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How long is a normal time to be sad about someone you were never even with

March has come and gone and 12 hours around S was more like 6 hours but unfortunately it made things worse cause he’s a funny, sweet guy. Stories I keep hearing keep endearing him to me and honestly it’s getting a bit bad I’m dreaming about him. Even in my dreams we’re not together but he knows and it’s lovely to my entire family.

Idk how to make this go away while spending so much time still with everyone… it’s actually getting really hard to stay normal and not tear up whenever something around me happens or a story’s told because of how sad I am I ruined things.

This all feels so one sided as well because I don’t know if he’s even is or was interested in me all I know is maybe he was.

Anyway, I think it’s been a year or so and I’m still going in circles about this guy and really it’s based off of nothing just hypotheticals.

I had a realistic dream S and I were together and happy and woke up kind of shell shocked so I went for a walk in the rain

How do I get over this quickly before March when I have to spend a whole 12 hours around him

Okay so S met someone on nye and they’ve been seeing each other since…. It’s literally none of my business and I have no right to be as sad as I am about this yet here I am

I feel like I need to spend a day crying or drinking or idk I need to do something about anything

I think I’m actually really sad about just being another bitch with a crush on him

What a mess

Okay so S was at the same place (that he never goes to btw) my friend was telling me to come out to and I decided last minute not to go…. Idk what kinda sign this is but I thought I already decided enough is enough I can’t keep spiralling over someone I barely know who’s also my best friends cousin?!?!????

Why does a compliment from an ugly coworker send me into fight or flight

I have decided that I will no longer be devastated about this whole S thing and just get over it!!!

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how it feels knowing that loneliness is still time spent with the world

Hey siri what’s it called when you know you’re probably gonna fall in love with someone that you kinda know but you don’t want to so you avoid them at all cost and if you can’t then you keep your distance but now you’re a little sad cause you could probably be really happy with them but now you have no idea if your feelings are real or not because you immediately started avoiding them as soon as you got an inkling of feelings but there’s so many instances where the universe is telling you this is your person