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any pronouns | 20 screaming at walls

[dogboysam]

sam’s hands (again) 🐾

[sisterwifesam]

you cannot talk about sam and his traumas /him being canonically abused by dean, john and lucifer without some annoying bitches whining about how dean got it worse. like shut up, not everything has to be about dean all the time.

[llovesamwinchester]

[violue]

Ruby 2.0 

[red-hood-vigilante]

s1 is just. i love you grainy unfocused shots of cemeteries and foggy roads no one travels. i love you john’s journal as a bible. i love you sam driving the impala casually with dean sleeping in the passenger seat. i love you jessica moore and sarah blake and cassie robinson. i love you dark motels with neon signs and dusty libraries with huge lore books. i love you side character serving as a mirror to the winchesters. i love you cleaning guns and wounds and sharpening of knives and gas stations and flip phones and laptop stickers. i love you small towns where time stands still with something unknowable and hungry lurking in the shadows. i love you angry psychic sam and dean trying his best with a leather jacket too big for him. i love you looming presences of john and mary. i love you homemade and flawed equipment. i love you horror and tragedy and blood. i love you dramatic lighting and silhouettes. i love you folklore and local legends. i love you -

[goinggawayforawhile-deactivated]

"is this an incest thing" we can only hope so

[fxxlinwoozy]

[dogboysam]

sam’s hair looking especially long 🐾

pretty samantha…

[inbredperverts]

♫ two children in a motel - ethel cain | the winchesters x ethel cain lyrics

[the-winchester-fangirl]

not done talking about this sorry. season 4 has a corruption arc for both sam and dean actually. dean's violent outbursts throughout the season aren't normal. that's not what dean was like pre-hell. it's a result of his time in hell. he tortured people. just because it happened in hell doesn't mean its not still a form of moral degradation. he comes back different. he comes back wrong. his willingness to turn his back on sam is a new and unprecedented thing about him. the scene where he's torturing alistair is textually a parallel to sam feeding on that random demon. the only difference is that sam sees dean as a victim because he thinks his big brother had no choice. meanwhile dean believes sam had a choice. ergo he's a monster.

[st-fawn]

I'm not a sam winchester apologist because that implies he did something wrong

[jaredpeeinme]

not enough "samgirls" on wincestblr/spnblr want jared padalecki to be an old man with greys and wrinkles and an obviously aged body....

[codependency-is-real]

When the fandom says deansam are equals, it’s mutual, balanced codependency, I think about Rest Energy by Marina Abramovic and Ulay.

Woman holds the bow, keeping the whole fragile structure from collapsing forward. Man holds the string, the arrow nocked and trembling inches from her heart. They lean into each other’s weight. Perfect tension and trust.

Sam’s life is literally resting on Dean’s control, his choice not to let go. Sam isn’t in charge (he never was). The power is uneven by design: Dean could end it in an instant and Sam has to trust him with everything. Total vulnerability on one side, total responsibility (and the ability to destroy) on the other.

If Sam lets go? The bow snaps forward uselessly. It hurts a little, maybe snaps the string across Dean’s hand, but the arrow doesn’t fly. The arrow will never land in his chest, he will never die because of it. If Dean lets go? The arrow launches straight into Sam’s heart. He will bleed and die. It’s Dean’s choice to let Sam suffer or not.

That’s the imbalance. Sam can only stop holding it together. Dean can actively destroy.

And Dean lets go, over and over. Each time Dean releases his grip — chooses anger, violate autonomy, to rape, coerce, guilt trip — he fires the arrow. Sam bleeds, he carries the weight of being the one who has to keep holding the bow even when the string burns his fingers raw. Dean wounds Sam more often and more deeply than he ever truly protects him. Sam, though thinks about Dean’s wellbeing. He would never treat Dean the way he treats him.

They trust each other enough to keep holding. but trust doesn’t make it equal. The other has the power just to end the performance. They’re not equals, if one of them is always the target & victim.

and it’s never dean.

[bewaretheroach]

inside of you are two wolves. one of them wants to have the sweetest, gentlest, most domestic sex with sam winchester of all time. the other wants to beat him up and rape him until he's a bleeding, whimpering mess. you are dean winchester.

[headtraumasam]

SAM WINCHESTER in profile ➤ 10/?

SUPERNATURAL 7.04 | DEFENDING YOUR LIFE

[lawsofoptics]

literally what is the point in living if not to put sam winchester in situations

[jaredwalkersam]

Jared Padalecki | kansas city comic con