Not New Just Relapsed / 08/2022

Sam. They/Them. 21y/o. TW! Relapsed after 3y of recovery. ED,BPD.

[saem1s-struggling]

Kurz nach meinem letzten Post bin ich in der Klinik gelandet. Für 5Monate und darauf folgten weitere 4 Monate mehrmals wöchentliche Therapie usw.. Das war vor 3 Jahren. Heute hab ich 25kg mehr auf der Wage. Kann so nichtmehr weiter machen. Seit einigen Wochen kommt die ES stärker zurück. So am I.

[taralyn-k]

Whatever the problem is; the answer is not in the fridge.

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[saem1s-struggling]

!!!!!

[saem1s-struggling]

“Wenn du nicht liebst, nicht schläfst oder traurig bist, das interessiert keine Sau, aber wenn du nicht isst, dann bist du superkrank.”

-Emma, Club der roten Bänder

[makingmybodygreatagain-deactiva]

Why is every therapist naturally thin and conventionally attractive lol

[iwillbecomethin]

What goes on inside of my head…

I haven’t eaten anything in 13 hours

I barely eat, how am I still fat?

Does anyone else in this room have bulimia?

Maybe I would look good in clothes if I wasn’t fat

I’m not thin enough to have an eating disorder…

I should look at more thinspo

Why does my face look so fat

I just want to cry

Do I exist?

Wait so if I ate 346 calories today…

Did I drink enough water?

Should I binge

I’m never going to be thin

I bet she could be a model

Why did I binge the other day

I probably gained weight

I wish my face wasn’t so chubby

Would anyone care if I dissapeared?

I would have more freinds if I was skinny

My freinds eat all the shit they want and they’re still thin…

I should purge what I just ate

I should start a fast

My thighs are huge

Oh my god she’s so pretty

I wish I was as thin as her

Why are my boobs so small?

I’m hungry…

I should go drink some tea

Why do I look so bloated?

I am a mess

What even is the meaning of life?

There is no point

Maybe people will want to talk to me when i’m thin.

Food is like a drug

I should just starve

[autumn--leaf]

🍁 Reminder 🍁

One high calorie meal isn’t going to make you fat, just like one low calorie meal isn’t going to make you thin.

[saem1s-struggling]

If u wake up at 3am and cry bc in ur dream u ate a hole chocolatecake and ur scared af to gaining. Girl! It's just a dream! U can't gaining weight if u r eating in ur dream ! Keep safe in reality and dream from food! It's okay

[saem1s-struggling]

Warum bin ich nur so wie ich bin?

[rainydaysinseoul]

✨Excuses✨

These are my excuses to not eat.

1. I already ate with *Friends Name*

2. I’ll eat later

3. I’m still full from lunch/breakfast

4. I’m not feeling well

5. I’ll eat at school

6. I’ll eat at home

7. I’m not hungry

8. I’ll eat at *friends name* place

9. I just finished a meal

10. Oh, sorry I didn’t know we’d eat here, so I already ate at home/school

11. I’m busy, i’ll eat when I’m done

12. My stumach hurts, I’ll eat once I feel well

13. I’m trying out this new diet

14. I don’t feel like eating

15. I don’t have money on me

16. I forgot my lunch at home so i’ll buy something later

17. I’m saving calories for later

18. I’m eating out later, so i’m not eating now

19. I lost my appetite

20. It’s too early to eat anything

[sad-starving-princess]

I use these a lot… it helps out most of the time.

[the-girl-who-escape-from-reality]

[goal-thinspo]

I hate and love my scale so fucking much

[saem1s-struggling]

Weil ein "wie geht es dir?" So viel mehr wert hat wie ein "wie gehts"

[becomingsmallandpetite-blog]

“Reblog if your stomach is too pudgy, thighs are too big, arms are too flabby, face is too chubby and you need to lose 5 or more pounds.”

(via becomingsmallandpetite)

[saem1s-struggling]

Jeder soll bemerken wie viel ich abgenommen habe und wie schön und dünn ich geworden bin

AUSSER MEINE ELTERN!

[untitled2987]

Imagine if you could be beautifully thin by Christmas.

( Only 3 months away… )

[saem1s-struggling]

Last goal this year 🙄🙄

[grandbudapestanna]

After a binge I feel like I don’t deserve to look at thinspo

[stuff-from-web]