A wild shitty piece of writer Schizo Bird (aka Sahesha) appears in front of you! What would you do?
I should have introduced myself earlier, so now I'm fixing it! You can call me Sahesha or Axel. I'm 24 years old, and I live in Russia. My pronounces are currently (!) "they/them".
MY REQUESTS ARE CLOSED NOW!
Also, I have some mental health issues (DID and others), so I can go on breaks. I will warn you if my state would worsen and I would be unable to receive your requests.
My ko-fi page is here!
My tags (will be organized better later):
sahesha says: there I post some random thoughts or about different events in my life
schizo bird cries: there I complain about life, feel welcome to include this tag in the blacklist!!!
schizo bird writings: my fanfiction >0<
schizo bird drawings: some drawings just for fun
schizo bird answers: my answers to your asks and posts where I was tagged
schizo bird reads one piece: some manga stuff
daily doffy: about Doflamingo in the manga
my DID stuff: about our DID system's life
Other blogs:
@thissystemstillalive — our DID system blog.
@doffyholic — another blog I created after this one was shadowbanned.
I write One Piece stuff, although I don't think it will be interesting to anyone because my works are quite specific, haha.
They also can be pretty difficult to understand because first I write in Russian, and only then translate into English, which I don't speak exactly at the same level as, for example, Vladimir Nabokov, who knew both of these two languages perfectly.
This blog is more personal than dedicated to writing, so I recommend not to subscribe to it, LOL. Besides, here I think of Doflamingo too much, and it can irritate you, I guess. ;w;
And I do some icons here too! ^^
So far, I have some works (under the cut), links to which I'll leave here, but I hope that there will be more!
—MASTERLIST BELOW—
/// One Piece x OCs ///
"Childhood Memories", Chapter I, Chapter II — Donquixote brothers & OC Kai, a story about old friends.
"The Emerald Dove", Part I, Part II, some detailed headcanons (I'm not sure because it looks like a story) about Doflamingo's daughter in Luffy's crew.
/// Donquixote Doflamingo ///
works:
"Taking over", Doflamingo x Female Reader NSFW scenario; the night after the conquest of Dressrosa.
"The Summer God", Doflamingo x Male Reader, FLUFF!
"When whales scream", just a small story about Doflamingo; the last night of his reign.
"Just like animals", Doflamingo x confident Female Reader NSFW.
"Night Time", Doflamingo x Male Reader, Doffy helps his little boy fall asleep, FLUFF!
"The Chimera", another Doflamingo x Female Reader NSFW stuff; on level six of Impel Down.
"The Royal Assembly", Doflamingo x Female Reader NSFW scenario; size kink stuff.
"The Puppet Master", "The Puppet Master II, or The Missed Short Scene", Yandere!Doflamingo x Male Reader;
"Mirrors facing each other", Doflamingo x sub!Female Reader, NSFW.
"The Little Monster", Doflamingo x Male Reader, genre: fluffy yandere, lmao.
"The Boy and The Death", some creepy story about Doflamingo right after Homing was killed.
"Gold, Sugar, and Coffee", Doflamingo x Male Reader, FLUFF.
"Mallow means forgiveness", Doflamingo x Female Reader, some angsty stuff, NSFW in the end.
"Wild Card", Doflamingo x Male Reader short scenario.
"In Every Dream Home A Heartache" — a ficlet about Doflamingo's childhood; dark, sad & psychological stuff.
Harpy!Doflamingo x Axolotl!Reader (Gender Neutral) — a bit weird story about unusual creatures.
"Louder" — Doflamingo x Female Reader NSFW (in the second blog).
"Delicacy /// Bloody Supper" — Doflamingo just being Doflamingo; it's a dark story, (in the second blog).
"Gold made of blood, flesh, and bones" — Dellinger's birth; Doflamingo meets him for the first time. That's a dark story woth gore elements.
"Divine Punishment" — Doflamingo x Female Reader NSFW (foursome — Doflamingo in three persons, tying, gagging).
"Heaven Eyes" — Doflamingo x GN Reader; the reader almost died, but Doflamingo saved them, revealing his secret.
headcanons:
Some random thoughts about Doffy and his female S/O.
Some self-ship things my personal thoughts about him.
NSFW headcanons Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, "Part 4", "Part 5". What turns Doflamingo on, and what's he like in bed? Part 1, random facts and scenarios.
"Random headcanons", — just some stuff.
"My Doña": Part I, Part II, Part III, Part IV, Part V, headcanons (?) about Doflamingo x Female S/O who is a talented writer.
"Trigger Warnings Headcanons", Part 2 — addition to my thoughts about his psychological traumas.
/// Donquixote Rocinante ///
"The Soundless Love" — Rocinante x Female Reader, light yet still NSFW.
/// Trafalgar Law ///
works:
"The Natural Enemies": Part I", Part II", Part III", Trafalgar Law x Female Reader (Doflamingo's daughter) NSFW.
"The Distant Planet", Trafalgar Law x Male Reader (Law thought he was dead along with Corazón, but he's alive) NSFW.
"On the Other Side of the River", Trafalgar Law x Female & Male Reader (there are two different parts for female and male readers) NSFW.
headcanons:
Short NSFW headcanons, ;)
/// (Outlook) Sabo the Revolutionary ///
"The Fire Witcher", Sabo x Female Reader; she was taken out of slavery by the Revolutionary Army.
/// Dracule Mihawk ///
"Don't Move", dom!Mihawk x sub!Female Reader.
/// Marco the Phoenix ///
"Aren't you afraid of fire?" — Marco x NB Reader (slight NSFW).
/// Poly Relationships or Multiple Characters ///
"Sweet Dessert", Doflamingo x Male Reader x Law (kinky shit.)
Short NSFW headcanons, Vinsmoke Brothers: Ichiji, Niji, Yonji.
This has been rotting in my brain for too long and I need to prove that the parallels are not just in my head.
[ID: the first photo is vash the stampede making the love and piece sign, the second is don quixote rosinante making a peace sign, the third is millions knives from the manga shrouded in feathers, the fourth is donquixote doflamingo from the manga shrouded in feathers. End ID]
And also, we can compare them with Dante and Virgil from Devil May Cry game series, I guess. It's always been two brothers competing and/or trying to kill each other since Abel and Cain.
Some of Big Mom's kids are absolute freaks of nature I refuse to believe that they'd actually care that Katakuri's cheeks are scarred up and who the fuck would be bold enough now to talk shit to him and hurt one of his siblings ?
Also the fact that Katakuri and Pudding get treated like absolute monstrosities by their family for their appearances when some of Big Mom's kids are like... actual freaks of nature
Like look at Persopero's ugly ass. He looks like he should be on a registry or something like actually look at him
Then you got Mr Skeet Monster over here who everyone loves despite looking like a literal shot of jizz
This dude is literally a walking pumpkin. Like Big Mom actually popped a pumpkin put of her pussy
Dont get me started on this bitch. Why was the only thing he inherited from his mom was her child bearing hips ? He's a fucking scarecrow with birthing hips (I would still smash though)
But there's too many of them to get into how most of her kids are fucking freaky but you get the point, Katakuri and Pudding should be the least made fun of when a good portion of her kids look like they should be working at a freak show for ham scraps. Like how is she gonna tell Pudding her eye is ugly and that she should cover it when she has a fucking skeet monster for a son ?
I've just thought maybe they were both deliberately nurtured dysmorphic phobia in them by Big Mom. In the case of Katakuri, the man, with all his great power and Conqueror Haki, has to be obedient and humble to stay with his mother, and the suppression of his self-esteem by calling him ugly contributes to it. In the case of Pudding, she, the valuable specimen, has to exist in constant insecurity about herself and, therefore, she can never separate from Big Mom. It's a difficult task for abused and gaslighted children to leave their emotionally blackmailing parent because any child, even already adult, still waits for parents' unconditional love.
I rarely show up in Tumblr because there are too many happy people living their safe lives here while mine is breaking under the bloody boots of dictatorship.
hello I wanted to check up on you and ask how everything is going now
Russia has been waging a full-scale war for more than half a year against Ukraine. Mobilization begun in my country yesterday. Vladimir Putin, the «president», the murderer, the coward, threatens the whole world with a nuclear strike.
Last night I tried to kill myself. I found my old antipsychotics and ate a handful of them without drinking water, but instead of dying, I just fell asleep for a few hours and woke up even more miserable than before. Besides, my stomach and throat are sore right now.
I'm trying to get myself in order, pretending to be brave and open to the new day, but it's clearly not enough — I feel like I'm kidding myself.
Obviously, I can't cope.
We're always in pain physically and mentally, so we're (I mean all the alters of the system) always annoyed or angry, and it's — let's be totally honest — toxic. The ongoing war and the upcoming economic crisis don't add any peace of mind. It makes talking to us difficult to handle because we continue to hurt people with our behavior of a wounded and cornered beast. So they leave us alone, knowing perfectly well we're in great need of their help and support. We know that's their right because we're unbearable.
So that's the reason for ending me. Maybe it's better for us to stop existing.
I woke up after a relatively long dormancy (if you remember, I'm nothing more that just an alter from a DID system) and realized the whole world was still burning in hellfire, and the system was also in ruins.
Imagine if all this time the books that Doflamingo read (we know he likes to read) were on psychology and psychotherapy, and during the Dressrosa battle he was like: Law, you should work with your thirst for revenge, boy, it's toxic, it ruins you and your mental health.
Doflamingo: my love language is giving gifts 🎁🎁🎁, so I presented an adorable ✨pile of psychological traumas✨ to my beloved brother ❤️ and little Law 🍄 (!!!)
tw: a lot of tw; depression, mental health issues, suicide attempts, etc. — all my life is one big trigger warning.
What is my life like after graduating from high school: depression, psychosis, attempts to kill myself, psychiatric hospital, and again depression, psychosis, attempts to kill myself, hospital, depression, psychosis... ruined physical health, covid, cancer, war.
