screech sometimes— and he's aware of the effect it has on you (if it's negative, then he's planning on calling you kitten way more than he did when you two first met just cause he finds It, If not... a little humourous)

[s4kasaki]

Hello~, may I request Rei and/or Rinne hcs with an s/o who dresses/like lolita fashion. Both goth lolita & pastel (cute) lolita; thank you in advance

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is.. does this mean.. the . The KEY. did I just get an anon.... (HAHA SORRY FOR SUCH AN EXAGGERATING REACTION) but yes, you may

♡︎ — rei & rinne | a s/o who likes and dresses in loilta fashion!

‣ tws/cws: none;

‣ reader: gender netural - they/them

‣ authors note: this was that request I was excited to write. this might be a little short but I hope I reached the goal I was tryna write and also what you wanted!

☆ — SAKUMA.

He is intrigued by the style you have going on! And your fixation on it. You look so beautiful with all of those frills and ruffles, fine lace, and embroidered edges... He might have to eat you up!

Light-pastel lolita isn’t exactly to his tastes if you asked him, Rei can’t deny he’s drawn to Gothic lolita. If you ever ask him for outfit advice he points you to the dark ribbons and tights, always recommending mainly black, red, and white colors

He loves how cute you are in any style nonetheless; it only gets worse when you’re all dressed up and adorable in your lolita outfits. He’s continuously staring softly, wondering what he ever did to deserve someone so perfectly lovely as you. He reminds you of it hourly that you are beyond gorgeous, especially in public cause he doesn't care! You're drop-dead beautiful and the world should see and know it

He's mentioned a few times how he wouldn't mind trying some of your clothing on to see how it would look like on him, he knows he has a good figure and he also knows he would rock gothic Lolita. He has had no prior interests in cross-dressing or drag, but those big puffy frilly dresses just look too adorable and soft! When you do manage to get him in a dress he’s very cooperative, letting you apply makeup as he smiles and giggles all the while~ though you must admit, he looks pretty good in a dress!

Would be knocked out cold if you, got/made a cute lolita style dress based the undead outfit.

Just adores you and your fashion to an extent, and never fails to compliment you like crazy ꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡

☆ — RINNE.

the embodiment of beautiful, is that you? He thinks you're super cute!! He seriously thinks you're trying to kill him at this rate! Because you look truly look like a doll and he is all down. Lots of flirting!!

He's a big fan of the pastel, sweet and cutesie Lolita — it truly makes you look adorable! but he never lets your dresses and aesthetic fool him, he never knows when you might just attack him! Playfully of course... hopefully. The first time he saw you wearing cute Lolita he was shocked it was even you.

He will talk about your fashion non-stop to his unitmates and his fans, about how cute you look and talking about: "that's my partner! I'm so fuckin lucky!!! I bet you guys are jealous >:)"

He'll buy you pretty much anything, all you need to do is ask! He really can't help but say yes to you… even when you tell him he doesn't have to say yes all the time.

Will make you model all of them for him. And it ends up turning into a photoshoot damn near which you tease him relentlessly about. He's blushing the whole time he takes photos of you, and if you let him: He most definitely will post those photos on Instagram and flaunt you off to all his fans.

One thing that makes him incredibly weak is when you come to one of his performances in a soft lolita dress. He doesn't know exactly why you have this effect on him while he's up on stage singing, maybe because you being the crowd pushes him to do his absolute best to make you swoon over him!

He has probably tried on one of your dresses before while you weren't around and you had suddenly walked in on him posing and taking photos or himself and he was so embarased about it, he couldn't ever let it go. Unfortunately... (• ▽ •;)

He can't keep his hands to himself when he sees you in those fancy clothing, so you'll have to fix up some things in your outfit cause he will DEFINITELY ruin some of it. he feels kinda bad afterwards

[s4kasaki]

Hellooo, I really liked your wataru hc! May I request for one where wataru helps his s/o to fall asleep either because they're stressed or afraid over something?

me trying to take a soft approach to things? impossible.. THIS IS QUITE FAR FROM THE REQUEST..?? I can't tell.. it can be seen in multiple ways , hopefully the way you have it idéals

♡︎ — oh, my darling…

‣ tw/cws: none!

‣ reader: gender neutral - they/them

‣ authors note: waaHH

You knew staying up late was bad for your health, and it affects how you perform every day and how it was always so blatantly obvious to others when you didn't sleep… forcing people to care, you felt bad but It couldn't be helped. Wataru was simply worried, why would you need to hide anything from him? He couldn't understand it, but he’d never push you about it.

He was your boyfriend after all. So he let you do your work, fully aware that you stayed up until the point of exhaustion… and he could only sigh in disappointment and concern. Had he ever tried to get you to tell him your problems? Of course, he did, you said things were fine, as usual.

You still didn’t expect to be standing in front of the bedroom door right now, as if it wasn't also your room as much as it was Wataru’s. Honestly, you feel kind of embarrassed for just finally deciding to seek out your lover and at such a late hour in the first place. But, you really couldn’t help it. You had a horrible dream earlier, it was more like a nightmare of you losing everything you worked so hard to build together. Losing Wataru was an essential part of the so-called nightmare and was what was the worst, you were over-thinking your worth and capability. Leading your heart splitting in half, and shattering you altogether. In your dreams, Watari and others had called you names. They weren’t the usual names he called you, each filled with malicious intent and pure venom. The Wataru in your dreams was the complete opposite of the sweet caring jester you fell in love with.

The Wataru from your dream had left you an empty shell after he left you.

And so here you are in front of the shared bedroom door, your hand clenched on your chest as you debated whether or not to knock on his door or just try to finally put aside all this work and just sleep. Taking a shaky breath, you raise your hand that was resting on your chest and gently knock on the door. A couple of seconds pass and you hear a loud stirring inside the bedroom

You let out a huff and run a hand through your hair. Maybe you’re being delirious, dumb even. Of course Wataru wouldn’t forget about you. You just had a dumb dream and you should just get over it. You look at his door again before turning to go back to your room, mentally yelling at yourself for overreacting over such a sleep deprived dumb dream.

However, you stop walking when you hear the door creak open and a very awake voice call out for you.

“Darling? What's the matter?” Wataru’s voice called out, a tanned hand underneath his shirt to scratch at his chest. One of his eyes was still shut while the other squinted at you, examining you as if you were some special artifact. “Did you need something~?” Suddenly, both of his eyes shot open. “Oh, dear! Why were you crying? I can see the tears smearing your beautiful face... You look exhausted.”

Well there was no getting out of it now, you thought. He saw the tears, there was clearly a problem and this time you would not be backing away from yelling him, he wasn't going to allow you try it either. “No… okay, well yes! I wanted to check up on you after I had a bad dream regarding us and everyone else, but I see that I was the idiot in thinking that anything bad would actually happen between us.”

At this, Wataru’s face softens. “You had a bad dream, and you came to me? Oh my, sweet dove.”

You cross your arms and give him a look. “You’re my boyfriend, of course, id come to you first! You told me that if I ever felt scared or anything… I can just call for you or go to you.”

Wataru smiles at this, causing your cheeks to warm up a bit. You’re about to tell him that you’re fine now and decide on going to bed after countless days of overworking yourself with the only energy you got being from sources such as energy drinks, but a warm hand reaches for your own and tugs you towards him. Before you know it, you're whisked into the bedroom and onto his bed.

You feel his arms around your waist, and he pulls you closer to him, your back pressing firmly against his chest. You’re about to protest, but Wataru’s moving to rest his forehead against your shoulder stops you.

“I don’t know what happened specifically… But I assure you I won’t ever do anything to you,” he says to you, his voice oddly quiet and tender for a moment like this. “I told you, when you’re ever scared you can always come to me! Or call my name, and I promise you I’ll be there for you. I’m the Great Hibiki Wataru, so of course, I’ll do what I can to secure you.” You snort at the last bit, but feel better at his reassuring words.

Before you know it, you’re dozing off again. Feeling Wataru’s arms around you, hearing his beating heart thud against his chest as he held you, and the soft and comforting words and promises were all enough to bring you a sense of comfort and belonging, and you couldn’t help but let your eyes flutter close and your breathing even out.

[s4kasaki]

♡◞﹒꒱ sakasaki ?

‣ tws/cws: obsessive behavior, perhaps..

‣ reader: gender neutral - they/them

‣ authors note: remember that Natsume bday thing I said id post, this is it. YES ITS NOT BETA-READ BY ME... NOR IS it a proper writing... It's kinda 4 funsies! ah, a crackfic! that's the word

Now, what was wrong with this man, hearing: "I love you y/n" in his head like an alarm clock that wasn't on hush mode for a good 5 minutes, and he must admit that it was beginning to annoy him an insane amount. Because he wouldn't DARE to believe that really what he was feeling with you, was in a romantic sense-- it was so platonic in his mind it almost made him lose self-consciousness, merely. He almost felt sick with rage over it.

“Wow! that was cool, w’almost like it was real magic!—”

“That's because it is real magic. What boyfr— I mean, friend, would I be if I didn’t allow you to watch me perform my hobby?” he said. While flustered a bit. “At this rate, we’ll be doing magic together,” the fellow guy in front of you was now smiling as if he was all the while playfully joking around.

‘The hell is wrong with me’ he thought to himself.

Today couldn't go wrong, but even he questioned that— for one whose days always seem to go in the worse directions, this called for extra measurements. His crystal ball never told lies, only ones he wished to hear that is. However, his eyes were always deceiving him, they must have been now as well. You're with another person? Somebody who certainly wasn't as good as Natsume... Somebody who just wasn’t, Natsume. If it wouldn’t have been for his utter love for you, it would’ve been a heart-warming sight to see you all happy with the man as if you'd known him for years. He’s resisting the urge to damn near shatter the walk up to you and grab them with his bare hands out of rage. But he's not that brutal, is he? He can get you himself without violence! Right? At least he hopes

“Kitten, how about we go on a date, shall we? It’s a beautiful day outside... Maybe I’ll even do your horoscope for the day while we’re out.~” he insisted, practically begging for you to accept his request while putting his typical grin across his face.

To his delight, you accepted. Everything was going smoothly, at least at first... The last person Natsume wanted to see at a time like this? Tsumugi. And there he was, at the fair with you and Natsume, why was he here? Did his newly developed crush betray him already? With him of all people? Negative, that couldn’t be the case. Before you knew it, Natsume was pulling you to the side.

“Hey, let me take you on one of the rides, we haven’t been on one yet.” In reality, that was only a way for him to get you away from Tsumugi before he could even see you two there.

It’s funny. Because you swore you saw Tsumugi in the corner of your eye...

[s4kasaki]

opens requests again~

[s4kasaki]

Hey, Can i have domestic fluff with Izumi and leo?? Thank you and have a nice day!!

oooo two of the sillies in knights!! I love writing for Knight's.. did you guys know that? ( Just not Tsukasa, he hurts my brain..) I hope you enjoy it and thank you as well!! I hope you have a nice day too~ also I've returned for a while

♡ — leo & izumi | domestic fluff

‣ tws/cws: none!!

‣ reader: genderneutral - they/them

‣ author's note: silly's.. lub them.. yes it's 1 am, yes Im exhausted.

☆ — IZUMI

people always like to say that Izumi would be a bad boyfriend/husband. so! I’m gonna tell you now, he's really just the best boyfriend you could ever have.

We all know how Izumi can be a little hedgehog sometimes, always balling back in his shell when something makes him seem vulnerable and less capable of doing stuff by himself— but, when you push his confident border to the side.. by pushing just the correct buttons..! you will soon find out that he's fond of being physically loving just as much as he is with actions and words

our Izuhug is the cook of the house, and he rarely ever allows you in the kitchen— he says it's a “knights duty” and that the only duty the prince/princess should be having: is savoring being taken care of. no going against his say-so, cus it's no good. he just won't accept you working in the kitchen. though when you do get your hands to cook in the kitchen! he's teasing you about it!

“you really can't reach up there? hmph, how annoying…~ move out the way.”

but he will accept you being his little assistant just so he can get a reason to call you his "little assistant"

Speaking of which, you always sit with him in the kitchen and watch him make whatever he's making at the time and it makes him so very happy— because he truly enjoys your company even though he might not tell you that up-front sometimes! with one hand he’s stirring the food and with the other, he’s spinning you around and if you listen close enough you’ll be able to hear him quietly singing "Ironic Blue" to himself with a smile. all while the lyrics are directed to you~♡

this guy is great at everything, even cuddling. wait— did I mention cuddling? No? Then do it. Please, love him and give him affection. He especially loves it when you fall asleep in his arm, or with your head on his lap. You're just so pretty to him, he can not describe it in proper words. But, when your head is resting on his lap and he gets to see all the beauty that lies in that pretty little face of yours when you're not talking. yes, he finds you pretty when you're quiet— but he's gotten so used to you talking around him even when he's working, that it's quite hard for him to focus properly without you talking to him about absolutely anything.

He probably has a cleaning schedule and what not and you’re wrong if you think he isn’t gonna make you follow it

“Hey beautiful, wake up. We’re doing laundry and cleaning today. Yeah, it’s Sunday”

Honestly it’s mostly him cleaning and you "bothering" him because you’re not cleaning to his so veryyy high!! standards

“Hey, you can’t mix those products- just give it to me”

And you stand there and watch him while you dance. Izumi the housewife <3

He most definitely has a cleaning playlist on spotify that’s full of R&B and lovey dovey type of music

You probably catch him dancing with a mop at one point and he chases you around the house yelling your name in that silly tone he would when he calls “Yuu-Kunnnnn~”

When you do the laundry he's always making some silly remarks about your fashion taste, you have this bad of fashion? while dating the Izumi Sena? really??

This results in a laundry war and you two just start throwing clothes at each other even though he definitely isn't gonna want to pick all the clothes up again :giggle:

He always promises to cook your favorite dinner if you hurry up to finish all the tasks he’s laid out for the day, it's his special treat~

And after a veryyYY long day of cleaning and being silly… He likes to sit with you on the couch and cuddle while watching a movie~

He honestly enjoys the cleaning days because it means he gets to spend the day with you, fully aware that cleaning with you also comes with many surprises and giggles that he adores to hear slip from ur mouth

grocery shopping with him though …

He makes a very strict list and he says that you can only buy what’s on the list when you two leave so if you want something, you’re gonna have to make him add it to the list before you leave two otherwise he’s not buying it ┐(—_—)┌

If he wakes up before you for work he’ll make breakfast for you and leave a note aggressively telling you to eat and take care of yourself today or else there will be serious consequences… such as no kisses for an entire day

When he gets home from work and long day of singing and modeling, his first move after taking off his shoes is to immediately go find you

“Did you eat the food I made for you this morning? You better have (-_- )ﾉ!”

He shows that he cares about you in all of these ways. Like adding your favorite food to the shopping list even though you didn’t ask for him to, doing your laundry on rough days, making your lunch for work, etc

Domestic Izumi is just super cute and wholesome in his own way~

☆ — LEO

moving in with leo was an absolute rollercoaster of a ride. it felt like you were going through your childhood all over again and now you’re excited to come home from work than you have ever been before knowing you have an undyingly affectionate lil ginger waiting for you at home

Leo is a little disorganized— but you see him actually trying to get better at it, without you needing to tell him and it warms your heart

your favourite thing about sharing a home with him is that you get to wake up next to him. The first rays of sun of the morning come through the window and hit his face, enhancing how truly handsome and cute he is. you stir a bit and his hold instinctively tightens, refusing to let you go even when he’s dreaming. you leave soft, feather-light kisses on his face and soon he’s fluttering his eyes open, a lazy shit eating grin spreads across his face as he pulls you against his chest~

Leo's favourite thing about sharing a home with you is dancing in the living room (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧! You’ve already had dinner and you’re reading a book when you see him connecting his mics to the speakers and singing. soon, he's singing one of your favourites and he’s putting out his hand for you to take. you smile and let him help you up and soon your swaying in the living room, eyes closed, soft smiles and hearts connected to each other

loves cuddling with you ALL. THE. TIME. it’s a problem. especially if Tsukasa is forcing him to go to practice and when you visit him at the gym he’d definitely go “my s/o! hey! cuddles!!” he’s like an excited puppy whenever his eyes set foot on you!

very much adores when you play with his hair while you’re both on the couch or the bed or just chilling, y'know? (≧▽≦) it's the softest when he just got out of the shower and it’s kinda damp but it’s down out of its usual ponytail and he looks so soft and cuddly… and handsome! and just absolutely ready for you to smother him with affection !!!

falls asleep on top of you. you once complained that this ginger is too heavy for you but did he listen? no. he loves pressing his head on top of your chest and hear your heartbeat. if he focuses too hard he’ll hear that it’s in sync with him and it gives him that random spark of composing ideas~!

when he holds your hands, he likes to swing them back and forth— he may be just a lil too energetic but it’s cute! He'll loves it even more if y'all are in a crowded place and you hold onto his hand, intertwined fingers and all, makes him feel like he had to protect you and works extra hard not to lose you in a sea of people he once did— he cried…

randomly kisses your nose because he loves to see your face all scrunched up from the ticklish feeling and he’d always lean back to laugh at how cute you are~

loves loves loves loves to swipe your hair away from your face (if you have long hair) if not, he likes to ruffle your hair like how he would to his younger buddies like Tsukasa or similar to how Izumi would do to a tiny fan of his!

every night is movie night no matter how tired the both of you are and it’s literally just a mess of limbs tangled together to the point that you don’t know whose leg is whose, and the movie is playing in the background as the two of you talk about how your day went while looking at each other adoringly and listening intently to what the other is saying

on the times where he comes home earlier than you, he’d spam you with a lot of chats, emoticons especially, calls, whatever. telling you how much he misses you already and how he hopes that you hurry home because if he doesn’t get all the cuddles and kisses he’ll die!

would ocassionally wrap his tiny arms around your middle from the back whenever you’re washing the dishes and places his chin on your shoulder. he loves to watch you do whatever and for him it’s already the most beautiful thing ever .

okay he loves you when you're awake and sleep but he does likes watching you sleep like— not in the crazy natsume “im gonna kill you” way, but in the way you look so peaceful and without a worry in the world and how you just look so natural and imperfectly perfect!

blasts loud music in the house whenever y'all are cleaning around the house, you both are doing more 80% dancing and 20% cleaning~ he’d find some hidden and old stuff from different parts of the house and he’d get distracted playing with it and tagging you along as well. in the end, the cleaning will have to be done another day <3

[s4kasaki]

sorry for disappearing.. But I'm still gone for a while.. My devices broke like weeks ago.. but I came to finish that Izumi fic. Was a must

[s4kasaki]

hey can i request ❝  sometimes i feel i’m being crushed under the weight of everything i’ll never be.  ❞ for izumi from ur recent if that’s okay??

hehe hello— my devices are still broke but look, im an izumi lover. I gotta do my job. so this, is gonna be fun y'know? Izumi is such a tough guy but deep down he needs comfort too because it's okay to be greedy sometimes so that's what we're gonna give him!!

♡ — my words are up to interpretation.

‣ tws/cws: angst (?) , other than that not a thimg

‣ reader: gender neutral - they/them

‣ author's note: izumi's emotions, they're like locked behind bars that goes invisible when confronted :cry: . I'm gonna say this, the dialogue is non-existent,it's mostly just.. izumi centric. and NO dialogue almost.

Izumi Sena was an abundance of things, but the first and essential was that he was painfully confident and self-aware. He knew exactly who and what he was, and who and what he carried to be. The two things were solely correlated to each other, he was an 'abnormal one'. And he knew that, but he didn't despise it enough to have any agency in changing it. That just wasn’t part of his life, not part of the plan ever.

He wasn’t as desirable as his devotees made him out to be. It was additionally the statements directing people to think such. Izumi Sena was supposed to be this perfect pretty, tainted person. A person that would stand above his peers no matter the expense, constantly making the top-tier, something kin to little-miss perfect. He was looked up with respect and admiration. It got so out of hand people at yumenosaki considered him more of a naggy grandma than a student due to the never-ending fondness he received, making him wish to project his talents onto others. He was similarly aware that he had many people who held sentimental feelings for him. A lady and man-killer. The most attractive member in the unit Knights.

It wasn’t like he wasn’t pretty! he knew he was striking. It’s just that he speculated that society and his fans built this character around his charm. One he repeatedly, for greedy explanations, swapped into. Izumi played the part of the one to build Knight's to what it is now, the part of poised. And while most of his classmates didn’t know about the dreadful experience he went through during the war era; he brought a lot of those feelings and characteristics into his unit-mates and the ones he cared for most

To add up with that, he took his job very seriously, he even held deep pride for his capabilities to be an idol and a model at the same time and make it work with ease. Yet he didn’t have much of a choice in the matter whether he liked it or not. He had taken the role even as a child and he wasn't gonna betray modelling like Makoto did, would he?

But boy, was he good at it! Other models from all-around had praised him for upholding such an often pressuring job so eloquently. Izumi at the age of 13 was praised for being “mature for his age” by the adults who observed his modeling career to the very end. Of course, he was mature. He planned to be. Yet years later he had decided to become an idol and not even himself can come to an excuse as to why he did. He met wonderful friends along the way of course not that he'd ever admit that they were his friends in any other way than in his actions. Those friends we're also his saviors. Saving and preventing him from not completely giving in to depression and guilt. Izumi didn’t get where he was by being sympathetic to those who failed to do the simplest of simple things. He had to start making mature actions. And he’d continue to be a beacon of maturity and keep his mind grounded in reality.

His only regret is that he never apologized for his harsh words towards the ones he hurt afterward.

That was who and what Izumi Sena was supposed to be.

Izumi Sena is a living distraction, and the most undesirable person in Knights. His words have a thousand different meanings, his temper volatile, his grip over his unit-leader's dependency on him nearing possessive. 

 

They had scolded him saying, “Jeez… I thought you of all psople were more reasonable than this,” he was being reasonable. God was he being reasonable. trying so hard to be mature. Being reasonable and mature so his beloved childhood friend did not have to. 

So much that even Makoto didn’t know who and what he was. And it was better that way. He should never know what elders worry about. And now Makoto is making his own decisions. Coming to his conclusions. And it’s messy and he disagrees but who is he to stop Makoto from becoming somebody when he still wasn’t. When Izumi could never be. Yet it scares Izumi to see him walking away. Walking towards different relationships so easily, not even trying to be on guard. Putting himself in danger for them not against. It drove him crazy and it drove him crazier that he knew his difference would eventually drive Makoto away.

So he continued with his words that dripped off lies, trying to convince everyones thought to that he was the person they thought he was. He had become so used to it that it barely felt like a mask or an act than a cover story for how he really is.

It’s why this fandom around him made him feel so uncomfortable. Every confession felt like it was supposed to be for someone else. 

Talking about how honest and respectable he was— There was nothing honest about him. He was a perfectly hidden lie.

That’s what made him feel like he was an undesirable person. At his core, he could never be what anyone wanted. And he could never be what he wanted. Hell. He hardly knew who that was. He couldn’t let himself think about who he was. He wasn’t the person they thought they wanted, and there’s nothing more undesirable than a sour, uncooperative person.

 

That’s who Izumi Sena is. 

Of course, he desires things too like any other normal person would. He desired entertainment and a day to himself to just be a teenager. He hated his classmates lollygagging around and pulling pranks and going on dates with people they love without even having to put an effort. He wanted to be like that. Able to be a free, Izumi had never been free.

 

Izumi desired his closest friends safety. The aforementioned goal was to make sure his friends never step a foot on the path of loneliness he had learned to strut along with a fake kick to his step. Hide them from the lies they’d have to live. A large part of him was saddened by how even Sora was starting to see him for who he really was behind the fake him.

 He also desires friends. He can’t really say he’s relatively close to anyone besides Knight's

Well, that’s practically a lie. The closest thing he has to a real friend, was you, dear dear idiot y/n. And trying to explain what you meant to him was quite hard, but the affection he held for you was far from just producer and ‘Izumi-San’. It wasn’t even a fully developed real friendship, but It was pure admiration for him. An admiration that was hard for even you to explain or see as anything but romantic. He couldn’t ever tell you how he truly feels, it was against the rules.

He's tired, tired of playing the tuff guy role. It wasn’t an unknown thought. He often told him this. But no one ever realized what he indicated when he spoke these thoughts on subtleties, and with that: Izumi's words twist to be interpreted as whatever you want them to be.

“Sometimes I just feel like I'm just being crushed by the weight of everything I'll never be, ugh.”

His words were often up to interpretation as they sounded so careless, but he let them be that way. It was up to those he cared for to understand what his word meant. And if you didn’t understand well…

Well, that wasn’t exactly a fault of his. Izumi had truly never made it easy.

Yeah, it wasn’t your fault you didn’t know his struggles.

Not in the slightest.

[s4kasaki]

did one of my req's just...

[s4kasaki]

[s4kasaki]

did one of my req's just...

[yumenoangst]

お誕生日おめでとうね。

(Lit. Happy Birthday to You)

Izumi Sena x Reader(angst) TW: Its angst. It's Ryeo. Put the two together. Also you and Izumi have a child

"What's the point anymore...?

You're gone."

Izumi was not the person to do this. It was your birthday. But you were not there to celebrate it along with him.

He set the small but meaningful cake on your desk. With a small note of happy birthday in his handwriting. Looking around, he noticed the dust had started to pile in your room. Coughing lightly into his arm, he goes out to get some cleaning supplies. After all, if you aren't here, it's his duty as your partner to clean your room.

Right?

Technically, you both are lovers and partners after all.

Getting the vacuum, he puts a mask on and starts cleaning. From the main floor to the smallest corners and edges of your room. Once he was finished, he had gotten a duster and a rag to clean the small accessories and shelves.

When Izumi was done, the room had looked much better. Taking the mask off, he sets it down on your desk, next to the small cake.

"Ow!"

Rubbing his eyes, Izumi looks at the glass picture frame that had reflected the sunlight into his eyes.

His before mood had dampened to something more melancholic and nostalgic.

It was you and him at both of your graduation from Yumenosaki private academy. Both of you looked so happy.

"Papa! Papa! Leo is here!"

Turning around, Izumi sees his child, donned with a small (f/c) bow at the right of her head.

His daughter looked so much like you.

Smiling, he nods and sends (d/n) off, and sets back the frame gently on the nightstand, hearing his orange haired unit mate and his daughter chatter happily downstairs.

Sitting on the bed, he closes his eyes.

"I miss you, (y/n). You'll be watching over me and (d/n), right?"

He felt a warm embrace. Drops of warm tears left his blue eyes. He wouldn't be able to feel your real embrace again.

"I'll watch over you, our daughter and your unit, Izumi"

And the warm embrace had left. More tears had left. His cheeks warming from the water droplets.

"Happy birthday, (y/n)."

[s4kasaki]

DAISY ME ROLLINNNN

THEY HATINNNN(?)

[leneemusing]

IT’S  ALL  ABOUT  THE  YEARNING 

❝  you need someone.  let me be that person.  let me be what you need.  ❞

❝  look,  i dunno if i’m the kind of person you need or even want right now.  but i’m looking around and i’m the only one who’s here.  ❞

❝  i never realized how much i needed you until you were the one person who wasn’t there.  ❞

❝  you asked me once,  if i would ever take a chance on us…maybe that ship sailed.  but.  ask me again?  sometime— doesn’t have to be today.  maybe tomorrow just.  ask me again.  ❞

❝  i know i can’t protect you from everything,  but i wish you’d let me protect you from the things i can control.  ❞

❝  i used to have so much faith.  maybe not in deities or something but,  in the world.  the universe.  i believed their was a purpose to it all.  i’m not sure when i lost that.  ❞

❝  have you ever had something…missing?  like something just doesn’t feel right inside you but you don’t know what it is.  ❞

❝  sometimes,  i just need the world to be beautiful.  i know how dark and ugly it can be but i just want to see something good and focus only on it for a few minutes.  ❞

❝  i was sort’ve hoping you needed me.  is that selfish?  ❞

❝  people need someone to see them for what they are and not just see it but accept it.  i want to be that person for anyone i can…but it can be so suffocating to be that person and also remain unseen.  ❞

❝  sometimes i feel i’m being crushed under the weight of everything i’ll never be.  ❞

❝  you’re looking at me but you’re not seeing me.  do you know how that feels?  just see me.  please.  ❞

❝  i want to deserve you.  i’m trying to deserve you.  ❞

❝  i know i fucked up.  i know i did but don’t shut me out anymore.  let me in.  please let in.  ❞

❝  every time you smile at me,  i memorize it.  i remember each moment that i get to be the one to bring out that light inside you.  no matter what happens between us,  that’s what i’ll remember.   ❞

❝  i can’t help but think there’s got to be something out there for me,  somewhere.  just some place where i actually feel like i belong.  ❞ 

❝  the world is so big.  why do i never feel like i fit into it?  ❞

❝  when i’m with you i feel like myself.  i feel like every side of me is present and accepted.  and i feel good about it—  i feel good about who i am when i’m with you.  ❞

❝  do you like me?  i know you love me.  i know you care about me but.  do you like who i am?  ❞

❝  i want to look in the mirror one day and not feel uncomfortable with my own reflection.  ❞

❝  just take my hand and close your eyes.  pretend we’re anywhere else but here.  ❞

❝  so,  what would you be?  if you had to power to change all the things making you unhappy,  what would your life look like?  ❞

❝  do you even know what it does to me?  every time i see you cry,  any time you’re hurt even the smallest bit it just— do you realize how deeply you’ve imbedded yourself into my heart?  ❞

❝  i don’t feel like a whole person without you anymore.  i don’t fucking care if anyone else would say about that.  you’re part of who i am now.  the most important piece of me.  ❞

❝  every time you walk away you take another piece of me with you.  ❞

❝  i’m only really living in the moments when we’re together.  the rest is just existing until you look at me again.  ❞

❝  it feels like there’s a string around my heart and it’s connected to you.  everywhere you go you’re just tugging me behind,  pulling me towards you.  ❞

❝  you’ve got me in the palm of your hands.  you could crush me and i would still thank you for touching me at all.  ❞

❝  i no longer know where i end and you begin.  you’ve wound yourself around my soul so tightly,  you’re all i feel anymore.  ❞

❝  you’ve stolen my heart,  the least you could do is tell me what you intend to do with it.  ❞

❝  i don’t have perfect words.  i’m not the kind of person who knows how to sound poetic and shit.  so all i know what to tell you is that i belong to you.  i don’t know if you want me.  but i’m yours.  and at this point however it is you need me,  i’m here.  ❞

❝  you’re the only thing that matters anymore.  i can’t eat,  i can’t sleep—  all the goddamn cliches from every stupid movie and song.  you’re all i think about.  i’m useless except when i’m yours.  ❞

❝  i haven’t stopped thinking about the way you laugh.  i’m hoping i’ll get to hear it again.  ❞

❝  when your eyes are on me,  i feel like something worth seeing.  ❞

❝  just let me look at you for a little bit.  ❞

❝  i would do anything for you.  all my lines and rules.  they mean nothing when it comes to you.  it’d cross and break them all just to make you happy.  ❞

[s4kasaki]

please guys. request. now.

[s4kasaki]

KANATA SHINKAI NAVIGATION SO TRUE

absolutely 😈

[s4kasaki]

oh my gosh keehl your blog is so pretty !! the masterlists, your layouts— literally everything. teach me your ways 🙇‍♂️

YOU MAY NOT BE ABLE TO TELL!! but you're some of my inspiration to the masterlist(s) :cry: .. but ty jazzie.. it took like 3 days but we finally did ITTTT!!! so happy..

[s4kasaki]

rules . .

★ ) I will not be writing nsfw here, I will occasionally write angsty subjects. In terms of angst / sensitive topics there are some I will accept and won't accept.

☆ ) this is an ensemble stars based writing blog, for the most part. I will edit here and I will make layouts and all sorts of things.. but for the most part, it's a writing blog. although; I doubt I can write for every character with complete accuracy, so excuse me I'm still getting better at that— I will occasionally write for other things here if I know about the media a decent amount .

☆ ) I will write; fics, platonic or romantic relationships, hcs of the sort. fics often require a tiny scenario that you expect to happen if you dont ill write with my own set up im head! though, re-requesting are always fine♡︎

★ ) although, I am a college student so request may be slow! and sometimes I may just hit writing block so bare with me.