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black | nondualism +stuff

[saidarling]

do you actually want this?

do you really want this?

and when i ask this im not talking about “your” desires, like everybody else is when they ask you this question, im talking about whether you’re truly up to accepting who you truly are. This anon from @/4dbarbie’s page explains it perfectly: for reference, Vanessa=character without desires, while Lara=character who has realised self with “desires” quickly following.

Notice how they said “Vanessa wants to be Lara, not pure consciousness” a lot of people make the mistake of getting attached to the idea of being their "Lara", showing 1: separation between them and Lara and showing how they still identify as a yearning Vanessa and

2: that they aren't getting what nd is teaching, the "goal" is to realise pure awareness and everything else will follow. If you guys treat nd like just another method to help the character they identify with, get their desires, they won't get far.

This isn’t a method, this isn’t the “way to get things quicker”, this is you realising who you are. And once you do, your desires won’t matter to you anymore, which is WHY they will materialise, the same way money will always show up for the billionaire who believes “money isn’t everything”. Because of your lack of attachment to the character of Lara, Lara is who you’ll be. But that comes with knowing who you really and truly are.

Do you actually want that, to know who you are? or is nd some sort of tool? first seek freedom, and once you are free looking at infinite possibilities available to you in the palm of your hand, you can select whatever character you’ll have fun with.

You don’t have to suffer like this, you wouldn’t be suffering like this, if you knew who you were because knowing who you are means absolute freedom, from everything, ESPECIALLY suffering.

seeking and finding freedom must come before the shift in the character and the dream

freedom first, obsession with “get” shows attachment to the dream

[4dbarbie-deactivated20230709]

So Ada!

For the sake of simplicity (for yours and all the Vanessa's as well) what you're saying is:

Stop concerning yourself with the wants and needs of Vanessa first.

Once you realize that awareness is everything and a person, the world, everything, is secondary, you'll be able to see that Vanessa and Lara are both choices of thought and memory, and you can entertain either at anytime?

I think that's what everyone keeps asking. Vanessa wants to be Lara, not awareness.

In reality you only need to stop thinking you're Vanessa entirely, and from there you realize that you can put Lara on like a coat if you, as awareness, want to. Do correct me if I'm wrong, I appreciate your wonderful insight!

You got it!

[4dbarbie-deactivated20230709]

TOUGH LOVE. SCOLDING RATHER.

How can you ask me "How to stop identifying with something?"

You STOP?

If you're driving to New York and realize halfway that you were supposed to go to New Jersey what do you do? You stop. Change destination. Why would you still go to New York if it's not what you want?

Again, why would you add Vanessa to the "I AM" if you want to be Lara?

You ask how to stop being Vanessa - the reason you can't stop is because it's ALL YOU THINK YOU ARE.

First stop thinking you're Vanessa.

You're driving a car. "I AM" is the car. You know how to drive it because you're already driving it by being Vanessa.

Vanessa is something you add to the "I AM" and not you.

To be "I AM" you have to refuse past and future because those are of the character, Vanessa is the one with a memory/personality/habits and not you.

You are, free of any label or concept (ie. space/time) you may choose to be conscious of.

You can't stop being Vanessa while being Vanessa? It's like you're asking me "well how do you stop being Ada", I was never Ada. I choose to express myself as Ada when I want but I AM NOT Ada. You are Vanessa and that's why you can't stop being her. All your "I AM" knows is Vanessa. Undo that. You're either your Self or your ego, you can't be your infinite being while desperately hanging onto Vanessa.

HOW TO STOPPP (the fact that the answer was already up but my asks are the same... are you sure you even want it?)

Disbelieve you were ever her. See what happens.

The body and the mind are only symptoms of ignorance, of misapprehension. Behave as if you were pure awareness, bodiless and mindless, spaceless and timeless, beyond 'where' and 'when' and 'how'. Dwell on it, think of it, learn to accept its reality. Don't oppose it and deny it all the time. Keep an open mind at least. Make your mind and body express the real which is ALL and beyond all. By doing you succeed. -Nisargadatta

But you don't want to stop, you want to "get things" in the world. You struggle to get and achieve things while projecting a world full of desires. You refuse to let Vanessa go, if you did you'd have your full realization right now. Keep being Vanessa until you get sick enough. I can't sell you your Self. All you're doing is for your Self. Vanessa hurts your real being with all its limitations. She is unnecessary. You don't need her. She needs you. You don't have to do anything to her. Just see that you are NOT her. DISREGARD. SEE YOUR SELF.

What are you without all the labels?

[4dbarbie-archive]

HOW TO STOPPP

[saidarling]

desperation shows lack of control

a post inspired by this lovely one by @99oscaars

Let’s be plain about it: Desperation shows separation

Desperation shows that you believe there is a force outside of you

Being desperate for things to “change”, or for a blogger to answer your dms or asks shows that you believe things outside of you still have some sort of power. If you are source and no thing or construct such as time or space exists outside of your awareness, the desperation makes no sense because you are the only thing that can make it happen. You are God. Not the youtube videos or tumblr posts that are apart of the experience created by YOUR awareness, but you, just you have the power

Still looking for answers outside of yourself, “I know i’m everything but…”

“i know i already have it but…”

no. that’s your ego convincing itself because you still see this as a method, your ego still thinks that if it says all of those things it you will get what you want. But if you KNEW these things about yourself, then that is what would be. Additionally, you must know that nothing in this world is fixed, so what are the “things” that need “changing”??,

if imagination is reality, don’t place your power outside of that, if you imagine that you need all these things, and that these bloggers words will make it click for you, then it will be so, you won’t have power because you give that power to others in imagination.

There is nothing to get, nothing to do. If you knew that you wouldn’t be so desperate. Desperation acknowledges an idea that there is a force outside of you (which is flat out false) being the reason you don’t have whatever it is you want. When in actuality the only reason you don’t is your inability to see yourself for what you really are.

It’s the ego that is desperate for “proof”, it’s the ego that needs to rely on false senses to make up its mind, but the good news is the ego is NOT you. You are awareness, consciousness meaning you are everything and from that comes infinite potential, it isn’t you, the God that you are who is begging for a “sign” or for advice, that is the ego.

you are not a human bound by all these “outside” things, stop listening to the egos cries of desperation and stay calm knowing it isn’t you😌, the real you has whatever they want whenever they want, as they are everything.

knowing who you really are kills all sense of desperation

[iamthat-iam]

Appearances Story 👁️🪞

Chris is insecure about his body. He's been super thin most of his life, and his high metabolism makes it difficult for him to gain weight. He wants to have muscles and abs, but he hates the idea that he must work out to achieve this. He's never been the fitness type.

He turns to the Internet for answers. He opens the good ol' Tumblr app and looks up various appearance change success stories. He eventually comes across an ND blogger that says "just be aware of that appearance and it's done." That statement intrigues him, is it really possible to achieve this while doing nothing at all? It seems too good to be true! He decides to send this blogger an ask to get further clarification.

He asks "What exactly do you mean by 'just be aware of the appearance and its done?' Does this mean I do nothing? Or do I have to visualize? I'm confused."

The blogger responds with this answer: "It means there's nothing you have to do to achieve this. Everything that appears is nothingness at its core. You may think "this" is your "old appearance" but in actuality it's nothing at all. The moment you decide to be aware of this "new appearance" that's it. I'm sure you've daydreamed about this appearance which means you've already experienced it. Go within and see this to be true for yourself."

This gives him a lot to ponder. Is there really no old appearance here? Daydreaming is the same as experiencing in real life? How so? He decides to ask a follow up question.

"how is daydreaming the same as experiencing?"

The blogger responds with "What is always present when you are awake, asleep, daydreaming, or visualizing? Appearances are always changing, but what is THAT which is always there?"

Something clicked! I am always present whether Chris is seemingly awake, asleep, daydreaming or visualizing. The "I" that is being referred to here is awareness, THAT, or " "

I became aware of Chris with a muscular body, and I see how I am the body, the mirror, the room that Chris is in, and all the surroundings. Wow, it really is that easy!

[iamthat-iam]

I like the Sims analogy so I will use it for the sake of this post.

In the Sims, you create characters, you create their homes, you basically create their entire world from scratch! You decide the character's gender, what they wear, their personalities, what career they will have, you decide everything!

While this world that you created is YOURS, your true self is the creator. In the game, you may have designed a character to represent "you" but you understand that the character is not actually YOU! You control the character and make decisions for it, but you are the life and awareness behind the character, not the character itself!

The same thing applies to this dream-illusion world/universe you are currently experiencing. You created the game, but you are beyond the game. The body is a character you are currently experiencing, but now you understand that it's only a character and not you! The body is as customizable, rearrangeable as it is in the Sims game. The world, the universe, being your creation, a part of you, is just as changeable, malleable and customizable as the Sims game!

This is all one big game, all under your control, and it's meant to be FUN!

[iamthat-iam]

Immortality 💫✨

This is no shade to any teachers specifically, I'm just pointing out something I've noticed in the community and studying the law of consciousness and non dualism.

Think about it. You're God. You are awareness and awareness is infinite. Even when you are asleep you never stop being aware, you are just aware of being unconscious. When the human body "dies" you aren't going to disappear, you are going to return to the state of awareness you were in before taking on a human body and going through life. You have always been here and will always be here. So technically you are already immortal.

But with that being said, when we are fully awake to our power, why do we still entertain the idea of the body dying? To each their own, I guess, but I know that for me, I don't feel like going through another experience of forgetting who I really am and going through life believing I'm separate from everything, searching for happiness outside of me. Conforming to whatever society tells me I should be doing or how I should live. That's exhausting.

The universe was created by you. The idea of death was created by you. So who's to say you can't drop the idea of death? Just like we've come to understand that time and space aren't real, just made up concepts to make sense of the human experience. Death isn't any different.

You can live (or rather, occupy a body) for as long as you want. You want to experience your dream life as (insert name) and live for 1000 years? You can do that. Want to live forever? You can do that. If you decide you get bored with your current body/ego and want to start over with a new life, you can do that too. But it's YOUR CHOICE. You have a choice in EVERYTHING.

Nothing is above you or outside of you, there are no outside forces, including death, that you must abide to or accept. Period.

[ms-jaeger-deactivated20260414]

i usually dont reblog any posts other than 4dbarbie (to avoid other ppl overconsuming on my acc), but THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN THINKING RECENTLY!!! like whenever im reading lester or any other teachers, they (usually) have this idea of the body HAVING to "die" (in the sense of having to have an end) but it always seemed like a contradiction to me?! if anything, consciousness would be an immortal thing (even the concept of immortality is false, but for the sake of this post im using the word anyway)

[saidarling]

some wise words from twitter,

although many creators, along with myself, will use the word “manifesting” for the sake of putting this concept into words, you are never truly manifesting per say, this is because there is nothing to get, you desire nothing and have everything in the palm of your hand, your only “job” is to be

[4dbarbie-deactivated20230709]

I understand that there’s nothing to “obtain”, that a version of everything already exists out there. But myself, and as I can imagine many other people that are on tumblr, wanna experience it firsthand. How do you go from knowing that you have it to experiencing/living it?

You understand nothing.

You know nothing.

Your "know that I have it" is persuading the hell out of Vanessa, drilling thoughts into her head and desperately trying to get her to accept them.

Knowing is being. If you really knew, the thing you knew would be materialized. You know you are Vanessa so you're being Vanessa. And you'll continue to only know and be Vanessa if you insist on manifesting/getting things because there are no things to want. Would you want Vanessa if you were her? No. You are her so you don't desire her. And you won't be able to be Vanessa 2.0 if you don't shed this Vanessa first. That is, let go of thinking the thoughts are yours.

There is nothing to desire and you can only have by letting go of the thought that you don't. And that thought is close to impossible to let go of from the standpoint of being Vanessa because she'll continue to hang on it, it is her. Even if Vanessa lies to herself like you did right now & says that she knows she has it, she obviously doesn't believe that if she's trying so hard to achieve it.

You don't try for what you are and you're either Vanessa or your self.

[gnosticdreamer]

☥ you are a goddess

the universe bows down to you, it always has. there is nothing between you and your desires for you already have them. in mere seconds everyone caters to what you want. the earth itself reshapes it’s mountains to your requests.

you are never, ever, the victim

you are full of love, power and life. it flows through your very being. to deny your authority would be blasphemy infront of the entire world.

[angelsafa]

whenever you feel stressed , sad , angry or basically bad because something is “happening” in your life to “you” , remember that this is NOT your life . this is just a character’s that the I AM is aware of and it can be changed instantly once you stop identifying with it .

blessings !

[4dbarbie-deactivated20230709]

Do you mean to abandon desires and that there is nothing to want because you already have / are everything? I really like your posts but when I get to parts that say things like that I get confused

YESSS. It's so silly to desire!!! There is nothing to desire! Life is so beautiful! And it is entirely what you want it to be! Why create "I want" instead of "I have" and "I love" ?!?! There is no world, you guys don't take me literally! There is no thing at all! You make it up!!!! Make up one full of the best you can think of! There's nothing to want or be afraid of!! Existence is soooo exciting, so crazy good, you are limitless and boundless and you GIVE life to everything! There is nothing to be sad about, you ARE and you are creating the life of this body and all the other bodies. Gosh it's so beautiful to be.

[4dbarbie-deactivated20230709]

The major steps are first, becoming aware of the fact that we are master over matter (and matter includes the body). Then, the second major step is becoming master over mind. And when we become really masterful over mind we are able to and we do let go of mind and operate in the realm of omniscience, in the realm of knowingness. Then we are fully aware of the infinite Being that we are, and are in the ultimate Happiness. We should start with the first step, consciously controlling matter. Whether we are aware of it or not, everyone is controlling matter all the time. Whether one wants to be a demonstrator or not, he is. It is impossible to not be a creator all the time. Everyone is creating every day. We are not aware of it because we just don't look at it. We have demonstrated or created everything we have! Every thought, every single thought, materializes in the physical world. It's impossible to have a thought that will not materialize (except that we reverse it). If we think the opposite right after we have a thought, with equal strength, we neutralize it.

So this thing of demonstration that we are all trying so hard to accomplish, we are doing all the time, unconscious of the fact that we're doing it.

You are a creator, so long as you have a mind and think.

━ these were all Lester's words.

Predicting the Q&A that will follow and answering you these.

Q: Does that mean if I think my dog died my dog will die???

Ada: Did you take that thought to be true? What reason would you have to suddenly believe your dog is dead? No, thought materializes when it's absolute, that is when you think "My fridge is in the kitchen", you have no doubts or questions coming along with that, it's a statement you take as real. You think your fridge is in the kitchen, and so it is. You have no feelings regarding that, it is just a statement, it is just reality.

Q: Okay then, how do I make reality of me being Lara?

Ada: This is why I insist to see you aren't either. You can't let go of Vanessa now because you think you are her. Can you think of your fridge being in the living room while you're convinced it is in the kitchen? You don't even allow yourself to, if that thought comes into being - you brush it off, you can't take it for a possibility because you know the fridge is in the kitchen. If you really thought you were Lara, the way you think your fridge is in the kitchen, then that would be materialized with no question. Do you ask questions about Vanessa being materialized? No, she is. No questions asked. You may have all these big feelings about her, but she is because you think so so strongly in the first place, you never allowed yourself to doubt it. Stop thinking it is so and see. what. happens. This is why I insist on equal-mindedness toward all bodies/persons, because then you can just pick and have it be so instantly. Now you don't pick because you go back to dealing with all of Vanessa's baggage, because you think she is the All, the background, the source - and you need to work with that, change her thinking to change her reality. There's this have to, have to, have to━you can't let go of. But Self is not Vanessa.

Being your Self is having all the fridges floating in space, picking one and placing the fridge wherever you want with a thought.

Revert to your natural state and have any thought be absolute the way Vanessa in this moment is to you absolute.

[4dbarbie-deactivated20230709]

[defnotcasiquinones]

My Manifesting Guide

This isn't really a method or process; it's just stuff i live by

Know you have what you "desire"

DROP ALL PRIOR BELIEFS OF URSELF AND ACT AS IF UR COMPLETELY PERFECT 

HAVE A BRATTY, BITCHY, STUCK-UP MENTALITY

Imagination is the only true reality

[saidarling]

you are the master of the dream

a lot of you try and tell yourselves that you are all that is, and that you aren’t separate from who you want to be just for the sake of it, not actually meaning it. In the back of your mind you still believe you’re bound by the life you are aware of now. you’re bound by the physical in what you see everyday, the concept of time, of space, the laws of physics etc

but you must realise YOU created these concepts in the dream and created the idea that you must adhere to them and that you are a slave to them. So the whole “i need my dream life before *insert certain timeframe*” makes no sense because

1: There is no separation: since time and space aren’t objectives this means you have it NOW. you ARE it now.

and 2: ask yourself who is creating those deadlines? who is telling themselves that they don’t have what they want and they aren’t who they want to be, telling themselves they have this amount of time to get “there”, implying they aren’t “there” already. even the labels “here” and “there” fund this illusion of separation, as if it’s a journey, as if you are moving from A to B

you sound like you’re trying to outrun your “current reality” as if it has equal or more power than you

all of these: thinking you’re bound by time and physicalities, seeing your life now as some sort of default base and seeing what you want as so out of reach is just the illusion of separation. that you created

But what a privilege to realise this fact, this fact that you are creating the illusion and all the concepts inside it: it means there no deadlines to meet, no one to impress, no clock running against you, no one’s expectations to meet, no one to judge you. no one in competition with you. NOTHING you lack. NOTHING you are bound by.

please remember that there is nothing out of your control since you are the master of the dream

Because this is all you, all YOUR creation.

[divatakesontruth]

Desire, the last delusion to release

The incessant need to adopt anything we crown as better than ‘this’ moment is indeed a very seemingly strong and compelling feeling. All through life we spend most of our time wanting and wanting whether it be minor desire or large wants; the human experience largely encompasses desire. I’d argue desire is what drives us and gives us meaning or a sense of purpose.

However upon understanding that everything is Self/Awareness and all determinable others are made up concepts within Awareness, then the very concept of desire falls away with the dropping of all else.

It is extremely important to note that I am not saying you should find a way to stop desires—that attempt perpetuates the existence of a separate self trying to attain Self by removing everything not of Self. The very act of that is also to engage in the mind’s nonsense.

What I am saying is the interest in and the seriousness we give to desires should be ceased. Because if you think about it, it’s all a bit ridiculous and contradictory to give desires a special kind of attention while on this path. It just like everything else is but another appearance so why does this appearance need to be taken more seriously? Why does desire need to be considered something to actively pursue? Perhaps it’s because of how strongly it appears or because of how good fulfillment seems.

I find it all a bit unnecessary. To acknowledge a desire is to regard a story of lack of xyz to be truth, it is to single out a lack and give it life and ownership (both things you absolutely don’t have to do because the power to grant a desire yours lies completely in your hands) so to me, it’s like making up lies and then hypnotizing yourself into believing it. So so ridiculous isnt it?

Nothing is wrong with desires, nothing is wrong with the sky, nothing is wrong with sadness, nothing is wrong with anything however all these things are dream elements, mind narratives, fake stories appearing in Self carrying with it no truth and no implication. All they do is…appear. That’s it

So why do you hold on so tightly to lack? Why do you believe the stories of not having? Why do you think you need to achieve? Sure it’s all good fun and play but only when it’s seen as just that, play. If it is all play then there is nothing to take serious including desire.

I know someone would ask me “does this mean I have to drop my desires and be satisfied with my current circumstances?”. First of all, there is no such thing as a current circumstance; those are baseless ideas, second of all, I’m not telling you to stop having desires but rather to stop believing them to be ultimate truth. You need to be able to look at a want and see it for what it is; an empty appearance and then let it be.

You do not have only when you say you do not have , and this is quite a very obvious statement because if you do not accept lack then what brings lack into the observational experience?

Lastly the true joy and freedom of being one with Awareness comes from when there’s no attachment to anything that appears ( including the ‘I’) . I know now it may seem a bit grim but this is why directly experiencing Self is so important; when you see for yourself everything I talk about then there would no longer be place for argument or worry. Just see for yourself, taste the ready freedom of your very own Being