Fucking Annoying

Is everything

[sanannn]

I hope, some day, I’ll heal from things no one ever apologized for.

[sanannn]

Until now, I never realised how badly I miss some people. Caught me off guard. It even made me cry a lot, even though I thought I got over their absence.

[sanannn]

I remember how it started, that’s why It’s weird. Because it came out of nowhere, suddenly I felt like there’s a dark spot that makes me feel uneasy and the first time I noticed it, it deeply hurt. I belive that part of me knew immediately that this is going to get maybe worse, but never better. So much time has passed since then, I fought this condition for so long in many many ways. I was so scared when I got better. Not because of the change, but of getting back to bad again. Now I feel that I’m slowly slipping trough my own hands, that are trying to hold me together, and I must be honest, I’m not scared. I feel like it’s okay, to loose.

[sanannn]

“Yeah I used to self destruct but now I don’t anymore haha”

Haha fucks sake

[sanannn]

I feel like having fun. I’m pro fun today, I’ll put little christmas lights all over me and then maybe have a dick. So festive.

[sanannn]

To realise that there’s nothing else, nothing is gonna be better and dark is all that’ll be is just frustrating.

[sanannn]

Sometimes it’s like I’m someone else and I watch myself doing stupid decisions thinking “Wow that’ll be a mess” and won’t do anything about it.

Help

[sanannn]

Anyway

[sanannn]

Can someone please stop my brain activity, thanks.

[patheticspineless]

the best thing about being alive on earth is that sometimes there is a kitty

[sanannn]

I think that everything is falling apart and it’s my fault and also it’s not but I don’t know what to do about any of it.

[sanannn]

Dear tumblr, fuck me. Except that don’t.

[sanannn]

The worst part is that all I loved wasn’t even real.

[sanannn]

Songs by Fleetwood Mac feel like something from your past that you liked and loved and knew and you forgot about it and it came back after a very very long time and you can like and love and know it again and it’s nice.

[sanannn]

I wish I could dance with someone slowly in the kitchen in the middle of the night on “Baby” by Ariel Pink.

[sanannn]

I’m not ok,I’m not. Stop asking, I’m not Ok. I just want to not being afraid of unaliving myself. It’s all.

[valentina-poem]