Summary - Youâre marrying the hottest F1 driver and donât want to wait to lose your virginity.
It had been a whirlwind affair where you caught Lewisâs eye and the man who once claimed heâd never marry, was suddenly putty in your hands. You dated for 3 months before he proposed and you could clearly see that heâd fallen for you. The once playboy was a complete gentleman. Maybe he was older and wiser? Or maybe he just wanted you like heâd never wanted a woman before? When you told him you were a virgin he seemed even more obsessed with you, and you were equally hot for him. But you knew waiting for your wedding night would just add to your nerves. Which is why you needed to have him before you said I do
Lewis had picked you up from your apartment and you were planning to have dinner at his luxury penthouse. You grew nervous as you watched him get some plates out and secretly wished he hadnât worn a black singlet that allowed you to watch every muscle rip on his chest and arms.
âCan I stay over?â You watched as a plate almost slipped out of his hand, your fingers fiddling with the large diamond on your left hand.
âSleep over? Here?â Lewis paused. âBaby youâve never..â
âI want to ⊠you knowâ. You chewed on your bottom lip. âI donât want to have that pressure on our wedding nightâ.
âLove ..â Lewis left what he was doing to cup your face. âItâs ok .. thereâs no pressure from me alright? Thereâs no rule that you have to do the deed on your wedding night anywayâ.
âLewis ..â You laughed. âItâs what everyone does, except they know what theyâre doingâ.
âI know what Iâm doingâ. Lewis smirked. âItâs ok babyâ.
âYou donât want to?â You played with the nape of his neck. âDo you think about it?â
âYou know that i doâ. Lewis ghosted his lips over your ear. âBut I wanna respect you loveâ. Truth was, he wanted nothing more than to devour you. The past few months had been so out of character for him. He was used to having a different woman in his bed all the time. But then again heâd never loved those woman.
âYou do respect meâ.
âYou know what I meanâ.
âYou are respecting me because whether itâs now or later youâre my firstâ. You kissed his lips lightly. âI donât want to be stressing out on my wedding day. We also have a big holiday planned ..â
âAnd?â
âWell I donât want to be in a discomfort on a long haul plane tripâ.
âRightâ. Lewis studied your face.
âYouâve been with a virgin before?â You watched as he wetted his lips with his tongue. âLew?â
âNo I havenâtâ.
âWhat?â
âLove .. the women Iâve been with defiantly were not virginsâ. Lewis sighed. âI donât want to talk about them or compare anyone to you babyâ.
âOkâ. You smiled softly. âBut you know ..â
âYeah love. I know what Iâm doingâ.
âThis isnât about me just being stressed. I want you Lewâ. You breathed in deeply. âI wanted to find the right person, this has nothing to do with saving myself for my wedding night.
âYou said that ..â
âI said ..â You kissed his lips softly. âThe right person Lew. Youâre my personâ.
âLove ..â
âI want you tonightâ. Your eyes searched his as you felt his hands move to your waist. âDo you want me?â
âYou have no idea ..â Lewis laughed into your neck. âMy wrist is soreâ.
âOh ..â You smiled as his lips kissed your collarbone. âI could help you?â
âFuck baby you canât say things like that to meâ, Lewis groaned. âIâm just a man remember thatâ.
âMy manâ. You shivered as his hands started to unbutton your blouse.
âYour manâ. Lewisâs lips ghosted over your ear lobe. âIs taking you to his bedroomâ.
His hands motioned for you to jump up and you did. Legs wrapping around his waist as he carried you down the long hallway, his lips attached to yours. Your mind was hazy but immediately started to wonder. How would you compare to those other woman? Would Lewis enjoy it?
âI want you to teach meâ. Your lips moved to his ear. âTeach me what to do Lewisâ.
You felt his hands grip your but as his leg kicked the bedroom door closed. He deposited you gently on the middle of his massive bed. The silk sheets cooling your skin.
âRelax babyâ. Lewis stood in front of you as he removed his clothes, everything except for his fitted back underwear. Your eyes roamed across his body to the six pack on his stomach before dipping lower. You gulped at the huge bulge in front of you.
Lewis simply smiled before unbuttoning your jeans and sliding them off your legs. You sat up and removed your blouse before lying back down clad in nothing but your white lace underwear and bra.
âFuck baby look at youâ. Lewis crawled over your body, taking the weight onto his arms while he kissed you properly. Open mouth, hot, wet with his tongue. You moaned into his mouth as your hips instinctively moved again him, feeling his hardness.
His lips descended to your neck then the valley between your breasts. Before you had a second to breath, his mouth captured your nipple and sucked on the white lace.
âLook at meâ. Lewisâs voice was rough. âEyes on me babyâ. His fingers reached around and unclipped your bra, the cool air hitting your skin as Lewis sucked you bare. His mouth alternated between each breast while his fingers tweaked whatever nipple wasnât in his mouth.
You watched as his mouth sucked on you, sometimes his tongue would dart out and circle your areola. Your toes immediately curled, your hips moving against him.
âIâm going to taste you loveâ. Lewis wasnât asking as his lips moved down lower and he settled where your legs were. âSpread your legs for meâ.
You could feel how wet you were already. Would Lewis like the way you tasted? Had you groomed yourself ok? You felt your doubts beginning to rise but Lewis rubbed your thighs as he eased your legs apart. You tried to keep them open just a little but his hands spread you wide open and your knees fell languidly against his mattress as his mouth moved straight to your lace covered core. Immediately your body relaxed as the new sensations made your stomach tighten.
âGood girlâ. Lewis moaned. âYou ok if I go under?â.
You nodded and felt him move the lace aside before his mouth was on you again. This time you moaned loudly as his fingers opened you up for him.
âFuck baby you taste so sweetâ.
Your body relaxed as his tongue flicked across your clit before dipping lower. âIs this all mine?â
âYesâ. You breathed out. Your toes curled against the silk fabric beneath them. Lewisâs fingers hooked into the sides of your underwear and before you knew it they were being slid down your legs before your thighs reopened.
âTell me if anything doesnât feel goodâ.
His hot mouth worked your clit while you felt one of his fingers collect your wetness before sliding in slowly. You moved up so that you could watch him and immediately your stomach tightened. He was naked in between your spread thighs lying on his stomach. Through your pleasure you hadnât even noticed him removing his underwear. His hips were moving slightly against the mattress, his eyes watching yours as he ate you out and fingered you for the first time.
âLewâ. You panted as your hands clutched at the silk sheets.
âRelax baby. Youâre so tightâ.
âTalk to meâ. You felt your stomach tighten as your breath quickened.
âGod loveâ. Lewis flicked his tongue across your clit as his finger started to work into you faster. âYou taste so sweet, feel so fucking good. Iâm in heaven .. is this pussy all for me?â.
Lewis had never spoken this way before. Always the gentleman. But you knew he had this side to him and you desperately wanted to hear it.
âI canât wait to be inside you. I canât want to feel you grip my dickâ.
That was all it took for you to scream his name as your body shook. You prayed his neighbours didnât hear.
Lewis worked you through your orgasm. His finger moving slowly inside you before withdrawing. Your eyes opened wide as you watched him lick his finger clean. Heat instantly rushed to your face.
âYou ok?â Lewis smiled as he stroked your thighs.
âThat was .. did I?â
âYeah baby. First of manyâ.
âYouâre so good Lewâ.
âAm I?â Lewis laughed. âWant to see how good?â
âYeahâ. Your voice was horse as he moved up your body. His hands kept your thighs apart as he settled on top of you and kissed you. You could taste yourself and to your surprise you were ok with it.
âKeep your legs spread babyâ. Lewis whispered against your neck as his hardness moved against you. He moved up slightly as his hand found your wrist and bought it in between your bodies. âTouch me. This is whatâs gonna be inside of youâ.
Your hand felt his silky hardness and you gasped. He was long and thick and you had no idea how he we going to fit inside you.
âYouâre so bigâ. You choked out.
âIâll fit love. But you have to relax ok?â
You stoked him while he fingered you again. You watched as his gaze dropped as he watched what was going on in between your thighs.
âYouâre so wetâ. Lewis groaned. âYou like it when I talk dirty love?â
âYeahâ.
âIt turns you on hey?â
âLew ..â
âFuck I love youâ.
Suddenly you felt a stretch, not painful just slightly uncomfortable.
âLewis?â
âTwo fingers baby. I gotta get you ready for meâ. Lewis kissed your neck. âYou can take it loveâ.
âOh ..â You felt your walls relaxing. This man was playing you like an instrument. Within a few minutes you felt your hips moving slightly, a moan slip from between your lips. You felt the bed shift and suddenly your hand was empty.
âYou ready baby?â Lewis groaned as he stroked himself with your juices.
âGo slow?â
âCourse loveâ.
And then it was happening. He positioned himself just inside you then fell forward, his lips on yours as he pushed slowly. You groaned into his mouth, already feeling full. His hands gripped your thighs, keeping you open to him.
âPretty girlâ. He whispered in your ear. âGonna make you my woman yeah?â
âLewâ. You panted as he pushed in more, meeting your resistance.
âItâs going to hurt for a bitâ. Hot breath ghosted across your ear. âThen itâs going to feel so good baby. Iâm gonna make you feel so goodâ.
âI want youâ.
âRelax loveâ. His hips moved but your resistance was firm. He knew that he needed to do this quickly. His fingers flicked your clit while he pushed in suddenly, causing you to cry out.
âLewis!â You felt like youâd been torn in two. He was fully seated inside you, your pubic bones flush against each other. Tears ran down your face as Lewis wiped them away. âIt hurtsâ.
âI know baby. Youâre doing so good love. It will passâ.
âYouâre so big. I donât think I can do thisâ.
Lewis kissed your jaw, staying still inside of you to let your body adjust.
âYou can. Just relaxâ.
âI donât think I canâ. You felt his fingers rub against your clit and suddenly the pain lessened.
âGive me your pussy babyâ. Lewis moved tentatively. âGood girl . Want you so fucking badâ.
Your thighs rested flush against the bed as you relaxed and felt your walls stretch to accommodate him. He looked like a god above you .. sweat glistening on his body as he watched himself start to move in and out of you.
âYouâre so tight, fuckâ. Lewis panted. âYou feel like heavenâ.
âGod Lewâ. You started to tremble as you watched his gaze drift between to your eyes then in between your bodies.
âOk?â
âYeahâ
âCan I go all the way now?â Lewis snapped his hips experimentally. âJesus Iâm all the way in and out babyâ.
âAre you fucking me now?â
âI can do whatever you want. I can love you and fuck you babyâ.
âShow me howâ. You were panting as Lewis started thrusting into you, his hands pulling your legs up to get a better angle. He hooked one up over his shoulder when you started to moan.
âIâm fucking you now babeâ.
You felt yourself getting wetter and you were suddenly aware of everything. The smell of sex, your pornographic moans, the sound of his skin slapping against yours and the words that left his mouth.
âOh Jesus, fuckâ. Lewis moved your leg down and sat back on his heels. His hands gripped behind your knees as he thrusted into you. âBaby is this ok?â
âYes!â You almost screamed as the coil inside of you started to unwind. âLew .. oh my godâ.
âHeavenâ. Lewis panted. âTight little pussy, just for me yeah?â.
Suddenly he withdrew and flipped you over. His hands moving you onto your hands and knees. You had no time to be shy or react before he was sliding back inside you, hands gripping your waist
âFuck me Lewâ
He didnât need to be told as he thrusted into you at a fast face. His hands found their way to your breasts before moving to your neck. You wondered briefly if heâd be into holding you there one day as you noticed him apply slight pressure before moving quickly to rest on your shoulders.
Your body started to shake as you felt your walls contract. You were close and by the way that Lewisâs thrusts started to falter, you knew that he was too.
âYou gonna cum on my dick darling?â Lewis panted. âI can feel you .. youâre squeezing meâ.
âIâm closeâ. You were a mess. Panting, throat dry.
âIâm gonna cum inside you ok?â
Youâd had the talk. No pregnancy protection as you both wanted babies as soon as possible. And with the wedding just 8 weeks away it seemed irrelevant now.
âI want itâ. Your knees started to buckle. âPlease Lewâ.
âGonna give it you baby. Gonna fill you up. Never done it before .. you feel fucking amazingâ. He pulled yo until you were up on your knees leaning with your back against his chest. His hands squeezed your breasts before falling in between your legs, his fingers rubbing quick circles on your clit. His thrusts were long and measured and he started whispering in your ear, telling you how perfect you were, how much he loved you and how he loved making love to you.
âIâm cummingâ. You screamed as your orgasm washed over you. Lewis was right there, gripping your hips as he emptied his load inside you with a loud moan.
âHoly shitâ. His head fell to your shoulder as he came in spurts, wondering how heâd ever survived without being inside of you. âI love you. God I love youâ.
âLove you too. Lew ..â You struggled to speak. Your body was aching and your heart beat rapidly against your chest. You rested against his chest as he pumped into you a few more times before easing out of you slowly. You whined as he pulled out and he immediately lay back against the pillows, pulling you into his arms as he spooned you.
âYou ok?â He kissed you softly on the shoulder as his hands rubbed your waist. âWas it too much? I wasnât too rough?â
âYou were perfect. It hurts yeah but it was my first timeâ. His arms held you tight against his chest. âWas it ok for you?â
âYouâre kidding right?â Lewis chucked. âIâve never had anything close to that. You were my fantasy babyâ.
âI could be pregnant nowâ. You turned to study his face as he smiled.
âCould beâ.
âI hope I amâ.
âFirst time lucky?â Lewis chuckled. âIt would be amazing but I donât care how long it takes. Trying is a lot of funâ.
âI love youâ. You kissed him. âIâm so glad I waited for youâ.
âBaby Iâm so glad I found youâ. His hands wiped the tears that fell down your face. âI waited a lifetime for youâ.
âBecause my truck will be our second vehicle and I donât trust that car of yoursâ.
âSy!â
âBaby you got to learn. What if Iâm deployed and that heap of shit you drive doesnât start again?â
âWhy do you hate my car so much?â You rolled your eyes as you started the ignition. âItâs a classicâ.
âA classic heap of shitâ. Sy laughed as you punched his arm. âOk, ok .. just drive woman!â
âI hate this..â You grumbled as you crunched the gears. âI prefer my automaticâ.
âYouâll thank me laterâ.
âWhy am I driving out here in the bloody paddock?â You groaned as you drove along on the bumpy dirt road.
âItâs a dirt road that leads to a paddockâ. Sy laughed.
âSame thingâ. You rolled your eyes.
âBecause I canât trust you on the road yetâ.
âHmmmmâ. You huffed and glanced at Sy as he put on his sunglasses. You smirked and decided to see how far you could push him. When he looked away you quickly moved your knee length dress up to your thighs then continued driving. âSy baby?â
âYeah? Sy looked at you then immediately glanced at your bare legs.
âItâs hot isnât it? Can you turn up the air?â You kept your focus on the road but you knew that your dress was sitting just short of your lace boy brief panties.
âOh yeah sure thing Sugarâ Sy stammered as he fidgeting with the air conditioning.
You smirked when you noticed Sy adjusting his crutch discreetly. The captain was a big strong guy, but you were his one and only weakness. After leaning back in his seat and shifting a few times he huffed before placing his big hand on your upper thigh.
âDoing well Sugarâ.
âI have a good teacherâ. You chewed on your bottom lip as you slowed the truck down and parked to the side of the road. Sy glanced at you and raised his eyebrow.
âSomething wrong baby girl?â
âIâm getting tired of driving Syâ. You turned to him slowly, your eyes on his huge bulge. âItâs so boring .. I feel like riding something insteadâ.
Sy licked his lips before unbuckling his seatbelt then leaning across to do the same to yours. His hand rubbed up and down your thigh.
âYou wanna be my naughty girl huh Sugar?â
âYou like that donât you?â
âFucking love itâ. Sy leaned forward and sucked on your bottom lip before kissing you passionately. âWanna take this in the back?â
âThought youâd never ask Captainâ. You winked at him before opening your door and getting out of the truck. You watched as Sy leaned across to push the seat forward before getting out himself. You grinned as you slid your underwear off and tossed them at him. âGet in Sy and no pantsâ.
âBossyâ. Sy rolled his eyes before unzipping his jeans and pushing them down along with his boxers. He grinned at you and slapped his thigh, his cock erect against his stomach. âCome ride me Sugarâ.
You got in and crawled onto his lap as he pulled your skirt up. You sat on his thighs as he sucked on two fingers before easing them in between your folds.
âSo wet for me alreadyâ. Sy rubbed his fingers over your clit before sliding them in. Immediately you moaned and rocked on his hand. âLook at you riding my fingers .. you want it bad donât you love?â
You moaned louder and moved to fist his cock. You kept your eyes on his as you leaned closer and spat on your hand to lubricate him.
âJesusâ. Sy closed his eyes as you pumped his cock while his fingers moved inside you. âTell me you can take me. I need to fuck youâ.
âIâm readyâ.
Sy withdrew his fingers and lined his cock up at your entrance. He groaned as you pushed your hips down to engulf him inch by inch.
âYouâre so bigâ. You groaned feeling Sy stretch your walls. âGimme a minuteâ.
âYou can take meâ. Sy rubbed your clit in circles. âTight little pussyâ.
Once he was embedded deep within you, you started to move and Sy moaned out loud. His hands moved to your ass then you felt a slap against your bare skin.
âThatâs it .. fuck me goodâ.
You threw your head back as the truck started to rock. Sy pushed your t shirt up and you felt the cool breeze on your bare skin as he pulled your bra cups down and exposed your breasts. You knew how much Sy loved them as they were big and natural. He leaned forward to suck on one of your nipples as his fingers rolled the other one. Then he leaned back as his eyes watched your bouncing breasts then in between your legs.
âThatâs it .. ride me hard like that. Make those tits bounceâ. Sy moaned.
You loved how dirty he got during sex. It turned you on and he knew it.
âLike this?â You rode him harder and cupped your breasts in both hands.
âFuck yeah .. like my own private pornoâ. Sy pushed his hips up to meet your thrusts. You cried out as he hit your cervix. He was so deep inside you that you swore you saw stars. Your hands gripped his t shirt hem as you tugged it up to reveal his rock hard abs. Instantly your hands moved to his chest as you lent against him for leverage.
âFuck youâre riding me so well Sugarâ. Sy groaned. âGotta sit back and enjoy the show now .. your old man canât keep up with youâ.
You smirked as you continued to ride him hard. Your thighs burned, sweat glistened on your skin and all you could hear were squelching sounds coming from between your legs. You lent back slightly, letting Sy get the best view of your body. He was muttering profanities, clearly enjoying what you were doing.
Sy licked his fingers then twisted your nipples. He knew you were super sensitive there and it usually bought on your orgasm. You felt the tingle in your toes as he repeated the action.
âIâm going to cumâ. You moaned.
âYeah? Gonna cum on this big cock?â Sy watched between your legs. âFuck .. how the hell do you take me?â His hand moved to your lower abdomen. âIâm in here. Oh fuckâ.
âSyâ. You moaned as your stomach started to coil. âOh god I feel itâ.
âCome on Sugar. Give it to meâ.
You screamed his name as the most earth shattering orgasm hit you hard. Your body jerked in spasms as Sy continued to move you up and down on his cock.
âShitâ. Sy muttered. âCan feel you gripping me .. fuck Iâm gonna cum. Lean forwardâ.
You were tired and your body was limp and well spent as you lay against Syâs chest. He moved you up and down on his cock quickly while muttering filth into your ear.
âJust a bit more. Need this pussy a bit moreâ.
âCum Syâ. You were so tired and your pussy started to ache. He was a big guy and you knew you wouldnât be able to walk tomorrow. All you could do was lay against him as he used your pussy as a fuck toy to reach his peak. It was always this way with Sy. He seemed to last forever.
âSyâ. You moaned. âCum babyâ.
âClose .. fuck so closeâ. Sy was grunting loudly as he pushed his hips up and down at a rapid pace while you lay limp against his chest. âJust a bit longer. Fuck your pussy is so good babyâ.
âFucking hell!â Sy faltered in his movements before snapping his hips again. âKeep talking .. keep saying thatâ.
âNeed you to fill up my little pussyâ. You sucked on his neck. âYour big cock is fucking me so well Daddyâ.
âLean backâ. Sy grabbed hold of your waist as he bucked up into you. You knew he was watching your big breasts bounce around so you grabbed hold of them and moaned. âDaddy! Fuck me like that Daddy!â
âYeah? Fucking tell me!â
âLookâ. You leant back grabbing the seat behind you as you moved off your knees and spread your legs wide. You knew him well and this was by far his biggest turn on. âLook how big your cock is and how tiny my pussy isâ. You gyrated your hips as he slowed his movements to watch you. You could feel him twitch. He was so close.
âDo you like that Daddy? You like stretching this little pussy?â
âFuck yeahâ. Sy grabbed at your knees, pushing them wider apart. âJesus Iâm closeâ.
You sat up slightly as his hands moved to your waist and he started using your body again.
âCum Daddyâ. You grabbed at one of his hands and moved it towards your face. Your mouth opened as you sucked on two of his fingers. âPussy is getting sore Daddy. Need your cumâ.
âJesus fucking Christ!â Sy grabbed your waist hard as he released inside you. He was never a one shot kind of guy, instead he always came in a series of bursts. So you moved your legs wider across his lap, opening yourself up to him as he moaned. âFuck thatâs it. Take itâ. His hand drifted between your legs as some of his cum started to drip out. He rubbed it all over your clit before moving his fingers back to your mouth to suck clean. The minute your lips parted he groaned loudly as he finished emptying his load inside you.
âNaughty girl calling me that. You know what that does to meâ. Sy panted as he lay back against the seat. He was all sweaty and the truck smelt like sex.
âI had to get you to cumâ. You kissed his lips. âI was getting soreâ.
âDid I hurt ya?â Sy looked up quickly, his eyes looking over your body.
âNo but youâre a big boy Syâ. You got up on your knees as he eased himself out of you. He saw you whimper and he looked concerned. âDonât think Iâll ever get used to your big dickâ.
Sy ran his hands over your stomach and hips. You could almost read his mind. He was into aftercare and although he never liked to hurt you, he knew that he was well endowed and anything rough left you a bit sore.
âLay back babyâ. Sy made you lay down as he pulled off his t shirt and slipped it under your ass. Gently he wiped you clean then bent forward to kiss your stomach. âGotta reward you now love. You just lie there while I take care of yaâ.
âSyâ.
âLet me make your pussy feel better babyâ.
Before you could react his mouth was between your legs seeking out your clit. He gave it a good long suck and you moaned. Unlike other men before him, Sy had no issue with tasting himself between your legs. It was something that turned you on.
âSy oh god Sy!â
Soon you were moaning, your hands grasping Syâs hair as your walls clenched. His mouth had latched on to your sensitive clit while one of his fingers pumped into you. As you came down from your high you noticed Sy hovering between your legs and wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
âYou good?â
âYeah .. fuck that was hot Syâ.
âBest car ride Iâve had Sugarâ
âSo you think Iâm ok at driving your stick shift?â
âYour mean riding it?â Sy grinned at you. âThe best babyâ.
Note - This oneâs long and holds an element of things that Iâd say are personal to me. It was therapeutic to write but a bit deep so consider that a warning. Also had it sitting in drafts for ages so not the best with proofreading!
Summary - Reader returns home after ten years still holding onto a deep burden. Sheâs home to see her dying grandfather but is worried about crossing paths with the one who broke her heart.
It had been ten years since youâd returned home. Ten years since you left to chase your dream of becoming a doctor. And ten years since your heart was crushed into a million pieces when your first love told you âWeâre going in different directionsâ. Youâd managed to stay away this long - your family understanding your turmoil and agreeing to visit you in the city instead. But now here you were standing on your parents doorstep after they called and begged you to come. Your beloved grandfather was dying and had asked to see you.
âHoney! Oh honey!â Your mother opened the door and pulled you into her arms. âWhat on earth? You said your plane was arriving at midday! We were coming to pick you up from the airport!â
âI took an earlier flight Mum. I didnât want you drivingâ. You smiled as your mother kissed you on the forehead. Truth being, you did it on purpose. Wanting to avoid the airport greetings knowing that you could very well bump into Sy since the military base was close by and he had a habit of visiting the airportâs cafe.
âYour Dad will be crossâ. Your mother smoothed down her apron and as you breathed in the scent of fresh apple pie.
âNo he wonâtâ. You pulled your suitcase inside. âWhen has he ever been mad at me?â
âHoney âŠâ Your mother held you at arms length as she smoothed down your hair like she did when you were a child. âThank you for being here. It will make him happy .. I know itâs hard for youâ.
âMum ..â You swallowed and recited your well rehearsed speech. âI was nineteen years old. Young and stupid .. donât worry Iâm passed itâ.
âIâm your mother, I know you love. I know what you went throughâ.
âItâs the past Mum. Iâm here for granddad and for all of youâ.
Your mother studied your face before she sighed. She rubbed your shoulder and gestured towards the upstairs guest room.
âI wonât .. shock him will I?â
âNo but your father is in with himâ. Your mother smiled. âYouâll shock him no doubtâ.
Your eyes flickered to the locket your mother was wearing, the one that matched your own around your neck. Your heart clenched knowing that the same photo was inside and for a moment you wondered if youâd made the right choice in coming home.
Your mother looked down at the locket and then back at you. She smiled softly.
âIâve never taken it offâ.
âNeither have Iâ. You swallowed the lump in your throat. âI just .. I wonder a lot .. and I just think .. did I do something? Was I to blame? I know thatâs stupid .. but I still think like thatâ.
âHoney .. never ever .. just ..â Your mother grabbed your face as her eyes filled with tears. âYou did nothing wrong. I was there .. I knowâ.
âOh Mumâ. You hugged your mother as you cried softly. Her hands rubbed your back while she hummed softly in your ear in a bid to comfort your broken heart.
âTake your time love. Just breathe ok? Everythingâs alright. Youâre the strongest person I know darling. Such a brave nineteen year old and now look at you. Twenty nine and a doctor. Honey Iâm so very proud of youâ.
âThank you Mumâ. You wiped at your face. âSorry for being so emotional. Itâs just .. being back here. Knowing Syâs here. Itâs brought up so many deep feelings and memoriesâ.
âI know love. We appreciate you being here and I promise you that we will look after you ok?â
âThanks mumâ. You glanced at the stairs. âIâm going to go see him now ok?â
âAlright love. Iâll finish fixing your roomâ.
You paused at the bottom of the stairs before walking up slowly. You stared at the timber door to your left and your hand traced over the handle before knocking twice then opening it slowly. You smiled at the look of surprise on your fathers face. He was sitting in a chair next to your grandfathers bed. He jumped up quickly, causing your grandfather to open his eyes.
âWhat are you doing here! Did I miss your flight? I didnât doze off?â
âNo Dad! I got in earlierâ. You laughed quietly as your father hugged you before kissing your cheeks. You waved at your grandfather who was blowing you a kiss. âHi Grandpa. I came to see youâ.
âLook at youâ. Your grandfather beckoned you over and you rushed to the side of the bed to grab his hands. âThereâs my girlâ.
âI missed you Grandpa. Im going to be here for a few weeks ok? So donât you worry about anythingâ.
âIm glad sweetheart. These doctors tell me Iâve only got a few weeks but what do they know?â Your grandfather smiled. âYouâre the only doctor I trustâ.
âAnd im here to look after youâ.
Your grandfather nodded as he lay his head back against the pillows. His fingers touched the locket around your neck.
âIm going to see him soon sweetheartâ.
Your heart ached and you nodded. You saw your father wipe his face.
âI knowâ.
âIm going to look after him for youâ.
âI know grandpaâ. Your lip trembled. âThank youâ.
âWyattâ. Your grandfather whispered.
âWyattâ. You whispered as your grandfather closed his eyes, sleeping in soft breaths. You saw your father quietly leave the room, giving you time alone. When the door closed you lay your head on the bed next to your grandfathers arm.
Wyatt .. you repeated over and over. Your baby boy born at only 26 weeks that took one breath. He had been your savior throughout your heartbreak over losing Sy. When you found out you were pregnant Sy had already been deployed. You found out he wouldnât be home for 12 months and was in a restricted area so you had no way of contacting him. You planned on telling him .. bringing Wyatt to him. You just had no way of knowing that you would lose him. And then you found out that Sy had a new girlfriend ⊠actually many new girls. So you decided not to burden him with the memory of a son that he never got to meet. Was it wrong? Maybe. But you were young and broken.
The days that followed you spent looking after your grandfather. You were glad you came because the time you spent with him were therapeutic. You went through old family movies and photo albums .. his health was deteriorating rapidly but he was also smiling.
âSweetheart?â
âYes Grandpa?â You paused as you were reading him a passage of a book.
âGo see that boy of yoursâ.
âSy? Heâs not my boy Grandpa. Itâs best kept in the pastâ.
âFor me? I just want you to have peaceâ.
âI have peace Grandpaâ. You paused. âThereâs no use in bringing up all that hurt. Heâs moved on, Iâve moved onâ.
âWhat about Wyatt?â
âWhat good would that do now Grandpa? I tried to tell him but he was gone you know that. Then it ., happened and .. it was too lateâ.
âItâs never too late sweetheartâ. Your grandpa patted your knee. âYou are still hurtingâ.
âSo why hurt him? After ten years?â
âYou know why .. the same reason you tried to tell him in the beginningâ. Your grandfather paused. âBecause he has a right to knowâ.
âWhat right Grandpa?â Tears stung your eyes. âHe left me. I was nineteen and in love with him! Then I came back after losing Wyatt and he was with every girl he could find! Like I was nothing!â
âLove .. youâre still hurt. Canât you see that?â Your grandfather stared at you. âJust promise me that youâll talk to him if your paths cross. You donât have to search him out .. if fate has it then thatâs another storyâ.
You chewed on your bottom lip as you looked at your grandfather. You couldnât say no so you nodded.
âIf our paths cross ..â
Your grandfather smiled and motioned for you to continue reading. You sighed and settled back into the armchair as you tried to forget about Sy.
3 weeks later your Grandfather passed away peacefully. You felt heartbroken yet content that you had such cherished time with him. The funeral was held a week later and he was laid to rest. You spent that afternoon helping your mother serve afternoon tea to the people that were at the service. Extended family and friends that came to pay their respects.
âHoney can you please put on another pot of coffee?â Your mother asked you. You nodded and headed into the kitchen. As you waited for the coffee to brew you felt a presence behind you. Your hands griped the counter as you breathed in the scent of spice that you knew so well. Your knees almost buckled but you willed yourself not to turn around. Not now, today of all days.
âBeen awhileâ.
There was no mistaking that Texas accent. You breathed in deeply and tucked some of your brown hair behind your ear. Instinctively your hand moved to your locket. You could do this .. surely you could do this. You breathed in deeply and slowly turned around.
âHello Syâ.
âHello Sugarâ. His eyes stared at you intensely. âBeen ten years hasnât it?â
âYesâ.
âYou look different .. still pretty as hell but real differentâ.
âIâm not a teenager anymoreâ. You swallowed as you took in his muscular physique. âNeither are youâ.
âTurned 30 last month, can you believe it?â Sy scratched at his beard, something that was new to you.
â20th of Julyâ.
âYou remember?â
âCourseâ.
âWell I remember yours too .. hard to forgetâ.
Your face flushed remembering how you lost your virginity to him when you were 16 on your birthday.
âYeah ..â
âIâm sorry about your Paâ. Sy breathed in deeply. âHe was a good manâ.
âThank you. Yes he wasâ.
âHe was .. hoping youâd spend some time here. I bet he was happy to see youâ.
âYou spoke to him?â You studied Syâs face.
âWell I âŠâ Sy paused.
âWhen?â
Just turn as your mother came in. She stoped dead in her tracks when she saw you standing with Sy. She smiled and pointed to the pot of coffee which you passed to her.
âHello Sy. Thank you for comingâ. Your mother glanced between the two of you.
âIâm sorry for your loss Mamâ. Sy stood awkwardly with his hands in his pockets.
âThank you dear. Iâll uh .. leave you to itâ.
Your mother left and an uncomfortable silence filled the room. You looked at Sy but he looked as unsure as you felt. You cleared you throat and wondered what to say but just as you opened your mouth Sy spoke.
âI should go. Just came to pay my respectsâ.
âOh okâ.
âIt was real nice seeing youâ.
Before you could react he walked out. For a moment you stood still, digesting what had just happened. Then you heart started pounding and before you could think you charged out of the kitchen and followed Sy out of the house. How dare he just show up like that. How dare he act like nothing had happened between you both?
âWait!â You saw him turn around in surprise. You knew this was wrong. You were too emotional and part of you knew you should just go back in the house but you couldnât help yourself. You matched right up to Sy and pushed at his chest with both your hands as hard as you could. âWhy the hell are you here? Why? Today of all days!â.
âI told you I came to pay my respects!â Sy grabbed hold of your wrists as you pounded at his chest. âJust calm downâ.
âIâm not going to calm down!â.
âJust listen to me!â
âNo! You fucking left me!â You screamed. âYou left me and never looked back! You chose the army over me and never even cared to see how I was!â
âI did what was best for you!â
âBest for me?â You laughed through your tears. âYou were what was best for me you idiotâ.
âYouâre a doctor! Thatâs what you wanted and I was holding you backâ. Sy let go of your wrists slowly.
âRight! You knew what was best. You just wanted to be a bachelor huh? I was holding you backâ.
âThats not trueâ.
âFucked half of the town havenât you?â
âNow you listen ..â Sy raised his voice.
âI tried .. I tried to reach youâ. You sobbed causing Syâs eyes to widen I shock. âCame back after and you were too busy playing the field ..â
âI was in Afghanistan for a yearâ. Syâs voice softened. âYou tried to reach me?â
âI tried .. I couldnât ..â Your hands grabbed fistfuls of his shirt. âI tried ..â You gasped for air.
âYou needed me?â
âI .. needed youâ. You could barely make out his face through your tears. His hands gripped your shoulders. âI didnât know what to do .. I was nineteen Sy. I was so scared ..â
âWhat are you trying to tell me? Whatever it is .. tell meâ.
âI didnât know what to do Syâ. You were choking out your words between sobs. âI didnât know what to doâ.
âTell me ..â
âI found out .. I was pregnantâ. You gripped his shirt so hard that your knuckles turned white. âI was having your babyâ.
âWhat? You ..â Syâs eyes searched yours. âYou were .. pregnant?â
âYesâ.
âIâm .. Iâm a father?â
âI was nineteen. I needed youâ. You struggled to speak. âHe .. he âŠâ
âA boy?â
âWyatt .. I lost him. I lost him Syâ. You felt his body go rigid for a moment. He was wiping your face, trying desperately to understand you.
âLost him?â
âI .. he came earlyâ. You felt his hands cup your face. âTwenty six weeks .. I had him but he didnât make itâ.
Sy pulled you against his chest. It started to rain but neither of you moved. The water soaked through your clothing but you were transfixed .. sobbing against Syâs chest. Your heart ached the same way it did when Wyatt laid on your chest and took his only breath. Your heart ached when your mother held you and told you he had gone. It all came back just like it was happening all over again.
âIâm sorryâ. Sy whispered against your wet hair. âIâm so sorry Sugarâ.
âSo am Iâ.
He held you against his chest as your vision blurred. You were vaguely aware of his arms holding you up and then everything went black. You thought you could hear your mothers screams, but maybe it was your imagination?
You woke up in your bed. The first thing you thought was that you must have dreamed everything. But then you noticed your wet black dress in the clothes hamper and then Sy sitting on a chair in your room. He had dry clothes on and they looked like your fathers.
âSy?â
âYeah Iâm hereâ. Sy looked up from his hands. âIâll go get your Ma âŠâ
âItâs ok .. just waitâ. You glanced under the covers and saw that you were wearing sweatpants and a t shirt.
âYour Ma changed you .. you fainted outsideâ.
âOh .. Iâm sorryâ.
âDonât beâ. Sy looked at you and you could see the sadness in his eyes. âYouâve had a hard dayâ.
âIâm sorry I yelled at you .. I shouldnât have come after you like thatâ. You swallowed. âI shouldnât have told you like thatâ.
âDoesnât matter nowâ. Sy smiled softly. âYouâve been through a lot .. Iâd take your anger a thousand times over if it would make you feel betterâ.
âJust seeing you again .. â
âForget it now. Iâm just .. glad I knowâ. Sy stared at the ground. âCan I ask you some things? If youâre up to talking that is?â
âOkâ.
âYou wanted to tell me that you were having my baby?â
The way he said âmy babyâ tugged at your heart. You nodded.
âCame back home and went to the base. They told me you were deployed for a yearâ.
âWhat were you thinking then?â
âI was going to have the baby then when you came back .. tell you. I was going to see if you wanted usâ.
âWanted you both? You thought I wouldnât?â Sy looked at you as his voice broke. âThat Iâd turn you away?â
âI wasnât sure how you felt about me .. but I knew you would want to know Wyattâ.
âJesusâ. Sy rubbed his face. âYou donât have a clue how much I loved you do you? I pushed you to take that scholarship because you were smart and you deserved more that this town could offer. I wanted that for you because I loved youâ. Sy paused. âI would have taken you back in a heartbeat though .. I mean that .. killed me to let you goâ.
Silence filled the room. You watched as Syâs chest rose and fell.
âOhâ.
âTell me .. about him if you canâ. Sy glanced at you. âCan you?â
âWhat do you want to know Sy?â
âHe was .. born in a hospital?â
âYes. I went into labor early but at the time I didnât think so .. thought it was a false alarmâ. You swallowed. âMy Mum was with me. One minute everythingâs ok then they were telling me that he was in distress and I had to pushâ.
âYou would have been so scaredâ.
âI was .. I wanted to keep him inside of me for longer. I knew he was coming too earlyâ. You felt your hands shake. âHe was .. so perfect but so tiny Sy. He just .. wasnât strong enough and he ..â
âItâs okâ. Sy looked at you sadly. âIâm sorry you had to go through that .. I wish I had of been thereâ.
âHe looked like you Syâ. You reached for a tissue on the nightstand. âSo muchâ. You reached behind your neck to unclasp your locket. You handed it to Sy. âThereâs a photo of him in there. Itâs only small but itâs my favouriteâ.
You watched as Sy opened your locket. He stared at the photo inside for what seemed like eternity. He closed his eyes for a moment before opening them again and he repeated this a few times.
âSo small ..â He spoke the words to himself out loud. âI canât believe that .. we made him. Heâs just .. perfectâ.
âI knowâ.
âDid you .. think after .. to tell me?â
âI came back a few months after because I heard you were home. I had every intention .. i went for a walk with my dad along the beach and I saw you ..â You chewed on your bottom lip as you fidgeted with the blanket. âYou were with a girl .. actually you were with all your army friends .. playing volleyball but you were kissing a girlâ.
âOhâ. Syâs cheeks reddened at the memory. âI uh .. started seeing her for a bit. Didnât last longâ.
âYeah so well I ⊠didnât want to ruin your life. Made sense at the time to me. I was young and thought why tell you? Wyatt was gone and you looked happyâ.
âSugar ..â Sy swallowed. âI wasnât happy .. I was just trying to move onâ.
âI saw you kissing her Sy .. you were different with me. You were all over herâ. You sighed. âIt doesnât matter anyway. You were young too .. probably just enjoying not being tied downâ.
âIt wasnât like that at allâ.
âLike I said .. we were both young. Too youngâ. You saw Sy open his mouth then close it. There seemed nothing much more to say. The past was the past and neither of you could change anything.
âWas he .. was he ..â Sy stammered but somehow you knew what he was trying to say.
âHeâs buried here ⊠not far from where my Grandfather isâ. You paused as your eyes flickered to Syâs. âDo you want to go with me?â
âYes .. yes I doâ. Sy breathed out deeply. âAnd if .. if you have more photos?â
âMy mum has an album that I made her. Iâll get it for youâ. You watched as Sy nodded. Your heart felt constricted seeing how much pain he was in. Yet at the same time the weight in your shoulders was lifting. You closed your eyes for a moment thinking of Wyatt .. with great love came great pain.
The next few weeks were a blur. You spent countless days with Sy at Wyattâs grave just talking. Which was nice because you also visited your grandfather and grandma too. But in the past seeing Wyattâs tombstone was such a painful experience, but now with Sy it felt different. He sat next to you cross legged on the grass listening to every single detail about Wyattâs existence. You told him everything from the beginning - how you found out, your morning sickness, your cravings for nachos and roast pumpkin. He listened .. almost intrigued as you opened your heart to him. After awhile it wasnât just Wyatt that you talked about .. he told you about his deployments and all the terrors that came with his job. He told you about his parents divorce and also about his relationships since you.
âIâve had a date here and there but nobody ..â You chewed on your bottom lip. âI was too busy getting into med school I guess?â
âNo wealthy doctor tried to steal your heart?â Sy smiled.
âNoâ.
âJust for the record .. all those years ago .. the one you saw me with on the beachâ. Sy paused. âShe was someone I guess I tried to use to get over you. Now saying that out loud makes me feel really bad .. but I just needed to tell ya ok?â
âSy .. it was so long agoâ.
âI know .. but since weâre being honestâ.
âI appreciate thatâ. You smiled softly. âMy teenage self wanted to kick your ass thoughâ.
âDonât know what I would have done if I had of seen you that day ..â
âGuess weâll ever knowâ. You played with a blade of grass as the sun started to set. âWe should head back?â
âDo you wanna go some place first?â
You looked at Sy .. he suddenly didnât seem like he was a 30 year old grown man. He reminded you of the Sy you once knew. Your Sy. He seemed apprehensive and a bit unsure of himself.
âOkâ. You let him help you to your feet and followed him to your truck.
Sy took you to a place youâd missed. A hill with a city view. The same place heâd kissed you for the first time. You felt your face flush at the memory and wondered if he was thinking the same thing. Your heart hammered against your chest and then you had to quickly turn turn your head before the emotion on your face showed.
âThe sunset is nice hereâ Sy said as you tried to keep your breathing even.
âCome here often?â You turned to him and smiled.
âOnly with youâ. Sy stared at you. âAnd itâs been a few yearsâ.
âI remember ..â
âYou were sixteenâ. Sy paused. âI was so fucking nervous ..â
âYou were?â
âCourse I was .. I knew it was going to be your first kiss. I wanted it to be specialâ.
âSy ..â Your voice caught in your throat. âYou shouldnât have worried because everything with you was specialâ.
Sy stared at the beautiful sunset while you looked at his side profile. He was so different from the boy you once knew. He was a man .. a muscular man with a beard who was sure of himself in so many ways. But he was still Sy.
Slowly you reached for his hand and covered it with yours.
âWe were just two kids Syâ.
âWe wereâ.
âSo much time has passedâ.
âIt hasâ. Sy turned to look at you. âBut Iâll always love you. Iâll never love anyone but youâ.
âSy ..â You sucked in a breath.
âI wish things were different. Iâd fucking do anything to re write the past. You have to believe meâ. Sy turned his head and you knew him well enough to know that he was trying to hide his tears.
âLook at me Syâ. You watched as you saw his eyes filled with tears. Your hand reached to his cheek. âOh Sy Iâve never loved anyone but you. And Iâm so glad .. so very glad that it was you that was Wyattâs daddyâ. Your eyes filled with tears as you felt the wetness of Syâs tears on your hand.
âIâm sorryâ. He whispered. âIâm sorry that you lost your baby .. our babyâ.
âIâm sorry tooâ.
He moved towards you and you waited. His eyes looked exactly how you remembered them, except his hands were different. Bigger, stronger .. they cupped your face as you inched closer.
âStop me. Tell me you donât want me .. tell me that you donât have any feelings for meâ. Syâs lips were on your forehead, his breath hot against your skin. âTell me now Sugar and Iâll drive you homeâ.
âI canât Sy .. I canât tell you that .. because it would be untrueâ. Ten years of heartache and you were now at this point.
You heard him suck in a breath then his strong hands moved your neck up until you are looking at him. Your hands gripped the front of his t shirt and you willed yourself to stop shaking.
âI missed youâ. Sy whispered just before his lips found yours. It wasnât like the first time at all. His lips moved with purpose. His hands were now at the back of your neck, caught in your hair as his mouth opened and his tongue sought yours. This was a different Sy. He was older, experienced and wiser. You gasped into his mouth as his once tentative tongue was anything but. His hand moved to the small of you back, pulling you closer in the confined space of his truck.
âSy .. I ..â You moaned as you broke apart for sure. âI missed you tooâ.
You missed ten years. You missed everything about him. You were scared but at ease too .. you wanted him to repair your fragile broken heart.
âSy take me back to your placeâ.
Suddenly he was pulling back and looking into your eyes.
âI donât need anything more. I just .. kissing you ..â
âI do .. I need you Syâ. Your lips trembled. âPlease just .. donât leave me this timeâ.
Your heart beat in anticipation as Sy stared into your eyes for what seemed like eternity. He slowly nodded before leaning over you to pull at your seat belt and buckle you in. As he moved back across you his breath passed your ear and you knew that he was just as needy as you were.
The drive back to Syâs apartment was silent. His hand rested on your knee as you watched the city lights pass you by. Without thinking you fidgeted with the locket around your neck, immediately thinking of your son. But for some reason, this time you didnât feel the usual ache in your heart. You felt at ease.
Soo you were inside his apartment. Sy was watching as you walked around his living room glancing at photographs and the medals/trophies he had on display. You felt nervous. Not that you didnât want to be there with him, but because you didnât know how to initiate things.
âSugar?â Sy smiled softly at you when you turned around. âYou ok?â
âYeah Iâm just nervous. I donât know how to .. do thisâ.
âThis?â Sy smirked. âWe donât have to do anythingâ.
âI want to .. I just .. Itâs been a long time Sy. I just need ..â You stammered. âI need you to take the leadâ.
âI didnât want to assume anything .. thatâs not what this is for meâ.
âI feel the sameâ. You watched as he walked over to you. Suddenly his hands gripped your hips, pulling you flush against his hard body.
âIâm happy to take the lead Sugarâ. Syâs voice was slightly rough, sending an ache between your thighs.
âThen take meâ.
Sy suddenly lifted you up and your legs wrapped around his waist. He carried you to his room, kicking the door shut with his foot. His eyes were transfixed to yours and you could feel his heart beating quickly against your own.
He placed you on his bed gently and stood Infront of you. He pulled his t shirt off in one motion and you felt your mouth drop open at the sight of him. Ten years ago he was lean yet now .. he was a fit man with a large muscular frame and chest hair. He smirked before removing his jeans and before you could react he took his boxers off too. You gasped and flushed when you saw the sight of his rock hard erection standing firm against his stomach. He seemed huge compared to how you remembered him.
âYour turnâ. Syâs hands grabbed at the fabric of your skirt and soon it was on the floor. You hastily tossed your t shirt over your head followed by your white lace bra. You watched as Sy took in your naked form before his eyes settled on your white lace panties. âYouâre fucking perfect Sugarâ.
âIâm notâ. You whispered as he moved over your body, keeping his weight on his forearms as he kissed you. âIâve changedâ.
âYouâre beautiful .. youâre not a girl anymore love. Youâre a woman and youâre perfectâ.
âI have ..â You stammered. âStretch marks .. from the pregnancyâ.
âWhere?â
You face flushed but you pointed to your lower stomach where the small white lines existed. You gasped when Sy moved lower and his lips kissed every one of them.
âYouâre beautiful and these ⊠are a reminder of him. I wouldnât change them for anythingâ. Sy whispered against your skin.
âSy âŠâ your eyes filled with tears as he continued to cherish you. After a few minutes he slipped your underwear off and settled between your legs. He smiled at you reassuringly before gently opening your thighs.
âLet me love youâ. Sy kissed your inner thighs causing you to tremble. âRelax Sugarâ.
You sunk back against his pillows as you remembered how you both had to learn how to please each other. You smiled at how inexperienced Sy was back then and how heâd constantly ask you if he was making you feel good with each swipe of his tongue. But now ⊠this was a different Sy as he held you thighs open with both hands. His tongue sucked on your clit, and he didnât ask you a single thing before he pushed a finger inside you.
âOh Sy .. ohâ. You were shocked at how good he made you feel. He clearly knew what he was doing as he alternated between sucking, licking and pumping not one but two fingers inside you.
âYou gonna cum for me Sugar?â
You face burned. This wasnât the boy you knew. Sy had never communicated much during your intimate moments, yet this Sy was very vocal.
âSyâ.
One of his hands held your lower stomach to stop you from moving while his mouth sucked on your clit. Suddenly his fingers curled inside you and you arched your back. You felt heat pool in your stomach and you swore that you saw stars as you called out his name over and over again.
When you came to a moment later, Sy was still between your legs. He was looking up at you but his fingers were still moving inside you, riding out every last bit of pleasure. You watched as he looked between your legs and you fought the urge to close them.
âDonât ..â Sy stared at you. His eyes were dark and he licked his lips before looking between your legs again. âWanna see you Sugar. Iâve ⊠Jesus Iâve fantasized about this for yearsâ.
âSy ..â Your face was heated as your eyes fell to his other hand which was fisting his cock as he touched you. âSy .. oh god Sy .. feels so goodâ.
âI could cum just like this. Just watching me touch your pussyâ.
âSy!â You gasped. He had never talked dirty to you before.
âDonât deny you like it .. I felt you clench on my fingers loveâ. Sy smirked.
âCan I touch you?â You whispered. Sy nodded before withdrawing his fingers. He held your gaze as he put his fingers in his mouth.
âYou taste so goodâ.
âLie downâ. You smiled and shook your head as you changed positions. You leaned over him and kissed his lips softly. âWhereâs my shy inexperienced Sy?â
âLong gone babyâ. Sy smiled.
You laughed as you reached for his cock. He groaned as you moved your hand up and down his shaft like you used to do. You explored him slowly before watching as Sy spat on his hand and rubbed himself before replacing your hand with his. You were shocked but his reaction at the feel of your hand with the lubrication made you ache between you legs.
âThatâs it love .. oh god yeah just like thatâ. Sy moaned. He had his eyes closed, head thrown back. Hesitantly you moved your hand to his base before lowering your mouth on him. You struggled with oral and you felt embarrassed to tell Sy that he was the last person you were with. You had no clue if you could make him feel good. Your doubts were gone the second you heard him gasp.
âJesus! Oh god baby ..â Sy glanced down at you in shock. âYou donât have to .. oh fuckâ.
You started to bob your head while your hand worked on him. Your clit throbbed at the sounds he made and the profanities thar left his mouth.
âFuck baby ..â His hand moved to your head and gently applied pressure. You quickly looked at him and released him with a pop.
âSy I havenât been with anyone since you .. Iâm not sure ..I just wanted you to knowâ. You muttered. âI just ..I want to make you feel goodâ.
Sy opened and closed his mouth before his thumb grazed your cheek. You could tell that he was lost for words. Ten years was a long time after all. Youâd had a few dates here and there, some kisses and a few heavy make out sessions with a college of yours. But nothing further. Something always held you back.
You held Syâs gaze as your mouth engulfed him again and this time Syâs hand tangled in your hair while he gently helped you find a rhythm. He sat up slightly to watch you and the whole time he muttered praises.
âGod thatâs it baby. Jesus your mouth .. look at me, donât take your eyes off me Sugarâ.
You stared at him and your confidence grew along with the arousal pooling between your legs.
âGod youâre beautiful .. so fucking beautifulâ. Sy gently moved your mouth off him and sat up to kiss you passionately. He whispered in your ear that he was close and needed to be inside you.
He moved you onto your back and kissed you as he pulled his body on top of yours. You were kissing him back and so completely lost in the sensations that you were feeling.
âSugar just a secâ. Sy lent across you and pulled open a draw. You realised he was getting a condom. You were glad that he was responsible but also a little bit hurt to know that he had used them with other women. Sy opened the packet with his teeth and you watched as he sat back between your legs and rolled the condom on. He looked up at you and noticed your expression. âYou ok?â
âYou .. have a big box of thoseâ.
âGuess soâ. Sy rubbed your hips gently.
âI didnât mean to say that out loudâ.
âItâs ok Sugar. But I canât apologize for anyone after you .. I had no idea back then that Iâd ever be with you again. I thought it was over for goodâ.
âI hate the thought of you with anyone elseâ. You paused. âI hate the thought of you using those with anyone elseâ.
âAnd I donât want anyone else but youâ. Sy lent forward to kiss you. âYou still want me?â
âCourse I doâ. Your hands wrapped around his neck as he kissed you deeply. You felt him rub his cock up and down your opening before the tip moved inside you.
âKeep your eyes on meâ. Syâs fingers moved to your clit as he pushed into you gently. âThatâs it Sugar. Oh Jesus you feel so goodâ.
âSyâ. Your eyes went wide as your body struggled to remember the act. You felt your walls tense as you willed yourself to relax.
Sy was halfway in when he moved to bring his mouth to your breast. He sucked on your nipple while his fingers moved in circles on your clit. You started to moan as you threw your head back. He seemed to know exactly what you needed. Gone was the awkward Sy you once knew. Once he felt you relax he pushed completely inside you inch by inch.
âSy!â
His mouth left your breast and found your lips. He sucked on your bottom one before you opened your mouth and to your surprise he pushed his tongue into your mouth, mimicking the act between your bodies. You could feel his pubic hair flush against your bare skin as he ground his hips into you. You marveled in the feeling.
âYouâre so tight .. god Iâve missed youâ. Sy leaned back to look at you. âYou ok?â
âMore than okâ.
âYou tell me if itâs too much .. I donât wanna hurt youâ.
âIt doesnât hurt Sy .. I just .. you feel so bigâ. You flushed.
âYeah?â
You watched him smirk before he kissed you again. His lips moved to your ear.
âGonna make you scream my name babyâ.
Slowly he thrusted into you before pulling all the way out and thrusting back inside. Your hands clutched fistfuls of his sheets and you started moaning. He was playing you like an instrument.
âYou like that Sugar? Gonna make you cum on my cockâ.
Your toes curled as he continued to whisper dirty things on your ear. Your hands felt the way that his muscular back rippled before moving to his shoulders then his biceps. You realized then that you loved his arms. They were so strong and you couldnât wrap your hand around them. He was very much a grown man now.
âSy .. god you feel good inside meâ.
âYou feel like heavenâ. Sy thrusted deeply into you as his hand moved to grip behind your knee, pushing your leg up higher so that he had better access. You couldnât believe how deep he was. He was touching a part of you that felt so good. Your whole body started to feel like it was on fire.
âRight there Sy!â
âYeah? Right there baby?â Sy hit the magic spot over and over again. âNeed to feel you Sugar .. need to feel you cumâ
You were struggling to breath, no words left your mouth as the most intense orgasm overcame you. You started shaking and your mouth opened to scream but for a moment there was a delay before you cried out. Your heartbeat was pounding in your ears as Sy kept thrusting into you. In your haze you watched him - sweat glistening on his chest, his muscles contracting in his huge shoulders and the words spilling from his lips made you even wetter if that was possible.
âI love fucking you .. god how I love youâ.
You felt your heart explode as you watched Sy chase his orgasm. His hands moved both your legs over his shoulders and you felt him slide even deeper inside of you. The initial shock of the position he had you in quickly turned to intense pleasure as he touched a sensitive spot deep inside you. His hands found yours and he interlaced your fingers with his as he neared his release. A few deep thrusts and he exploded inside of you. He let out the most manly, almost animalistic sound as his hands moved your legs off his shoulders and his head dropped to you chest. Your hands stroked his back as he continued to thrust shallowly into you and empty ever drop of his release.
You held onto him as you struggled to catch your own breath and you hoped that Sy would need a moment to recover. You wanted to stay exactly the way that you were for as long as possible.
âI love youâ You whispered softly. âJust in case you didnât knowâ.
âI know Sugar .. nothings changedâ. Syâs mouth was hot against your skin before he kissed your cleavage then traced your nipple with his tongue. Heat instantly rushed to your face. You didnât want to know where Sy leant the things he was doing to you .. he certainty wasnât this way ten years ago. But part of you was thankful that you got to experience it with him now. You were amazed that even after such passionate love making that he was still attentive to your body. Still trying to draw out ever bit of pleasure from you.
âSyâ. You breathed into his hair as his mouth moved to your other nipple and his fingers traced your other bud.
âHush Sugarâ. Sy smirked against your skin. âI missed theseâ.
âNow I know why all the ladies want you Syâ.
âWhyâs that?â Sy looked up at you before he rolled you both to your sides with him still inside.
âI donât know what happened .. well I know but .. Sy youâre good .. so good in bedâ. You blushed.
âThank you Mam but Iâm all yours Sugar. If youâll have meâ.
âI want you .. I canât go back to before .. not after this ..â
âThen donâtâ.
âYou want me?â
âAll of youâ Sy smiled at you before moving out of your body slowly. You watched as he went to the bathroom and returned with a warm hand towel. You wondered what he was doing when he parted your thighs and started to clean you.
âWhat? Sy ..â
âShhhh Sugar ..â
âSyâ. You winced slightly, knowing that years of abstinence would probably mean you wouldnât walk straight the next day.
âYou sore love?â
âJust worked muscles that havenât been used in a long time Syâ.
âI wasnât too rough?â
âNo Sy. You were perfectâ.
âOk baby. You always talk to me wonât ya? Tell me if I do something you donât like?â When you nodded he went to the bathroom to dispose of the used hand towel.
You smiled when he returned back from the bathroom and lay down next to you. He was on his back staring at the ceiling.
âWhat are you thinking about?â
You watched as Sy reached across to the nightstand draw and passed you an envelope. You nodded at it, indicating that he wanted you to open it.
âWhatâs this?â You looked at it, addressed to Sy.
âOpen itâ.
Slowly you did and as you clutched the paper your mouth fell open. You had to re read it.
âMy grandfather sent this?â
âIt came a few weeks ago .. He wanted to make sure ..â
âHe asked you to come to the house after the funeral. He wanted you to see meâ. You traced your finger over your grandfathers writing. âHe .. wrote this when he was dying Syâ.
âHe did .. and Iâm glad that I kept his wishâ.
âOh Syâ. You put the envelope on the table next to you and pulled Sy down to kiss you. His hand roamed gently on your stomach and you knew Sy was thinking about Wyatt too.
âWe canât go back Sugarâ
âNo we canât Syâ
âI wish we couldâ.
âSo do Iâ.
âBut .. even after everything .. I feel blessed right nowâ. Sy cupped your face. âWith you, here in this momentâ.
You felt lucky in so many ways. You got to see your grandfather one last time and you got to reconnect with Sy and tell him about the son you both shared. You had no idea what the future held except that you were happy .. for the first time in 10 years.
Note - This oneâs long and holds an element of things that Iâd say are personal to me. It was therapeutic to write but a bit deep so consider that a warning. Also had it sitting in drafts for ages so not the best with proofreading!
Summary - Reader returns home after ten years still holding onto a deep burden. Sheâs home to see her dying grandfather but is worried about crossing paths with the one who broke her heart.
It had been ten years since youâd returned home. Ten years since you left to chase your dream of becoming a doctor. And ten years since your heart was crushed into a million pieces when your first love told you âWeâre going in different directionsâ. Youâd managed to stay away this long - your family understanding your turmoil and agreeing to visit you in the city instead. But now here you were standing on your parents doorstep after they called and begged you to come. Your beloved grandfather was dying and had asked to see you.
âHoney! Oh honey!â Your mother opened the door and pulled you into her arms. âWhat on earth? You said your plane was arriving at midday! We were coming to pick you up from the airport!â
âI took an earlier flight Mum. I didnât want you drivingâ. You smiled as your mother kissed you on the forehead. Truth being, you did it on purpose. Wanting to avoid the airport greetings knowing that you could very well bump into Sy since the military base was close by and he had a habit of visiting the airportâs cafe.
âYour Dad will be crossâ. Your mother smoothed down her apron and as you breathed in the scent of fresh apple pie.
âNo he wonâtâ. You pulled your suitcase inside. âWhen has he ever been mad at me?â
âHoney âŠâ Your mother held you at arms length as she smoothed down your hair like she did when you were a child. âThank you for being here. It will make him happy .. I know itâs hard for youâ.
âMum ..â You swallowed and recited your well rehearsed speech. âI was nineteen years old. Young and stupid .. donât worry Iâm passed itâ.
âIâm your mother, I know you love. I know what you went throughâ.
âItâs the past Mum. Iâm here for granddad and for all of youâ.
Your mother studied your face before she sighed. She rubbed your shoulder and gestured towards the upstairs guest room.
âI wonât .. shock him will I?â
âNo but your father is in with himâ. Your mother smiled. âYouâll shock him no doubtâ.
Your eyes flickered to the locket your mother was wearing, the one that matched your own around your neck. Your heart clenched knowing that the same photo was inside and for a moment you wondered if youâd made the right choice in coming home.
Your mother looked down at the locket and then back at you. She smiled softly.
âIâve never taken it offâ.
âNeither have Iâ. You swallowed the lump in your throat. âI just .. I wonder a lot .. and I just think .. did I do something? Was I to blame? I know thatâs stupid .. but I still think like thatâ.
âHoney .. never ever .. just ..â Your mother grabbed your face as her eyes filled with tears. âYou did nothing wrong. I was there .. I knowâ.
âOh Mumâ. You hugged your mother as you cried softly. Her hands rubbed your back while she hummed softly in your ear in a bid to comfort your broken heart.
âTake your time love. Just breathe ok? Everythingâs alright. Youâre the strongest person I know darling. Such a brave nineteen year old and now look at you. Twenty nine and a doctor. Honey Iâm so very proud of youâ.
âThank you Mumâ. You wiped at your face. âSorry for being so emotional. Itâs just .. being back here. Knowing Syâs here. Itâs brought up so many deep feelings and memoriesâ.
âI know love. We appreciate you being here and I promise you that we will look after you ok?â
âThanks mumâ. You glanced at the stairs. âIâm going to go see him now ok?â
âAlright love. Iâll finish fixing your roomâ.
You paused at the bottom of the stairs before walking up slowly. You stared at the timber door to your left and your hand traced over the handle before knocking twice then opening it slowly. You smiled at the look of surprise on your fathers face. He was sitting in a chair next to your grandfathers bed. He jumped up quickly, causing your grandfather to open his eyes.
âWhat are you doing here! Did I miss your flight? I didnât doze off?â
âNo Dad! I got in earlierâ. You laughed quietly as your father hugged you before kissing your cheeks. You waved at your grandfather who was blowing you a kiss. âHi Grandpa. I came to see youâ.
âLook at youâ. Your grandfather beckoned you over and you rushed to the side of the bed to grab his hands. âThereâs my girlâ.
âI missed you Grandpa. Im going to be here for a few weeks ok? So donât you worry about anythingâ.
âIm glad sweetheart. These doctors tell me Iâve only got a few weeks but what do they know?â Your grandfather smiled. âYouâre the only doctor I trustâ.
âAnd im here to look after youâ.
Your grandfather nodded as he lay his head back against the pillows. His fingers touched the locket around your neck.
âIm going to see him soon sweetheartâ.
Your heart ached and you nodded. You saw your father wipe his face.
âI knowâ.
âIm going to look after him for youâ.
âI know grandpaâ. Your lip trembled. âThank youâ.
âWyattâ. Your grandfather whispered.
âWyattâ. You whispered as your grandfather closed his eyes, sleeping in soft breaths. You saw your father quietly leave the room, giving you time alone. When the door closed you lay your head on the bed next to your grandfathers arm.
Wyatt .. you repeated over and over. Your baby boy born at only 26 weeks that took one breath. He had been your savior throughout your heartbreak over losing Sy. When you found out you were pregnant Sy had already been deployed. You found out he wouldnât be home for 12 months and was in a restricted area so you had no way of contacting him. You planned on telling him .. bringing Wyatt to him. You just had no way of knowing that you would lose him. And then you found out that Sy had a new girlfriend ⊠actually many new girls. So you decided not to burden him with the memory of a son that he never got to meet. Was it wrong? Maybe. But you were young and broken.
The days that followed you spent looking after your grandfather. You were glad you came because the time you spent with him were therapeutic. You went through old family movies and photo albums .. his health was deteriorating rapidly but he was also smiling.
âSweetheart?â
âYes Grandpa?â You paused as you were reading him a passage of a book.
âGo see that boy of yoursâ.
âSy? Heâs not my boy Grandpa. Itâs best kept in the pastâ.
âFor me? I just want you to have peaceâ.
âI have peace Grandpaâ. You paused. âThereâs no use in bringing up all that hurt. Heâs moved on, Iâve moved onâ.
âWhat about Wyatt?â
âWhat good would that do now Grandpa? I tried to tell him but he was gone you know that. Then it ., happened and .. it was too lateâ.
âItâs never too late sweetheartâ. Your grandpa patted your knee. âYou are still hurtingâ.
âSo why hurt him? After ten years?â
âYou know why .. the same reason you tried to tell him in the beginningâ. Your grandfather paused. âBecause he has a right to knowâ.
âWhat right Grandpa?â Tears stung your eyes. âHe left me. I was nineteen and in love with him! Then I came back after losing Wyatt and he was with every girl he could find! Like I was nothing!â
âLove .. youâre still hurt. Canât you see that?â Your grandfather stared at you. âJust promise me that youâll talk to him if your paths cross. You donât have to search him out .. if fate has it then thatâs another storyâ.
You chewed on your bottom lip as you looked at your grandfather. You couldnât say no so you nodded.
âIf our paths cross ..â
Your grandfather smiled and motioned for you to continue reading. You sighed and settled back into the armchair as you tried to forget about Sy.
3 weeks later your Grandfather passed away peacefully. You felt heartbroken yet content that you had such cherished time with him. The funeral was held a week later and he was laid to rest. You spent that afternoon helping your mother serve afternoon tea to the people that were at the service. Extended family and friends that came to pay their respects.
âHoney can you please put on another pot of coffee?â Your mother asked you. You nodded and headed into the kitchen. As you waited for the coffee to brew you felt a presence behind you. Your hands griped the counter as you breathed in the scent of spice that you knew so well. Your knees almost buckled but you willed yourself not to turn around. Not now, today of all days.
âBeen awhileâ.
There was no mistaking that Texas accent. You breathed in deeply and tucked some of your brown hair behind your ear. Instinctively your hand moved to your locket. You could do this .. surely you could do this. You breathed in deeply and slowly turned around.
âHello Syâ.
âHello Sugarâ. His eyes stared at you intensely. âBeen ten years hasnât it?â
âYesâ.
âYou look different .. still pretty as hell but real differentâ.
âIâm not a teenager anymoreâ. You swallowed as you took in his muscular physique. âNeither are youâ.
âTurned 30 last month, can you believe it?â Sy scratched at his beard, something that was new to you.
â20th of Julyâ.
âYou remember?â
âCourseâ.
âWell I remember yours too .. hard to forgetâ.
Your face flushed remembering how you lost your virginity to him when you were 16 on your birthday.
âYeah ..â
âIâm sorry about your Paâ. Sy breathed in deeply. âHe was a good manâ.
âThank you. Yes he wasâ.
âHe was .. hoping youâd spend some time here. I bet he was happy to see youâ.
âYou spoke to him?â You studied Syâs face.
âWell I âŠâ Sy paused.
âWhen?â
Just turn as your mother came in. She stoped dead in her tracks when she saw you standing with Sy. She smiled and pointed to the pot of coffee which you passed to her.
âHello Sy. Thank you for comingâ. Your mother glanced between the two of you.
âIâm sorry for your loss Mamâ. Sy stood awkwardly with his hands in his pockets.
âThank you dear. Iâll uh .. leave you to itâ.
Your mother left and an uncomfortable silence filled the room. You looked at Sy but he looked as unsure as you felt. You cleared you throat and wondered what to say but just as you opened your mouth Sy spoke.
âI should go. Just came to pay my respectsâ.
âOh okâ.
âIt was real nice seeing youâ.
Before you could react he walked out. For a moment you stood still, digesting what had just happened. Then you heart started pounding and before you could think you charged out of the kitchen and followed Sy out of the house. How dare he just show up like that. How dare he act like nothing had happened between you both?
âWait!â You saw him turn around in surprise. You knew this was wrong. You were too emotional and part of you knew you should just go back in the house but you couldnât help yourself. You matched right up to Sy and pushed at his chest with both your hands as hard as you could. âWhy the hell are you here? Why? Today of all days!â.
âI told you I came to pay my respects!â Sy grabbed hold of your wrists as you pounded at his chest. âJust calm downâ.
âIâm not going to calm down!â.
âJust listen to me!â
âNo! You fucking left me!â You screamed. âYou left me and never looked back! You chose the army over me and never even cared to see how I was!â
âI did what was best for you!â
âBest for me?â You laughed through your tears. âYou were what was best for me you idiotâ.
âYouâre a doctor! Thatâs what you wanted and I was holding you backâ. Sy let go of your wrists slowly.
âRight! You knew what was best. You just wanted to be a bachelor huh? I was holding you backâ.
âThats not trueâ.
âFucked half of the town havenât you?â
âNow you listen ..â Sy raised his voice.
âI tried .. I tried to reach youâ. You sobbed causing Syâs eyes to widen I shock. âCame back after and you were too busy playing the field ..â
âI was in Afghanistan for a yearâ. Syâs voice softened. âYou tried to reach me?â
âI tried .. I couldnât ..â Your hands grabbed fistfuls of his shirt. âI tried ..â You gasped for air.
âYou needed me?â
âI .. needed youâ. You could barely make out his face through your tears. His hands gripped your shoulders. âI didnât know what to do .. I was nineteen Sy. I was so scared ..â
âWhat are you trying to tell me? Whatever it is .. tell meâ.
âI didnât know what to do Syâ. You were choking out your words between sobs. âI didnât know what to doâ.
âTell me ..â
âI found out .. I was pregnantâ. You gripped his shirt so hard that your knuckles turned white. âI was having your babyâ.
âWhat? You ..â Syâs eyes searched yours. âYou were .. pregnant?â
âYesâ.
âIâm .. Iâm a father?â
âI was nineteen. I needed youâ. You struggled to speak. âHe .. he âŠâ
âA boy?â
âWyatt .. I lost him. I lost him Syâ. You felt his body go rigid for a moment. He was wiping your face, trying desperately to understand you.
âLost him?â
âI .. he came earlyâ. You felt his hands cup your face. âTwenty six weeks .. I had him but he didnât make itâ.
Sy pulled you against his chest. It started to rain but neither of you moved. The water soaked through your clothing but you were transfixed .. sobbing against Syâs chest. Your heart ached the same way it did when Wyatt laid on your chest and took his only breath. Your heart ached when your mother held you and told you he had gone. It all came back just like it was happening all over again.
âIâm sorryâ. Sy whispered against your wet hair. âIâm so sorry Sugarâ.
âSo am Iâ.
He held you against his chest as your vision blurred. You were vaguely aware of his arms holding you up and then everything went black. You thought you could hear your mothers screams, but maybe it was your imagination?
You woke up in your bed. The first thing you thought was that you must have dreamed everything. But then you noticed your wet black dress in the clothes hamper and then Sy sitting on a chair in your room. He had dry clothes on and they looked like your fathers.
âSy?â
âYeah Iâm hereâ. Sy looked up from his hands. âIâll go get your Ma âŠâ
âItâs ok .. just waitâ. You glanced under the covers and saw that you were wearing sweatpants and a t shirt.
âYour Ma changed you .. you fainted outsideâ.
âOh .. Iâm sorryâ.
âDonât beâ. Sy looked at you and you could see the sadness in his eyes. âYouâve had a hard dayâ.
âIâm sorry I yelled at you .. I shouldnât have come after you like thatâ. You swallowed. âI shouldnât have told you like thatâ.
âDoesnât matter nowâ. Sy smiled softly. âYouâve been through a lot .. Iâd take your anger a thousand times over if it would make you feel betterâ.
âJust seeing you again .. â
âForget it now. Iâm just .. glad I knowâ. Sy stared at the ground. âCan I ask you some things? If youâre up to talking that is?â
âOkâ.
âYou wanted to tell me that you were having my baby?â
The way he said âmy babyâ tugged at your heart. You nodded.
âCame back home and went to the base. They told me you were deployed for a yearâ.
âWhat were you thinking then?â
âI was going to have the baby then when you came back .. tell you. I was going to see if you wanted usâ.
âWanted you both? You thought I wouldnât?â Sy looked at you as his voice broke. âThat Iâd turn you away?â
âI wasnât sure how you felt about me .. but I knew you would want to know Wyattâ.
âJesusâ. Sy rubbed his face. âYou donât have a clue how much I loved you do you? I pushed you to take that scholarship because you were smart and you deserved more that this town could offer. I wanted that for you because I loved youâ. Sy paused. âI would have taken you back in a heartbeat though .. I mean that .. killed me to let you goâ.
Silence filled the room. You watched as Syâs chest rose and fell.
âOhâ.
âTell me .. about him if you canâ. Sy glanced at you. âCan you?â
âWhat do you want to know Sy?â
âHe was .. born in a hospital?â
âYes. I went into labor early but at the time I didnât think so .. thought it was a false alarmâ. You swallowed. âMy Mum was with me. One minute everythingâs ok then they were telling me that he was in distress and I had to pushâ.
âYou would have been so scaredâ.
âI was .. I wanted to keep him inside of me for longer. I knew he was coming too earlyâ. You felt your hands shake. âHe was .. so perfect but so tiny Sy. He just .. wasnât strong enough and he ..â
âItâs okâ. Sy looked at you sadly. âIâm sorry you had to go through that .. I wish I had of been thereâ.
âHe looked like you Syâ. You reached for a tissue on the nightstand. âSo muchâ. You reached behind your neck to unclasp your locket. You handed it to Sy. âThereâs a photo of him in there. Itâs only small but itâs my favouriteâ.
You watched as Sy opened your locket. He stared at the photo inside for what seemed like eternity. He closed his eyes for a moment before opening them again and he repeated this a few times.
âSo small ..â He spoke the words to himself out loud. âI canât believe that .. we made him. Heâs just .. perfectâ.
âI knowâ.
âDid you .. think after .. to tell me?â
âI came back a few months after because I heard you were home. I had every intention .. i went for a walk with my dad along the beach and I saw you ..â You chewed on your bottom lip as you fidgeted with the blanket. âYou were with a girl .. actually you were with all your army friends .. playing volleyball but you were kissing a girlâ.
âOhâ. Syâs cheeks reddened at the memory. âI uh .. started seeing her for a bit. Didnât last longâ.
âYeah so well I ⊠didnât want to ruin your life. Made sense at the time to me. I was young and thought why tell you? Wyatt was gone and you looked happyâ.
âSugar ..â Sy swallowed. âI wasnât happy .. I was just trying to move onâ.
âI saw you kissing her Sy .. you were different with me. You were all over herâ. You sighed. âIt doesnât matter anyway. You were young too .. probably just enjoying not being tied downâ.
âIt wasnât like that at allâ.
âLike I said .. we were both young. Too youngâ. You saw Sy open his mouth then close it. There seemed nothing much more to say. The past was the past and neither of you could change anything.
âWas he .. was he ..â Sy stammered but somehow you knew what he was trying to say.
âHeâs buried here ⊠not far from where my Grandfather isâ. You paused as your eyes flickered to Syâs. âDo you want to go with me?â
âYes .. yes I doâ. Sy breathed out deeply. âAnd if .. if you have more photos?â
âMy mum has an album that I made her. Iâll get it for youâ. You watched as Sy nodded. Your heart felt constricted seeing how much pain he was in. Yet at the same time the weight in your shoulders was lifting. You closed your eyes for a moment thinking of Wyatt .. with great love came great pain.
The next few weeks were a blur. You spent countless days with Sy at Wyattâs grave just talking. Which was nice because you also visited your grandfather and grandma too. But in the past seeing Wyattâs tombstone was such a painful experience, but now with Sy it felt different. He sat next to you cross legged on the grass listening to every single detail about Wyattâs existence. You told him everything from the beginning - how you found out, your morning sickness, your cravings for nachos and roast pumpkin. He listened .. almost intrigued as you opened your heart to him. After awhile it wasnât just Wyatt that you talked about .. he told you about his deployments and all the terrors that came with his job. He told you about his parents divorce and also about his relationships since you.
âIâve had a date here and there but nobody ..â You chewed on your bottom lip. âI was too busy getting into med school I guess?â
âNo wealthy doctor tried to steal your heart?â Sy smiled.
âNoâ.
âJust for the record .. all those years ago .. the one you saw me with on the beachâ. Sy paused. âShe was someone I guess I tried to use to get over you. Now saying that out loud makes me feel really bad .. but I just needed to tell ya ok?â
âSy .. it was so long agoâ.
âI know .. but since weâre being honestâ.
âI appreciate thatâ. You smiled softly. âMy teenage self wanted to kick your ass thoughâ.
âDonât know what I would have done if I had of seen you that day ..â
âGuess weâll ever knowâ. You played with a blade of grass as the sun started to set. âWe should head back?â
âDo you wanna go some place first?â
You looked at Sy .. he suddenly didnât seem like he was a 30 year old grown man. He reminded you of the Sy you once knew. Your Sy. He seemed apprehensive and a bit unsure of himself.
âOkâ. You let him help you to your feet and followed him to your truck.
Sy took you to a place youâd missed. A hill with a city view. The same place heâd kissed you for the first time. You felt your face flush at the memory and wondered if he was thinking the same thing. Your heart hammered against your chest and then you had to quickly turn turn your head before the emotion on your face showed.
âThe sunset is nice hereâ Sy said as you tried to keep your breathing even.
âCome here often?â You turned to him and smiled.
âOnly with youâ. Sy stared at you. âAnd itâs been a few yearsâ.
âI remember ..â
âYou were sixteenâ. Sy paused. âI was so fucking nervous ..â
âYou were?â
âCourse I was .. I knew it was going to be your first kiss. I wanted it to be specialâ.
âSy ..â Your voice caught in your throat. âYou shouldnât have worried because everything with you was specialâ.
Sy stared at the beautiful sunset while you looked at his side profile. He was so different from the boy you once knew. He was a man .. a muscular man with a beard who was sure of himself in so many ways. But he was still Sy.
Slowly you reached for his hand and covered it with yours.
âWe were just two kids Syâ.
âWe wereâ.
âSo much time has passedâ.
âIt hasâ. Sy turned to look at you. âBut Iâll always love you. Iâll never love anyone but youâ.
âSy ..â You sucked in a breath.
âI wish things were different. Iâd fucking do anything to re write the past. You have to believe meâ. Sy turned his head and you knew him well enough to know that he was trying to hide his tears.
âLook at me Syâ. You watched as you saw his eyes filled with tears. Your hand reached to his cheek. âOh Sy Iâve never loved anyone but you. And Iâm so glad .. so very glad that it was you that was Wyattâs daddyâ. Your eyes filled with tears as you felt the wetness of Syâs tears on your hand.
âIâm sorryâ. He whispered. âIâm sorry that you lost your baby .. our babyâ.
âIâm sorry tooâ.
He moved towards you and you waited. His eyes looked exactly how you remembered them, except his hands were different. Bigger, stronger .. they cupped your face as you inched closer.
âStop me. Tell me you donât want me .. tell me that you donât have any feelings for meâ. Syâs lips were on your forehead, his breath hot against your skin. âTell me now Sugar and Iâll drive you homeâ.
âI canât Sy .. I canât tell you that .. because it would be untrueâ. Ten years of heartache and you were now at this point.
You heard him suck in a breath then his strong hands moved your neck up until you are looking at him. Your hands gripped the front of his t shirt and you willed yourself to stop shaking.
âI missed youâ. Sy whispered just before his lips found yours. It wasnât like the first time at all. His lips moved with purpose. His hands were now at the back of your neck, caught in your hair as his mouth opened and his tongue sought yours. This was a different Sy. He was older, experienced and wiser. You gasped into his mouth as his once tentative tongue was anything but. His hand moved to the small of you back, pulling you closer in the confined space of his truck.
âSy .. I ..â You moaned as you broke apart for sure. âI missed you tooâ.
You missed ten years. You missed everything about him. You were scared but at ease too .. you wanted him to repair your fragile broken heart.
âSy take me back to your placeâ.
Suddenly he was pulling back and looking into your eyes.
âI donât need anything more. I just .. kissing you ..â
âI do .. I need you Syâ. Your lips trembled. âPlease just .. donât leave me this timeâ.
Your heart beat in anticipation as Sy stared into your eyes for what seemed like eternity. He slowly nodded before leaning over you to pull at your seat belt and buckle you in. As he moved back across you his breath passed your ear and you knew that he was just as needy as you were.
The drive back to Syâs apartment was silent. His hand rested on your knee as you watched the city lights pass you by. Without thinking you fidgeted with the locket around your neck, immediately thinking of your son. But for some reason, this time you didnât feel the usual ache in your heart. You felt at ease.
Soo you were inside his apartment. Sy was watching as you walked around his living room glancing at photographs and the medals/trophies he had on display. You felt nervous. Not that you didnât want to be there with him, but because you didnât know how to initiate things.
âSugar?â Sy smiled softly at you when you turned around. âYou ok?â
âYeah Iâm just nervous. I donât know how to .. do thisâ.
âThis?â Sy smirked. âWe donât have to do anythingâ.
âI want to .. I just .. Itâs been a long time Sy. I just need ..â You stammered. âI need you to take the leadâ.
âI didnât want to assume anything .. thatâs not what this is for meâ.
âI feel the sameâ. You watched as he walked over to you. Suddenly his hands gripped your hips, pulling you flush against his hard body.
âIâm happy to take the lead Sugarâ. Syâs voice was slightly rough, sending an ache between your thighs.
âThen take meâ.
Sy suddenly lifted you up and your legs wrapped around his waist. He carried you to his room, kicking the door shut with his foot. His eyes were transfixed to yours and you could feel his heart beating quickly against your own.
He placed you on his bed gently and stood Infront of you. He pulled his t shirt off in one motion and you felt your mouth drop open at the sight of him. Ten years ago he was lean yet now .. he was a fit man with a large muscular frame and chest hair. He smirked before removing his jeans and before you could react he took his boxers off too. You gasped and flushed when you saw the sight of his rock hard erection standing firm against his stomach. He seemed huge compared to how you remembered him.
âYour turnâ. Syâs hands grabbed at the fabric of your skirt and soon it was on the floor. You hastily tossed your t shirt over your head followed by your white lace bra. You watched as Sy took in your naked form before his eyes settled on your white lace panties. âYouâre fucking perfect Sugarâ.
âIâm notâ. You whispered as he moved over your body, keeping his weight on his forearms as he kissed you. âIâve changedâ.
âYouâre beautiful .. youâre not a girl anymore love. Youâre a woman and youâre perfectâ.
âI have ..â You stammered. âStretch marks .. from the pregnancyâ.
âWhere?â
You face flushed but you pointed to your lower stomach where the small white lines existed. You gasped when Sy moved lower and his lips kissed every one of them.
âYouâre beautiful and these ⊠are a reminder of him. I wouldnât change them for anythingâ. Sy whispered against your skin.
âSy âŠâ your eyes filled with tears as he continued to cherish you. After a few minutes he slipped your underwear off and settled between your legs. He smiled at you reassuringly before gently opening your thighs.
âLet me love youâ. Sy kissed your inner thighs causing you to tremble. âRelax Sugarâ.
You sunk back against his pillows as you remembered how you both had to learn how to please each other. You smiled at how inexperienced Sy was back then and how heâd constantly ask you if he was making you feel good with each swipe of his tongue. But now ⊠this was a different Sy as he held you thighs open with both hands. His tongue sucked on your clit, and he didnât ask you a single thing before he pushed a finger inside you.
âOh Sy .. ohâ. You were shocked at how good he made you feel. He clearly knew what he was doing as he alternated between sucking, licking and pumping not one but two fingers inside you.
âYou gonna cum for me Sugar?â
You face burned. This wasnât the boy you knew. Sy had never communicated much during your intimate moments, yet this Sy was very vocal.
âSyâ.
One of his hands held your lower stomach to stop you from moving while his mouth sucked on your clit. Suddenly his fingers curled inside you and you arched your back. You felt heat pool in your stomach and you swore that you saw stars as you called out his name over and over again.
When you came to a moment later, Sy was still between your legs. He was looking up at you but his fingers were still moving inside you, riding out every last bit of pleasure. You watched as he looked between your legs and you fought the urge to close them.
âDonât ..â Sy stared at you. His eyes were dark and he licked his lips before looking between your legs again. âWanna see you Sugar. Iâve ⊠Jesus Iâve fantasized about this for yearsâ.
âSy ..â Your face was heated as your eyes fell to his other hand which was fisting his cock as he touched you. âSy .. oh god Sy .. feels so goodâ.
âI could cum just like this. Just watching me touch your pussyâ.
âSy!â You gasped. He had never talked dirty to you before.
âDonât deny you like it .. I felt you clench on my fingers loveâ. Sy smirked.
âCan I touch you?â You whispered. Sy nodded before withdrawing his fingers. He held your gaze as he put his fingers in his mouth.
âYou taste so goodâ.
âLie downâ. You smiled and shook your head as you changed positions. You leaned over him and kissed his lips softly. âWhereâs my shy inexperienced Sy?â
âLong gone babyâ. Sy smiled.
You laughed as you reached for his cock. He groaned as you moved your hand up and down his shaft like you used to do. You explored him slowly before watching as Sy spat on his hand and rubbed himself before replacing your hand with his. You were shocked but his reaction at the feel of your hand with the lubrication made you ache between you legs.
âThatâs it love .. oh god yeah just like thatâ. Sy moaned. He had his eyes closed, head thrown back. Hesitantly you moved your hand to his base before lowering your mouth on him. You struggled with oral and you felt embarrassed to tell Sy that he was the last person you were with. You had no clue if you could make him feel good. Your doubts were gone the second you heard him gasp.
âJesus! Oh god baby ..â Sy glanced down at you in shock. âYou donât have to .. oh fuckâ.
You started to bob your head while your hand worked on him. Your clit throbbed at the sounds he made and the profanities thar left his mouth.
âFuck baby ..â His hand moved to your head and gently applied pressure. You quickly looked at him and released him with a pop.
âSy I havenât been with anyone since you .. Iâm not sure ..I just wanted you to knowâ. You muttered. âI just ..I want to make you feel goodâ.
Sy opened and closed his mouth before his thumb grazed your cheek. You could tell that he was lost for words. Ten years was a long time after all. Youâd had a few dates here and there, some kisses and a few heavy make out sessions with a college of yours. But nothing further. Something always held you back.
You held Syâs gaze as your mouth engulfed him again and this time Syâs hand tangled in your hair while he gently helped you find a rhythm. He sat up slightly to watch you and the whole time he muttered praises.
âGod thatâs it baby. Jesus your mouth .. look at me, donât take your eyes off me Sugarâ.
You stared at him and your confidence grew along with the arousal pooling between your legs.
âGod youâre beautiful .. so fucking beautifulâ. Sy gently moved your mouth off him and sat up to kiss you passionately. He whispered in your ear that he was close and needed to be inside you.
He moved you onto your back and kissed you as he pulled his body on top of yours. You were kissing him back and so completely lost in the sensations that you were feeling.
âSugar just a secâ. Sy lent across you and pulled open a draw. You realised he was getting a condom. You were glad that he was responsible but also a little bit hurt to know that he had used them with other women. Sy opened the packet with his teeth and you watched as he sat back between your legs and rolled the condom on. He looked up at you and noticed your expression. âYou ok?â
âYou .. have a big box of thoseâ.
âGuess soâ. Sy rubbed your hips gently.
âI didnât mean to say that out loudâ.
âItâs ok Sugar. But I canât apologize for anyone after you .. I had no idea back then that Iâd ever be with you again. I thought it was over for goodâ.
âI hate the thought of you with anyone elseâ. You paused. âI hate the thought of you using those with anyone elseâ.
âAnd I donât want anyone else but youâ. Sy lent forward to kiss you. âYou still want me?â
âCourse I doâ. Your hands wrapped around his neck as he kissed you deeply. You felt him rub his cock up and down your opening before the tip moved inside you.
âKeep your eyes on meâ. Syâs fingers moved to your clit as he pushed into you gently. âThatâs it Sugar. Oh Jesus you feel so goodâ.
âSyâ. Your eyes went wide as your body struggled to remember the act. You felt your walls tense as you willed yourself to relax.
Sy was halfway in when he moved to bring his mouth to your breast. He sucked on your nipple while his fingers moved in circles on your clit. You started to moan as you threw your head back. He seemed to know exactly what you needed. Gone was the awkward Sy you once knew. Once he felt you relax he pushed completely inside you inch by inch.
âSy!â
His mouth left your breast and found your lips. He sucked on your bottom one before you opened your mouth and to your surprise he pushed his tongue into your mouth, mimicking the act between your bodies. You could feel his pubic hair flush against your bare skin as he ground his hips into you. You marveled in the feeling.
âYouâre so tight .. god Iâve missed youâ. Sy leaned back to look at you. âYou ok?â
âMore than okâ.
âYou tell me if itâs too much .. I donât wanna hurt youâ.
âIt doesnât hurt Sy .. I just .. you feel so bigâ. You flushed.
âYeah?â
You watched him smirk before he kissed you again. His lips moved to your ear.
âGonna make you scream my name babyâ.
Slowly he thrusted into you before pulling all the way out and thrusting back inside. Your hands clutched fistfuls of his sheets and you started moaning. He was playing you like an instrument.
âYou like that Sugar? Gonna make you cum on my cockâ.
Your toes curled as he continued to whisper dirty things on your ear. Your hands felt the way that his muscular back rippled before moving to his shoulders then his biceps. You realized then that you loved his arms. They were so strong and you couldnât wrap your hand around them. He was very much a grown man now.
âSy .. god you feel good inside meâ.
âYou feel like heavenâ. Sy thrusted deeply into you as his hand moved to grip behind your knee, pushing your leg up higher so that he had better access. You couldnât believe how deep he was. He was touching a part of you that felt so good. Your whole body started to feel like it was on fire.
âRight there Sy!â
âYeah? Right there baby?â Sy hit the magic spot over and over again. âNeed to feel you Sugar .. need to feel you cumâ
You were struggling to breath, no words left your mouth as the most intense orgasm overcame you. You started shaking and your mouth opened to scream but for a moment there was a delay before you cried out. Your heartbeat was pounding in your ears as Sy kept thrusting into you. In your haze you watched him - sweat glistening on his chest, his muscles contracting in his huge shoulders and the words spilling from his lips made you even wetter if that was possible.
âI love fucking you .. god how I love youâ.
You felt your heart explode as you watched Sy chase his orgasm. His hands moved both your legs over his shoulders and you felt him slide even deeper inside of you. The initial shock of the position he had you in quickly turned to intense pleasure as he touched a sensitive spot deep inside you. His hands found yours and he interlaced your fingers with his as he neared his release. A few deep thrusts and he exploded inside of you. He let out the most manly, almost animalistic sound as his hands moved your legs off his shoulders and his head dropped to you chest. Your hands stroked his back as he continued to thrust shallowly into you and empty ever drop of his release.
You held onto him as you struggled to catch your own breath and you hoped that Sy would need a moment to recover. You wanted to stay exactly the way that you were for as long as possible.
âI love youâ You whispered softly. âJust in case you didnât knowâ.
âI know Sugar .. nothings changedâ. Syâs mouth was hot against your skin before he kissed your cleavage then traced your nipple with his tongue. Heat instantly rushed to your face. You didnât want to know where Sy leant the things he was doing to you .. he certainty wasnât this way ten years ago. But part of you was thankful that you got to experience it with him now. You were amazed that even after such passionate love making that he was still attentive to your body. Still trying to draw out ever bit of pleasure from you.
âSyâ. You breathed into his hair as his mouth moved to your other nipple and his fingers traced your other bud.
âHush Sugarâ. Sy smirked against your skin. âI missed theseâ.
âNow I know why all the ladies want you Syâ.
âWhyâs that?â Sy looked up at you before he rolled you both to your sides with him still inside.
âI donât know what happened .. well I know but .. Sy youâre good .. so good in bedâ. You blushed.
âThank you Mam but Iâm all yours Sugar. If youâll have meâ.
âI want you .. I canât go back to before .. not after this ..â
âThen donâtâ.
âYou want me?â
âAll of youâ Sy smiled at you before moving out of your body slowly. You watched as he went to the bathroom and returned with a warm hand towel. You wondered what he was doing when he parted your thighs and started to clean you.
âWhat? Sy ..â
âShhhh Sugar ..â
âSyâ. You winced slightly, knowing that years of abstinence would probably mean you wouldnât walk straight the next day.
âYou sore love?â
âJust worked muscles that havenât been used in a long time Syâ.
âI wasnât too rough?â
âNo Sy. You were perfectâ.
âOk baby. You always talk to me wonât ya? Tell me if I do something you donât like?â When you nodded he went to the bathroom to dispose of the used hand towel.
You smiled when he returned back from the bathroom and lay down next to you. He was on his back staring at the ceiling.
âWhat are you thinking about?â
You watched as Sy reached across to the nightstand draw and passed you an envelope. You nodded at it, indicating that he wanted you to open it.
âWhatâs this?â You looked at it, addressed to Sy.
âOpen itâ.
Slowly you did and as you clutched the paper your mouth fell open. You had to re read it.
âMy grandfather sent this?â
âIt came a few weeks ago .. He wanted to make sure ..â
âHe asked you to come to the house after the funeral. He wanted you to see meâ. You traced your finger over your grandfathers writing. âHe .. wrote this when he was dying Syâ.
âHe did .. and Iâm glad that I kept his wishâ.
âOh Syâ. You put the envelope on the table next to you and pulled Sy down to kiss you. His hand roamed gently on your stomach and you knew Sy was thinking about Wyatt too.
âWe canât go back Sugarâ
âNo we canât Syâ
âI wish we couldâ.
âSo do Iâ.
âBut .. even after everything .. I feel blessed right nowâ. Sy cupped your face. âWith you, here in this momentâ.
You felt lucky in so many ways. You got to see your grandfather one last time and you got to reconnect with Sy and tell him about the son you both shared. You had no idea what the future held except that you were happy .. for the first time in 10 years.
Story - A passionate weekend, a confession, a top gun pilot and a girl called Savannah
âItâs so good to see you sweetheartâ. Your Aunt Penny pulled you to her side in the cramped bar. âBut you have to tell him .. I know how you feel darling but he really has a right to knowâ.
âPen ..â
âSweetheart .. pleaseâ.
âI havenât heard from him in months Pen. We spent one weekend together and he ..â You chewed on your bottom lip. âHe made it clear that he was focused on his job .. he didnât want a relationship and he even told me a family wasnât on the cards. Something about his Dad leaving him?â
âGoose didnât leave him love. He died when Bradley was a young boyâ. Penny sighed. âThereâs a whole lot of hurt there stillâ.
âHe told me Pen. We talked about jobs and stuff ⊠family came up too. He came right out with it, said he didnât want kids at all. Thought .. heâd call at least?â
âLove, he lost his Dad young .. then his mum when he was a young adult. Heâs lost a lotâ. Your Aunt Penny rubbed your arm softly. âRooster has a tough exterior but .. thereâs a lot you donât know about himâ.
âWell I canât just turn up in his life and say hey brad guess what!â You gestured to your growing bump. âYou knocked me up and now your gonna be a Dad! Like it or notâ.
âHoney âŠâ Your Aunt Penny rolled her eyes. âHow he takes it is his choice ok? But you have to do âŠâ She drifted off, looking out the window.
âWhat?â You looked around her and saw Hangman and Phoenix heading into the bar. âOh no! Thought you said they werenât here? You said they were on some kind of mission somewhere!â You started to panic. That was the reason you came to see your Aunt .. knowing you could have the chance to talk to her without worrying about seeing Rooster.
âMav told me that!â Penny got out her phone. âJesus thereâs a bloody message!â
âWhat?â You tugged at your oversized t shirt suddenly wishing youâd bought a sweater.
âFrom Mav. They abandoned the mission and arrived back at baseâ. Penny ran her hand through her hair.
âShit that means âŠâ
âHoney .. I had no idea. I thought weâd have this weekend togetherâ. Penny watched as Phoenix laughed at Hangman before opening the bar door. âYou canât avoid this .. either leave now or stayâ.
âFuckâ. You swore and realised Phoenix had seen you. No way out now.
âSav?â Phoenix nudged Hangman as they both walked over. âThat you?â
âOh yeah .. just dropped by to see Penâ. You smiled as your heart raced. âNice to see you guysâ.
âHey Savâ. Hangman ordered drinks then eyed you suspiciously. âYou look differentâ.
You cringed, knowing youâd put on some weight but the bar was hiding your 5 month bump.
âBeen binging too much with exams you know? I need to hit the gymâ. You shrugged but noticed Phoenix eying you.
Hangman glanced at you again before noticing someone at the bar and engaging in conversation. You breathed a sigh of relief.
âYou sure thatâs it?â Phoenix stared at you as Penny cleared her throat.
âYeah why?â You busied yourself wiping down the benches, praying that sheâd leave it alone.
âNo reasonâ. Phoenix took a sip of her beer. âRooster is coming you knowâ.
âRooster? Oh rightâ.
âYou couldnât have forgotten himâ. Phoenix smiled. âYou two were inseparable last time you were hereâ.
âFor one weekend Phoenixâ.
âStill .. Rooster really liked youâ.
âYeah well ..â You shrugged. âI liked him too but his life is just hectic you know?â
âCourse I do. I live his lifeâ. Phoenix smiled. âUh speak of the devilâ.
You followed her gaze as Rooster walked into the bar. He hadnât changed. Sunglasses on, that same Hawaiian shirt that he loved. His skin looked a bit more tanned since you saw him last, but otherwise he was the same pilot that had stolen your heart.
âPen?â You whispered, nudging your Aunt. âI need .. I canât Penâ. You inched your way towards the bar door and spun around quickly before hurrying out.
âSav?â
You kept walking quickly even though Phoenix was calling out your name. You finally made it into the back office and quickly shut the door. Your eyes fixated on your white sneakers while you mentally tried to figure out what to do.
âWhat now?â You couldnât hide in the office forever. Rooster and his friends would drink for hours!
âSavanah?â
You jumped at the sound of his voice .. Bradley Bradshaw was standing on the otherside. You covered your mouth with your hands as you tried to think of a way out of the cluttered office. You eyed the small window then shook your head when you realized youâd never fit.
âI know youâre in thereâ.
You rested your head against the timber realizing how ridiculous the whole situation was. You were an adult hiding out in an office because you couldnât confront the position you were in.
âYeah Iâm just .. Iâm ..â You drifted off. âIâm just trying to find something for Penâ. You slapped your forehead.
âSav .. whatâs going on? You literally bolted out the bar. Donât you wanna see me?â
âNo itâs not that Bradley .. look itâs hard to explainâ. You wiped at your eyes. âUh .. can you meet me in the carpark maybe? Give me ten minutes?â
âThe car park? .. guess I can do thatâ.
âI just need a momentâ. You paused and listened as his footsteps faded. You glanced at your watch and waited. This was it .. you couldnât get out of it now. All the months you spent crying, analyzing your choices, wondering about Rooster ..soon heâd know and nothing would be the same. You breathed in and out a couple of times before grabbing Pennyâs jacket and putting it on.
As you walked into the carpark hugging the jacket over your stomach you saw Rooster leaning up against his truck. He was looking in the other direction so you saw his side profile. He still made your heart skip a beat after this time apart. Slowly he turned to look at you.
âHey you ok?â He started to walk towards you as your lip trembled. God you hated your raging hormones. âSavannah?â
âIâm okâ. You stood in front of him as his eyes scanned yours. He looked hesitant after seeing the apprehension on your face. âBrad Iâm sorry .. I mean .. I should have tried to contact you. I should have let Mav know at least .. but .. it happened and it was a shock and then ..â
âDarling youâre pretty when you rambleâ. Rooster brushed your hair away from your face. âWhatâs going on?â
Slowly you stepped back from him and opened up pennyâs jacket. Your hands moved protectively over your bump as you watched the mixture of expressions cross his face.
âThis is whatâs going on Brad. Iâm pregnantâ. You paused. âIâm having your babyâ.
âMine?â Bradley stared at you then slapped his forehead. âI didnât mean ..â
âIâve not been with anyone else Bradley .. a year before you and nobody afterâ.
âI just .. i mean .. I was carefulâ. Rooster rubbed at his eyes and you felt your heart sink. âI always used a condomâ.
âNothing is foolproof Bradâ. You swallowed. âLook itâs ok .. I donât want anything from you. I donât need you to support us in any way ok? My parents have been great and Iâve got Aunt Pen and other friends. I graduate next month so Iâll be working and supporting usâ. You wiped at the tears that had fallen down your face. âI donât need a god dammed thing from you Bradley. Your life doesnât have to change ok? Go back to flying planes and forget that we ever had this conversation!â
âForget?â Bradley paused for a moment but you could tell by the way his jaw clenched that he was upset. âWhy the hell did you tell me then?â
âBecause I had to! You wouldnât leave me alone till I came out the office!â
âJesusâ. Rooster rubbed at his jaw turn his eyes flickered to Phoenix and Hangman who came out the bar. Your eyes followed his and you knew the two could see your baby bump. There was no going back now.
âIâm going Bradley. I told you .. now you know. You choose what you want from here. Youâre a big boy I think you can do that muchâ.
âSavannah ..â
âGo back to your buddies, go back to flying .. weâre not going to cramp your styleâ. You suddenly shoved at his chest hard before storming off. You were angry and hurt, his reaction was what you predicted. He didnât want this baby.
âSav?â Phoenixâs hand grabbed your arm. âThought you were .. just .. give him some timeâ.
âI shouldnât have toâ. You smiled sadly noticing the way Hangman eyed Rooster. âIâm ok though .. going back to my life and yeah .., gonna look after this little oneâ. You shrugged suddenly feeling stupid that you had to explain to anyone. âSee you guysâ.
You waved at Penny as you fumbled to get your keys out your pocket. You saw that she was deep in conversation with Maverick who was sitting at the bar. They were no doubt talking about you and your pregnancy. You knew that youâd put Penny in a difficult position by asking her not to tell Maverick earlier. They had just started dating and you prayed that this wouldnât cause a strain on their relationship.
âFucking greatâ. You got in your car and started the ignition. You saw Phoenix deep in conversation with Rooster while Hangman was shaking his head. âTime to goâ. You drove in silence wondering whether he was mad at you? Maybe he was just shocked? Confused? Maybe this was really the last time youâd see him?
You got back to Pennyâs apartment and immediately went in your room to pack. You planned to leave in the morning and go back to your life, after all .. now that Rooster knew and was around it would just make things uncomfortable.
You had barely closed your suitcase when the doorbell rang. You assumed it would be Phoenix if anyone, sheâd probably want to talk to you and to see if you were ok.
âIâm comingâ. You yelled out as you fumbled with the key. You pulled the door open to find Rooster, hands in his pockets.
âWhat are you doing here?â You folded your arms against your chest. âIâm trying to pack so I donât have time ..â
âCan I come in?â Rooster paused. âPlease?â
You sighed then held the door open, noticing the tray of drinks and paper bag he was holding.
âI uh .. picked up coffee and Penny sent some muffinsâ. Rooster held them out to you.
âOh okâ. You took the food and drinks, placing them on the coffee table. âWe can talk here if you want. But like I said, I donât have long because ..â
âIâm sorryâ. Rooster breathed out deeply. âI freaked out .. I never .. I mean I didnât think I wanted kids. I know what my job is like. My dad .. he died doing it and I remember waiting for him to come home and he never didâ. Rooster watched you sit on the lounge before sitting down next to you.
âBradley ..â
âNo just listen please ..â Rooster shifted on the lounge. âIâm just so fucking scared .. Iâve made a point of never getting close to anyone, never letting anyone get attached to me. Iâve never had anyone need me before or rely on me. Iâve done that on purposeâ.
âI know Bradley .. this wasnât on the cards for me either. In the future maybe but not right nowâ. You paused. âIâm scared too. I have a baby growing inside of me Brad .. Iâm worried that I wonât be a good mother, that Iâll mess things up like my own mother didâ.
âHey .. you wonâtâ. Rooster scratched the back of his neck. A sign youâd picked up on when he was nervous.
âWell thatâs how I feel but .. I canât let my fears get the better of me. Iâm going to have a little person that needs meâ.
âI know .. Iâm sorry Sav. You turning up just now telling me that youâre pregnantâ. Rooster swallowed. âI acted like a complete dickhead I know. I was just shocked .. Then all my fears got stired up .. i was too caught up in my god dammed headâ.
âBrad .. I get that you donât want to be a father. That you donât want this baby. And Iâm telling you that you ..â
âNo thatâs not it!â Rooster grabbed your hands. âThatâs not it .. I mean, I thought that was it but watching you drive away scared me more. Truth is, youâre all Iâve thought about these past few months. Ask Mav .. youâve messed with my head big timeâ.
âYouâve thought of me?â
âIâve been caught out many times. Thinking of you when i should be focused flying .. been grounded mid flight because of youâ. Rooster smiled softly.
âItâs not just me Bradâ. You breathed out deeply. âItâs me plus oneâ.
âThink I played a part in thatâ.
âYeah you didâ. You swallowed feeling suddenly emotional. âYou know Im grateful that youâve told me how you feel about me, but you can still walk away you know that right?â
âWhy the fuck would I do that?â Rooster cupped your face. âI want you .. i want this babyâ.
âReally Brad? You really mean that?â
âCross my heart loveâ. Rooster smiled. âDoesnât mean Iâm not scared shitless thoughâ.
âSo am Iâ.
Suddenly Rooster was kissing you and you were right back to your weekend with him .. his mouth felt the same, he smelled the same .. god how youâd missed him.
âBradley ..â You breathed against his mouth as the kisses you shared made your toes curl. âTake me to bed or lose me foreverâ.
You felt him smile against your mouth before he leaned down and picked you up bridal style.
âLast room on the leftâ. You mumbled against his mouth as Rooster carried you like you were nothing. His mouth barely left yours as he navigated through the cramped hallway and into your room, kicking the door closed with his foot.
âYou sure?â He looked down at you as you lay on your bed.
âAre you?â
âYes Mamâ
âThen come hereâ. You smiled as he pulled off his t shirt and undid his jeans before crawling over your body and undressing you. When you were clad in nothing more than your white bra and panties, Rooster kissed your neck then made his way down your body. You noticed the tension in his arms as he kept his weight off you.
âBradâ. You moaned as he lifted your bra cup up and covered your nipple with his mouth. His finger tweaked the other one gently.
âThese are biggerâ. Rooster smirked against your skin. âGod youâre beautifulâ.
You sucked in a breath as he continued down your body. His hands rubbed your stomach softly and you sat up on your elbows as you watched him take in your form.
âI made a babyâ.
âWe made a babyâ. You corrected him.
âI did this ⊠I canât believe itâ. Rooster kissed your stomach softly. âThis is amazing .. you feel amazingâ.
âYou might feel him kick if youâre luckyâ.
âHim?â Rooster looked up at you in shock. âItâs a boy?â
âYeah .. havenât told anyoneâ. You smiled. âWeâre having a son Bradâ.
âJesusâ. Rooster covered your stomach in kisses. âNo more surprises ok? Donât think I can handle any more!â
âYou ok?â You ran your hand across his cheek.
âIâm ok Love .. I just canât believe all thisâ. Rooster smiled at you, his hands still caressing your belly. âBut as much as Iâd like to keep talking about our baby, I really need to focus on my jobâ.
âYour job?â You laughed as Rooster shushed you and slipped your underwear off. His hands parted your thighs and he settled in between them.
âYeah my job ..â He kissed your inner thigh as you threw your head back. âTo make you cumâ.
âOh âŠâ The moment his mouth sucked on your clit you were gone. He had an extremely talented mouth and seemed to play you like an instrument. His fingers eased inside your body and soon he had you right on the brink. His talented tongue flicked across your swollen nub as you gripped the sheets tight. Your toes curled and you screamed his name over and over again as you came undone.
âBradâ. You said breathlessly as you watched him wipe his mouth with the back of his hand. He smiled then lay next to you flat on his back.
âRide meâ. Rooster helped you straddle his waist as his hands moved from your hips across to the swell of your stomach. You moved up on your knees and lined him up at your entrance before easing down slowly.
âOh godâ. You felt that familiar stretch and burn.
âSlow loveâ. Rooster sucked on his thumb before moving his hand in between your legs. The sensation helped you relax and soon you had him deeply inside of you. âThatâs it .. fuck you feel amazing. So tight around meâ.
You began to move slowly and you marveled in the way that Roosterâs eyes were roaming across your body. From your face to the movement of your breasts, then in between your legs.
âYou ok?â He gazed at you intently. âTalk to meâ
âSo good Brad âŠyou feel so goodâ. Your hands rested on his chest. âFeel so good inside meâ.
âFuck .. you look like a goddessâ. Roosterâs hands rested on your hips, guiding you into a slightly faster pace. He moved forward, capturing your nipple in his mouth. âThese .. god baby you have no idea ..â
You felt your body flush. He had this affect on you .. knowing just how to set you on fire quickly. You were relieved that he loved the changes in your body .. the way his hands kept moving over your stomach and breasts told you that. You started to grow in confidence so leaned up on your knees slightly and started to really ride him.
âFuck just like that .. Jesusâ. Rooster watched you reach your hands back, grabbing his thighs as you started to really move. His hands grabbed your breasts as you rolled your hips.
âSo fucking turned on right now .. god your bodyâ Rooster was practically moaning. âTight pussy, gorgeous tits âŠfull of my babyâ.
âPlease .. Bradâ You loved when he talked dirty and you were glad that your condition hasnât changed anything.
âEveryoneâs gonna know who you belong too huh? Who put this baby in youâ. Rooster started to thrust up into you. âCan feel you clenching. You gonna cum for me love?â
âYes ..â You panted above him.
âCum on my cockâ.
âBradley!â You felt it starting. Coiling in your stomach and your heart beating loudly. âPlease!â
âLet goâ.
That was all it took for your second release to hit you hard and your ears rang from the sounds you were making.You felt the urge to fall forward, as suddenly your arms and legs felt like jelly. Rooster seemed to understand and he quickly sat up so that it was easier for you to rest your arms on his shoulders while the continued to thrust into you.
You moved to watch his face and he stared at you. His face and chest covered in a light sheen of sweat, his breathing ragged and his cheeks slightly flushed pink. You wished you could pause this moment because he never looked sexier to you than when he was about to climax.
âNeed you Bradâ. You felt his hands on your hips, stilling your movements as he chased his release. You felt him before you heard any sounds leave his mouth. He grunted into your shoulder as he came inside you with a few jerks of his hips. Warmth filled your body and then there was silence except for the sounds of breathing. His hands roamed your body, moving gently across your skin exactly how he was every single time.
âYou ok?â His breath tickled your neck but was quickly replaced by his mouth, kissing the skin of your jaw.
âMore than okâ.
âI came inside youâ. He laughed. âGuess I can now that youâre pregnantâ.
âCanât get me pregnant twice Bradshawâ. You looked at him and smiled.
âIâm really gonna be a fatherâ. Rooster stared at you before resting his forehead on yours. He slowly moved his hips, slipping out of your body and pulling you in closer.
âYes you are .. we have a lot to look forward toâ. You paused then grabbed at his wrist, placing his hand to the side of your stomach. âCan you feel that? I mean itâs only early and not like full on kicks but âŠâ
âI can ⊠kind of like a soft ..â
âFlutter?â You laughed. âThatâs your son Bradâ.
âJesusâ. Rooster placed his large palm across your stomach. âProbably woke him up with all that screaming you were doing womanâ.
âProbablyâ.
âYou sure .. sex is ok?â
âBrad! Yes sex is ok .. I can have sex right up till I give birthâ. You paused. âThatâs if youâd want toâ.
âOf course I want to! Youâre bloody gorgeousâ. Roosters hands were back on your skin and you smiled, realizing that you might never leave your bed now that his fingers ghosted over the swell of your breasts, stomach and the juncture of your thighs. âYou never looked sexier. Your full breasts, stomach .. everythingâ.
âBradâ. Your hands moved to his hair, tugging slightly as his mouth latched onto your breast. âAgain?â
âAgain .. now that Iâve gotten that out my system Iâm gonna worship youâ.
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Summary - A messy breakup leads to a chance meeting. But youâre not the same girl anymore and youâre determined to give Sy a taste of his own medicine.
Warnings - smut, oral sex, anal (this one is dirty) hate sex
This was an anon prompt and it took me awhile to write. I donât like this Sy but sometimes itâs about being creative! Iâve sat on this one for ages because I kept going back trying to rewrite Sy but at the end of the day it was a new angle. I do want my Sy back though!!
âItâs been weeks since weâve all hung outâ. You turned to your best friend Jane and smiled as you walked along the busy road to the Italian restaurant where you were meeting your large group of friends.
âTell me about itâ. Jane rolled her eyes. âLife gets so busy sometimes. You look hot by the wayâ.
âYou think?â
âGirl youâre going to be going home with someone tonightâ. Jane laughed. âRemember that last guy? Gary?â
âGod donât remind me. I couldnât walk the next dayâ. You groaned at the memory of your intoxicated, rough one night stand.
âSo ⊠heâs well and truly out of your system?â
âWho?â You glanced at Jane and noticed she was looking straight ahead.
âSyâ
âSy? Yeah for sure. Why do you ask?â
âBecause heâs thereâ. You looked to the large table that you were approaching. âI didnât invite him. Shit. Do you want to go?â
For a moment you paused, your mask slipping. But then you remembered how toxic your relationship was. You argued more than any couple should, and heâd cheated on you countless times. But you were submissive and weak then - you kept taking him back.
âNo biggie. Heâs an ex anywayâ.
âSure youâre ok seeing him? Jane eyed you suspiciously. âHundred percent sure babe?â
âAbsolutelyâ. You felt your heart race as you walked closer. Your break up was messy and the last fight you had still burned in your brain. You had no idea what the argument was actually about but youâd both yelled, youâd slapped Syâs face before breaking a glass and youâd both called in other names.
But that was over a year ago and a lot had changed. Heâd gone off to the army, youâd scored a big promotion at work, cut your long hair off into a sexy bob and started âenjoyingâ the freedom of being single. In other words youâd picked up a lot of random guys and had a lot of sex. If a guy could do it, why couldnât a woman? You felt like you were getting your control back. It made you feel powerful.
You were thankful that youâd worn your black leather mini skirt and white lace crop top that showed off your flat stomach and cleavage. You saw Sy look at you and you knew you had him right where any red blooded male would be.
You made a show of greeting all your friends before standing in front of Sy. You noticed his pupils widen as he looked you up and down.
âHello Syâ. You smiled confidentially. âNice to see youâ.
âHi Sugarâ. Sy paused. âYou look real good. Cut your hair?â
âNeeded a new startâ.
âIt looks goodâ.
âThatâs what all the guys tell meâ. You smirked.
âAll the guys?â
âSingle has its freedom right?â You wandered over to the bar, knowing that Sy was behind you watching your ass. You moved purposely - giving him a show.
You ordered your cocktail and sat on the bar stool watching as Sy sat next to you. You crossed your legs slowly and knew that Sy noticed.
âYou look goodâ. Sy took a sip of his beer before handing over his credit card to pay for your drinks.
âYou donât have to pay for meâ.
âAs if Iâd let a woman buy her own drinkâ.
âIâm used to buying mine. Unless you expect something in return?
âAnd what would I be expecting?â
âI can think of a lot of thingsâ. You chewed on your bottom lip, relishing how the tables had turned.
âYeah?â Sy adjusted himself on the seat and you knew he was hard. He was like putty in your hands.
âYeahâ. You leaned in close to his face before running your tongue up to his ear. âYou want to do lots of nasty things to me Sy, donât you?â
âDonât be a fucking teaseâ. Sy paused. âAre you seriously the same girl?â
You finished your cocktail keeping notice of how hot and bothered Sy was getting. You got off the stool slowly, not bothering to pull your skirt down which was now dangerously close to showing off your ass cheeks. You saw Sy look, and his mouth dropped open.
âIâm going outside to smokeâ.
âYou donât smokeâ.
âI do nowâ.
You grabbed your handbag and turned to wink at Jane who was watching you from across the room.
One time you wanted to be in control with Sy. Because it still upset you that you werenât ever in control with him in the past. And it hurt you that he was the one to breakup with you. You were a woman scorned.
You knew he was following you into the outside alleyway. As soon as the door closed behind you, you lent back against the wall and dropped your bag. Your hand ran down your stomach in between your legs as you started to touch yourself. You saw Syâs shocked expression.
âAre you the same girl?â Sy repeated. âWhat the fuck?â
âIâm notâ. You watched as Sy rubbed his cock through his jeans. He came close to you, lips on your neck.
âYouâve fucked aroundâ.
âYeah so?â. You smirked. âDoes that make me a slut?â
âI think it doesâ. Syâs voice rasped into your ear.
âAre you gonna go down on me or what?â
âYou dirty slutâ. Sy groaned. âSo fucking dirtyâ,
âIf not Iâll just get someone elseâ. You smiled. âThe bartender was hotâ
âNoâ. Sy grabbed your throat as hand moved in between your legs. He swore when he realised you had no underwear on before roughly shoving two thick digits into you.
âHold them stillâ. You looked at Sy before running your tongue across his lower lip. âI wanna fuck my self on your fingersâ. You saw Syâs eyes widen as you moved your hips frantically. You gripped his wrist, holding him steady. Sy wasnât used to being told what to do and you loved it.
âFuckâ. Sy muttered before kissing you roughly. âLet me go down on youâ. He was almost begging.
âYesâ. You watched Sy move on his knees, his fingers still in you as he started sucking your clit and frantically pushing up your skirt with his feee hand.
âOh fuckâ. You moaned. âYes Sy!â Within minutes you orgasmed. You pulled his head close as you continued to shake.
You watched as Sy stood up slowly. You took his wrist, bringing his fingers into your mouth and sucking them.
âDirty girlâ. Sy started unbuckling his jeans. âHave you missed my cock?â
âIâve had a lot of cockâs since yoursâ. You kissed his lips, slipping your tongue into his mouth. âBigger than yoursâ.
âYou fucking slutâ. Sy turned you around roughly and you smirked, knowing that youâd wounded his ego.
You felt him line himself against your opening before thrusting hard into you. You muffled a scream as he filled you.
âYou on the pill? Because Iâm fucking you bareâ
âIâm on the pillâ. You panted. âWouldnât want any accidentsâ.
You wondered for a moment if heâd split you in two by the way he was pounding into you. You knew he was angry and this was a hate fuck right now. You heard him spit on his hand before easing a finger into your ass.
âYou had your ass fucked yet?â
âYesâ. You heard Sy suck in a breath knowing how much he wanted that when you were dating. It was the first thing you tried after breaking up. A way of getting back at him. âMany timesâ.
He pulled out of your pussy and lined himself up at your ass. You knew he was angry. He pushed inside as you cried out. He wasnât giving you time to adjust before he started thrusting wildly.
âTake itâ. He said between thrusts. âFucking take it whoreâ.
âI hate youâ. You muttered as his hands gripped your hips.
âYou hate me? Or hate that Iâm destroying your ass?â
âThat all you got?â You pushed back against him trying to take the control back. âIâve had bigger and tougher boys than you Captainâ.
âFuckâ. Sy continued to thrust into you as his hands moved to your shoulders. âGonna make you scream my name!â
âScream mine assholeâ. You pushed your hips back knowing that Sy was losing his control. You could tell by his sloppy thrusts and the groans that he was making. You were growing bolder by the second, knowing that you had this power over him. Heâd broken you after he left, and you wanted to repay him.
âFuck!â Sy gripped your hips in an attempt to stop you from pushing back against him but you struggled until you felt him explode inside you. His body fell forward and he screamed ⊠your name. Your face turned against the cool wall in front of you and although you were sore, tired and a sweaty mess you felt like youâd won.
You felt Syâs hands on your hips as he pulled out and you heard him swear as he surely saw his cum trickling down your legs. You refused to face him. Instead tugging down your mini skirt and deciding you were in no shape to mingle with friends. Instead youâd have to walk back to your car.
âHeyâ. Syâs voice cut through your thoughts. You turned your head slowly. âI didnât .. I didnât hurt you did I? You .. fuck you got me so riled up. Hope I didnât hurt you though?â
âI like it roughâ. You paused before turning around. âBesides, you screamed my name remember?â
âSugar I think we should ..â
âTalk? Sort through our shit?â You glared at him. âIâm not the same person Syâ.
âI can see thatâ.
âYou ruined meâ. You pointed your finger into his chest. âBack then .. you ruined me. So now this is the new me. I call the shots .. I make guys like you begâ.
You watched Sy open and close his mouth, not sure what to say to you.
âDonât say anything. Just let it beâ. You looked at him for a moment before walking away.
âI thought we were gonna .. â
âWhat?â You yelled over your shoulder. âBreakup then makeup? Fuck off Syâ.
Summary - A messy breakup leads to a chance meeting. But youâre not the same girl anymore and youâre determined to give Sy a taste of his own medicine.
Warnings - smut, oral sex, anal (this one is dirty) hate sex
This was an anon prompt and it took me awhile to write. I donât like this Sy but sometimes itâs about being creative! Iâve sat on this one for ages because I kept going back trying to rewrite Sy but at the end of the day it was a new angle. I do want my Sy back though!!
âItâs been weeks since weâve all hung outâ. You turned to your best friend Jane and smiled as you walked along the busy road to the Italian restaurant where you were meeting your large group of friends.
âTell me about itâ. Jane rolled her eyes. âLife gets so busy sometimes. You look hot by the wayâ.
âYou think?â
âGirl youâre going to be going home with someone tonightâ. Jane laughed. âRemember that last guy? Gary?â
âGod donât remind me. I couldnât walk the next dayâ. You groaned at the memory of your intoxicated, rough one night stand.
âSo ⊠heâs well and truly out of your system?â
âWho?â You glanced at Jane and noticed she was looking straight ahead.
âSyâ
âSy? Yeah for sure. Why do you ask?â
âBecause heâs thereâ. You looked to the large table that you were approaching. âI didnât invite him. Shit. Do you want to go?â
For a moment you paused, your mask slipping. But then you remembered how toxic your relationship was. You argued more than any couple should, and heâd cheated on you countless times. But you were submissive and weak then - you kept taking him back.
âNo biggie. Heâs an ex anywayâ.
âSure youâre ok seeing him? Jane eyed you suspiciously. âHundred percent sure babe?â
âAbsolutelyâ. You felt your heart race as you walked closer. Your break up was messy and the last fight you had still burned in your brain. You had no idea what the argument was actually about but youâd both yelled, youâd slapped Syâs face before breaking a glass and youâd both called in other names.
But that was over a year ago and a lot had changed. Heâd gone off to the army, youâd scored a big promotion at work, cut your long hair off into a sexy bob and started âenjoyingâ the freedom of being single. In other words youâd picked up a lot of random guys and had a lot of sex. If a guy could do it, why couldnât a woman? You felt like you were getting your control back. It made you feel powerful.
You were thankful that youâd worn your black leather mini skirt and white lace crop top that showed off your flat stomach and cleavage. You saw Sy look at you and you knew you had him right where any red blooded male would be.
You made a show of greeting all your friends before standing in front of Sy. You noticed his pupils widen as he looked you up and down.
âHello Syâ. You smiled confidentially. âNice to see youâ.
âHi Sugarâ. Sy paused. âYou look real good. Cut your hair?â
âNeeded a new startâ.
âIt looks goodâ.
âThatâs what all the guys tell meâ. You smirked.
âAll the guys?â
âSingle has its freedom right?â You wandered over to the bar, knowing that Sy was behind you watching your ass. You moved purposely - giving him a show.
You ordered your cocktail and sat on the bar stool watching as Sy sat next to you. You crossed your legs slowly and knew that Sy noticed.
âYou look goodâ. Sy took a sip of his beer before handing over his credit card to pay for your drinks.
âYou donât have to pay for meâ.
âAs if Iâd let a woman buy her own drinkâ.
âIâm used to buying mine. Unless you expect something in return?
âAnd what would I be expecting?â
âI can think of a lot of thingsâ. You chewed on your bottom lip, relishing how the tables had turned.
âYeah?â Sy adjusted himself on the seat and you knew he was hard. He was like putty in your hands.
âYeahâ. You leaned in close to his face before running your tongue up to his ear. âYou want to do lots of nasty things to me Sy, donât you?â
âDonât be a fucking teaseâ. Sy paused. âAre you seriously the same girl?â
You finished your cocktail keeping notice of how hot and bothered Sy was getting. You got off the stool slowly, not bothering to pull your skirt down which was now dangerously close to showing off your ass cheeks. You saw Sy look, and his mouth dropped open.
âIâm going outside to smokeâ.
âYou donât smokeâ.
âI do nowâ.
You grabbed your handbag and turned to wink at Jane who was watching you from across the room.
One time you wanted to be in control with Sy. Because it still upset you that you werenât ever in control with him in the past. And it hurt you that he was the one to breakup with you. You were a woman scorned.
You knew he was following you into the outside alleyway. As soon as the door closed behind you, you lent back against the wall and dropped your bag. Your hand ran down your stomach in between your legs as you started to touch yourself. You saw Syâs shocked expression.
âAre you the same girl?â Sy repeated. âWhat the fuck?â
âIâm notâ. You watched as Sy rubbed his cock through his jeans. He came close to you, lips on your neck.
âYouâve fucked aroundâ.
âYeah so?â. You smirked. âDoes that make me a slut?â
âI think it doesâ. Syâs voice rasped into your ear.
âAre you gonna go down on me or what?â
âYou dirty slutâ. Sy groaned. âSo fucking dirtyâ,
âIf not Iâll just get someone elseâ. You smiled. âThe bartender was hotâ
âNoâ. Sy grabbed your throat as hand moved in between your legs. He swore when he realised you had no underwear on before roughly shoving two thick digits into you.
âHold them stillâ. You looked at Sy before running your tongue across his lower lip. âI wanna fuck my self on your fingersâ. You saw Syâs eyes widen as you moved your hips frantically. You gripped his wrist, holding him steady. Sy wasnât used to being told what to do and you loved it.
âFuckâ. Sy muttered before kissing you roughly. âLet me go down on youâ. He was almost begging.
âYesâ. You watched Sy move on his knees, his fingers still in you as he started sucking your clit and frantically pushing up your skirt with his feee hand.
âOh fuckâ. You moaned. âYes Sy!â Within minutes you orgasmed. You pulled his head close as you continued to shake.
You watched as Sy stood up slowly. You took his wrist, bringing his fingers into your mouth and sucking them.
âDirty girlâ. Sy started unbuckling his jeans. âHave you missed my cock?â
âIâve had a lot of cockâs since yoursâ. You kissed his lips, slipping your tongue into his mouth. âBigger than yoursâ.
âYou fucking slutâ. Sy turned you around roughly and you smirked, knowing that youâd wounded his ego.
You felt him line himself against your opening before thrusting hard into you. You muffled a scream as he filled you.
âYou on the pill? Because Iâm fucking you bareâ
âIâm on the pillâ. You panted. âWouldnât want any accidentsâ.
You wondered for a moment if heâd split you in two by the way he was pounding into you. You knew he was angry and this was a hate fuck right now. You heard him spit on his hand before easing a finger into your ass.
âYou had your ass fucked yet?â
âYesâ. You heard Sy suck in a breath knowing how much he wanted that when you were dating. It was the first thing you tried after breaking up. A way of getting back at him. âMany timesâ.
He pulled out of your pussy and lined himself up at your ass. You knew he was angry. He pushed inside as you cried out. He wasnât giving you time to adjust before he started thrusting wildly.
âTake itâ. He said between thrusts. âFucking take it whoreâ.
âI hate youâ. You muttered as his hands gripped your hips.
âYou hate me? Or hate that Iâm destroying your ass?â
âThat all you got?â You pushed back against him trying to take the control back. âIâve had bigger and tougher boys than you Captainâ.
âFuckâ. Sy continued to thrust into you as his hands moved to your shoulders. âGonna make you scream my name!â
âScream mine assholeâ. You pushed your hips back knowing that Sy was losing his control. You could tell by his sloppy thrusts and the groans that he was making. You were growing bolder by the second, knowing that you had this power over him. Heâd broken you after he left, and you wanted to repay him.
âFuck!â Sy gripped your hips in an attempt to stop you from pushing back against him but you struggled until you felt him explode inside you. His body fell forward and he screamed ⊠your name. Your face turned against the cool wall in front of you and although you were sore, tired and a sweaty mess you felt like youâd won.
You felt Syâs hands on your hips as he pulled out and you heard him swear as he surely saw his cum trickling down your legs. You refused to face him. Instead tugging down your mini skirt and deciding you were in no shape to mingle with friends. Instead youâd have to walk back to your car.
âHeyâ. Syâs voice cut through your thoughts. You turned your head slowly. âI didnât .. I didnât hurt you did I? You .. fuck you got me so riled up. Hope I didnât hurt you though?â
âI like it roughâ. You paused before turning around. âBesides, you screamed my name remember?â
âSugar I think we should ..â
âTalk? Sort through our shit?â You glared at him. âIâm not the same person Syâ.
âI can see thatâ.
âYou ruined meâ. You pointed your finger into his chest. âBack then .. you ruined me. So now this is the new me. I call the shots .. I make guys like you begâ.
You watched Sy open and close his mouth, not sure what to say to you.
âDonât say anything. Just let it beâ. You looked at him for a moment before walking away.
âI thought we were gonna .. â
âWhat?â You yelled over your shoulder. âBreakup then makeup? Fuck off Syâ.
Story - After a 12 month engagement, reader is married to the man of her dreams - and is ready to give him her virginity.
You were alone at last, standing together in the very expensive penthouse of the 5 star hotel that Sy had booked. Heâd just carried you over the threshold and you had just found your feet, staring into his eyes.
âYouâre my husbandâ. It was a statement and you smiled at him. Your hand found his and you laced your fingers together.
âI amâ. Sy bought his hand to your cheek. âAnd youâre my wifeâ.
âWe did it Sy. We really got marriedâ. You glanced at the white gold band on his finger that matched your own.
âWe did Sugarâ. Syâs fingers ran down your jawline.
âIt was perfectâ.
âExcept for my fatherâs drunken dance movesâ. Sy laughed at the memory. âGod how embarrassingâ.
âLeave him aloneâ You smiled. âHe enjoyed himselfâ.
âYeah he did. Everyone didâ. Sy paused, searching your face. He ran his hand down your lace covered arm. âWould you like a drink? Thereâs an outside spa?â
Your eyes drifted to the outdoor spa, with beautiful views overlooking the city. Syâs eyes stared into yours and you sensed the unspoken question. He had been so patient, but now alone with you .. his expression was needy. You knew that his patience had reached its limits. He wanted you.
âThat sounds niceâ. You paused. âCan you help me out of this dress?â Your breath caught in your throat as your mind wandered to all the fantasies youâd had of this night.
âYeah .. turn around Darlingâ.
You felt Syâs hands move gently to your hips before his fingers worked at the pearl buttons that made their way from the back of your neck to your waist. He moved slowly although you could feel the slight tremble of his fingers. You knew how long heâd waited.
Suddenly the fabric shifted off your arms and you clutched it to your chest. You turned to face him, watching his eyes move from your bare back to your face.
âThe bathroom is ..â He looked momentarily shocked as you dropped the dress to the floor. You stood in your white lace bra and panties, along with a matching white lace garter belt and stockings. On your feet were your white satin high heels.
âSugarâ. Sy let his eyes wander down your body. âYouâre so beautiful babyâ.
âYouâre still dressedâ. You smiled as Sy worked to rid himself of the wedding suit. Soon he was standing in front of you in black boxers. You could see his hard on standing firm against his muscular stomach. God he was every womanâs fantasy.
âAre we? I mean ..â You stammered. âNo clothes?â
âNaked? Yes baby .. if youâre comfortable?â
You nodded. He was your husband. You followed him to the spa, his hand linked in yours. You reached behind your body and unclasped your bra. Sy moved to push his shorts down before smiling at you. He got nto the spa slowly and waited for you with his hand outstretched. You stood topless In front of him before unclipping your suspenders.
âYou are stunningâ Sy whispered as he watched you. Your eyes flickered to his and you sucked in a breath when you saw his massive length. However, with shaky hands you managed to remove your stockings and flimsy white lace panties. Syâs eyes were on the junction between your legs and you blushed, knowing that you were already wet. You took his hand and moved into the warm water, your back against his front as you both relaxed. He was hard against you but your thoughts were interrupted by his lips on your neck as his fingers undid the clasp that held your soft curls in place.
âYou gonna be my wife tonight sugar?â His Texas accent seemed to resonate on your ear.
âThought I already am?â
âYou know what I mean ..â Sy sucked gently on your earlobe. âYou gonna let me have you at last?â
âYes Syâ.
You heard him suck in a breath. Heâd been so patient with you, always respecting your boundaries. He knew from the beginning that you wanted to wait until your wedding night, and you knew how hard the wait had been.
âYou been such a good girl .. saving yourself for meâ. Syâs hand drifted to your breasts and he rolled one nipple between his fingers. âAinât ya?â
âYes Syâ. You moaned at his touch, thinking about the months he had explored your body without going too far.
âGood girlâ. Syâs hand continued to play with your nipple while his other hand moved in between your legs.
You gasped as he worked your clit before gently easing a finger into you. Up until now, this was as far as youâd let him go.
âJesus baby youâre so wetâ Sy started moving his finger.
âI want you Syâ. You started moving your hips gently and for a minute Sy let you, his hot breath on your neck.
âThatâs it loveâ. Sy sucked on your neck as he pushed another digit into you. He stilled when he heard you gasp.
âSy .. I donât think ..â You felt full already. âI canâtâ
âBaby let me get you ready for me love. Iâm a big boy and I donât wanna hurt youâ. Sy moved his fingers gently. âSee? Youâre taking it baby. Relaxâ.
âOh Sy âŠâ You started rocking your hips. You knew he was much bigger than two fingers but you felt so full.
âThatâs my girl .. look at you baby. Youâre getting ready for my cockâ.
Sy hadnât spoken to you like that before and you felt your cheeks blush at the same time as your clit throbbed.
âYou gonna cum on my fingers sugar?â
âSy!â His dirty talk shocked and pleased you at once.
âYou like it. I feel you clenching sweetheartâ. Sy increased his pace. âLet go babyâ.
You panted as you moved your hips, a strange coil tightening in your stomach and then it happened - you cried out Syâs name as you felt your release come over you. You lay back limp against his chest while his fingers worked you through your orgasm. You were vaguely aware that he was scissoring them slightly and you knew that he was trying to prepare you.His lips were at your ear, murmuring praises.
âMy good girl. You gonna be my wife now baby? Tell me you want me love .. tell meâ.
âI want you Syâ You felt his fingers leave you and you turned around reaching for his cock. Your tiny hand grasped what you could and moved up and down his length.
âJesus Sugar .. oh fuck that feels so goodâ.
âCan I taste you?â You felt your cheeks burn but the look on Syâs face made you want continue. You watched as Sy moved up a step so that he was out of the water. Your knees rested on the lower step as you reached for him at the same time as his hands gathered your hair into a ponytail. He nodded and you lowered your mouth to him for the first time.
âOh baby .. look at meâ.
You glanced up and started to move your head up and down, trying to mimic what your girlfriends had told you. Your hand moved in time with your mouth and you watched Sy throw his head back.
âFuckâ. Sy muttered over and over again. You grew a little bolder and took him in your mouth deeper only to gag slightly. Sy quickly pulled your head up.
âDonât baby. Youâre not used to that yet loveâ. Sy watched as you released him with a pop. For awhile you used your hand and explored him, loving the sounds he was making.
âCan we go to the bed?â
âYes love. Iâm not taking you in the tub for your first timeâ. Sy pulled you to him and kissed you passionately. You both stood and Sy wrapped a towel around you so you could dry off before leading you to the bed. Within minutes your moans filled the room.
âSy oh Sy!â
He was between your legs and you were grinding yourself against his mouth. He prolonged your experience by taking you right to the edge then pulling away and kissing your thighs. This went on for ages and it was the most delicious torture youâd ever felt. Sy was an experienced lover and he was determined to make this enjoyable for you.
He added a finger and you were so close to another release. But before anything happened you felt Sy shift. He was pulling your thighs apart further and moving closer to you, rubbing his cock up and down your slit.
âYou ready love?â
âMmmm yes Syâ. You kissed his lips as he lent forward, tasting yourself on his mouth.
âLove youâ He pushed until the head was inside. You squirmed at the invasion but Sy held your hips in place. âI promise it wonât hurt long loveâ. You felt Syâs thumb working on your clit as he pushed forward gently. âBreath babyâ.
âSyâ. You felt yourself resisting the foreign invasion and Sy stilled, sensing your discomfort. His lips found yours and he kissed you passionately. He was an amazing kisser at the best of times but this kiss literally took your breath away. He sucked on your bottom lip before his tongue found yours.
âJust kiss me. I got all the time in the world loveâ
âI love youâ. You whispered breathlessly.
âI love you too Sugarâ. He resumed kissing you, inching forward slightly and taking his time. You were suddenly aware of a sting and you realised that he was at your resistance.
âI love youâ Sy repeated before thrusting into you. âSorry babyâ.
You clung to Syâs neck as you cried out. Your face nuzzled into his jawline as a few tears escaped your eyelids. Sy kept whispering sweet nothings into your ear while keeping completely still and allowing your body to accept him. After a few minutes you felt him slip his hand between your joined bodies as this fingers rubbed circles on your clit. It eased the throb between your legs.
âSyâ. Your voice was a whisper. âYou can moveâ.
âYou sure love?â
âNo but you have to at some pointâ.
âBaby ..â Sy kissed your forehead. âIt will feel better I promiseâ.
âOkâ. You felt Sy nudge your nose with his. He thrusted gently and you felt the pain ebb and flow. Again, he was watching your face as his fingers played with your clit. You started to feel pleasure and wetness seep between your parted thighs. âSy .. oh ..â
âThere you go babyâ. Sy kissed your lips as he rocked his hips. âYouâre started to enjoy it .. I can feel how wet youâre gettingâ.
âSy .. oh it feels much betterâ. You involuntarily rocked your hips against him. You could feel your walls relaxing to accommodate him.
âYour pussy feels so goodâ. Sy saw you suck in a breath as you pulsed around him. âYou like when I talk that way donât you love?â
âYesâ
âWant more baby girl?â Sy pulled all the way out and plunged back inside as you arched your back. âGood girl .. youâre taking all of me. Jesus this was worth the waitâ.
âKeep talking .. Sy .. ohâ.
âYou feel so good .. fuckâ. Sy muttered in between thrusts. âYour pussy feels so good .. so tight. Fuck Iâve waited so long to feel youâ.
âSy oh godâ. You felt your walls spasm and felt that familiar feeling again. You could hardly believe you were going to orgasm. Your hands gripped his shoulders and you felt your eyelids grow heavy but then Sy suddenly stopped moving.
âTrust me?â
âYesâ You weâre so close that your walls were already faintly pulsing.
âRoll overâ. Sy pulled out slowly and watched as you moved onto your knees. You blushed, realizing he was looking at your ass. âRelax babyâ. He gripped your hips and pushed back inside gently. He could feel your walls pulsing again. He felt so different in this position.
âOh Sy I think Iâm going to .. â
Before you could finish, Sy started thrusting into you from behind. Not too hard yet, just long deep strokes.
âCome on my cock Sugarâ. Sy held your hips as he picked up his pace. You felt his hands move your ass cheeks open and you knew he was watching.
âAre you looking?â You panted as you turned your head. You couldnât believe the horror stories youâd heard about other womenâs first times - lying on their backs without any pleasure. But here you were on your hands and knees ready to orgasm again.
âFuck yes. Iâm watching your pussy take me. Baby .. best sight Iâve seen. Let me watch you comeâ.
âSy ..â Your cheeks burned but you were too close to your release to overthink things.
âFuck .. oh fuckâ.
âSy!!â You screamed his name loudly as your release hit you hard. You were shaking as you struggled to stay on your arms. You could hear Sy muttering profanities as you fell forward onto your elbows.
âGod baby .. you came on my cock. Fuck ..â Sy was thrusting hard. âSo wet .. fuck, so wetâ
He came shouting your name. You felt his release coat your walls as he collapsed against your back. He ruttered against you for a few moments before pulling out gently. His hand rubbed along your spine, moving upwards to push your hair to the side.
âSo good baby .. you were so goodâ. He kissed your shoulder, rolling you onto your back as he went to retreave a washcloth to clean between your legs. He came back a few minutes later and you watched as he parted your thighs. You saw a sticky mess of your releases and some blood but Sy acted like it was nothing. He cleaned you gently.
âI probably ruined the sheetsâ.
âThink I care?â Sy smiled at you as he continued to wipe in between your legs.
âNo but housekeeping mightâ.
âIâve paid for housekeepingâ. You watched as Sy took the washcloth to the bathroom. You heard the water go on and you lay there waiting for him. He came back and laid down, pulling you into his arms.
âHow was that love?â Sy studied your face. âI didnât hurt you? I tried to be gentleâ.
âYou were perfect Sy. How was it for you?â
âYou seriously asking me that?â Sy chuckled. âIâve waited 12 months to have you baby. It was the best thing and even more special because youâre my wifeâ.
âI wish .. I knew more though .. like how to please youâ.
âBaby we have a lifetime to understand each other that way. But Iâll tell you something .. you donât have to do a good dammed thing and you please meâ.
âLove youâ. You looked up at him and his lips met yours.
âLove you right backâ. Sy paused. âYou sore love?â
âYeah a bitâ.
âWell you lay back snd relax ok? Let me take care of youâ
Before you could question him he was in between your parted thighs, smiling up at you as his mouth eased your discomfort.
âSy! Youâve just .. came inside me!â
âDonât care but if it bothers you Iâll just kiss you hereâ. Sy sucked on your clit gently.
You relaxed back into the soft fluffy pillow, your hands reaching in between your legs to stroke his hair.
âI could get used to thisâ.
âGoodâ. Sy glanced up at you from in between your parted thighs. âBecause Iâm gonna take care of you forever Sugarâ.
Story - After a 12 month engagement, reader is married to the man of her dreams - and is ready to give him her virginity.
You were alone at last, standing together in the very expensive penthouse of the 5 star hotel that Sy had booked. Heâd just carried you over the threshold and you had just found your feet, staring into his eyes.
âYouâre my husbandâ. It was a statement and you smiled at him. Your hand found his and you laced your fingers together.
âI amâ. Sy bought his hand to your cheek. âAnd youâre my wifeâ.
âWe did it Sy. We really got marriedâ. You glanced at the white gold band on his finger that matched your own.
âWe did Sugarâ. Syâs fingers ran down your jawline.
âIt was perfectâ.
âExcept for my fatherâs drunken dance movesâ. Sy laughed at the memory. âGod how embarrassingâ.
âLeave him aloneâ You smiled. âHe enjoyed himselfâ.
âYeah he did. Everyone didâ. Sy paused, searching your face. He ran his hand down your lace covered arm. âWould you like a drink? Thereâs an outside spa?â
Your eyes drifted to the outdoor spa, with beautiful views overlooking the city. Syâs eyes stared into yours and you sensed the unspoken question. He had been so patient, but now alone with you .. his expression was needy. You knew that his patience had reached its limits. He wanted you.
âThat sounds niceâ. You paused. âCan you help me out of this dress?â Your breath caught in your throat as your mind wandered to all the fantasies youâd had of this night.
âYeah .. turn around Darlingâ.
You felt Syâs hands move gently to your hips before his fingers worked at the pearl buttons that made their way from the back of your neck to your waist. He moved slowly although you could feel the slight tremble of his fingers. You knew how long heâd waited.
Suddenly the fabric shifted off your arms and you clutched it to your chest. You turned to face him, watching his eyes move from your bare back to your face.
âThe bathroom is ..â He looked momentarily shocked as you dropped the dress to the floor. You stood in your white lace bra and panties, along with a matching white lace garter belt and stockings. On your feet were your white satin high heels.
âSugarâ. Sy let his eyes wander down your body. âYouâre so beautiful babyâ.
âYouâre still dressedâ. You smiled as Sy worked to rid himself of the wedding suit. Soon he was standing in front of you in black boxers. You could see his hard on standing firm against his muscular stomach. God he was every womanâs fantasy.
âAre we? I mean ..â You stammered. âNo clothes?â
âNaked? Yes baby .. if youâre comfortable?â
You nodded. He was your husband. You followed him to the spa, his hand linked in yours. You reached behind your body and unclasped your bra. Sy moved to push his shorts down before smiling at you. He got nto the spa slowly and waited for you with his hand outstretched. You stood topless In front of him before unclipping your suspenders.
âYou are stunningâ Sy whispered as he watched you. Your eyes flickered to his and you sucked in a breath when you saw his massive length. However, with shaky hands you managed to remove your stockings and flimsy white lace panties. Syâs eyes were on the junction between your legs and you blushed, knowing that you were already wet. You took his hand and moved into the warm water, your back against his front as you both relaxed. He was hard against you but your thoughts were interrupted by his lips on your neck as his fingers undid the clasp that held your soft curls in place.
âYou gonna be my wife tonight sugar?â His Texas accent seemed to resonate on your ear.
âThought I already am?â
âYou know what I mean ..â Sy sucked gently on your earlobe. âYou gonna let me have you at last?â
âYes Syâ.
You heard him suck in a breath. Heâd been so patient with you, always respecting your boundaries. He knew from the beginning that you wanted to wait until your wedding night, and you knew how hard the wait had been.
âYou been such a good girl .. saving yourself for meâ. Syâs hand drifted to your breasts and he rolled one nipple between his fingers. âAinât ya?â
âYes Syâ. You moaned at his touch, thinking about the months he had explored your body without going too far.
âGood girlâ. Syâs hand continued to play with your nipple while his other hand moved in between your legs.
You gasped as he worked your clit before gently easing a finger into you. Up until now, this was as far as youâd let him go.
âJesus baby youâre so wetâ Sy started moving his finger.
âI want you Syâ. You started moving your hips gently and for a minute Sy let you, his hot breath on your neck.
âThatâs it loveâ. Sy sucked on your neck as he pushed another digit into you. He stilled when he heard you gasp.
âSy .. I donât think ..â You felt full already. âI canâtâ
âBaby let me get you ready for me love. Iâm a big boy and I donât wanna hurt youâ. Sy moved his fingers gently. âSee? Youâre taking it baby. Relaxâ.
âOh Sy âŠâ You started rocking your hips. You knew he was much bigger than two fingers but you felt so full.
âThatâs my girl .. look at you baby. Youâre getting ready for my cockâ.
Sy hadnât spoken to you like that before and you felt your cheeks blush at the same time as your clit throbbed.
âYou gonna cum on my fingers sugar?â
âSy!â His dirty talk shocked and pleased you at once.
âYou like it. I feel you clenching sweetheartâ. Sy increased his pace. âLet go babyâ.
You panted as you moved your hips, a strange coil tightening in your stomach and then it happened - you cried out Syâs name as you felt your release come over you. You lay back limp against his chest while his fingers worked you through your orgasm. You were vaguely aware that he was scissoring them slightly and you knew that he was trying to prepare you.His lips were at your ear, murmuring praises.
âMy good girl. You gonna be my wife now baby? Tell me you want me love .. tell meâ.
âI want you Syâ You felt his fingers leave you and you turned around reaching for his cock. Your tiny hand grasped what you could and moved up and down his length.
âJesus Sugar .. oh fuck that feels so goodâ.
âCan I taste you?â You felt your cheeks burn but the look on Syâs face made you want continue. You watched as Sy moved up a step so that he was out of the water. Your knees rested on the lower step as you reached for him at the same time as his hands gathered your hair into a ponytail. He nodded and you lowered your mouth to him for the first time.
âOh baby .. look at meâ.
You glanced up and started to move your head up and down, trying to mimic what your girlfriends had told you. Your hand moved in time with your mouth and you watched Sy throw his head back.
âFuckâ. Sy muttered over and over again. You grew a little bolder and took him in your mouth deeper only to gag slightly. Sy quickly pulled your head up.
âDonât baby. Youâre not used to that yet loveâ. Sy watched as you released him with a pop. For awhile you used your hand and explored him, loving the sounds he was making.
âCan we go to the bed?â
âYes love. Iâm not taking you in the tub for your first timeâ. Sy pulled you to him and kissed you passionately. You both stood and Sy wrapped a towel around you so you could dry off before leading you to the bed. Within minutes your moans filled the room.
âSy oh Sy!â
He was between your legs and you were grinding yourself against his mouth. He prolonged your experience by taking you right to the edge then pulling away and kissing your thighs. This went on for ages and it was the most delicious torture youâd ever felt. Sy was an experienced lover and he was determined to make this enjoyable for you.
He added a finger and you were so close to another release. But before anything happened you felt Sy shift. He was pulling your thighs apart further and moving closer to you, rubbing his cock up and down your slit.
âYou ready love?â
âMmmm yes Syâ. You kissed his lips as he lent forward, tasting yourself on his mouth.
âLove youâ He pushed until the head was inside. You squirmed at the invasion but Sy held your hips in place. âI promise it wonât hurt long loveâ. You felt Syâs thumb working on your clit as he pushed forward gently. âBreath babyâ.
âSyâ. You felt yourself resisting the foreign invasion and Sy stilled, sensing your discomfort. His lips found yours and he kissed you passionately. He was an amazing kisser at the best of times but this kiss literally took your breath away. He sucked on your bottom lip before his tongue found yours.
âJust kiss me. I got all the time in the world loveâ
âI love youâ. You whispered breathlessly.
âI love you too Sugarâ. He resumed kissing you, inching forward slightly and taking his time. You were suddenly aware of a sting and you realised that he was at your resistance.
âI love youâ Sy repeated before thrusting into you. âSorry babyâ.
You clung to Syâs neck as you cried out. Your face nuzzled into his jawline as a few tears escaped your eyelids. Sy kept whispering sweet nothings into your ear while keeping completely still and allowing your body to accept him. After a few minutes you felt him slip his hand between your joined bodies as this fingers rubbed circles on your clit. It eased the throb between your legs.
âSyâ. Your voice was a whisper. âYou can moveâ.
âYou sure love?â
âNo but you have to at some pointâ.
âBaby ..â Sy kissed your forehead. âIt will feel better I promiseâ.
âOkâ. You felt Sy nudge your nose with his. He thrusted gently and you felt the pain ebb and flow. Again, he was watching your face as his fingers played with your clit. You started to feel pleasure and wetness seep between your parted thighs. âSy .. oh ..â
âThere you go babyâ. Sy kissed your lips as he rocked his hips. âYouâre started to enjoy it .. I can feel how wet youâre gettingâ.
âSy .. oh it feels much betterâ. You involuntarily rocked your hips against him. You could feel your walls relaxing to accommodate him.
âYour pussy feels so goodâ. Sy saw you suck in a breath as you pulsed around him. âYou like when I talk that way donât you love?â
âYesâ
âWant more baby girl?â Sy pulled all the way out and plunged back inside as you arched your back. âGood girl .. youâre taking all of me. Jesus this was worth the waitâ.
âKeep talking .. Sy .. ohâ.
âYou feel so good .. fuckâ. Sy muttered in between thrusts. âYour pussy feels so good .. so tight. Fuck Iâve waited so long to feel youâ.
âSy oh godâ. You felt your walls spasm and felt that familiar feeling again. You could hardly believe you were going to orgasm. Your hands gripped his shoulders and you felt your eyelids grow heavy but then Sy suddenly stopped moving.
âTrust me?â
âYesâ You weâre so close that your walls were already faintly pulsing.
âRoll overâ. Sy pulled out slowly and watched as you moved onto your knees. You blushed, realizing he was looking at your ass. âRelax babyâ. He gripped your hips and pushed back inside gently. He could feel your walls pulsing again. He felt so different in this position.
âOh Sy I think Iâm going to .. â
Before you could finish, Sy started thrusting into you from behind. Not too hard yet, just long deep strokes.
âCome on my cock Sugarâ. Sy held your hips as he picked up his pace. You felt his hands move your ass cheeks open and you knew he was watching.
âAre you looking?â You panted as you turned your head. You couldnât believe the horror stories youâd heard about other womenâs first times - lying on their backs without any pleasure. But here you were on your hands and knees ready to orgasm again.
âFuck yes. Iâm watching your pussy take me. Baby .. best sight Iâve seen. Let me watch you comeâ.
âSy ..â Your cheeks burned but you were too close to your release to overthink things.
âFuck .. oh fuckâ.
âSy!!â You screamed his name loudly as your release hit you hard. You were shaking as you struggled to stay on your arms. You could hear Sy muttering profanities as you fell forward onto your elbows.
âGod baby .. you came on my cock. Fuck ..â Sy was thrusting hard. âSo wet .. fuck, so wetâ
He came shouting your name. You felt his release coat your walls as he collapsed against your back. He ruttered against you for a few moments before pulling out gently. His hand rubbed along your spine, moving upwards to push your hair to the side.
âSo good baby .. you were so goodâ. He kissed your shoulder, rolling you onto your back as he went to retreave a washcloth to clean between your legs. He came back a few minutes later and you watched as he parted your thighs. You saw a sticky mess of your releases and some blood but Sy acted like it was nothing. He cleaned you gently.
âI probably ruined the sheetsâ.
âThink I care?â Sy smiled at you as he continued to wipe in between your legs.
âNo but housekeeping mightâ.
âIâve paid for housekeepingâ. You watched as Sy took the washcloth to the bathroom. You heard the water go on and you lay there waiting for him. He came back and laid down, pulling you into his arms.
âHow was that love?â Sy studied your face. âI didnât hurt you? I tried to be gentleâ.
âYou were perfect Sy. How was it for you?â
âYou seriously asking me that?â Sy chuckled. âIâve waited 12 months to have you baby. It was the best thing and even more special because youâre my wifeâ.
âI wish .. I knew more though .. like how to please youâ.
âBaby we have a lifetime to understand each other that way. But Iâll tell you something .. you donât have to do a good dammed thing and you please meâ.
âLove youâ. You looked up at him and his lips met yours.
âLove you right backâ. Sy paused. âYou sore love?â
âYeah a bitâ.
âWell you lay back snd relax ok? Let me take care of youâ
Before you could question him he was in between your parted thighs, smiling up at you as his mouth eased your discomfort.
âSy! Youâve just .. came inside me!â
âDonât care but if it bothers you Iâll just kiss you hereâ. Sy sucked on your clit gently.
You relaxed back into the soft fluffy pillow, your hands reaching in between your legs to stroke his hair.
âI could get used to thisâ.
âGoodâ. Sy glanced up at you from in between your parted thighs. âBecause Iâm gonna take care of you forever Sugarâ.
Summary - Reader is a psychiatrist whoâs devoted years to working with soldiers suffering from PTSD. She helped Sy recover and adjust back to life outside of the military. But after the loss of her parents she finds herself on the other side, slowly sinking. She needs a hero.
Warnings - Angst, loss of family
âLove? Itâs going to be alrightâ. Your grandma smoothed back your auburn hair as you lay on the sofa. You were exhausted after the service and your face was sticky from where the tears had dried. You felt her gently remove your shoes from your feet. Her familiar hands softly stroking your calves as she tried to soothe you like she did when you were a child.
âI should be looking after you Nanâ. You turned to look at the old womanâs face. âYou lost your daughter and your son in lawâ.
âAnd you lost your parents sweetheartâ. Your grandma wiped her eyes. âNo matter how old you are, youâll always be my grand babyâ.
âI love you Nanâ.
âI love you moreâ.
For awhile she just sat near you, occasionally rubbing your lower back, while you both got lost in your own thoughts.
âWhy? Nan why?â. You whispered. âSome crazy kid gets high and decides to drive .. ends up killing them. Destroying our entire family with one bad decisionâ.
âI know sweetheartâ. Your grandma paused. âLife just isnât fairâ.
âIâve lost both of my parents at onceâ. You cried into the pillow. âOne moment and my whole life has changedâ.
âIâm here. Grandpa is here too loveâ.
âYou donât live here. Youâll have to go home soon Nan. I have no other family!â You sucked in a deep breath and instantly felt terrible for voicing your thoughts. You were an adult and you needed to get yourself together.
âWe can move darling. Donât you fretâ. Your grandma kissed your head. âYou just stop worrying. Grandpa and I can sell the farmhouse âŠâ
âNo Nan! I donât ⊠mum wouldnât have wanted thatâ. You sniffed and rubbed your eyes. âYou know how mum felt about that farmâ.
âShe loved you more than some darn farmâ.
âJesusâ. You covered your face with your hands. âI need to get myself together. Iâm 29 years old for fucks sake!â
âWatch your language sweetheart. You know how I feel about ladies who cussâ.
âSorry Nan ..I just ..I have to get myself togetherâ.
âNo love. You have to grieve, be gentle with yourself. You need time loveâ. Your Grandma took your face in her old hands. âNow you listen to me love ok? Time .. you need to just let yourself feel all these emotions and you need to heal. Youâre not rushing back to life or work .. I wonât allow it you hear me?â
You nodded then jumped when you heard a knock on your door. You got up slowly wondering who it could be? Youâd said farewell to the last of your visitors hours ago.
âI wasnât expecting companyâ. You glanced at your grandma who slowly made her way over to your door. âGrandpa might have lost his key again?â
A few moments later and you almost did a double take seeing Syverson standing in your living room holding a bouquet of white roses. He was a big man in uniform, but in jeans and a tight fitted t shirt he looked even bigger.
âSy?â You noticed that your grandma disappeared into the kitchen. âWhat are you ..â
âHeard about the accidentâ. Sy slowly held the flowers out to you. âI just .. needed to see you. I wanted to tell you how sorry I was and .. well I just needed to check on youâ.
You took the flowers and immediately bought them to your nose. Their aroma was heavenly.
âThank you Syâ.
âHeard the service was this morningâ.
âYesâ.
âIâm sorryâ. Sy glanced at his feet for a moment. âIâm not good with wordsâ.
âItâs ok .. I donât feel like talkingâ.
âRight .. well Iâll get out of your hairâ. He turned to leave but stopped when you spoke.
âDidnt say i wanted you to goâ.
âYou donât?â
âNo i just .. Iâm a complete mess right now and ..â
Before you could continue Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders and pulled you close against his chest. One hand held your back while the other rested against your head.
âWeâll youâre allowed to be a mess Sugarâ.
âIâm not used to being like this .. Iâm normally ..â
âDealing with head cases like myself?â
âYouâve never been a headcaseâ.
âYouâre a bad liarâ. Sy chuckled. âI was so fucked up. You helped me and ⊠Iâd like to help youâ.
âSy ..â
âNo you just listen ok? Iâm here for you. Iâm not ..in the Military now. Iâm back home and thereâs no professional red tape .. itâs just meâ.
âIâm not used to accepting help .. I just spent the morning pushing my friends awayâ. You glanced up at Sy.
âWell weâre not just friends are we? Donât know what we are .. You were my psychiatrist. Does it even fucking matter? Just ⊠let your guard downâ.
Your grandma appeared with a tray of tea and freshly baked cookies. She smiled softly as Sy moved to take the tray from her.
âOh thank you dear. Iâm the grandmaâ.
âSyverson ⊠but Sy is just fineâ. Sy smiled warmly. âI just wanted to pay my respects. Iâm real sorry for your loss Mam. Your granddaughter here helped me a lot ⊠Iâm ex militaryâ.
âThank you dearâ. Your grandma paused. âIâm glad she helped you and thank you for your serviceâ.
âYouâre welcome Mamâ.
âDarling are you ok if I head on out? Your grandpa just bought the car around. Weâre going fo a bit of a drive .. just need to get some fresh air after this morning. That is if youâll be ok here with Sy?â
You eyed your grandmother suspiciously but nodded before walking over to the window and checking for your grandfathers car. When you saw him you waved.
âOk grandma. Iâll see you a bit later on?â
âOf course loveâ.
You felt the warmth of your grandmothers arms before you walked her to the door. You smiled at Sy as you passed him and told him to sit down on your lounge area.
âHeâs a lovely young manâ.
âGrandma please!â You rolled your eyes as she closed the door behind herself. You took a moment and rested your forehead against the door, smiling to yourself. Your grandma really was the sweetest woman.
âIâm backâ. You sat down in the sofa next to Sy and immediately tucked your legs in. He handed you a cup of tea and you thanked him before bringing the mug to your lips.
âThis is good teaâ. Sy commented.
âYeah Nan knows her teaâ. You smiled and pointed at the cookies. âTry those. Theyâre her famous sugar cookies. Normally she makes them on Christmas but ⊠she knows how much I love themâ.
âYour Nan lives by?â Sy stuffed a cookie into his mouth. âThese are amazing by the wayâ.
âMy grandparents live on a farm .. a few hours drive. Theyâve lived there since before I was bornâ.
âOther family?â
âMy mum was an only child. My Dad had a younger brother but he died when he was youngâ. You paused. âMy dads parents passed away when I was a babyâ.
âRight .. well your lucky to have your two lovely grandparentsâ. Sy smiled. âAnd visiting their farm every now and then would be nice ⊠get away from the busy city lifeâ.
âYeah ..â You swallowed the lump in your throat. âI just .. feel so odd right now. Like Iâm scared of being aloneâ.
âHeyâ. Sy moved closer. âThatâs not odd and youâre not aloneâ.
âIâm a messâ. You breathed in deeply.
âYouâre allowed to beâ. Sy reached for your hand. âYouâre used to dealing with head cases like myself ⊠sometimes youâre going to be in a position where youâre not so strong yourselfâ.
âSy thank youâ. You studied his face. âFor the visit and the flowers .. it was really nice of you. But trust me Iâll be ok. I just need some time to process things .. but then I .. well Iâll be back at workâ.
âYou really have no idea ..â Sy scratched his head. âYour boss wonât give you time off?â
âNo my boss has been great. He told me to take leave ..â
âThen do it. Take your time .. I donât .. I donât start work for a few weeks?â
âWhat are you saying?â You were confused. You watched him fidget with the rim of his mug.
âIf you donât mind company ⊠Iâd like to spend time with youâ
âSpend time with me?â You chewed on your bottom lip. âWith me?â
âYeah .. youâd be doing me a favor too. Otherwise Iâd just be wasting my time tinkering with some old motorbikes Iâve got lying aroundâ. Sy smiled at you. âSo what do you say?â
âOk?â You stammered. âI might not be the best company though?â
âI might not be eitherâ.
âIâve just .. well .. my parents just diedâ. You blurted out.
âAnd Iâve just started sleeping at night. Some nights I still wake up screamingâ. Sy stared at you. âYou helped me. Let me .. let me be there please?â
The weeks that followed bought you many things - peace, closure and friendship. You shared many days and nights with Sy and when you were feeling down heâd always call you. A few times you fell asleep to the sound of his voice at night.
One night heâd opened up to you while you cuddled up in your bed, phone rested against you ear. He told you about the things he saw during his time in the military that still haunted him and admitted to you that heâd wrote a letter to his parents that he kept in his bag - just in case he never made it home.
More weeks past and you noticed a shift between you both. You smiled more. You eyes seemed to hold his gaze. Talking about your parents didnât make you sob uncontrollably - yes you were still heartbroken, but Sy was encouraging you to do some of the things your parents enjoyed doing. So you did - you read your mumâs book collection, took Sy along the hiking trails your Dad used to walk on, went fishing on the lake and started following your mumâs cake receipes with your Nan.
One day you were mixing the batter of your mums famous chocolate cake with your grandma in the kitchen when it suddenly dawned on you..
âNan I think Iâll be ok if you and grandpa head back to the farmâ.
âLove I told you before ..â
âNan Iâm okâ. You paused. âItâs not the same but you were right ⊠I needed this time. What happened has been a lot to processâ.
âSy has been a big helpâ. Your grandma smiled softly. âHeâs a lovely manâ.
âYeah he isâ.
âLove ⊠do you like him?â
âSy? Oh .. I used to help him .. itâs complicatedâ.
âWhy is it complicated?â
âWell ⊠heâs just .. trying to help because I helped him you know?â You avoided your grandmas gaze as you spooned the batter into the greased pan. âHeâs just a nice guy thatâs allâ.
âYou think thatâs heâs been hanging around for the past 6 weeks just because he owed you a favour?â
âNan âŠâ
âSweetie ⊠I think heâs a lovely young man. And maybe yes that was his original intention, but I think things have changed. I may be old but I see the way he looks at youâ.
âOh Nan ..â
âAnd you look at him the same wayâ.
You paused and looked up at the old womanâs smiling face. You smiled then rolled your eyes.
âNan Iâm not ready .. I just lost mum and dadâ.
âYou think thereâs a time? I met your grandfather the same day the neighbours son kissed me. I didnât like him at all. Your grandfather was helping to build the farm across from us and saw me upset. We got talking and the rest is historyâ.
âI never new that!â You laughed. âThe neighbors son kissed you?â
âRogerâ. Your grandma shook her head. âNice enough boy but there was no ⊠chemistry there. So what Iâm trying to say is that I know those looks love. I can see itâ.
You sighed and put the cake into the oven. You knew better than to argue with your grandmother.
âIâm sure heâs ⊠taken. Maybe he has someone ⊠maybe long distance since heâs moved a lotâ. You blurted out.
âHas someone?â Your grandmother laughed. âLove .. you think heâd be spending all this time with you if he had someone else he was sweet on?â
âMaybe heâs not looking Nan .. heâs been through a lot. Leaving the army, moving back here .. starting a new jobâ.
âQuit making excuses sweetie! Just see what happens! Open that beautiful heart of yoursâ. Your grandma hugged you.
âOk okâ. You relaxed into her embrace. âPromise me youâll go back to the farm please? Iâm so grateful to you both but Iâm navigating things. Iâm ok Nanâ. You held her gaze until she smiled and the little wrinkles around her eyes deepened. She nodded and you hugged her again.
You decided to frost your cake and take it to Syâs as a surprise. He didnât know that you were coming but you hoped that he would be home. You saw his truck so quickly rang the bell holding the cake platter in front of you. The smile on your face faded when a woman opened the door.
âUh hello? Can I help you?â The blonde smiled warmly but your stomach turned into knots. She was stunning.
âOh I .. I was just ..â You suddenly felt light headed. How stupid could you have been? He was just being polite. He had someone he was dating. He just wanted to repay you for helping him .. like you were some long overdue debt.
âWere you after Sy?â
âHereâ. You shoved the cake into the blondes hands. âEnjoy that. I baked it .. god knows why I showed up here with a stupid fucking cake anywayâ.
âWhoa!â The blonde tried to reach for your arm. âHey, Iâll just ..â
âIâve got to goâ. You quickly rushed to your car, ignoring the womanâs feeble attempts to explain .. whatever the situation was. You felt incredibly stupid knowing that youâd interrupted Sy. Or was it more? Your face burned and your heart hammered against your chest. No it was defiantly more. You felt jealous too. You quickly started your car knowing that you needed to get away fast but your hands were shaking.
âHey!â
You glanced up in horror as Sy rushed towards your car after talking with the blonde. If you werenât already mortified enough ..
Suddenly your car door was opened and Sy was bending down to look at you. You reached for the door but he had wedged his leg inside.
âI have to goâ.
âGet out of the bloody carâ.
You looked up when you heard his tone. He sounded pissed.
âSy I have to goâ.
âI said get outâ. Sy moved to unfasten your seat belt. âI aint asking againâ.
âIâm going homeâ.
âNot until you meet Beckyâ.
You looked at him is disgust. So her name was Becky? Did he enjoy seeing you in such discomfort?
âI donât think ..â
âMy sister Beckyâ. Sy raised his eyebrow at you and motioned for you to get out. âSeems like you didnât really get introduced beforeâ.
âYour sister?â Your face burned. âSheâs your sister?â
âMy baby sister yesâ. Sy held open the door as you struggled to get out. Your arms instantly wrapped around your body as you glanced to where the blonde stood holding your chocolate cake. You were so embarrassed when she waved at you hesitantly.
âShe stopped by ⊠sheâs here for the weekendâ. Sy scratched his neck. âCollege breakâ.
âOh I .. â
âYou thought she was a girl I picked up?â
âNo .. I mean âŠâ
âYou didâ.
âI just .. I thought I was interruptingâ. You stared at the ground.
âI would have told you if I was seeing someoneâ.
âWell I .. I just .. god Sy what do you want me to say?â
âHow bout why youâre here dropping off a cake?â Sy held your gaze. âWhy you got so upset seeing Becky here? And donât go telling me some god dammed excuse that you thought you weâre interrupting ..â
âI .. baked a cake. And I .. thought of youâ. You wiped your sweaty palms on your dress wishing the earth would open up and swallow you.
âWhyâd you go thinking of me?â
âSy ..â
âTell meâ.
âI just .. I thought ..â
âJust tell meâ. Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders.
You sucked in a breath and glanced in Beckys direction. You watched as she took the cake and walked inside.
âIm scared Sy .. I canâtâ.
âWhy not?â
âBecause I donât know how ⊠and then so much has happening you know?â
âI can stand here all dayâ. Syâs voice was almost rough as his eyes pleaded with you.
âWhy .. I mean why have you been there for me lately? Is it because of your time in the army? Some idea that you needed to repay me?â You sucked in a breath.
âIs that what you think?â
âI .. I donât know Sy. I donât want to read more into itâ.
âIâm not playing that gameâ. Sy let go of your shoulders and took a step back. Your insides churned immediately. âI asked you .. donât turn the tablesâ.
âSyâ
âI made it darn obvious. Now you tell me why youâre at my door looking all pretty in your floral dress, holding out a cake that you know that Iâll loveâ. Sy paused. âTell me .. Iâm not asking you againâ.
âYou made it obvious? Didnât I just make it obvious too? I havenât just rocked up here for no good reason now have i? And this dress ..â you touched the fabric with your hands. âItâs new! So I obviously wore it because .. well I thought youâd like itâ.
âSay it!â Sy grabbed your face with both hands. âFor fuckâs sake woman just say it!â
âI want you! There you go I said it!â Your eyes filled with tears. âBut Iâm scared you donât want me! And Iâm scared that youâll think Iâm a headcase whoâs just lost her parents and now is looking to fill that hole!â.
âThere you goâ. Sy smiled softly. âI really needed to hear you say it ⊠been losing my mindâ
âDo you? Do you feel the same?â
âYou really have to ask me that?â. Sy smiled then shook his head. âLove, Iâve been infactuated by you the moment I first saw you. But I could never do anything about itâ. Sy touched your cheek. âWouldnt have been appropriate since you were working for the armyâ.
âYou always liked me?â
âCourse I did .. youâre god dammed beautiful and so smart. Thought you were way too good for me thoughâ. Sy inched closer to you and your hands immediately gripped into his t shirt, pulling him towards you.
âKiss me Syâ. You whispered.
âWas planning toâ.
Next thing you felt his lips on yours. They were warm and full, and as he opened his mouth he tasted like mint and sugar. You felt your head spin, your heart beat fast and you were certain that youâd bent your knee - just like they did in old fashioned movies. Sy had ruined you with just one kiss. Suddenly you felt him break away, inhale deeply then kiss you again. This time was different. He had you backed up against your car, his large frame trapping you in a way that made your legs turn to jelly. His hands gripped the sides of your floral dress, pulling your body so flush against him that you could feel every muscle.
âSyâ. You moaned you broke apart for air.
âCanât wait till youâre fucking screaming my nameâ. Sy groaned into your neck. âBut I think I should date you for a bit first, where are my manners?â. Sy looked at you, a smirk on his face.
âIâd like thatâ.
âMe dating you or you screaming my name?â
âSy!!â You playfully pushed against his chest but he quickly grabbed at your thighs and you instinctively jumped up, wrapping them around his waist. He turned to reverse your positions, with him now leaning up against your car.
âWhy did we wait so long to do this?â
âI donât knowâ.
âYou gonna be my girl Sugar?â Sy suddenly asked you as he raised an eyebrow.
âYesâ. You couldnât help the smile that broke out on your face. âSy?â
âYeah?â
âMum and Dad would have really liked youâ.
âIâm sure I would have liked them even moreâ. Sy brushed a strand of hair out of your face. âAnd I know that because they made such a beautiful daughter who I have fallen forâ.
âI feel like these past few weeks you have gotten to know themâ.
âI haveâ. Sy smiled. âI know all your dads hiking trails and his favourite places to fish. I know your mum was an incredible cook and Iâve enjoyed rewatching some of her favorite movies with youâ. Syâs hands gripped your ass even closer to him and you bumped your nose against his.
âYou know what we have to do now?â
âI can think of a few things?â Sy smirked but waited patiently for you to finish.
âI think .. you need to try my cake. And I think ..â you kissed his lips. âI need to say hello to your sister?â
âYes to both of those but right now I wanna kiss you some moreâ.
Summary - Reader is a psychiatrist whoâs devoted years to working with soldiers suffering from PTSD. She helped Sy recover and adjust back to life outside of the military. But after the loss of her parents she finds herself on the other side, slowly sinking. She needs a hero.
Warnings - Angst, loss of family
âLove? Itâs going to be alrightâ. Your grandma smoothed back your auburn hair as you lay on the sofa. You were exhausted after the service and your face was sticky from where the tears had dried. You felt her gently remove your shoes from your feet. Her familiar hands softly stroking your calves as she tried to soothe you like she did when you were a child.
âI should be looking after you Nanâ. You turned to look at the old womanâs face. âYou lost your daughter and your son in lawâ.
âAnd you lost your parents sweetheartâ. Your grandma wiped her eyes. âNo matter how old you are, youâll always be my grand babyâ.
âI love you Nanâ.
âI love you moreâ.
For awhile she just sat near you, occasionally rubbing your lower back, while you both got lost in your own thoughts.
âWhy? Nan why?â. You whispered. âSome crazy kid gets high and decides to drive .. ends up killing them. Destroying our entire family with one bad decisionâ.
âI know sweetheartâ. Your grandma paused. âLife just isnât fairâ.
âIâve lost both of my parents at onceâ. You cried into the pillow. âOne moment and my whole life has changedâ.
âIâm here. Grandpa is here too loveâ.
âYou donât live here. Youâll have to go home soon Nan. I have no other family!â You sucked in a deep breath and instantly felt terrible for voicing your thoughts. You were an adult and you needed to get yourself together.
âWe can move darling. Donât you fretâ. Your grandma kissed your head. âYou just stop worrying. Grandpa and I can sell the farmhouse âŠâ
âNo Nan! I donât ⊠mum wouldnât have wanted thatâ. You sniffed and rubbed your eyes. âYou know how mum felt about that farmâ.
âShe loved you more than some darn farmâ.
âJesusâ. You covered your face with your hands. âI need to get myself together. Iâm 29 years old for fucks sake!â
âWatch your language sweetheart. You know how I feel about ladies who cussâ.
âSorry Nan ..I just ..I have to get myself togetherâ.
âNo love. You have to grieve, be gentle with yourself. You need time loveâ. Your Grandma took your face in her old hands. âNow you listen to me love ok? Time .. you need to just let yourself feel all these emotions and you need to heal. Youâre not rushing back to life or work .. I wonât allow it you hear me?â
You nodded then jumped when you heard a knock on your door. You got up slowly wondering who it could be? Youâd said farewell to the last of your visitors hours ago.
âI wasnât expecting companyâ. You glanced at your grandma who slowly made her way over to your door. âGrandpa might have lost his key again?â
A few moments later and you almost did a double take seeing Syverson standing in your living room holding a bouquet of white roses. He was a big man in uniform, but in jeans and a tight fitted t shirt he looked even bigger.
âSy?â You noticed that your grandma disappeared into the kitchen. âWhat are you ..â
âHeard about the accidentâ. Sy slowly held the flowers out to you. âI just .. needed to see you. I wanted to tell you how sorry I was and .. well I just needed to check on youâ.
You took the flowers and immediately bought them to your nose. Their aroma was heavenly.
âThank you Syâ.
âHeard the service was this morningâ.
âYesâ.
âIâm sorryâ. Sy glanced at his feet for a moment. âIâm not good with wordsâ.
âItâs ok .. I donât feel like talkingâ.
âRight .. well Iâll get out of your hairâ. He turned to leave but stopped when you spoke.
âDidnt say i wanted you to goâ.
âYou donât?â
âNo i just .. Iâm a complete mess right now and ..â
Before you could continue Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders and pulled you close against his chest. One hand held your back while the other rested against your head.
âWeâll youâre allowed to be a mess Sugarâ.
âIâm not used to being like this .. Iâm normally ..â
âDealing with head cases like myself?â
âYouâve never been a headcaseâ.
âYouâre a bad liarâ. Sy chuckled. âI was so fucked up. You helped me and ⊠Iâd like to help youâ.
âSy ..â
âNo you just listen ok? Iâm here for you. Iâm not ..in the Military now. Iâm back home and thereâs no professional red tape .. itâs just meâ.
âIâm not used to accepting help .. I just spent the morning pushing my friends awayâ. You glanced up at Sy.
âWell weâre not just friends are we? Donât know what we are .. You were my psychiatrist. Does it even fucking matter? Just ⊠let your guard downâ.
Your grandma appeared with a tray of tea and freshly baked cookies. She smiled softly as Sy moved to take the tray from her.
âOh thank you dear. Iâm the grandmaâ.
âSyverson ⊠but Sy is just fineâ. Sy smiled warmly. âI just wanted to pay my respects. Iâm real sorry for your loss Mam. Your granddaughter here helped me a lot ⊠Iâm ex militaryâ.
âThank you dearâ. Your grandma paused. âIâm glad she helped you and thank you for your serviceâ.
âYouâre welcome Mamâ.
âDarling are you ok if I head on out? Your grandpa just bought the car around. Weâre going fo a bit of a drive .. just need to get some fresh air after this morning. That is if youâll be ok here with Sy?â
You eyed your grandmother suspiciously but nodded before walking over to the window and checking for your grandfathers car. When you saw him you waved.
âOk grandma. Iâll see you a bit later on?â
âOf course loveâ.
You felt the warmth of your grandmothers arms before you walked her to the door. You smiled at Sy as you passed him and told him to sit down on your lounge area.
âHeâs a lovely young manâ.
âGrandma please!â You rolled your eyes as she closed the door behind herself. You took a moment and rested your forehead against the door, smiling to yourself. Your grandma really was the sweetest woman.
âIâm backâ. You sat down in the sofa next to Sy and immediately tucked your legs in. He handed you a cup of tea and you thanked him before bringing the mug to your lips.
âThis is good teaâ. Sy commented.
âYeah Nan knows her teaâ. You smiled and pointed at the cookies. âTry those. Theyâre her famous sugar cookies. Normally she makes them on Christmas but ⊠she knows how much I love themâ.
âYour Nan lives by?â Sy stuffed a cookie into his mouth. âThese are amazing by the wayâ.
âMy grandparents live on a farm .. a few hours drive. Theyâve lived there since before I was bornâ.
âOther family?â
âMy mum was an only child. My Dad had a younger brother but he died when he was youngâ. You paused. âMy dads parents passed away when I was a babyâ.
âRight .. well your lucky to have your two lovely grandparentsâ. Sy smiled. âAnd visiting their farm every now and then would be nice ⊠get away from the busy city lifeâ.
âYeah ..â You swallowed the lump in your throat. âI just .. feel so odd right now. Like Iâm scared of being aloneâ.
âHeyâ. Sy moved closer. âThatâs not odd and youâre not aloneâ.
âIâm a messâ. You breathed in deeply.
âYouâre allowed to beâ. Sy reached for your hand. âYouâre used to dealing with head cases like myself ⊠sometimes youâre going to be in a position where youâre not so strong yourselfâ.
âSy thank youâ. You studied his face. âFor the visit and the flowers .. it was really nice of you. But trust me Iâll be ok. I just need some time to process things .. but then I .. well Iâll be back at workâ.
âYou really have no idea ..â Sy scratched his head. âYour boss wonât give you time off?â
âNo my boss has been great. He told me to take leave ..â
âThen do it. Take your time .. I donât .. I donât start work for a few weeks?â
âWhat are you saying?â You were confused. You watched him fidget with the rim of his mug.
âIf you donât mind company ⊠Iâd like to spend time with youâ
âSpend time with me?â You chewed on your bottom lip. âWith me?â
âYeah .. youâd be doing me a favor too. Otherwise Iâd just be wasting my time tinkering with some old motorbikes Iâve got lying aroundâ. Sy smiled at you. âSo what do you say?â
âOk?â You stammered. âI might not be the best company though?â
âI might not be eitherâ.
âIâve just .. well .. my parents just diedâ. You blurted out.
âAnd Iâve just started sleeping at night. Some nights I still wake up screamingâ. Sy stared at you. âYou helped me. Let me .. let me be there please?â
The weeks that followed bought you many things - peace, closure and friendship. You shared many days and nights with Sy and when you were feeling down heâd always call you. A few times you fell asleep to the sound of his voice at night.
One night heâd opened up to you while you cuddled up in your bed, phone rested against you ear. He told you about the things he saw during his time in the military that still haunted him and admitted to you that heâd wrote a letter to his parents that he kept in his bag - just in case he never made it home.
More weeks past and you noticed a shift between you both. You smiled more. You eyes seemed to hold his gaze. Talking about your parents didnât make you sob uncontrollably - yes you were still heartbroken, but Sy was encouraging you to do some of the things your parents enjoyed doing. So you did - you read your mumâs book collection, took Sy along the hiking trails your Dad used to walk on, went fishing on the lake and started following your mumâs cake receipes with your Nan.
One day you were mixing the batter of your mums famous chocolate cake with your grandma in the kitchen when it suddenly dawned on you..
âNan I think Iâll be ok if you and grandpa head back to the farmâ.
âLove I told you before ..â
âNan Iâm okâ. You paused. âItâs not the same but you were right ⊠I needed this time. What happened has been a lot to processâ.
âSy has been a big helpâ. Your grandma smiled softly. âHeâs a lovely manâ.
âYeah he isâ.
âLove ⊠do you like him?â
âSy? Oh .. I used to help him .. itâs complicatedâ.
âWhy is it complicated?â
âWell ⊠heâs just .. trying to help because I helped him you know?â You avoided your grandmas gaze as you spooned the batter into the greased pan. âHeâs just a nice guy thatâs allâ.
âYou think thatâs heâs been hanging around for the past 6 weeks just because he owed you a favour?â
âNan âŠâ
âSweetie ⊠I think heâs a lovely young man. And maybe yes that was his original intention, but I think things have changed. I may be old but I see the way he looks at youâ.
âOh Nan ..â
âAnd you look at him the same wayâ.
You paused and looked up at the old womanâs smiling face. You smiled then rolled your eyes.
âNan Iâm not ready .. I just lost mum and dadâ.
âYou think thereâs a time? I met your grandfather the same day the neighbours son kissed me. I didnât like him at all. Your grandfather was helping to build the farm across from us and saw me upset. We got talking and the rest is historyâ.
âI never new that!â You laughed. âThe neighbors son kissed you?â
âRogerâ. Your grandma shook her head. âNice enough boy but there was no ⊠chemistry there. So what Iâm trying to say is that I know those looks love. I can see itâ.
You sighed and put the cake into the oven. You knew better than to argue with your grandmother.
âIâm sure heâs ⊠taken. Maybe he has someone ⊠maybe long distance since heâs moved a lotâ. You blurted out.
âHas someone?â Your grandmother laughed. âLove .. you think heâd be spending all this time with you if he had someone else he was sweet on?â
âMaybe heâs not looking Nan .. heâs been through a lot. Leaving the army, moving back here .. starting a new jobâ.
âQuit making excuses sweetie! Just see what happens! Open that beautiful heart of yoursâ. Your grandma hugged you.
âOk okâ. You relaxed into her embrace. âPromise me youâll go back to the farm please? Iâm so grateful to you both but Iâm navigating things. Iâm ok Nanâ. You held her gaze until she smiled and the little wrinkles around her eyes deepened. She nodded and you hugged her again.
You decided to frost your cake and take it to Syâs as a surprise. He didnât know that you were coming but you hoped that he would be home. You saw his truck so quickly rang the bell holding the cake platter in front of you. The smile on your face faded when a woman opened the door.
âUh hello? Can I help you?â The blonde smiled warmly but your stomach turned into knots. She was stunning.
âOh I .. I was just ..â You suddenly felt light headed. How stupid could you have been? He was just being polite. He had someone he was dating. He just wanted to repay you for helping him .. like you were some long overdue debt.
âWere you after Sy?â
âHereâ. You shoved the cake into the blondes hands. âEnjoy that. I baked it .. god knows why I showed up here with a stupid fucking cake anywayâ.
âWhoa!â The blonde tried to reach for your arm. âHey, Iâll just ..â
âIâve got to goâ. You quickly rushed to your car, ignoring the womanâs feeble attempts to explain .. whatever the situation was. You felt incredibly stupid knowing that youâd interrupted Sy. Or was it more? Your face burned and your heart hammered against your chest. No it was defiantly more. You felt jealous too. You quickly started your car knowing that you needed to get away fast but your hands were shaking.
âHey!â
You glanced up in horror as Sy rushed towards your car after talking with the blonde. If you werenât already mortified enough ..
Suddenly your car door was opened and Sy was bending down to look at you. You reached for the door but he had wedged his leg inside.
âI have to goâ.
âGet out of the bloody carâ.
You looked up when you heard his tone. He sounded pissed.
âSy I have to goâ.
âI said get outâ. Sy moved to unfasten your seat belt. âI aint asking againâ.
âIâm going homeâ.
âNot until you meet Beckyâ.
You looked at him is disgust. So her name was Becky? Did he enjoy seeing you in such discomfort?
âI donât think ..â
âMy sister Beckyâ. Sy raised his eyebrow at you and motioned for you to get out. âSeems like you didnât really get introduced beforeâ.
âYour sister?â Your face burned. âSheâs your sister?â
âMy baby sister yesâ. Sy held open the door as you struggled to get out. Your arms instantly wrapped around your body as you glanced to where the blonde stood holding your chocolate cake. You were so embarrassed when she waved at you hesitantly.
âShe stopped by ⊠sheâs here for the weekendâ. Sy scratched his neck. âCollege breakâ.
âOh I .. â
âYou thought she was a girl I picked up?â
âNo .. I mean âŠâ
âYou didâ.
âI just .. I thought I was interruptingâ. You stared at the ground.
âI would have told you if I was seeing someoneâ.
âWell I .. I just .. god Sy what do you want me to say?â
âHow bout why youâre here dropping off a cake?â Sy held your gaze. âWhy you got so upset seeing Becky here? And donât go telling me some god dammed excuse that you thought you weâre interrupting ..â
âI .. baked a cake. And I .. thought of youâ. You wiped your sweaty palms on your dress wishing the earth would open up and swallow you.
âWhyâd you go thinking of me?â
âSy ..â
âTell meâ.
âI just .. I thought ..â
âJust tell meâ. Sy grabbed hold of your shoulders.
You sucked in a breath and glanced in Beckys direction. You watched as she took the cake and walked inside.
âIm scared Sy .. I canâtâ.
âWhy not?â
âBecause I donât know how ⊠and then so much has happening you know?â
âI can stand here all dayâ. Syâs voice was almost rough as his eyes pleaded with you.
âWhy .. I mean why have you been there for me lately? Is it because of your time in the army? Some idea that you needed to repay me?â You sucked in a breath.
âIs that what you think?â
âI .. I donât know Sy. I donât want to read more into itâ.
âIâm not playing that gameâ. Sy let go of your shoulders and took a step back. Your insides churned immediately. âI asked you .. donât turn the tablesâ.
âSyâ
âI made it darn obvious. Now you tell me why youâre at my door looking all pretty in your floral dress, holding out a cake that you know that Iâll loveâ. Sy paused. âTell me .. Iâm not asking you againâ.
âYou made it obvious? Didnât I just make it obvious too? I havenât just rocked up here for no good reason now have i? And this dress ..â you touched the fabric with your hands. âItâs new! So I obviously wore it because .. well I thought youâd like itâ.
âSay it!â Sy grabbed your face with both hands. âFor fuckâs sake woman just say it!â
âI want you! There you go I said it!â Your eyes filled with tears. âBut Iâm scared you donât want me! And Iâm scared that youâll think Iâm a headcase whoâs just lost her parents and now is looking to fill that hole!â.
âThere you goâ. Sy smiled softly. âI really needed to hear you say it ⊠been losing my mindâ
âDo you? Do you feel the same?â
âYou really have to ask me that?â. Sy smiled then shook his head. âLove, Iâve been infactuated by you the moment I first saw you. But I could never do anything about itâ. Sy touched your cheek. âWouldnt have been appropriate since you were working for the armyâ.
âYou always liked me?â
âCourse I did .. youâre god dammed beautiful and so smart. Thought you were way too good for me thoughâ. Sy inched closer to you and your hands immediately gripped into his t shirt, pulling him towards you.
âKiss me Syâ. You whispered.
âWas planning toâ.
Next thing you felt his lips on yours. They were warm and full, and as he opened his mouth he tasted like mint and sugar. You felt your head spin, your heart beat fast and you were certain that youâd bent your knee - just like they did in old fashioned movies. Sy had ruined you with just one kiss. Suddenly you felt him break away, inhale deeply then kiss you again. This time was different. He had you backed up against your car, his large frame trapping you in a way that made your legs turn to jelly. His hands gripped the sides of your floral dress, pulling your body so flush against him that you could feel every muscle.
âSyâ. You moaned you broke apart for air.
âCanât wait till youâre fucking screaming my nameâ. Sy groaned into your neck. âBut I think I should date you for a bit first, where are my manners?â. Sy looked at you, a smirk on his face.
âIâd like thatâ.
âMe dating you or you screaming my name?â
âSy!!â You playfully pushed against his chest but he quickly grabbed at your thighs and you instinctively jumped up, wrapping them around his waist. He turned to reverse your positions, with him now leaning up against your car.
âWhy did we wait so long to do this?â
âI donât knowâ.
âYou gonna be my girl Sugar?â Sy suddenly asked you as he raised an eyebrow.
âYesâ. You couldnât help the smile that broke out on your face. âSy?â
âYeah?â
âMum and Dad would have really liked youâ.
âIâm sure I would have liked them even moreâ. Sy brushed a strand of hair out of your face. âAnd I know that because they made such a beautiful daughter who I have fallen forâ.
âI feel like these past few weeks you have gotten to know themâ.
âI haveâ. Sy smiled. âI know all your dads hiking trails and his favourite places to fish. I know your mum was an incredible cook and Iâve enjoyed rewatching some of her favorite movies with youâ. Syâs hands gripped your ass even closer to him and you bumped your nose against his.
âYou know what we have to do now?â
âI can think of a few things?â Sy smirked but waited patiently for you to finish.
âI think .. you need to try my cake. And I think ..â you kissed his lips. âI need to say hello to your sister?â
âYes to both of those but right now I wanna kiss you some moreâ.
Summary - Reader and Sy have flirted with each other for months, but sheâs tired of their games. Heâs back from deployment and sheâs determined to catch his eye at the party celebrations. A woman on a mission - armed with the skimpiest bikini she can find.
You knew that you looked good. Hell, hours of waxing, make up and styling were so worth it right now as you watched Sy study your every move. He was standing by the grill chatting to his friends that were busy cooking, but his eyes kept a watch on you. You were sitting on one of those pool deck chairs alongside your best friend Lacey. She knew about you plan and was carefully giving you instructions from behind the magazine she was pretending to read.
âIs he still looking?â You could imagine the grin on your friendâs face.
âHe hasnât taken his eyes off meâ. You pushed the over sized sunglasses up on top of your head while you stretched out your long tanned legs. âWhen should I take this dress off? Heâs literally going to pass out when he sees this bikiniâ.
âYou have to wait till most of the people go! You need to get a bit more private time with him!â Lacey giggled. âRub your legs a bit, maybe give him a tease?â
âOh rightâ. You rubbed at you calves then shifted slightly. But not before chewing on your bottom lip, looking Sy straight in the eye and opening your thighs - just enough to give him a quick glimpse at your red string bikini bottoms covering your most private of places.
âWhatâs happening?â
âI just flashed the captainâ. You tried not to laugh as Sy choked on his beer. You knew he saw right between your legs. You watched as Lacey peeked over her magazine.
âShit! Is he ok?â
âI think so .. donât think he was expecting thatâ. You smirked at your friend but wondered if youâd gone too far? You were really teasing Sy today.
A few hours past and most of the people had left and Sy was busy helping to pack up. You decided it was now or never. After some encouragement from Lacey and two glasses of wine, you stood up and pulled your black dress off. Sy was sitting on the edge of the pool taking a break with his legs in the water. His eyes grew wide as he watched you walk towards the pool in your skimpy excuse for a swimsuit. Youâd never worn a thong before so you made sure to turn around, pretending to talk to lacey, knowing that Sy would get a good view of your ass. You casually got in the pool, as Syâs mouth dropped open.
The water was cool and your nipples instantly hardened as you went under the water to wet your hair. When you surfaced you saw Sy strip off his shirt and jump in. Your heart beat like crazy. He had a body that made your mouth water.
âHey Sugarâ. Sy came up out of the water with droplets falling off his beard. âWhereâd you get that bikini from?â
âWhy? Do you like it Captain?â
âYou been teasing me all dayâ. Sy followed you to the pools edge as you leaned up against the step.
âHave I?â
âQuit playing Sugar. Are you trying to kill me?â
âDunno .. Iâve been teasing you for a long time. I donât think youâre interestedâ. You chewed on your bottom lip as you tried to play it cool.
âNot interested? Why would you think that?â
âYou never do anything about itâ. You watched as Sy sucked in a breath. âI have needs Captain. If you donât want me, Iâm sure that I can find one of your men to satisfy meâ.
âHey!â Sy suddenly grabbed your hips, pulling you to him. Your breath caught in your throat at the close proximity. âYou want to be satisfied huh? You think one of those guys could do a better job than me?â
âIâm tired of playing Sy âŠâ You paused as his breath mingled with yours. His scent was intoxicating. You breathed in his unique aroma of sweat, mint and spice. âIf you want me, youâd better show meâ. Time stood still as you stayed like that - his hands on your hips and your faces mere inches from each other.
âOk Sugar ..â
Before you could react, Sy was kissing your neck. Your eyes darted to Lacey who quickly packed her bag and grabbed the two remaining guys, ushering them away from the pool area. Alone at last. The thought was thrilling yet slightly scary considering it was a public place.
Syâs lips found yours and he coaxed your mouth open as his tongue slipped inside. He tasted like beer and mint .. You were instantly wet.
âWatchâ. His tone was gruff and commanding.
You looked at Sy as he kissed down your neck to your cleavage. His hands pushed down your bikini top, exposing your breasts. His tongue flicked out and he bent down to lick your nipple while his fingers tweaked the opposite one. You moaned but then cried out as he engulfed your breast and sucked on it. You couldnât believe the noises he was making - groaning into your skin then slurping at your breast. He alternated sides and you grabbed his head, urging him for more. He moved away and released your breast with a pop as he looked up at you.
âSo fucking sexyâ. Syâs monster cock was pressed against you and you noticed that he was moving slightly to get some friction. âI canât waitâ
âYou wanna .. here?â
âI need to fuck youâ
âWhat if .. someone sees? Do you want to go to ..â
âI canât wait .. donât make me wait Sugarâ.
âYou sure? I mean ⊠you sure itâs ok here?â You swallowed. âI donât want anyone watchingâ.
âYou think any of those guys would risk getting on my bad side?â
You looked around and decided to take the chance so you nodded at Sy. His hands quickly freed his cock from his shorts and made their way to your bikini bottoms, tugging them down. Your eyes bulged when you saw how big he was .. all the rumors were obviously true.
He sat you on the step as he stood in between your legs. His eyes stared at your pussy as he moved his fingers between your open thighs.
âLet me seeâ Sy growled. âLet me see that pussyâ.
You opened your thighs wider and heard him curse before he started playing with your clit with his thumb.
âSy .. oh my godâ.
âSuch a pretty pussyâ. Sy slid his fingers down, pushing two inside. âSo tightâ. He gripped the back of your neck while his digits pushed into you. Your hips instantly moved and thatâs when you noticed his hand leave your neck to fist his cock. Your mouth hung open as you watched him move his fist back and forth while his fingers were inside of you.
âThatâs it. Ride my fingersâ.
Your face was hot. You needed him inside you. You moved your hips a bit, loving the sounds coming out of his mouth before you decided you needed more.
âMore .. Sy .. pleaseâ.
âYou want my cock now? Can you take me Sugar?â Sy withdrew his fingers and bought them to his mouth. âYou taste so fucking goodâ.
âPlease Sy!â
You watched as Sy ran his cock up and down your pussy before pushing forward. You groaned as he stretched your walls. Sy was big .. much bigger than anything youâd ever had inside you. He gripped your knees as he pushed all the way inside you.
âFuckâ. He muttered into your neck before moving to take your earlobe between his teeth. âYour pussy is so tight. Howâs this big cock feel? Tell me babyâ.
Your cheeks burned at the way he was talking to you.
âI said tell meâ
âYouâre so big!â You gasped as he somehow continued to push deeper into you.
âYeah? You like it sugar?â
âGive me a minuteâ. Your hands moved to wrap around Syâs neck as your forehead rested against his.
âRelax ..â Syâs voice was gentle and you could tell that he realized that you needed to adjust. His hand slipped between your bodies and he rubbed your clit. âIâm not gonna fuck you properly till you sayâ.
âSy ..â His fingers were magic and soon you were stretching to accommodate him and getting even wetter. âThat feels goodâ.
His mouth was back on your neck as his fingers played you like an instrument. You could feel him gripping your knee tightly and you knew how hard he was restraining himself.
You moved your hips hoping that heâd get the hint and he did.
âYou ready? Tell me that you want itâ.
âWant it Syâ. You moved your hips again.
Suddenly both of his hands moved underneath your knees as he pushed you back onto the step. Your upper half was out of the water, your nipples hard like pebbles as the cool breeze hit them. Sy had you completely spread open and he took a moment to look at your joined bodies as he pulled out and thrusted back inside you.
Without warning he started moving his hips like a man poccessed, causing you to cry out as you gripped the side of the pool. Water was splashing as he grabbed hold of your hair, gathering it into a pony tail and pulling your head back. He was fucking you like a wild animal.
âLook at you .. just fucking look at you taking meâ. Syâs watched himself fuck you. âTaking my cockâ.
âOh fuckâ. You trembled. The way that he was hammering into you, stretching you, owning you. It was too much. âIâm going to cum Syâ.
âCumâ. Sy gripped your hair hard, forcing you to look at him. âCum on my cockâ
You screamed as your orgasm took over. You felt it from your toes, spreading throughout your body as you throbbed around him.
You felt Sy pulsing inside you and you knew that he was close. Suddenly he pulled out of you, turning you around until you were kneeling on the step as he plunged back into you from behind. His hands were gripping your shoulders and water was splashing in your face as he chased his release.
âYou want me to pull out?â He breathed into your ear.
It was the responsible thing to do in a fairly irresponsible situation. Yet you needed to feel him inside you so badly.
âCum inside meâ.
You felt him falter just a second before he resumed his maddening pace.
âYou on the pill?â
âWhy? You want to put a baby inside me?â. You swear that you heard him moan and you wondered if the captain had a kink? âI am donât worryâ.
âIâm gonna fucking fill you up so goodâ.
âPlease Sy âŠâ. You pushed your ass up to meet his thrusts. âCum inside me. Want to feel youâ.
âFuckâ. Syâs rhythm was getting sloppy.
âGive it to me Syâ.
âYouâre gonna make me fucking cumâ. Sy thrusted as hard and as deep as he could then you heard a loud groan as he released inside of you. He continued to pump inside you, his hands moving to grip your hips as he rode out his climax.
Suddenly he stilled and turned your head gently as his lips found yours. He kissed you deeply and passionately before sucking on your bottom lip. Slowly he withdrew from you and you whined, already feeling empty without him.
âYou want me to stay inside you?â Sy chuckled into your neck. âSorry if I was too rough?â
âYou werenât .. I wanted it like that. Youâre just so fucking bigâ. You giggled. âI donât think I can walk!â
âSorryâ. Sy smirked and you know that he secretly loved hearing you say that to him.
Suddenly the mood shifted and he was putting himself back in his shorts while you adjusted your top. You noticed him reaching over the side of the pool to hand you your bikini bottoms. You couldnât read him - he looked conflicted?
âItâs ok .. â You swallowed. âWe got it out of our systems Sy. Weâre both adults. Iâm sure that I wasnât the first or last girl that you fuckedâ.
âYou think Iâm gonna just love you and leave you?â
âTruthfully? Yeah .. I think you willâ.
âYou donât wanna .. continue this?â Sy scratched his beard.
You stared at Sy as you adjusted your swimsuit. What was he on about? Heâd just fucked your brains out.
âThis?â You pointed at his crutch with a smirk.
âWell that and âŠthisâ. He gestured between you. âIâve wanted you for a long time and to be honest youâve ruined meâ.
âMy pussy has ruined you?â
âWell that tooâ. Sy paused. âI feel like we just gave in to 12 months of pent up sexual frustration. From both of us .. but now that weâve done it I .. well I donât want to let you goâ.
âI feel the sameâ. You smirked as he pulled you into his arms. âSo how about dinner Syverson? Then maybe round two?â
Summary - Reader and Sy have flirted with each other for months, but sheâs tired of their games. Heâs back from deployment and sheâs determined to catch his eye at the party celebrations. A woman on a mission - armed with the skimpiest bikini she can find.
You knew that you looked good. Hell, hours of waxing, make up and styling were so worth it right now as you watched Sy study your every move. He was standing by the grill chatting to his friends that were busy cooking, but his eyes kept a watch on you. You were sitting on one of those pool deck chairs alongside your best friend Lacey. She knew about you plan and was carefully giving you instructions from behind the magazine she was pretending to read.
âIs he still looking?â You could imagine the grin on your friendâs face.
âHe hasnât taken his eyes off meâ. You pushed the over sized sunglasses up on top of your head while you stretched out your long tanned legs. âWhen should I take this dress off? Heâs literally going to pass out when he sees this bikiniâ.
âYou have to wait till most of the people go! You need to get a bit more private time with him!â Lacey giggled. âRub your legs a bit, maybe give him a tease?â
âOh rightâ. You rubbed at you calves then shifted slightly. But not before chewing on your bottom lip, looking Sy straight in the eye and opening your thighs - just enough to give him a quick glimpse at your red string bikini bottoms covering your most private of places.
âWhatâs happening?â
âI just flashed the captainâ. You tried not to laugh as Sy choked on his beer. You knew he saw right between your legs. You watched as Lacey peeked over her magazine.
âShit! Is he ok?â
âI think so .. donât think he was expecting thatâ. You smirked at your friend but wondered if youâd gone too far? You were really teasing Sy today.
A few hours past and most of the people had left and Sy was busy helping to pack up. You decided it was now or never. After some encouragement from Lacey and two glasses of wine, you stood up and pulled your black dress off. Sy was sitting on the edge of the pool taking a break with his legs in the water. His eyes grew wide as he watched you walk towards the pool in your skimpy excuse for a swimsuit. Youâd never worn a thong before so you made sure to turn around, pretending to talk to lacey, knowing that Sy would get a good view of your ass. You casually got in the pool, as Syâs mouth dropped open.
The water was cool and your nipples instantly hardened as you went under the water to wet your hair. When you surfaced you saw Sy strip off his shirt and jump in. Your heart beat like crazy. He had a body that made your mouth water.
âHey Sugarâ. Sy came up out of the water with droplets falling off his beard. âWhereâd you get that bikini from?â
âWhy? Do you like it Captain?â
âYou been teasing me all dayâ. Sy followed you to the pools edge as you leaned up against the step.
âHave I?â
âQuit playing Sugar. Are you trying to kill me?â
âDunno .. Iâve been teasing you for a long time. I donât think youâre interestedâ. You chewed on your bottom lip as you tried to play it cool.
âNot interested? Why would you think that?â
âYou never do anything about itâ. You watched as Sy sucked in a breath. âI have needs Captain. If you donât want me, Iâm sure that I can find one of your men to satisfy meâ.
âHey!â Sy suddenly grabbed your hips, pulling you to him. Your breath caught in your throat at the close proximity. âYou want to be satisfied huh? You think one of those guys could do a better job than me?â
âIâm tired of playing Sy âŠâ You paused as his breath mingled with yours. His scent was intoxicating. You breathed in his unique aroma of sweat, mint and spice. âIf you want me, youâd better show meâ. Time stood still as you stayed like that - his hands on your hips and your faces mere inches from each other.
âOk Sugar ..â
Before you could react, Sy was kissing your neck. Your eyes darted to Lacey who quickly packed her bag and grabbed the two remaining guys, ushering them away from the pool area. Alone at last. The thought was thrilling yet slightly scary considering it was a public place.
Syâs lips found yours and he coaxed your mouth open as his tongue slipped inside. He tasted like beer and mint .. You were instantly wet.
âWatchâ. His tone was gruff and commanding.
You looked at Sy as he kissed down your neck to your cleavage. His hands pushed down your bikini top, exposing your breasts. His tongue flicked out and he bent down to lick your nipple while his fingers tweaked the opposite one. You moaned but then cried out as he engulfed your breast and sucked on it. You couldnât believe the noises he was making - groaning into your skin then slurping at your breast. He alternated sides and you grabbed his head, urging him for more. He moved away and released your breast with a pop as he looked up at you.
âSo fucking sexyâ. Syâs monster cock was pressed against you and you noticed that he was moving slightly to get some friction. âI canât waitâ
âYou wanna .. here?â
âI need to fuck youâ
âWhat if .. someone sees? Do you want to go to ..â
âI canât wait .. donât make me wait Sugarâ.
âYou sure? I mean ⊠you sure itâs ok here?â You swallowed. âI donât want anyone watchingâ.
âYou think any of those guys would risk getting on my bad side?â
You looked around and decided to take the chance so you nodded at Sy. His hands quickly freed his cock from his shorts and made their way to your bikini bottoms, tugging them down. Your eyes bulged when you saw how big he was .. all the rumors were obviously true.
He sat you on the step as he stood in between your legs. His eyes stared at your pussy as he moved his fingers between your open thighs.
âLet me seeâ Sy growled. âLet me see that pussyâ.
You opened your thighs wider and heard him curse before he started playing with your clit with his thumb.
âSy .. oh my godâ.
âSuch a pretty pussyâ. Sy slid his fingers down, pushing two inside. âSo tightâ. He gripped the back of your neck while his digits pushed into you. Your hips instantly moved and thatâs when you noticed his hand leave your neck to fist his cock. Your mouth hung open as you watched him move his fist back and forth while his fingers were inside of you.
âThatâs it. Ride my fingersâ.
Your face was hot. You needed him inside you. You moved your hips a bit, loving the sounds coming out of his mouth before you decided you needed more.
âMore .. Sy .. pleaseâ.
âYou want my cock now? Can you take me Sugar?â Sy withdrew his fingers and bought them to his mouth. âYou taste so fucking goodâ.
âPlease Sy!â
You watched as Sy ran his cock up and down your pussy before pushing forward. You groaned as he stretched your walls. Sy was big .. much bigger than anything youâd ever had inside you. He gripped your knees as he pushed all the way inside you.
âFuckâ. He muttered into your neck before moving to take your earlobe between his teeth. âYour pussy is so tight. Howâs this big cock feel? Tell me babyâ.
Your cheeks burned at the way he was talking to you.
âI said tell meâ
âYouâre so big!â You gasped as he somehow continued to push deeper into you.
âYeah? You like it sugar?â
âGive me a minuteâ. Your hands moved to wrap around Syâs neck as your forehead rested against his.
âRelax ..â Syâs voice was gentle and you could tell that he realized that you needed to adjust. His hand slipped between your bodies and he rubbed your clit. âIâm not gonna fuck you properly till you sayâ.
âSy ..â His fingers were magic and soon you were stretching to accommodate him and getting even wetter. âThat feels goodâ.
His mouth was back on your neck as his fingers played you like an instrument. You could feel him gripping your knee tightly and you knew how hard he was restraining himself.
You moved your hips hoping that heâd get the hint and he did.
âYou ready? Tell me that you want itâ.
âWant it Syâ. You moved your hips again.
Suddenly both of his hands moved underneath your knees as he pushed you back onto the step. Your upper half was out of the water, your nipples hard like pebbles as the cool breeze hit them. Sy had you completely spread open and he took a moment to look at your joined bodies as he pulled out and thrusted back inside you.
Without warning he started moving his hips like a man poccessed, causing you to cry out as you gripped the side of the pool. Water was splashing as he grabbed hold of your hair, gathering it into a pony tail and pulling your head back. He was fucking you like a wild animal.
âLook at you .. just fucking look at you taking meâ. Syâs watched himself fuck you. âTaking my cockâ.
âOh fuckâ. You trembled. The way that he was hammering into you, stretching you, owning you. It was too much. âIâm going to cum Syâ.
âCumâ. Sy gripped your hair hard, forcing you to look at him. âCum on my cockâ
You screamed as your orgasm took over. You felt it from your toes, spreading throughout your body as you throbbed around him.
You felt Sy pulsing inside you and you knew that he was close. Suddenly he pulled out of you, turning you around until you were kneeling on the step as he plunged back into you from behind. His hands were gripping your shoulders and water was splashing in your face as he chased his release.
âYou want me to pull out?â He breathed into your ear.
It was the responsible thing to do in a fairly irresponsible situation. Yet you needed to feel him inside you so badly.
âCum inside meâ.
You felt him falter just a second before he resumed his maddening pace.
âYou on the pill?â
âWhy? You want to put a baby inside me?â. You swear that you heard him moan and you wondered if the captain had a kink? âI am donât worryâ.
âIâm gonna fucking fill you up so goodâ.
âPlease Sy âŠâ. You pushed your ass up to meet his thrusts. âCum inside me. Want to feel youâ.
âFuckâ. Syâs rhythm was getting sloppy.
âGive it to me Syâ.
âYouâre gonna make me fucking cumâ. Sy thrusted as hard and as deep as he could then you heard a loud groan as he released inside of you. He continued to pump inside you, his hands moving to grip your hips as he rode out his climax.
Suddenly he stilled and turned your head gently as his lips found yours. He kissed you deeply and passionately before sucking on your bottom lip. Slowly he withdrew from you and you whined, already feeling empty without him.
âYou want me to stay inside you?â Sy chuckled into your neck. âSorry if I was too rough?â
âYou werenât .. I wanted it like that. Youâre just so fucking bigâ. You giggled. âI donât think I can walk!â
âSorryâ. Sy smirked and you know that he secretly loved hearing you say that to him.
Suddenly the mood shifted and he was putting himself back in his shorts while you adjusted your top. You noticed him reaching over the side of the pool to hand you your bikini bottoms. You couldnât read him - he looked conflicted?
âItâs ok .. â You swallowed. âWe got it out of our systems Sy. Weâre both adults. Iâm sure that I wasnât the first or last girl that you fuckedâ.
âYou think Iâm gonna just love you and leave you?â
âTruthfully? Yeah .. I think you willâ.
âYou donât wanna .. continue this?â Sy scratched his beard.
You stared at Sy as you adjusted your swimsuit. What was he on about? Heâd just fucked your brains out.
âThis?â You pointed at his crutch with a smirk.
âWell that and âŠthisâ. He gestured between you. âIâve wanted you for a long time and to be honest youâve ruined meâ.
âMy pussy has ruined you?â
âWell that tooâ. Sy paused. âI feel like we just gave in to 12 months of pent up sexual frustration. From both of us .. but now that weâve done it I .. well I donât want to let you goâ.
âI feel the sameâ. You smirked as he pulled you into his arms. âSo how about dinner Syverson? Then maybe round two?â
Story - Reader and Rob are grounded in Boston for one night when flights are cancelled due to weather. They are instantly drawn to each other.
A layover in Boston wasnât on your agenda. You just wanted to get home after a busy weekend but the storm had grounded all flights. Youâd been given complimentary overnight accommodation with a departure leaving the following morning so you reluctantly accepted your fate. You pulled along your luggage and waited for a cab, but it seemed like every other disgruntled passenger had the same idea. You stood in a line, tugging on your thick winter coat and hoping you wouldnât freeze to death on the sidewalk.
âI got a ride to the hotel if you want?â
You spun around to lock eyes with a familiar face. You remember standing next to him in the line a short while ago. You had smiled at each other but he seemed quiet and reserved. You glanced at his face and tried to put your finger on where Iâd seen him before.
âUh?â
âFour seasons?â He spoke in a warm English accent. âWeâre going to the same place? I mean .. Iâm just offering? I have a driver âŠâ He stammered as he gestured to the black car as he ran his fingers through his hair.
âOh right ..â
âOr you can stay?â He pointed to the line. âIâm just offering .. I donât want to seem odd but I recognized you from before and thought Iâd offerâ.
âNo thatâs ok. Uh .. yeah thank youâ. You wondered if you still had your pepper spray in your purse? You tapped on the fabric of the bag and felt it. âLetâs go?â
He surprised you by grabbing your suitcase and leading you to the car. An older man in a suit quickly got out and took both the bags and put them in before ushering you both into the backseat.
âThank youâ. You sat inside the very expensive car and glanced at him before snapping your fingers. âTwilight! Thatâs where Iâve seen you!â
âYou got itâ. He blushed and laughed.
âRobert Pattinson?â
âThatâs meâ. He quickly gave the driver directions before turning to youâ. âAnd thatâs Ross my driverâ.
You waved at the older gentlemen before breathing out deeply. You were really in the backseat with Robert Pattinson?
âOh ⊠Iâm Mia by the way. Mia Correntiâ.
âCorrenti? Youâre Italian?â
âPart. My Dad is .. My mumâs Americanâ.
âOkâ. Robert smiled. âYou were on your way home?â
âYes. I spent the past week here attending seminars. Itâs been hectic so I was looking forward to going homeâ. You paused. âWhere were you off to?â
âI had some business meetings. New projects to discuss .. I was meant to be going back to the UK for a few weeksâ.
âOkâ. You fidgeted with you gloves that were in your lap before noticing Robert smiling. âWhat?â
âAre you nervous around me?â
âNot really .. well a little. I mean .. Iâve never met a Hollywood actor beforeâ.
âCanât I just be Rob?â His eyes locked with yours. âItâs easier .. being Robâ.
âOh right .. of course!â You smiled at him and heard Ross chuckle. âLook to be honest with you I only ever saw the first movie. I just .. I mean ..â Your face burned. How were you planning to explain that you werenât a fan of the franchise?
âNot a member of the cult then?â Rob laughed.
âNot that you werenât good in it! I meant ..â
âIâm kidding .. Iâm not a fan myselfâ.
âWhat? You didnât like the movies you made?â
âDonât get me wrong. Iâm incredibly grateful for Twilight. It helped make my career in a way .. I just wasnât prepared for what came after it you know? People get so invested into the story and charactersâ.
âAnd they want you to bite them?â You smirked and Rob laughed.
âThat tooâ.
âI uh .. I saw your movie Remember me?â You watched as Rob studied your face. âNow that was a great movie. The storyline and just .. the emotion. I like movies like that. With depthâ.
âWow. Thank youâ. Rob ran his fingers through his hair again and you realised that it was probably something he didnât even know he was doing. âThat movie meant a lot to meâ.
For a moment you both sat in silence before Rob turned to face you slightly. He wiped him palms on his jeans and you realized that he probably wasnât used to talking with random people.
âSo you said you were in town for a seminar?â
âUh yes .. I came with my supervisor ..â You shook your head and laughed, realizing that Rob had no idea what you were on about. âBack track .. Iâm a doctor. Well .. Iâve just finished my degree and I gained an internship at the hospital with a specialist. She wanted me to come to the seminar with herâ.
âYouâre a doctor? Thatâs amazing!â Rob smiled at you.
âThank you. I just graduated last month so itâs still all new to meâ.
âWhat area do you hope to work in?â
âObstetricsâ. You watched as Robs eyes grew wide.
âAs in delivering babies?â
âYes Robâ. You laughed. âBabiesâ.
âWowâ. Rob shook his head. âMia thatâs incredible. Defiantly not something I could ever do .. I had to film a birth scene for twilight. Oh my god , Iâm still traumatized!â
âWell real life birth isnât anything like giving birth to a part vampireâ. You nudged his shoulder playfully before sitting back quickly in your seat. Why were things so comfortable between you both? You chewed on your bottom lip as you pretended to focus on the cars out your window.
âYou ok?â
âOh yeah .. Iâm fineâ.
âYou went all .. distantâ.
âDid I?â You looked at Rob and smiled as he raised his eyebrows at you. âWell I just realised how easy it was to talk to you ..â
âAnd thatâs a bad thing?â
âNo! I mean .. itâs a good thing but weâre probably never going to speak to each other againâ. Your cheeks reddened.
âI enjoy speaking with you Miaâ. Rob paused. âWould you like to spend today together? I mean I canât ⊠like go out for dinner but maybe order in? Iâve got .. paps following meâ.
âPaps? You mean paparazzi are following now?â You looked around. âHow do you know?â
âI can tell .. you get used to it after awhileâ.
âOh rightâ. You sucked in a deep breath. You noticed Ross watching you from the rear view mirror. He smiled softly. âIâd like that Rob. What else are we going to do anyway?â
Soon after Ross pulled up at the hotel but parked the vehicle around the back, away from prying eyes. He was a lovely man and seemed to have a fatherly relationship with Rob. He got out your bags and asked you to wait for him while he went inside.
âHeâs checking us in?â You glanced at Rob.
âYeah. And he just inspects my room before I go in. Ross used to work for the police before he retired. Now he gets to follow me around on this crazy rideâ.
âHe seems lovely. But .. he checks your room?â
âYeah someone bugged a room I was staying in Munich once. Ross found itâ. Rob paused. âThe joys of being an actorâ.
âRob thatâs terrible!â
âStories sellâ.
âBut youâre a person! Why donât they see that?â
âBecause not everyone is like you Miaâ. Rob scratched the back of his neck as he studied the ground. You wondered if the price that he had to pay for his success was worth it? He seemed lonely for a person who was always in the spotlight.
Ross came out shortly and helped you both up to your rooms. They were on a private level but opposite each other. Part of you was surprised that Rob didnât have the penthouse.
âIâm not that self obsessedâ.
You glanced at Rob as you hopped out of the elevator. Had he read your mind?
âYou mean?â
âI saw you looking at the penthouse level. You thought I was going thereâ. He laughed along with Ross.
âWell âŠâ
âI try to be normal Miaâ. Rob gestured at Ross. âHe knows I prefer a burger and fries over fine diningâ.
âThatâs true Missâ. Ross nodded as he led you to your room.
âThank you Ross. I really appreciate your kindness todayâ.
âItâs my pleasure Miss. If you or Rob need anything Iâm just a phone call awayâ. Ross smiled at you.
âPlease call me Mia. I hope I get to say goodbye before I go tomorrow?â
âYou will miss .. Miaâ. Ross smiled warmly at you before wrapping an arm around Rob and telling him his schedule for tomorrow.
You awkwardly smiled while you stood opposite each other. Rob pointed at his room after a moment silence.
âIâm going to order a burger, would you like to eat with me? I mean, I can order you anything you like ..â
âIâm just going to shower and change but Iâd love a burger with youâ. You laughed at Robâs awkwardness. âIâll knock on your door in an hour?â
âSure take your timeâ.
You grabbed your suitcase and headed into your room. As you closed the door you stood dumbfounded at the beautiful suite you were staying in.
âOh my godâ. You muttered as you walked around, eyeing off the marble bathroom and spa, sunken lounge with fireplace and massive kingsized bed. Surely this was not complimentary of the airline!
An hour later and you were knocking on Robs door. You felt a bit embarrassed wearing your warm tracksuit and sneakers, but as soon as you saw Rob all your feelings disappeared.
âYouâre matching me!â You laughed and pointed to the navy adidas tracksuit that he was wearing. Yours was black, but still it was funny that you both wore the same thing.
âThis is hilariousâ. Rob laughed and held the door open. âI just wanted to get into my comfy clothesâ.
âSame here!â
You noticed Robs suite was the same as yours so after clearing your throat you asked the question.
âI think I owe you something for the room. I mean, itâs not the usual complimentary airline accommodationâ.
âIt is if youâre meâ. Rob paused. âYou can check with reception. I didnât pay anythingâ.
âAre you serious?â
âOne hundred percentâ.
âOh ok .. I just didnât want you to think that ..â
âI wasnât Miaâ. Rob smiled softly. âI wasnâtâ.
âOk because Iâm not like that. I wouldnât be agreeing to burgers with you if i didnât like spending genuine time with you. Not because youâre Robert Pattinson the actorâ. You swallowed. âJust because youâre Robâ.
âThank you Mia. That means a lot to meâ.
You followed Rob into the living area where you smelt the most delicious smell.
âIs that .. Barneyâs? Barneyâs burgers?â
âYepâ. Rob laughed as you sat down next to each other. It was warm and cozy with the fireplace lit. He pushed a bag towards you which was full.
âRob thereâs a lot of food in here!â
âI forgot to ask what you likedâ Rob shrugged. âOh and thereâs soda and milkshakes. Again, I forgotâ.
You laughed as you pulled out a burger and accepted the chocolate shake which Rob suggested you try. For awhile you savored the food before speaking.
âWhere does Ross stay?â
âOh he has family here. He spent the day with them while I was in meetings today so heâs staying with them tonightâ.
âDoes he travel with you?â
âHere in the US. Sometimes overseas but I usually have another two guys who come on those trips. Ross is getting a bit old and I like him to stay around his familyâ. Rob smiled. âHeâs a bit like a father to meâ.
âI can see thatâ. You popped a French fry into your mouth. âHeâs a lovely manâ.
âHe is and he knew me long before twilightâ. Rob smiled. âSo what about you Mia? Family? Partner?â
âOh .. um .. my parents and I have an older brother whoâs deployedâ. You paused. âI donât .. have anyone. I mean, Iâm not with anyoneâ.
âOkâ.
âYou .. you um were with your co-star for quite awhile right?â
âFour yearsâ. Rob took a long sip of his shake. âGuess your know how that ended? It was pretty publicâ.
âWell I donât believe everything I readâ.
âYou read correct. She cheated on meâ. Rob sighed. âCanât blame her though. It was hard on the both of us. We didnât know how to navigate things. I was away a lot âŠâ.
âDoesnât make it rightâ. You quickly covered your mouth with your hand. âIâm so sorry. I shouldnât have said thatâ.
âNo youâre right Mia. Itâs ok though .. Iâm over itâ.
âWas she .. your first love? Your last relationship?â You closed your eyes for a moment and wished the words had never come out of your mouth.
âKirsten? No I didnât love her. I havenât experienced that yet with anyone. I think it was just lust maybe? I donât really know. And yeah ⊠I havenât had much timeâ. Rob glanced at you. âYou?â
âOh I donât think Iâve had a relationship really. Iâve dated but nothing serious. Iâm a bit of a hopeless romantic at heart and I feel like Iâm just waiting for the stars to alignâ. You laughed. âIâll probably be waiting forever!â.
âWhy settle for anything less?â
âWell thatâs trueâ. You paused and took another sip of your shake. âYour life as an actor .. does it get lonely?â
âA lot. It feels like I have a million friends but nobody I can trustâ. Rob paused. âIâm always traveling, living out of a suitcase .. but I do love my job dont get me wrongâ.
âI understand. Everything has a priceâ. You sighed. âI had to work hard to get into med school. I wished I could have had a social life and gone out and partied .. my nose was always in booksâ.
âYouâre right .. there is a trade off for everythingâ.
âExactlyâ.
âDo you know what? This is the deepest conversation Iâve had in a long timeâ. Rob smiled
âI aim to pleaseâ. When Rob raised an eyebrow at you, you blushed. âOh my god .. I didnât .. I mean I ..â
âYou go so red when youâre embarrassedâ.
âAnd you play with your hair!â You blurted out causing Rob to laugh.
âOk Iâll take that. Because itâs trueâ.
âI like it though. You have great hairâ. You groaned, realizing that you had zero control over your mouth.
âYeah? You like my hair?â
âI do. And do not comment on my cheeks ok? They are literally burning right now because Iâm saying things that I should be keeping to myself!â
âWhy?â
âWhy? Because weâve just met! Youâre going to think Iâm some weirdo!â
You watched as Rob lent back in the lounge. He was watching you intensely and you wondered what he was thinking.
âI think youâre a lot of things Mia, but weird isnât one of themâ.
Silence filled the room and you swallowed a lump caught in your throat. What was this strange energy between the two of you?
âWhat .. do you think about me Rob?â Your voice was low and you watched as Rob lent forward slightly, hanging onto your every word.
âWell .. I think youâre beautiful, kind, smart, funnyâ. Rob paused. âAnd genuineâ.
âThank youâ. You licked your lips. You knew deep inside that you should probably go back to your room. What if Rob did this to girls all across the world? Charmed them? âRob I .. Iâm a bit worried right now to be honestâ.
âWorried?â
âYeah but please donât be upset or offendedâ. You paused. âIâm thinking to myself .. we just met and youâre lovely, handsome, sweet and charming. I donât know if you .. like do this often?â
âHave burgers with a girl that I just met after we both missed our flight?â Rob smirked at you.
âRob ..â
âIâm joking Mia. But the answer is no. I donât ⊠do thisâ. Rob gestured between you both. âAt all. I donât trust easily and I certainly donât go around picking up girls everywhere I go. Truth being, most of them just want to sell me out to to make moneyâ.
âI didnât .. Rob Iâm sorry. I shouldnât have bought that upâ. You swallowed the lump in your throat. âI feel in my heart that youâre not like thatâ.
âI know I live in the public eye Mia. But reality is, Iâm more like a hermitâ. Rob smiled.
âI really enjoy your company Rob. Iâve never met anyone that I felt at ease like this withâ. You paused. âIâm actually glad our flight was groundedâ.
âSame here. And I feel the sameâ. Rob ran his fingers through his hair and you laughed.
âYouâre doing it againâ.
âOh right. The hair thing? Bad habitâ.
You jumped when thunder crashed loudly outside the hotel window. The storm was getting worse by the minute. Suddenly Rob was by your side, an arm wrapping around your shoulders.
âAre you scared of storms?â
âOh .. well kind of. I just hate all the noise you know?â You felt his arm rub your shoulder and you were surprised at how his touch calmed you. Without thinking you rested your head against his shoulder.
âYou ok?â
âYeahâ.
Your heart beat rapidly against your chest. You had no idea how your paths crossed or why you were with Rob at that very moment. All you did know is that you felt comfortable with him and there was an energy that connected you both. The thought scared and thrilled you at the same time.
âMia Iâm really glad you got in the car with me todayâ. Robâs voice was soft.
âIâm glad too Robâ. Your palms were suddenly sweaty. And it wasnât to do with the thunderstorm outside. Every stroke of Robs thumb against your shoulder seemed to send electricity through your body. You started to panic and jumped up suddenly.
âI have to goâ. You grabbed your hotel key and bolted towards the door. You sucked in a deep breath focusing on getting as far away from Rob as possible when his fingers touched your elbow.
âWhatâs wrong?â His eyes searched yours as you faced him. âI thought .. you enjoyed talking with me? Did I do something? Say something?â
âNo Rob .. I just .. I canât explainâ. You sucked in a deep breath. âIâm just a bit confused and I think itâs better if I goâ
âOk I donât want to make you feel like that. I understandâ.
Your heart clenched when you saw the sadness in his eyes. You wondered if he thought you were pushing him away? Maybe he thought you didnât like that he wasnât the Hollywood actor persona?
You smiled softly and without thinking you reached for his hand. He looked surprised.
âI like you Rob. And thatâs why I need to go back to my roomâ. You glanced away from his face. âI just .. itâs nice to have met you and for some stupid reason I feel like thereâs this natural connection with youâ.
âThatâs not stupidâ. Rob took hold of your shoulders gently. âItâs been so long .. in fact I canât remember the last time I had this with someone. Itâs really nice to be able to just be myself. Sometimes I get worried that people will expect me to be like the characters I play. Iâm nothing like that in real lifeâ.
âYouâre so much more Robâ. You watched as his cheeks reddened slightly. He smiled then looked away.
âThank you Miaâ.
âMaybe we can .. have breakfast in the morning? I do want to see you again. I guess I just need to process all this. I donât even know what it isâ. You fidgeted with your hands feeling very awkward. But when you looked at Rob he was just smiling softly.
âBreakfast sounds great. We can ride together to the airport if you donât mind going in the back way? Iâd hate to be photographed with you and have you dragged into my world when you didnât want to beâ.
âI understand Rob. And no I donât mind. Iâd like to see Ross again anywayâ. You smiled. âHe reminds me of James Bondâ.
âDonât tell Ross that!â Rob laughed and put one hand on the door frame. âBut yeah he doesâ.
âSee you in the morningâ. You touched Robâs arm. âAnd thanks so much for the burger .. actually everythingâ.
âYouâre welcomeâ.
Rob held the door open for you and watched until you were inside you room. Once the door closed you leaned up against it and tried to calm your breathing.
âThis is crazyâ. You said out loud. How could you possibly feel this comfortable with someone youâd only known for a few hours?
The hours that followed were difficult. You couldnât sleep as the storm continued to crash outside. Youâd closed the blinds but the lightening still flickered into the room. You hated being alone. You sat up clutching the soft quilt to your chest. You couldnât âŠno that would be completely inappropriate. You shook your head. If you went to Robâs door what did that mean? If you couldnât even work it out then what did you expect from him?
âIâll never see him againâ. You whispered to yourself. âAfter this night .. never againâ. You ran your hands through your hair. You were tired of being so god dammed perfect all the time. You never did anything crazy, never did anything without pre planning. You were always overthinking and analyzing things.
âTo hell with itâ. You pushed the covers back and without another thought, jumped out of the bed and headed across the hall to Robâs room. You chewed on your bottom lip as you knocked loudly. Once, twice âŠnothing. You mentally slapped yourself. He was obviously sleeping.
âMia?â Rob opened the door just as you had turned around to go back to your room. âAre you ok?â
You turned around and swallowed. He stood there only in black boxers. He was lean yet muscular with defined abs and a V that extended lower. You watched as his eyes took you in and it was only then that you realised you were wearing a soft pink cami which was probably far too sheer.
âRob I .. did I wake you?â
âItâs ok. What happened?â
âI just .. I couldnât sleep and ..â You felt yourself blush. âI just ..â
âIs it the storm?â
âWell yes and noâ.
âMia ..â Robâs voice was almost a whisper. âWhy are you here?â
âBecause I âŠI just ..â You stammered as Rob took hold of your wrists, pulling you closer.
âYeah?â
âI donât want to think so muchâ.
âThen donâtâ. Rob stared at you. âDo you want me Mia?â
âYes .. do you want me?â
Rob smiled as he tugged on your arms. His hand went to the back of your neck before he leaned down to kiss you. Softly at first, then opened mouthed as his tongue founds yours.
âRob ..â you pushed against his shoulders until he backed up against the wall. His hands found your waist as you kissed him like you life depended on it. Both of your moans filled the hallway as you started to rub against his body. His hands gripped your ass, encouraging you.
âBedroomâ. Rob panted as he moved back and picked you up. Your legs wrapped around his waist as he carried you inside, kicking the door closed. He waisted no time moving you to his huge kingsized bed and climbing over your body.
âOh Robâ. You moaned as he kissed your collarbone before tracing the outline with his tongue.
âGod I want youâ. Rob whispered in your ear before he started to move lower, kissing your cleavage before sucking on your nipple through the satin material. âYouâre so fucking gorgeousâ. Your hands moved to the hem of your cami as Rob moved back so that you could pull the material off. As you laid back down you watched his eyes take in your naked body. He sat between your opened legs and bought his finger to his mouth, wetting it before bringing it to your nipple, tracing around it and watching it harden. You arched your back and he repeated it to the other nipple.
âPleaseâ. You had no idea what you were begging for but Rob seemed to know as his mouth engulfed your breast. You cried out as he sucked then bought your nipple between his teeth gently. His mouth was now on your stomach, kissing down between your legs. You felt his fingers hook into the band of your lace panties before pulling them down and off your legs.
âOh fuckâ. Rob muttered as he looked between your parted thighs. âYouâre so wetâ. Before you could respond his mouth was kissing your inner thigh, then his fingers parted your folds as his mouth took you to heaven.
âRob .. oh my god!â
Rob sucked on your clit as he eased a finger inside you.
âIâm closeâ. You moaned as your stomach started to coil. Your heart beat fast against your chest before you felt your vision blur. Your hands moved in between your parted thighs to find Robâs hair and you tangled your hands in it as you screamed his name.
âRob!â
You were vaguely aware that his mouth was kissing your hip then your stomach as you came down from your orgasm.
âYouâre beautifulâ. Rob muttered as his mouth enclosed on your nipple again.
âI want youâ. You glanced at him.
âWe can stop here if you want? Mia I donât want you to think âŠâ
âMake love to me Robâ. You smiled softly. âI want youâ.
For a moment he stared at you, his eyes almost drinking you in before he captured your lips in a passionate kiss. You could taste yourself but it didnât bother you. Your hands were tugging his boxers down and and then you felt him, completely naked against you. You reached between your bodies to stroke him and he groaned. He was much longer than you expected, but you spent a few minutes getting to know every bump and ridge on him.
âI need .. wait Miaâ. Rob tried to move off you but you shook your head.
âIâm on birth control to .. help with my cyclesâ. You studied his face. âYouâre ok? I mean .. I havenât been with anyone for a long time. Are you ..?â
âMe? Iâm clean Mia. I have to do Medicals oftenâ. Rob paused. âI have one in my wallet though .. I can âŠâ
âI just want to feel you. I trust youâ.
âGod Mia youâre killing meâ. Rob kissed your forehead.
âPlease Robâ
âOkâ. He parted your legs further and rubbed himself up and down your slit.
âGo slowâ. You whispered. âItâs .. been a long timeâ.
âOf courseâ. Rob swallowed as he pushed inside your heat. He studied your face as he eased himself into your tight channel slowly.
âOh my godâ.
âYouâre so tightâ. Rob grunted as he looked down between your joined bodies. âYou ok?â
âYeahâ.
âCan I .. keep going?â
âYouâre not all the way in?â You felt full already.
âHalf wayâ. Rob reached down to stroke your clit. âYouâre so .. god I need to moveâ.
âIt feels goodâ. You rocked your hips against him.
You watched as Rob sat back and gripped your hips with two hands as he pushed himself completely inside you. You willed yourself to relax because he was much longer than youâd had before. Once he was all the way in he started thrusting gently, his eyes drifting from your face to between your legs.
âGod Miaâ. His hands were on either side of your shoulders and he lent down to kiss your lips. âYouâre so fucking perfectâ. Your hands traced his back before moving to his hips, feeling the back and forth motion as he rocked gently.
âMoreâ. You breathed against his neck. âPlease Robâ.
You heard a groan and then felt him pull almost out of you before thrusting inside. He pulled back to look at your face before repeating the motion.
âAre you ok?â
âYes .. I want youâ. You pushed your hips up to meet his and you could see his resolve snap.
His hands moved underneath your knees as he held your legs open and started thrusting into you quickly. You tried hard to study him above your because god he was a sight that you never wanted to forget. Messy hair, a light sheen of sweat covering his chest .. and his expression. Head throw back, chewing on his bottom lip while he muttered a string of profanities. You wanted to watch him but your own pleasure was taking over.
His grunts and your moans filled the room along with the bed creaking and the sound of skin upon skin. Your senses were heightened and you were close to another orgasm.
âI can feel you ..â Rob panted. âYou feel tighter .. youâre going to cum. God I want you tooâ.
âYes Rob. Keep going!â Your hands covered your breasts as your whole body bounced on the bed as Rob pounded into you. He was close and you desperately wanted to finish with him.
âCome on my cock. Jesus I want to feel youâ.
You screamed hearing the words come out of Robâs mouth. Your body gripped him tight as he thrusted deeply inside of you and found his release with a shout of your name. Your arms wrapped around him, holding him as he continued to jerk inside of you. After a moment he moved up of your body slightly while your hands caressed his back.
He looked down at you and smiled softly before kissing your lips and rolling to the side. His hand gripped your hip as he eased himself out of you gently. When he heard you whine he pulled you into his arms.
âCome hereâ. Rob faced you and touched his nose against yours. âThat was amazing. You were amazingâ.
âIâve never ..,felt that way beforeâ. You smiled. âYou made me feel so good Robâ.
âI aim to pleaseâ. Rob smirked and you laughed. You watched as Rob traced invisible circles across your shoulder as he looked deep in thought.
âWhat are you thinking about?â
âYouâ. Rob smiled. âJust you .. how easily we clicked, how beautiful and smart you are. How you make me feel .. how you just feltâ.
You blushed and linked your fingers together. Lying with Rob in the aftermath of your lovemaking felt so right.
âItâs been awhile for me Robâ. You blushed and then smiled as Robâs fingers brushed your cheek. âI just want you to know that I donât .. do this. I donât sleep with someone Iâve just met. The last person I was with was over a year agoâ.
âHeyâ. Rob pulled your chin up slightly so that you could look at him. âI sense that. Mia .. you donât regret what just happened to you?â
âNo!â You sat up clutching the sheet to you chest. âPlease donât think that. I just needed you to know that this is completely foreign to me. Iâm just drawn to you .. You just make me feel aliveâ.
âMiaâ. Rob cupped your face. âItâs ok. Just lie with me. We donât have to explain anything .. I just want to lie with youâ.
You watched as Rob eased the sheet away from your fingers. The material fell away leaving your naked breasts exposed. Robâs hand found your cheek and moved gently downwards to your neck then to your cleavage.
âJust lie with me Mia. Forget everything elseâ.
You moved down and rested your head on his chest. His touch was so gentle as he traced the swell of your breast. You knew that he was right .. you didnât need to talk right now. You just needed to be with him.
Neither of you slept that night. You made love once more just after midnight. This time you were on top while Rob held your hips. Your hands were on his chest and your heart swelled as he told you how beautiful you were. After that you both dozed off for a few hours before you were woken up to Robâs hand in between your legs and his lips on your neck. He told you how he dreamed of you and woke up so hard that he had to have you again. You sensed a shift in him, like whatever dream heâd had must have turned him on because he was rock hard in your hand.
Rob ended up taking you from behind as you clung onto the bedhead. As he thrusted into you he told you that it was exactly how heâd dreamed. He bought you to orgasm countless times but it was something he said that made your heart clench.
âDonât forget meâ.
His words repeated in your head until your eyes filled with tears. You heard him call out your name behind you as he came, before he leaned over you to kiss your shoulder. You tried so hard not to cry but you couldnât help it. Tears rolled down your face as the reality hit you .. heâd be gone soon. You were two different people. You didnât fit into his world.
You felt Robâs hand move your cheek to face him slightly as he kissed your lips. The second he did you felt his body tense.
âMia are you crying?â Rob tried to pull out of you as gently as he could before moving to your side. He guided you to the bed facing him as he held you in his arms. âDid I hurt you? Was I too rough?â
âNo Rob, you didnât hurt meâ.
âPlease Mia .. whatâs wrong? What did I do?â
âRob âŠâ you wiped at your face. âYou didnât do anything wrongâ.
âTalk to meâ.
âYou said .. donât forget meâ. You sucked in a deep breath. âRob, weâre never going to see each other again. I know that. But hearing you say it ..â
âDo you want to see me again?â Rob wiped your face. âI said that because .. being with me isnât easy. Few can handle how my life is. To be honest itâs shit at times. Iâm always traveling .. there are cameras in my face wherever I go. Stories are published that arenât true .. family and friends get dragged into it too. I just .. I wasnât sureâ.
âDo you want to see me again Rob?â
âOf course I do! But my world isnât yours Mia. I donât want to hurt youâ.
âDo you want to try?â You waited with baited breath.
âYes I do Mia. But only if you think you can handle all of meâ.
âRob âŠâ You kissed his lips. âI want that. I want all of youâ.
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