SailUncharted

Freshly obsessed with Chinese BL || they/fae || 18+

[sailuncharted]

💛about me | queer writer, i edit videos, JGY apologist, i love all the characters, big fan of everyone being human and making mistakes, i have a cute puppy

💛 AO3 | SailUncharted

💛 AMVs | SailUncharted

💛 fandoms | arcane | mdzs | interview with the vampire

💛 ships | jayvik | xiyao | lestat x being a slut

💛 ask box | don't you dare

[sailuncharted]

Dark Heir where everything is the same but Marcus's diary is one of those black and white speckled composition books with his name on the front in gel glitter pen

[heyhoneyfox]

"I'm lying to you but this sentence is technically the truth without context" is such a good trope. Like yes the way that I am spinning these words forms a lie but if you squint I'm actually not lying.

[sinallday]

I do not think I've ever read a series of books where the end of each book hits as hard as the books in the Dark Rise series do.

C.S. Pacat really knows how to twist the knife. This whole final scene with James in DR is gut wrenching:

Will felt the flickering of the past, old selves like shadows. It was difficult to breathe, the air heavy. “You said you didn’t remember that life.”

“I don’t,” said James. “But sometimes there’s—”

“—a feeling,” Will said. [...] James didn’t hear the admission in his voice. Instead the words seemed to draw them closer, as if they were in a bubble, the only two people in the world. “My whole life, all anyone’s ever wanted was to possess me,” said James. “The only one who ever set me free was you.”

And if that wasn't bad enough, it gets exponentially worse:

“I may not carry his brand, but he . . . He’s burned into me.” James’s eyes were very dark. “He branded himself on my soul. They called him the Dark King, but he was a bright flame, and everyone else, everything else is just his pale shadow. I was Reborn, but I lived a half life. It’s like this world was a blur. No one else was in focus. Until you.”

Building to this final gut kick:

“You made me believe he could be beaten. You make me believe—” James broke off. “The boy savior. I didn’t think you’d save me.” James’s smile was painful. “I thought Simon would bring the Dark King back. I thought the collar would close around my throat. I never thought I’d be free to choose my future. But I am.” In the quiet of the room, his words seemed to twine themselves around the beats of Will’s heart. “Simon and his father . . . they had a dream of ruling a dark world, and they told me there was a place for me at their side. But I don’t want to follow them,” said James. “I’m here to follow you.” His eyes were bright, his lips smiling, his hair gold in the shifting light from the fire.

Will said, “Of course you are.”

The atmosphere is both enticing, frigthening, and so so sad. You can feel Will's self loathing. That he hates himself for his desire for James. Because he knows he's decieving James. That what is happening here is exactly the opposite of what James has been struggling for years to obtain. But he can't turn James away. He simply cannot make himself do that.

And James? James really thinks he's free. He thinks he's broken the pattern, that he is finally making his own fate. Ugh. It hurts so beautifully.

I'll have to do another one of these for Dark Heir, and then Dark King when it comes out. Since there is supposed to be a happy ending there, maybe it will turn this pattern in its head?

[sailuncharted]

Brothel AU! Brothel AU! Brothel AU!

Sorry this reply is so late, my only excuse is brain wouldn't let me tumblr for some reason

“It is true that your mind is very valuable to me, my clever peony, but I prize many things about you.” He dragged his fiery eyes across Jin Guangyao’s body. They burned away the layers of fur protecting him until he was left bare and exposed. “Remember, if you are not satisfied by the offerings they have, you are always welcome in my rooms.” Jin Guangyao bowed his head, the heavy beads sewn into his braids pulled at his hair. “I will remember.” “It’s your turn. Hurry and move.” Wen Ruohan sat back, his concentration once again on their game. With a nod, Jin Guangyao placed his black stone down. The lead he’d given Wen Ruohan was wide enough that he could ignore the rest of the game in favor of his troubling thoughts. He kept his face impassive as panic clawed its way from his stomach to pound against his chest.

AU where Jin Guangyao isn't there to save Lan Xichen after the Cloud Recesses burn, so Wen Ruohan wins the war and Jin Guangyao is stuck as his head torturer. As a prize for winning the war, Wen Ruohan is burning all the brothels of the land (after sampling them of course). It's in one of those brothels that Jin Guangyao finds Lan Xichen after all these years.

[artistformerlyknownasbutttrumpet]

no i don't want to use your ai assistant. no i don't want your ai search results. no i don't want your ai summary of reviews. no i don't want your ai feature in my social media search bar (???). no i don't want ai to do my work for me in adobe. no i don't want ai to write my paper. no i don't want ai to make my art. no i don't want ai to edit my pictures. no i don't want ai to learn my shopping habits. no i don't want ai to analyze my data. i don't want it i don't want it i don't want it i don't fucking want it i am going to go feral and eat my own teeth stop itttt

[queerofthedagger]

mutual pining simply never misses. the yearning. the stupidity. the desperation while also thinking themselves alone with it. the rattling relief at the revelation. the way it works in so many scenarios— friends to lovers? a banger every time. casual hook-ups/friends with benefits while they both want more? show-stopping, spectacular, incredible. enemies who are so deep in denial it just makes them madder at each other? utterly unmatched every single time. slow burn, fast burn, burning while already fucking. mutual pining really just is that girl like truly who does it like her

[sailuncharted]

Friendship break ups hurt more than romantic ones and I'm not okay

[sailuncharted]

Can't stop thinking about Will's cunty little "I think he might very well kill someone for that." About anyone sharing a bed with James, even platonically

[maikhiwi00]

What happened? I... I just saw san-ge— no, I mean... I saw Clan Leader Jin's hand reaching behind. I wasn't sure if he was going to... if he was going to...

THE UNTAMED (2019) — episode 50

[sparvverius]

i think i have a harsher take on nmj saying "what else should i expect from the son of a whore" than other nmj enjoyers. studiers. scholars. w/e. which is that i think that it wasn't just the qi deviation talking. nmj at the end of his life is barely recognizable but all the flaws that qi deviating brings out in him were always there, just held in check by his better angels. in his right mind he would not have burned nhs' things or stood by uncaringly as nhs burned himself trying to save them, but he did threaten it. it was a real locus of conflict between them. all the philosophical and practical conflicts between himself and jgy that terminate in nmj being consumed by an all-encompassing need to turn him to mincemeat #butcherreference were always there, he just thinks they can be overcome or that jgy will "come around". why would this pattern be broken at such a crucial moment?

at the beginning of the nmj empathy sequence we get an impression of him as someone who does sincerely care for the common people even if he's not exactly capable of interacting with them himself. the fact that meng yao also cares for them (and is good at interacting with them) brings him to nmj's notice. he repeatedly sees people as equal to the point that it becomes a problem when he refuses to take into account that others might find themselves with significantly limited options, that he's sort of "class-blind" and therefore can't make exceptions for jgy, that he helps him in ways that could have backfired, that he doesn't notice that when he makes meng yao serve tea he's exposing him to constant reminders that he's considered "unclean", that he finds the wen siblings culpable because they didn't try to *checks notes* die uselessly, &c &c. even the conflict with jgy that he just can't let go of is based on his suspicion that jgy thinks that his and nmj's lives are more valuable than those of the nie cultivators jgy killed to save them both, and in the lead-up to the stairs kick he accuses him of thinking he's more noble than them, that he's different from them, and takes jgy's confirmation of specifically the latter as evidence, though what jgy actually means by this is left ambiguous. that nmj's combined strength and flaw is to see equality even when it's not there is 100% lxc's view. for a long time i think jgy believes it also, or at least wants to believe it. maybe his faith in it starts to slip when nmj repeatedly slides back into calling him meng yao. but either way the turning point imo is that when he's pushed far enough, when he's lost enough self-control, what does nmj do but kick jgy down the stairs and ask him what else he should have expected from the son of a whore. that's the statement of someone who, somewhere in his heart, always thought of jgy as lesser. and that's when jgy decides there is no longer any reason to try to help or reconcile with nmj. the only way forward is to kill him.

the stairs kick is also significant on its own imo. this is the third time that this has happened to jgy--the second time obviously being on his father's orders, and the first, revealed only at the end of the novel, when a john who is a client of his mother's who got violent with her when she tried to get him to pay more than he thought she was worth, fights him off when he tries to intervene in her defense. in both of those cases there's a clear pattern, which is that an abusive person with significant power over him uses violence to put him back in his place, to literally push him beneath them. the third time is the incident with nmj, and i think that at the very least this is telling us how jgy sees this incident. nmj = father = violent john = the thing that will always try to prevent him from rising up in the world or asserting his own value--or, for that matter, his mother's. it's also worth noting that if we go off the timeline established in the villainous friends extra, this happens shortly after jgy also gives up on and resolves to kill his father. nmj and jgs slide together into the same category as the john when jgy gives up hope that they can fulfill his only other model of "man with power over him" which is the fantasized image of his father from his childhood, who would truly see his value and elevate him, a role which at different times both nmj and jgs promised to fulfill. (mayyybe lxc avoids fully falling out of this category into the former one?? though his inclusion within the latter category is. obviously damaged.) now is this FAIR to nmj? obviously not. he's not in his right mind when he does it and the person he is when he is more in control of himself is so much better than jgs and the other guy it almost renders the comparison absurd. i'd bet that jgy knows this on some level. but that it would feel terrible to him i don't think i need to defend. to him, this is nmj showing his true colors. that much i don't think is subjective interpretation i think it's pretty intentional and obvious. the part that is subjective and controversial and that i don't think everyone needs to agree with is that i think that even though nmj is better than the others we are supposed to read jgy as pretty much right, to read a kernel of truth into the comparison. he is better, but when it comes to jgy, he's not really different.

i don't mean this as character bashing and i think that there's actual interpretive stakes in this view, namely that the moral absolutism nmj is an avatar of isn't just fatally at odds with reality, it's impracticable. nmj thinks that he can see everyone as equal and exist above social bigotry, can act as though it doesn't exist, and lxc, for all that he thinks this is wrong and misguided, agrees with him that that's what he's doing. but he's not. he can't. that bigotry creeps in anyway. he is just like all the rest. so is lxc. so is everyone.

[maikhiwi00]

episode 4 // episode 23 // episode 40

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[sailuncharted]

re: wip game

The Middle: A Tale for a Unicorn

oh snap I like unicorns what is going on here?

Things must happen when it is time for them to happen. Quests may not simply be abandoned; prophecies may not be left to rot like unpicked fruit; unicorns may go unrescued for a very long time, but not forever. The happy ending cannot come in the middle of the story. ― Peter S. Beagle, The Last Unicorn

Snow fell in great flakes. They caught in his lashes but did not stick, just as mud and rain did not. Indeviel stood on the edge of the world looking down at the human plague.

It's the painful tale of a unicorn left behind by his world and stuck in the human one. A bit Last Unicorn, a bit womp, a good amount of how a unicorn becomes corrupted 😌

[sailuncharted]

Will and Violet Slumber Party... you can't dangle that in front of me and expect me NOT to ask about anything you would like to share👀

The draft for this is empty, it is only idea and title, BUT it's gonna be about Will and Violet saving Marcus with some background Justice and Marcus reuniting! I think they should get to kiss as a treat while Will and Violet have slumber party shenanigans with their candles and swords while also teasing Cyprian XD

[sailuncharted]

WIP ask game

RULES: Make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous, and tag as many people as you have WIPs. People send an ask with the title that most intrigues them, then you post a snippet or tell them something about it.

WIPS:

The Middle: A Tale for a Unicorn

Will and Violet Slumber Party

How Small the Flicker of a Soul

Levanter

Brothel AU

Send an ask about any or all that seem interesting! Some are more done than others but I'll do my best to give little tidbits~

Tagging @twilightarc-gm @fckbtchs3 @jawnlmafuntimes @pengabubbles @yeliuxi @unabellaguerra

[quelmdn]

More Anharion and Sarcean ✨🌘

[fancysmudges]

black or white?