*taps mic*
THANK YOU FOR THE COMMENTS AND IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU
I also wanted to put a disclaimer becuase I've been a bit worrying about this and wanted to make it clear: while I love your longer comments and analysis, if it ever starts to feel to you like a chore or homework, do not feel pressured to always keep them idk a specific length or something. I love it, yes, but also I love it when you enjoy reading and I would be sad if i.e. your brain started associating commenting under my stuff with a chore QwQ not to say it is like that! I was just thinking about it and tried to put myself in your shoes and I realised if I was you, there would be a risk of such thing happening.
If it doesn't and commenting like that is fun to you - I'm glad, happy, deligted to see that! If at any point it becomes uncomfortable, I wanted to say for whatever it's worth-no pressure from me and full understanding <3
That being said - I was also away, travelling for BTS concert so the last 1.5 week was insane in terms of socialising. My social battery went depleted many times over :D but it was worth it!
From the bad side, I did not have the time to write as much as usual QwQ
And I still need to read GSGW in full QwQ so many things to do!
How have you been? And what's it about ORV, are you adding new fandom to your list? ^^
MWAHMWAHMWAHHHHHHHH YOURE SO SWEEET WAAAAAAAAAAAAAH\!!!!!
Disclaimer understood! Thank you for the concern <333!! but also sorry that you've been worrying about that D:
I'll be really honest, just for clarity (I'm just spitballing here, so sorry if this doesn't make much sense), at some point I did get a bit exhausted writing comments.
Not because of their length, though! In fact, when I first started commenting on your works, I was so scared they were too long and annoying LOLOL
and the comment lengths have no bearing to me ehe! I'm very prone to yapping when I'm passionate abt something!
In fact, if I did vms instead of comments they'd prolly avg around 15-30 minutes of straight talking lolol.
'Twas because, as you may know, my sleep has been pretty non-existent recently-ish. And it got considerably worse over the past 1 - 2 months! So doing anything really was. Extremely Difficult since I barely had any energy to do any self-care-- or even get out of bed for that matter (hence disappearing in the first place).
Reading and writing down my thoughts doesn't take that much time since I'm a professional researcher atp (my skills harnessed from anxiety-filled all-nighters and obsessive theory-making), but it was primarily the editing that really ground(? grinded??) my gears.
Not even the making things legible part, but purely the ao3 formatting lolol
Typically, I find editing in general fun, and I usually multitask so I don't get bored of copying and pasting <blockquote> over and over again,but who knew running on -98765hrs of sleep made things a gazillion times more difficult !
That, paired with some not-so-fun time (Family-related) Situations had me disappearing into the Aether LMAOOOO
Now, I'd like to emphasise that this mindset is not reflective of my ACTUAL attitude towards commenting or engaging with your works in general. I love doing it!!! I love sharing my theories or reactions to your sick af writing, and your replies are so sweet and give me so much energy ehehehe I'm really prone to getting bored when there's nothing mentally stimulating, but your fics are just. so perfect for my goofy goober brain I love them !! I love (critically) thinking!! and ur so talented <333!!! (Once again, ty for writing and taking the time and posting!! wAAAAAAAH)
It's just that other circumstances kinda drained the shit out of me and influenced me negatively. And genuinely prevented me from thinking. I now fully understand: head empty, no thoughts.
That being said, as I'm still recovering, I realised I should probably pace myself ^^;
So, it's likely that it'd take me much longer to comment and even read the latest chapters!
(I think this is primarily with TNO since I'm so fucking invested It's not even funny anymore. SHEN YUAN RUN!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH)
(atp it's not shen yuan anymore it's me AND shen yuan's pov except I'm the voice of reason screaming in his ears. but alas,,, it falls on deaf ears and I must watch as he goes through the Horrors </3)
But that won't change our interactions! Bec ur cool!!! And I want to get to know you beyond that! if that. makes sense? wah,,, I'm getting shy now....
ANYWAYS, I think that generally covers what I wanted to say? It's definitely not perfect, so please let me know if you need any clarifications or if the tone is off somewhere, but if I try to edit/rephrase things rn, this response is NOT seeing the light of day...
Okay! Serious moment over! Sorry for how long this is. I just wanted to clear the air.
Ah, the BTS concert! How was it?? Did you bring a sign?
One of my friends went, and she showed me some videos and the fireworks?? waoh.... I'd honestly love to go to a K-pop concert one day, but also I'd end up leaving hella early because London transport is already ass,,, but the influx of people coming from a concert??? hell no. (I think she even said the train stations were closed for a few hrs afterwards LMAOOOO i laughed at her very much :D )
Is it weird to say I'm proud of you for pushing through repetitive social depletion??? erm... hmph! I'm proud regardless! I hope you recharged well <3!!! (Also, writing schimting! You, 1. deserve the break and 2. were doing smthn else that's fun!!)
Oh honey, you have a big storm coming (/ref). GSGW pt 2 had me crying so much..., though no rush! Just lemme know if you do (if you want!!) so I can laugh nefariously at ur reactions!! :P
Currently, present me (ignoring everything I've said previously lol) is doing okay! One could say that I'm very much chilling like a villain! Ty for asking!! Et tu???
*slams palms on a table that materialised out of nowhere* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ORV Have you read it?? I want to put Kim Dokja in a blender (Looky Mart Style). boil him in some soup. throw him in a washing machine and set it to the fastest speed. i hate him. i love him. he pisses me TF OFF. he's so !!!! to me. his name has even become a vocal stim (and yoo joonghyuks lol)
I laughed so much at the beginning while reading and now it is just Despair and "Kim Dokja ISTG" or me mentally getting a spray bottle and spraying characters in the face. The main victims are Kim Dokja and Han Sooyoung. I love them. But I also want to waterboard them (affectionate)
And I'm only on like. Chapter 355 or 356 out of. 551. So er. I've still got a while to go... (yoo joonghyuk save me King...)
ofc, I've already read some spoilers (and yes you were so right this fandom is kinky as shit i love it) so I'm playing a dangerous game of spoiling enough so I can read fics I find rlly interesting but also trying to avoid big, narrative spoilers that will fundamentally change the way I perceive the characters and the story as a whole.
the amount of times I'll be reading, and then I'm like:
"*lightbulb lights up ohshc style* :O!! oh! ... oH WAIT--!"
and then I'll have to hurriedly click off a fic before I start connecting dots. I just gaslight myself into believing that I saw and realised nothing :D
(Mind you, this is also similar to how I ended up spoiling Apothecary Diaries for myself :C I'm still waiting till I forget the Spoilers so I can continue watching:CCCC ) (It's been over 6 months. A baby would almost be delivered by now..)
Anyhow, because kdj is currently my nemesis--
(the way I'm talking abt him sm but he's not even in my top 3 faves... That honour goes to Lee Hyunsung, Lee Gilyoung & Shin Yoosung (they're tied) and Secretive Plotter because he's they're my day one!!!! (I'm desperately ignoring any and all Realisations I've had about them.) Though I also love some of the other constellations. They're MY parents now.))
-- I've also got several other novels locked and loaded in case I need a bit of a break from his. kdj-ness!
My sister bought me Lord of Mysteries book 1, and I'm pretty excited to get into it!
I glanced at the first page and oughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! yes.
... thats all I have to say.
Though that reminds me that I have so many other novels (primarily danmeis ) to read . Especially the ones chilling on my shelves but er..... yeah no I got nothing.
whew!!! I am now going to slink away to slumber! Have a good day or nigh!!! <333!!!!
