I'm Here, I'm Queer, I'm Full of Existential Fear

Chloe | She/they | Queer | Covered in cat hair Formerly @themisschloe

[4damien]

Anyone can help!

(Real pen the last picture)

It is important for EVERYONE to know how to help ANYONE. Not everyone can give them selves their medicine under every circumstance. Be educated, help out.

In the last year, i have gotten about five new violent allergies from foods i used to be able to eat. Next time i eat a fruit, my throat could close. I may not be able to inject myself. My boyfriend and i played with my trainer pen for like 30 minutes. He knows how to inject it. I know how. This is important.

[ineffectualdemon]

9 year old me: mom you’re beautiful!

My Mom: no, I’m ugly. The ugliest. I’m a horrible pig of a person

Other people: (to me) you look just like your mom

Me: so I’m ugly

Now:

My 9 year old: mom you’re beautiful

Me: thank you! I don’t always see it very well in myself though because my brain lies to me a lot and tells me I’m ugly even though I’m not. But I can’t be ugly because we look a lot alike and you’re beautiful. My brain is just a bully 

My kid: that’s right! We’re BOTH beautiful!

​Me:​ yes we are!​​​

_____

And that my friends is called thinking about how your self depricating words can hurt other people around you. I can’t see that I’m beautiful most of the time but I can acknowledge that the issue is my ability to see myself in a positive way. 

But calling myself ugly just hurts the people who love me. It could even convince my kid that they are also ugly and further the cycle 

And sometimes it’s really hard just by saying “I’m being mean to myself because my brain lies a lot matters

[neveranyshame]

My daughter: “mama, your belly is chubby.”

Me, internally: ouch

Me, out loud: “well, yeah! Because I am chubby! But also because I grew TWO WHOLE BABIES in it, and that stretched it out a bit!”

My daughter, in the most encouraging tone possible as she reaches up and pets my belly: “it did SUCH a good job.”

And y'know what? Hell yeah it did. #rockon

[palemoondemigoddess-deactivated]

Wow, I never noticed how much my depression can affect others. I mean I knew it did to some extent, but it didn’t occur to me that it could change their own views of themselves.

[bogleech]

junk food is always better than no food

I’ve met people who will actually argue against this (and I suggest just blocking anyone who does) but if your choice is between going hungry and getting fast food or snack food….PLEASE JUST FEED YOURSELF. No food is actually bad enough that it’s better to skip eating entirely. Malnutrition is more dangerous, more immediately, and more long-term than any consequences of eating a damn twinkie or a cheeseburger.

[babababs]

remember in goblet of fire when minerva says ‘potter’s a boy, not a piece of meat!’

imagine harry telling her everything after the battle of hogwarts, telling her about how dumbledore raised him like a pig for slaughter, and how he had to die and mcgonagall gets so goddamned mad

she loses control for the first time that harry’s EVER seen and she’s actually yelling, she’s so pissed that harry was seventeen and he had to accept death and dumbledore KNEW he would have to die and NEVER TOLD HIM

and harry’s about to cry because yeah his friends would be devastated if he was gone but NO ONE got this damn pissed that dumbledore had raised him so that he could die at the right time and mcgonagall’s in the middle of a rant and he just shoots up and hugs her and she’s stunned into silence but after a moment she hugs back and it’s great

and then she goes up to her office and starts screaming at dumbledore’s portrait because ‘i don’t care if it had to happen, albus, he is a CHILD-’

[riverthunder]

This is the Minerva McGonagall content we deserve, and make no mistake, we were robbed

[wolfwars]

I still think it is telling that when we first meet Minerva, she:

Was waiting all day out in the cold for the mere chance of knowing Harry might be alive

Has been crying because James and Lily are dead and she loved her students, while the rest of the wizarding world is celebrating. 

Tells Dumbledore not to leave Harry with the Dursleys. in fact she’s even shocked he would suggest it.

So in just a few lines of dialogue we see Dumbledore is eating candy, asking McGonagall why she isn’t celebrating and saying Harry can’t be with another family because the ‘fame’ would get to his head?

while McGonagall is waiting as a cat against a cold wall all day, hoping to get some information that her dead student’s child is ok. she’s going through shock and grief. And Hagrid arrives, sobbing for Harry too. Minerva is actually very emotionally tied to Harry. Which is why she cries when he and Ron visit Hermione in the hospital. She loves her students.

[justsomeantifas]

me: hey you know how you can’t ration insulin because diabetic people literally need it to survive, and rationing it kills people?

the us government: yeah

me: so we agree we shouldn’t put people in positions where they need to try and ration it

the us government: what

the us government:

[justsomeantifas]

The disabled are being hit hard by the government shutdown

and medical care WILL REJECT YOU in the USA if you can’t pay.

[reembodied]

Reminder that a “government shutdown” magically just so happens to mean “only the services that actually do anything to help people live get shut down”, and that almost every multi-millionaire asshole in Congress is still pocketing their salary.

[zanestransition]

Summer swimming tip for trans guys and Non binary folks!

I almost didnt go swimming or to the beach all summer because of how anxious and uncomfortable just thinking about being in a wet t shirt and sports bra would make me.

But this company saved me. They’re called Outplay and seem to be mainly advertised towards females but not to the point where navigating the website is unbearable. The flatsea compression shirt is the most comfortable binder I’ve ever worn. Its thicker than a bathing suit but doesnt make you overheat and you dont stay wet longer than normal after getting out of the water either.

I got a size small and with high compression and couldnt be more happy with the results. Its comfortable enough to wear all day at the beach and is more comfortable to wear as a regular binder. My weight has also fluctuated while I’ve owned this binder and when my stomach was bigger the material didnt roll at all. It will run you about $65 (shipping included)for a great transitional binder and it seemed worth it to me.

[mothertimestwo]

There is also another company called Heroine Binders that have a complete swimming line that’s AWESOME

They are in fact having a giveaway now that you can check out here

[scream-me-to-sleep]

I hope it’s okay for cis people to reblog this in support. I just want to spread this for those who need it.

[romansleftshoulderpad]

@accidentally-logince !!!!!!! SWIM BINDERS!!!!!!!!!

[lesbianhaircut]

psych majors should be required to kick it with a mentally ill person for at least 80 hours just to be reminded that we are human and not experiments

[tempest-caller]

As both a psych major and a mentally ill person I cannot begin to tell you how many people I have met in my classes who make me concerned for the safety and health of mentally ill people everywhere, especially the young children who struggle.

[haleykynz-deactivated20210917]

My first psychology class was fucking wild. Put of around 35 of us only three (one being a close friend of mine) of us had any sort of mental illness. Intro Psych is mainly about brain development with only a small section at the end being about mental illness but Oh Fucking Boy did everyone’s weird ass stereotypes and fetishes jump out in the last chapter.

We were talking about schizophrenia and the one other girl with mental illness was a schizophrenic (it wasn’t known until this exact moment). We were talking about symptoms when someone just asked outloud, “Aren’t schizos like super likely to murder people though?”

I thought, okay, one guy still stuck in the fucking 80’s, whatever.

But Then A Bunch Of People Start Agreeing

And soon we were 20minutes into class and everyone had shared a case of a schizophrenic murdering, abusing, etc etc and They Saw Nothing Wrong With Thinking These Stereotypes Were A Standard

The prof finally stopped them and asked if anyone wanted to make one last statement and this poor girl just raises her hands and “I just thought you all should know that I’m schizophrenic and have never thought about murdering someone, nor have I ever hurt anyone apart from myself.”

And… no one apologized. They literally felt no guilt at all for bashing this girl.

The same exact thing happened when we talked about depression, anxiety, and ptsd.

“Ptsd is what soldiers get after war right?”

“Yeah sometimes, but anyone can suffer from it after a traumatic event”

“How would you know, are you the professor now?”

“No, but I have ptsd from a car crash that nearly killed me so…”

Like god damn I really fucking hate neurotypicals trying to satisfy some weird curiosity they have for “crazy” people or whatever it is like please stay like 3000ft away from anyone with a mental illness and never fucking talk to them dear god

[lytefoot]

So the Weasleys are the rare pureblood family that actually keeps some sort of track of their squibs, right?

Like, 11-year-old Ron knows he has a cousin who’s an accountant, even though he’s aware that it’s vaguely shameful.

So please consider: one of the businesses Fred and George ran out of their back room, in the early days after the Ministry fell, was creating fake family trees for Muggle-Borns.

Weasleys are already known to have enormous families, what’s one or two extra a generation or two back?

(Aunt Muriel is awful, but in the face of Muggleborn Registration, absolutely she’ll admit to having a couple of squib children she doesn’t mention in polite company, because who would, but she’s delighted to learn that magic resurfaced in their grandchildren, why are the men from the Ministry frowning when they deliver such wonderful news, and they can d**n well keep their boots off the carpet. A couple of Muggleborns the Twins kept out of trouble that way sent Aunt Muriel half-joking mothers’ day cards until the day she died.)

[invaderxan]

Heard some important information on Twitter today, and thought I’d post it here for anyone who may not have heard it. This is actually a thing, devised by human rights organisation called Karma Nirvana.

Reblog to save a life?

[theindependentconservative]

Reblog to save a life.

[libertarirynn-deactivated202006]

Sharing because it’s actually a verified and sourced thing and not one of those dumbass fake tip posts.

[lordfreemanofficial]

Fuck me thats clever, actually worth reblogging

[weavemama]

They pulled an “all lives matter” on the fucking Holocaust……

[theotheryongbok]

How the fuck y’all continue to deny the antisemitism in this administration is beyond me

[gigaguess-deactivated20181203]

Did they…mention the others?  The blacks?  The gays?  The Romani?  The handicapped?

No?

Then fuck you and fuck your all lives matter bullshit, you Nazi fucks.

[catchymemes]

“My mom painted this and said no one would like it. It’s her 2nd painting.”

“I painted somebody’s mom”

“Took a while and not perfect, but i painted the guy who painted the other guy’s mom”

“I painted the girl who painted the guy who painted the other guy’s mom who painted an egret”

[chinchela-art-deactivated202208]

This is so pure

[liathepenguinologist]

corn right corn at corn light

[lichen-soup-scribe]

first corn i see tonight

[megaceros]

gummy lamas

[megaceros]

And the less talented brothers

[pizzaotter]

I love them.

[sprachtraeume]

purple sis had NO reason to be like that except to draw attention to herself…… i love her

[the-memedaddy]

[janhooks-deactivated20191108]

this is the exact opposite of “for sale: baby shoes, never worn”

[icelikevinyl-deactivated2018010]

“coughing”

[anotherdayforchaosfay]

@fetus-cakes

[champagnepuppies-deactivated201]

[caseymeeks]

I never, ever want context for this.

[kuttithevangu]

If the ocean ever disappears DONT GO LOOKING FOR IT… go in the other direction

[purified-zone]

i know this sounds like a shitpost but isn’t this like, real advice regarding tsunamis

[kuttithevangu]

Yes this was about hurricane Irma it is not a shitpost

[eff-word]

This is actually really good advice so let me elaborate a bit: if you notice the tide is retreating very quickly at a very odd time of day, get as far away from water and as high up as you can. I live along the ocean and a long time ago we had a small tsunami and a relative of mine tells me how her father saw the tides retreating so he just picked her up and just ran, which probably saved their lives.

So yeah DONT LOOK FOR THE MISSING OCEAN just run away

[stuffandsundry]

ocean not lost, ocean is actually winding up to kick you very hard in the nuts.

[hamotzi]

this is a fat dog i drew a while ago at work while i was trying out a new tablet :’)