Dear Life

The thing about being an adult that no one tells you growing up is that you don't feel like an adult. All your stupid insecurities and anxieties are still there, only you feel more stupid and insecure about being stupid and insecure because you're not...

[fallbabylon]

a mummified hand of a Kappa sits inside a temple dedicated to these legendary yokai in the Kappabashi Dori area- Sogenji Temple, Tokyo Japan

Sōgenji Temple (Kappa-Dera)

[leedxngmin]

Cha Eun-woo as Kwon Seon-yul

↳ wonderful world episode 5

[eunwooverse]

CHA EUN-WOO as Jin Seo-Won A Good Day To Be A Dog 「오늘도 사랑스럽개」 Ep. 12

[sakurenai]

me

I think I cant handle strong vibe, intense flavor and overwhelming feeling. Something that is not soft. I cannot continue to sense it.

[sakurenai]

I am not a soldier.

I quit. I could never win the battle over a wall made of a lie. I mean who am I? I am just a wanderer. I mean a lie should be defeated by a truth, if only someone greater will listened. Anyways, what that kind of person was a good reason for my escape.

I'm a loser, I know. But I'll never sleep soundly at night if I always worry what will happen. Plus I think it is not a job for me.

I'm on my mid 30's but not giving up on life.

[sakurenai]

Starting again at age 36

Let me tell you that it is not easy.

At first I thought that changing the environment of my easy but toxic job was a good choice. So i quit then apply at a different setting. At first it was very hard to adjust but I know it is normal. However as days goes by my overthinking works overtime than the filed of my job I was never settled, my fear became anxiety which I gain overtime in just a few days. I cried every night during my first month. I tried talking to my friends but it was never gone. It come and goes. So maybe if this will always happen because of how i think then I will never really live a life. So while facing this battle I tried searching for a different career that maybe I could live through. I found one but I need money to have such change setting. So I decided to go to war with such weak weapon. But i'll be brave and endure all this pain and fear. Hoping that i could go out in this environment. The story of my starting again is on the process.

[sakurenai]

you belong to someone esle

Oh its sad you belong to someone else when right come along (wish it was me the right one)...

[literaryvein-reblogs]

Another List of "Beautiful" Words

to include in your next poem

Avidulous - somewhat greedy.

Breviloquent - marked by brevity of speech.

Compotation - a drinking or tippling together.

Crimpy - of weather; unpleasant; raw and cold.

Desiderium - an ardent desire or longing; especially, a feeling of loss or grief for something lost.

Dyspathy - lack of sympathy.

Ebriosity - habitual intoxication.

Epitasis - the part of a play developing the main action and leading to the catastrophe.

Fantod - a state of irritability and tension.

Graumangere - a great meal.

Grimoire - a magician's manual for invoking demons and the spirits of the dead.

Hiemal - of or relating to winter.

Illaudable - deserving no praise.

Impluvious - wet with rain.

Innominate - having no name; unnamed; also, “anonymous”.

Juberous - doubtful and hesitating.

Noctilucous - shining at night.

Poetaster - an inferior poet.

Psychrophilic - thriving at a relatively low temperature.

Quiddity - the essential nature or ultimate form of something: what makes something to be the type of thing that it is.

Repullulate - to bud or sprout again.

Retrogradation - a backward movement.

Semiustulate - half burnt or consumed by fire.

Tenebrific - causing gloom or darkness.

Unparadiz’d - brought from joy to miserie.

If any of these words make it into your next poem/story, please tag me. Or leave a link in the replies. I'd love to read them!

[sakurenai]

Delusion

In my desparation. I search for someone that looks like you. Because atleast I will be thinking of him just a representation of you in my imagination.

[sakurenai]

"He’s torn with relief and fear. At once, he wishes for the lights to claim him and offer him relief from the pain he has been in for years. That deep darkness, that unending emptiness, he does not want to return to it. He could not bear making it out of this only to return to that. But on another hand – a hand that once belonged to a carefree boy – he craves life. The very tips of his fingers itch for it, digging into the dirt underneath him and seeking anchorage." ...fanfic novel ....the_lazy_eye

[sakurenai]

Jealous

I'm so jealous that they got invited at the birthday even though i am in the same floor with them yet i was left out. Jealous that they can bond without seeing me there in their side. Jealous they eat together while I'm starving for a little respectful attention. Jealous at them happy and sunny while I'm cold wet in the rain. Jealous capturing every moment of hang outs in a camera when suddenly I am out of the picture.

[sakurenai]

Intrusive thoughts

i wanna die... die... die...

[fairycosmos]

literally feels like a myth that there are people who don't struggle with basic tasks like getting out of bed or going to the shops or seeing a friend for coffee. how does everything not feel like a painstaking chore for them. how do they have the physical and emotional energy every single day

[stuckinapril]

my problem is i am a girl who likes the idea of doing so many things but in reality only has the energy to daydream about doing those things rather than actually doing them

[thehobbitchronicles]

“... because when you are imagining, you might as well imagine something worth while .” — Anne Shirley

[escapismsworld]

“Even when I'm alone I have real good company —dreams and imaginations.”

-Anne with an E🦋🌿

[thehobbitchronicles]

“because when you are imagining, you might as well imagine something worth while” — Anne With An E