i write

i write poems and other stuff and put it here as a way to scream into the void but know it goes somewhere and might help someone, somewhere.

[saltwaterroulette]

i miss you. i miss you so much that i curl up into a ball as i slowly drown myself in my salt water thoughts of how amazing you are, and how badly i want to see you

[saltwaterroulette]

I wasn’t even looking for love. I was trying to avoid it, in fact. All the cliches and the standard gifts never seemed my thing. all relationships looked the same, why would I want something everyone has? Something that was so similar to everyone? but then you came into my life. shining brighter than the sun, cutting crisply through the trees, bouncing off the reflection on the water. The cliches became sweet, because as standard as it seemed from the outside, as similar we looked to everyone else, to me you are the most amazing thing to ever happen to me

[saltwaterroulette]

when he falls in love with your best friend who’s personality you designed

[brokenflicker]

"You have no idea how much I want to hurt myself right now and I promise you don't want to know what's going through my mind."

— If you knew what I was thinking the cuts would be nothing

[saltwaterroulette]

do i like him or do i like the attention he gives me

[saltwaterroulette]

opening up to someone, trusting them, and finishing it with “so uhm, please don’t leave me” and having them say “i won’t” is one thing.

but then having them turn around and hurt you anyways is another, with an opposite feeling

[saltwaterroulette]

Being alone used to be a safe time for me. It was my favorite. But after you came into my life just to leave, the loneliness isn’t as comforting.

[saltwaterroulette]

we can hold hands and walk through aisles in the store or sidewalks on the streets. i’ll kiss you in the rain and hope that everybody sees. because i promise to love you. through thick and through thin. and ignore all those around who say that it’s a sin. because you’re my other half. and that’s not gonna change. so baby these rings, can we exchange?

- for my future wife

[saltwaterroulette]

I’m not afraid of the monsters under my bed. They’re friends compared to the ones in my head.

[saltwaterroulette]

I never thought I’d let it get this bad again.

[saltwaterroulette]

Last night, I dreamt that we started being friends again. That you truly wished the best for me and that you started to be there for me again to turn to and to trust. But then once I woke up, I was left with this indescribable feeling that is killing me inside

[saltwaterroulette]

It's been ten months without you here by my side. 

[saltwaterroulette]

The monsters of halloween are all fun and enjoyable up until they reside in your head

[saltwaterroulette]

I don’t need you. Not anymore.

[saltwaterroulette]

I always knew I was never your first choice. Maybe not even your second. But seeing you with the priority friend is tearing me apart

[saltwaterroulette]

I wish you could be here, next to me. Right now. I wish I could hold you in my arms and comfort you through all of this. I wish I could take away all your pain. I wish I could be your cure. But most importantly, I just want you here, next to me. We don’t even have to talk. I just want you here.

But you’re just so far away

[whoisg7]

Move on, we're not seventeen

I'm not who I used to be

You say that everything changed

You're right, we're grown now