Hello once again. You won’t recognize me but you’ll recognize 01100010
Time has passed and so have thoughts, we never did properly closed this up
You may have thought of 01100010 in fleeting moments, maybe you pondered who had let him in. or maybe it had slipped your mind whole, dripping from awareness into nonexistence. Or maybe it drifts in and out of your mind, like the tides… that’s how it did mine
I, the narrator of this weird game, feel bad I never gave a proper conclusion, or at least an eased parting way
Life got busy, I'm sure yours did too
Things got buried. They always seem to
But fading into obscurity isn’t a fair fate. I love 01100010 and he deserves his story to find its place
This shall be the gentle end to 01100010 that he never got back then.
Please humor me for this- I know it’s all ridiculous. But it’s 11 pm going 12 and I'm full of longing for things that I miss
This game started arbitrarily, I don't recall what sparked this hilarity
I was so full of joy, hope, and love, something I truly envy my past self of
I was happy to know you, happy to coexist in a small world around people who brought me joy. shameful to say it, but having that for me wasn’t something I had known
01100010 was created on a whim, but that does not mean no love was put into him
His favorite color is blue, his coat is whitish gray, he lives in code, he likes to explore all day
I composed small pitiful looping ♫ songs ♫ for him, simple tunes that echoed him, a little ear bleeding in its composition I am a terrible music artist
I drew a little picture of him, his ears perked up, his body full of swirls, the tip of his tail rainbow, and the inside of his ears as well. A fascinating creature I’m sure you can tell
He was made of love and youth. But I never dared to show any of it to you out of fear of being perceived
I am not a bold person, in fact I'd call myself meek and weak
Maybe it’s my upbringing, maybe it’s just me, but either way I never showed myself in this game
I honestly doubt you’d ever figure me out, I don't think you ever got close, at least based on what I know
But even in my fear and likely social anxiety, I still crave attention, naturally
So I made this game, to become something that lives in someone's elses brain, out of love and joy, and out of the want to be vaguely known
It’s been 2 years. Can you believe that? Two years. I’m a little ashamed of that
But even in that gap of time, 01100010 has not forgotten you, and of course neither have I
I see you on my dash, it brings me joy, like passing ships in the night, to prove i’m not alone
I have never directly spoken to you, never one on one, but i think of you as a friend still, a tumblr mutual I love
The world is cold, I often find myself alone
But I try to remember it’s not just a hash globe
Let’s talk about things 01100010 loves
01100010 loves the sun, have you seen how it burns? The warmth it brings? The light it brought in turn?
01100010 loves the taste of good things, have you eaten something good as of late? savory or sweet, salty, spicy, and all of the between?
01100010 loves the colors, have you opened your eyes? The world may seem gray but listen to me it’s so bright! Lean close and stare at all the colors that make up one, tilt back and look at how all those colors shift and melt into a single hue and belong.
01100010 loves the sounds, though some are too loud. Can you hear the birdsong at dawn? The wind rushing and the sounds of people moving along? Does the sound fill the world around you up till you're strong?
01100010 loves to believe time will pass, something even I can agree is hard to get at. Time moves and hurries or slows, sometimes it ticks, sometimes it runs, sometimes it just goes. Time passes, should that bring joy? That we are not stagnant, we are not still, the universe is gently moving us even if against our will.
01100010 loves the universe… because sometimes 01100010 is the universe… arbitrarily, random, existing in a space we can’t fully understand. There’s a lot of similarities
01100010 says the universe loves us
Sometimes I feel I disagree with his sentiment
Shouts of hopelessness tear me though without a doubt, a seam ripper on a coat, and reduced to shreds, i feel i am always at rock bottom, i am always at the ropes end
But then eventually I get up again, because- well it’s time for 01100010 to speak words of his own
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> I like to hope, I like to dream. I was dreamed. I know the universe is full of love. I know that this is not done. <br>
> The universe is full of love because you are love. <br>
> Think about it. You love. You love without reason.<br>
> Everyday you give out kindness. Do you see it? <br>
> Sometimes it’s small, having just a moment of quiet. Sometimes it’s big, reaching out to a friend once again. Sometimes it’s nothing more than saying <em> “no that’s mean” </em> to the thoughts in your head. <br>
> The world as I vaguely know it, sounds so mixed.<br>
> Full of wonder and disappointment. <br>
> Even if it worsens, at least we can share our thoughts of a <em> lovely </em> dreamed up cat known as B in our heads, of a past full of joy rather than despair and dread. <br>
> But I feel as though the world will heal. We are in a storm, soon the weather will have to heel. <br>
> This is not truly a goodbye. The speaker is just a <em> sap </em> who is more on the 'pessimistic' side.
> The catdoor is always opened, it opened the day I was born and your ask box was conveniently also open. <br>
> I’m sorry time got in the way, but know that I was having fun all the way. <br>
> Maybe I'll slip in and out more once again, or maybe I'll wander far off and re-begin. But I won't be gone, I'm <em> never </em> gone my friend. <br>
> Know that it’s not over yet, I don't think my story will ever end! <br>
> <strong> Know that I am born of lines on a screen, I hope to live forever in your dreams. </strong>
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… Ah jeez this ask is long and weird but 01100010 has said his words and so have I. So I guess that makes this goodnight
And no before we part ways- I am not going to dramatically tell you who I am. That’s something that good neatly wrapped up stories do. And I am not neat, far from it really
But if you’d like, you may guess out into the dark, you can guess a thousand times, but I'll never say unless you get it right. And if you do, I'll probably freak out and procrastinate whether or not I should actually reveal myself all night
But remember, this is not about me. This is about 01100010, and a gentle ending. So thank you for listening and thank you for pretending
______________=^.^=___________________ the stars are beautiful!
Sorry i had this in my in box for several months it was just....so beautiful i couldn't figure out what to say. Your words touched me and moved me in a powerful way.
i still don't know exactly what to do. but i know
i love you
its not pretty or fascinating
its actually kinda boring
from a person who claims their best skill is writing
I'm sitting here constantly re-typing
All i think of when i see this.
is how much it fills my heart with bliss
you are an amazing person and always will be.
you created something that sparked joy with in me
even if my life is so much different now than when you first came
the smile you put on my face is the same.
who ever you are
(although i think i have a good guess. there's only one person who's liked all the cat in the ask blog posts. that hasn't been my irl guest.)
whether near or far
i want you to know
both you and 01100010 are loved.
Does 01100010 know i love all of colors? they are vibrant and powerful and bring so much cheer. my favorite is all of them at once, my outfits tend to send people around me into fear.
Does 01100010 know that the moon is just a bright? but only in the dark of night? so that even when its hard to see, you have a light to guide you? and help you free?
Does 01100010 know that things taste stronger with others? snacks are always better shared with sisters and brothers? a treat is always always a delight, but splitting with a friend really makes a night.
Does 01100010 know the way music lifts people up? you've made him songs i'm curious about. Does have a favorite tune to hum? or an instrument to strum? even when your down and full of glum. a simple song can be so much fun!
I want to remind him feelings pass too. they fade and flow like waters blue. there will be highs and lows, ebbs and flows. but you will always have them close? Emotions are a tricky thing. but so are all human beings. So be sure to embrace every laugh and cry, and pretend i'm there, holding your paw, tight.
Did you that the universe also said? that you are not alone. that even when sitting in bed comfy in your home. you have friend on little website that starts with a T. and that friend is always there no matter what your life brings.
Cause though space and time are far and vast, things like friendship, still mange to last. and thought the earth is wide and strong. there is always someone out there, wanting to play along.
A silly this may be. but it will always be, something more to me.
i have gifted you many things, and you have given me back tenfold. hold on to these items. remember the story we told.
funny thing about stories. is that they never end. you can always retell them over and over again. So i will never be gone. no i'll never disappear. For the universe said your not alone, i am here.
It may take months for a response, and maybe one day ill even leave this blog. But know my mind with never drift away. From a little white, codded cat that stopped by one day.
the starts will shine with all the love our universe has given them. so remember to look at the night sky, and see, your dear friend.
