i don't want to be your roommate, i want to kiss your neck | (m) *preview*
(yes this is turning into a heeseung account, you can't stop me)
heeseung x reader | smut, fluff, angst, PWP lol | roommate + best friend's brother!heeseung
➤ summary : at first, you cursed lee hana for ditching your roomies-forever contract, but now you want to thank her for having such a great idea for her hot brother to move in as her replacement... just as long as she doesn't find out you think he's hot.
➤ includes : warning!cuddling!!!, also masturbating, unprotected sex, fingering, praise, breeding kink ;)
➤ word count : 15.7k (jesus)
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lee hana was the best friend you could ever ask for.
when you met during freshman year of college you knew that you would be best friends forever. she was the missing piece that you were missing in a lot of ways. so, when she asked if you wanted to find a place to rent together you couldn’t possibly turn her down.
you decorated the apartment you found so that it could be deemed as ‘your shared home’. parts of you both were mangled around the apartment, wherever you looked there were pieces of each other somewhere. hana’s favourite photography works she’s taken, your ugly wool throw blankets that you insisted on having and both of your dirty dishes piling up in the sink because you both hated doing dishes.
though, you both lived wonderfully together. you managed to cook almost everyday regular meals that were somewhat healthy and made sure the other one was getting to class on time. you figured that you would continue to live with her for the rest of your early-mid twenties.
until she got a boyfriend.
don’t get it wrong, you loved jay; but you despised him for taking away your perfect roommate.
you were worried at first when hana sat you down and told you she’d be moving out by the end of the month. her and jay had decided to take their relationship further and she agreed to move into his apartment with him. you knew that your lease wouldn’t end until the rest of the year, meaning that you would have to pay the rent for two people even though it’d be only you living here. which, you did not have the money for as a broke college student.
“but don’t worry!” hana smiled at you from her spot on the couch when she broke the news, “i’ve found you another roommate who is just like me! so there won’t be any problems.”
you sigh, because there are usually always problems if hana isn’t involved. meaning, you will most definitely hate your new roommate, hana’s replacement.
“don’t sigh like that y/n!” hana smacks your shoulder, “he’s seriously a perfect mix of you and i, you’ll like him.”
“him?!” you exclaim, shaking your head no to the fact that you will have to live with a boy.
“y/n, just give him a chance! you haven’t even met him yet!”
you glare at your best friend and soon-to-be-ex-roommate with displeasure at the new information she was laying on you. “but he’s a boy, hana! he’s gonna ruin our woman sanctuary here!”
“y/n, i don’t think this has been a woman sanctuary since we’ve moved in,”
“but it could be, if you stay living here,”
“y/n, i already told him he could have my room, I care about him a lot.” hana juts out her lips into a pout, her pretty features contorting into begging ones as she desires your approval.
“fine, but i want him to at least try to contain his man testosterone to one room,” you sigh, giving in to your best friend. her squeals reach your ears quickly as she leans over to pull you into a hug.
“you’re gonna love him! you won’t even want me back as a roommate,”
“who even is he?”
“his name’s heeseung,”
“heeseung?”
“yeah,” hana shrugs casually, “my brother.”
“what?!” you exclaim at her again. you had never met her family before, both of you growing up in different states made it hard to meet each others. hana was usually private about her family, not talking much about them either way. you were aware that she had an older brother, but you would have never thought that you would come to live with him. “hana, what.”
hana lets out her familiar roistering laugh at your shocked expression, “i told you he was just like me- and if he’s just like me then he’s just like you!”
you pout, “we’ll see about that.”
FULL RELEASE DATE : SUNDAY : OCTOBER 29TH 2023, @ 10PM EST
Characters: Seungcheol x Jeonghan (sorta featuring female reader and Chan)
Genre/warnings: angel au, demon au, angst, lil bit of fluff, religious stuff, blood and wounds n stuff, and ummmm accidental “murder”
Word count: 3,666 (how appropriate dskjfhksdhf)
Summary: “Why are you doing this for me?” Seungcheol sniffled as tears fell into Jeonghan’s hands.
Jeonghan just shrugged with a playful smirk, “I guess love makes you do some crazy things.”
a/n: this is a spinoff from my Chan au so if you haven’t read that, some of this might not make any sense!!! also, I know it’s a little weird doing reader in the third person but I tried it how I usually write it and it just felt like it became more about reader than them and I didn’t like it so yeah
synopsis: Your boyfriend, Wonwoo, thinks that you're cheating on him after he sees you make out with his friend, and breaks up with you. However he doesn't know that you were taken advantage of until your friend tells him.
genre: angst & kinda fluff
pairing: boyfriend!wonwoo x female!reader
warnings: includes mentions of taking advantage of another person (sexually), strong language
a/n: I didn't really know how to end this one, plus, love really is confusing to write... + Wonwoo's curly hair, I'm sorry I took you for granted, please come back soon D= + YESTERDAY'S LIVE WAS SO FUN when Woozi just became the 'karoake owner' lol just a regular day in the life of Hoshi, singing karaoke and creating rap in autotune. I know I shouldn't be this happy when the story ahead is so DARK & GLOOMY like today's weather.
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You walked up to Wonwoo's dorm door.
You didn't want to show up but he wasn't answering any of your calls or messages and it gave you no choice. Silent treatment from him wasn't unusual but this time it didn't feel like it'd go away with time.
You knocked on the door.
Your heart beat nervously as you waited for the door to open. You clenched your fists. You just didn't know what was wrong or why he was upset.
The door clicked and opened.
Wonwoo stepped out and closed the door right away. He looked around before taking your arm, dragging you somewhere. You wanted to say something but the way he was firmly gripping your hand made you leave your mouth shut. His cold poker face looked even colder.
Wonwoo took you to the underground parking lot.
“What are you doing here?” Wonwoo asked, his voice was serious and almost annoyed.
“You were ignoring my texts and calls,” you replied, looking into his eyes fiercely. “What am I supposed to do if I want to see you?”
“See me?” Wonwoo scoffed. At that moment, he looked like a great villain in a movie. “Why would you want to see me?”
You were confused. You felt your nails digging into your palm as you clenched your hands into fists.
“You're my boyfriend and you have been avoiding me. Of course I'd want to see you. I want you to tell me what's wrong, so we can talk it out.”
“Do I really need to explain what you did?” His eyes were sharp like a knife and that look of disgust he had on his face shot through you like an arrow.
“Yes.”
Wonwoo looked away from your hands. He placed his hands on his hips and wet his lips as he turned away from you.
“It's so disgusting that I don't want to mention it. Let's just break up.” He said sharply, turning back to face you.
You felt the hope and your heart inside you shatter into a million pieces. You clenched your chest, feeling the infuriating tears crawl up your throat and eyes. He really seemed like such a jerk for no reason. “How can you say that so easily?”
“How can I? Can't you see how fucked up it is? How can I stay with you at this point?” When he cursed and stared at you, his eyes were more piercing than ever. In his eyes held some lingering love, but what you could see was mainly hatred.
“Tell me what happened! Does it have to do with the party last night?” You asked, your voice becoming shaky. “I know you left early but I don't remember much.”
The night before, there was a party to celebrate Wonwoo's birthday. You prepared it for him and were waiting for him to get to the party. However, that was all you could remember. The next time you awoke, the party was still going on and it was nearly 3am.
“Don't think that you can cry your way out of this one. Don't even try to lie anymore. Your tears were always my largest weak point, but knowing you now, I can say I don't have anything to be afraid of.” Wonwoo said, his voice was so cold. “Do you know what it's like?”
You covered your face with your hands, especially your mouth to try and hold in the cries that were going to escape your mouth any second.
“I've never been cheated on before so you're my first experience with that.”
The memories came to you like wildfire when you recalled the past night.
You got drunk.
And one of his friends took advantage of you.
While you were in your vulnerable state, the guy kissed your neck and tried to make his way around your body.
That was what you could remember.
You took your hand from your mouth, tears rolling from your cheeks. You reached for his arm, but he jerked away.
“I didn't cheat on you!” You finally blurted, your voice so painful for even yourself to hear. “I was drunk last night! I don't even know why or when I drank, but yesterday, I was very out of it!”
“Does that make it right?” He asked. His eyes were teary but you weren't even sure because seeing him became hard due to the tears.
You collapsed to the ground, your knees simply too weak. “No, it's not right… but I would never do that to you. I love you. I love you so much, babe. I didn't do it because I wanted to…” You looked up at him. “I know that something inside of me must've kicked in! I didn't cheat on you!”
“How am I supposed to believe you!?” Wonwoo replied.
“Why do you believe I cheated on you!? I would never do that to you!!”
“I saw it with my own two eyes when I stepped into MY birthday party! You two were making out on the couch so I just left!! I let you two continue your hook up and that was probably what you wanted, right? With your hands around his shoulders like that!?”
You pressed your lips together but they were trembling too much from your tears.
“I don't remember anything, so I guess that disadvantages me. Making out with another man is still cheating after all!” You shouted, your voice so painful even for you to hear.
Wonwoo just stepped away. He looked up, trying to suppress the anger and sadness that was building in his eyes. He didn't want to believe it either, but it was the only thing he could believe when everyone else at the party told him that you went onto his friend first.
You finally brought yourself back to your feet. “Fine, I was wrong. I was wrong for being taken advantage of! I was wrong and I should be dumped by my boyfriend!!!” You shouted.
“Shut it,” Wonwoo said sharply. He ran his fingers through his hair, knowing his hot tears might flow any second. “I don't want to make a ruckus here. Just leave.”
“Jeon Wonwoo!!” You shouted desperately, tugging at your boyfriend's arm, with tears in your eyes.
“I'm the one who should be angry!” Wonwoo shouted back, yanking his arm from you. “Don't come to me again. Don't see me again. If you do, you'll just seem desperate. We're done.”
He walked away just in time as a tear fell from his left eye.
You fell to the ground, crying out.
Your phone vibrated as you got a notification.
WONWOO'S FRIEND: want to meet up for dinner & finish what we couldn't yesterday?
You didn't even want to look at your phone. It felt like you were a glass doll that had just been broken. Every piece. Now, you were just a person in incomplete pieces.
Wonwoo clenched his fists, throwing his back against the wall and sliding down to the floor. He didn't want anyone to see him cry. It was so hard to let go of someone he loved. It was the only right thing. He couldn't hold on to a cheater and he knew that.
- [a day later]
Your phone went missing because you had been drinking way too much. Sometimes you just wished that you could go to a bar and relieve all of your pain, but you couldn't do that. You just couldn't bring yourself to do it.
So here you were again. With your phone probably broken somewhere in the streets, you were sitting on a table outside with shot glasses and a bottle of alcohol, trying to get drunk. All you could think of was Wonwoo and the night of his birthday.
You squeezed your eyes shut, screaming and banging on the table. You couldn't remember what happened at all and it was frustrating.
All you could remember was Wonwoo's harsh, insensitive, bloody words. They made you feel as if you did sleep with his friend, but with your terrible memory, you couldn't even remember if you did. Tears stung your eyes again as you took another shot glass.
Wonwoo was wandering the streets alone, limping a little and feeling the bruises on his face. He left out a groan of pain as his fingers brushed his mouth, trying to wipe off the blood.
His knuckles were also bloody.
“Your friend forced Y/N to drink,” he remembered your friend telling him earlier that day. “He took advantage of her and wanted to do it with her. I think she was too drunk to defend herself at the time so I took her away.”
“What?” At that time, Wonwoo couldn't believe what he was hearing. Those hurtful words he said made him feel guilty immediately.
“Don't be too mad at Y/N. She's been on a drinking spree since she told me you two broke up. Now she won't even pick up my calls or reply to me.” Your friend had continued to inform Wonwoo. “I think she's broken over the fact that she can't recall the events of that night and the fact that you broke up with her.”
“Why didn't you say sooner?”
“I told her over text but she won't reply or even look at the message.”
Wonwoo ruffled his hair, frustrated.
He went to his friend's house and the first thing he did when his friend opened the door was punch the shit out of him. Thankfully, his other friends were there to stop him before he committed murder.
Now all Wonwoo was hoping to do was find you in one of the streets that you two used to walk on.
That's when he heard a muffled scream coming from a convenience store nearby. The place was empty and a familiar girl was sitting outside the place.
Wonwoo smiled softly before making his way to you.
You heard the footsteps and slight dragging of a foot and turned to look. He was walking like a zombie, holding his stomach and dragging a leg, which made you scared and screamed.
He laughed to himself. When you heard that laugh, you immediately snapped back to your senses.
He sat down in front of you.
There was an umbrella attached to the table, enough to shield both of your heads.
You straightened your posture and looked at him, noticing the blood at the corners of his lips, his bloody knuckles, and a possible bruise on his cheek.
“I'm not even drunk yet,” you said, feeling the tears drip again. “Why are you here?”
You kicked the table and accidentally kicked his leg.
“Ow,” he said quietly. “That hurts.”
You didn't believe that was actually Wonwoo but at the same time, you did. He seemed a bit pitiful, just like you. It seemed like both of you had been miserable.
“Should you be drinking that much?” He asked. His voice was soft and deeply calming.
You looked away, wiped your tears, and tried your best to hold in the rest of the tears that were building in your eyes.
“Leave. I don't want to see you.” You said as coldly as you can. Yet, it just made you seem cowardly.
“This will be the only time you see me then, is that fine?”
No, it wasn't fine.
“Yeah. Leave. Do you think I'll forgive you for saying all that stuff to me?”
“Is this how it'll end?” he asked, chuckling wryly. He looked down at the ground instead of looking at you.
“Yes.”
“So you know what happened?”
“No.”
“Then why?”
“Because I can't forgive your words.”
‘I can forgive your words.’ you contradicted.
“You didn't cheat on me. My friend took advantage of you as you said.” He sounded guilty but not because he was wrong, instead because it was genuine. He was genuinely sorry for his words.
He turned to look at you again. You could see the love in his eyes, the hatred wasn't even lingering.
“What if I told you that I hate you?” You said suddenly, your voice softening without you even knowing it.
Maybe it was because he was your weakness. A little touch from him could make you tremble, a little bit of softness in his words can make you forgive him.
“Do you hate me?” he asked, looking at you in the eyes. His eyes were still so beautiful but looking at his scratched-up face made your heart ache.
“No.”
He smiled preciously.
“I'm really sorry.” He said, his soft voice continuing to weaken you. “I'm sorry. I can repeat that a hundred times, write it... I'm just sorry for saying all of those things when you had to go through something that for others, is so traumatizing.”
You just stared at him.
The rain started hitting down on the umbrella attached to your table.
“Will you hate me?” Wonwoo asked.
You leaned in, over the table, and kissed him.
Everything was hard to explain.
But that was the point of love, wasn't it?
Hate someone without hating them, be confused over if you still love someone, the feeling itself is confusing.
Even if love was hard, your lips locking with each other made that feeling definite.
The rain fell harder, the pitter-patter drowning out every noise.
[ 12:12am ] sunghoon angst + fluff — major character death.
recommend listening to as the world caves in as you read this.
everybody around was screaming. the streets filled with hysteric children and horrified parents along with mortified teenagers.
the world was ending. the atom bomb was going to hit. and there was nothing anyone could do about it.
everybody knew this day was coming, the news had told people days prior and even moving to a different country would not escape the awful fate of death.
park sunghoon sighs as he watches you lay down on the grass, looking up at the beautiful midnight sky.
‘figured you’d be here.’ he says, taking a seat next to where you were laying.
you looked over at the pretty boy, smiling before turning back to watch the stars in the sky.
sunghoon takes in the silence for a few minutes before laying down next to you, pulling your body close to his.
‘ARE YOU KIDS CRAZY?’ an old man hollered as he ran by, ‘run! protect yourselves! you idiots!’
but the young couple pretended they did not hear him. even if they were to protect themselves, would it be enough? surely not.
‘why are you here sunghoon?’ you ask him, ‘why aren’t you with your family? saying your last goodbyes?’
‘cause it’s our final night alive, pretty girl.’ he says, scoffing to himself. even he thought his words were too much to take in. ‘and as the earth runs to the ground, it’s you that i lie with.’
sunghoon pulls your arms right in, weeping as he said goodnight love, with his organs prepared for the pain that everyone would endure that night.
decades later, lee sunghoon was preparing himself to greet his new neighbor.
‘hello.’ a young teenage girl greets him at the door, ‘pie? thank you.’
‘uh yes—my name is lee sunghoon,’ sunghoon says, smiling brightly, ‘i’m your new neighbor, figured i’d stop by and say hi.’ he was clearly trying his best to be friendly.
‘my name is park y/n.’ the girl says, and sunghoon swears he has heard that name before.
maybe it’s just his imagination.
author note: nobody requested this but this song was stuck in my head all day so here’s a small writing. also if you didn’t get the last part, sunghoon and y/n meet again in their next life, except this time their last names are different than the ones they had in their previous lives. also if u caught it—both previous and current life sunghoon said ‘figured—’ HAKAJ just a little detail.
after you broke it off with your ex—the most despicable person you had ever met—you pack your bags and left for the city. after leaving everything you had ever known behind, you finally got back up on your feet a year later.
chapter 1 - facade
chapter 2 - foiled plans
chapter 3 - heartache
chapter 4 - snapshot
chapter 5 - without you
author note !! and that’s a wrap! thank you so much for reading left in despair <33
my heart breaks for all of my asian friends today but especially the asian women in my life. i’m so sorry for the hate and scapegoating and violence y’all have experienced — not just in the past year, as our former president trafficked in racist language that has led to a horrific increase in anti-asian hate crimes, but over history and especially at the hands of the us government. i’m sorry that news outlets will continue to credulously quote the murderer and law enforcement, refusing to acknowledge the inherent racism and misogyny of his actions — brushing off hate crimes because “he was having a bad day.” i’m sorry that people will demand empathy for a murderer before ever considering how they perpetuated the culture that lead to eight deaths — never thinking to tell their stories instead of his. i’m sorry that this country’s obsession with uninhibited gun access allowed a man to buy a weapon mere hours before he used it to take eight lives. i know condolences don’t dismantle the white supremacist patriarchy that murdered those eight women. for the rest of us: please check out this list of orgs and resources that benefit asian communities. and, before you put the burden on your asians friends to tell you what you can do to help, maybe have conversations with the non-asian people in your life about the ways we all promote and perpetuate anti-asian racism. let’s start there.
안녕하세요! Hey everyone! I have a long-overdue Hangul lesson – all about stroke order! While Korean stroke order is good to know, it’s not quite as imperative that you get the strokes right the same way that it might be for other languages like Chinese. That said, it can help your Korean handwriting look more natural, and knowing the correct order of strokes is actually really useful for reading people’s handwriting! I recommend watching this really interesting video by Go!Billy – in a nutshell, he says that knowing the stroke order is important because you’ll be able to essentially “trace” someone’s handwriting, so you’ll be able to read it even if it’s messy! Let’s get into it!
Some General Rules
Stroke order can seem a little overwhelming and even kind of random or arbitrary, so let’s talk about some general rules that influence stroke order!
I used sayjack.com as my source for this section, and that website has little gif-type things that show how each consonant is written, so check that out as well!
Left to Right: ex. When writing ㄱ, start from its left edge and make your way right.
Top to Bottom: ex. When writing ㅎ, start with the little stroke on the very top, then the longer stroke right below, and then the circle on the bottom.
Outside In: ex. When writing ㅋ, write a ㄱ to “frame” the stroke in the middle.
Here are some drawings of my own showing the strokes!
I hope these help y’all out! Again, stroke order isn’t the most important thing when learning Korean, so don’t worry if you find it too overwhelming! It’s just something that’s nice to know – I don’t really think any native speakers would come at you if you don’t get it perfect lol :)
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Love used to be a beautiful mirage, a moonbeam on the water you tried to cup in your hands. Now it is a grand oak tree, dried and coarse, it's roots grown deep within.
You knew he was not right for you but your heart and mind were stuck on the fallacious belief that he was. His love had already tainted the soul in you. And the black dahlia had already filled the red in you with it's burgundy of betrayal and sadness.
"The color of love getting thicker,
No matter what they say, I'll choose to love you anyway."
𝗿𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁 : quarterback jay flirting with you (cheer captain) and your friends teasing you hehehe 😈
𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 : none :)
𝗮/𝗻 : omg this is such a concept. thank you so much for requesting!! I will definitely be dreaming about quarterback jay tonight😫😫, and I kind of got carried away w this, but nonetheless I hope you like it!!!
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