briar patch finn

an artists' secret ventblog; i'm more positive IRL

[homoidiotic]

Paintings from last night

[pmamtraveller]

Fish-shaped interlocking paving stones.

[briarpatchfinn]

I love Bluesky!

[zmpl]

can you imagine what it will be like the day it finally happens. no one will be posting about anything else. category 10 posting event. if it happens because of someone else their gofundme page will reach over $500,000 within a day. #hopecore

[briarpatchfinn]

I think a lot of my mental health issues from 2021-2023ish were related to isolation-fueled dissociation, particularly depersonalization. So what I'm learning if there's ever a need to lock down again, or if I ever become more strictly housebound again, I need to figure out a way to a) get cuddles from multiple people, b) be in a physical space with multiple people regularly. Or else I will quite literally go insane and forget how to relate to people because I don't feel like a person myself.

[briarpatchfinn]

The bus got a makeover (make your own cursed Star Trek title card)

[briarpatchfinn]

"Captain's Log, Stardate 21420.69. Here’s a thing that happened to one of my friends. I was there."

[briarpatchfinn]

The bus got a makeover (make your own cursed Star Trek title card)

[weepingwidar]

Martin Voigt (German, 1990) - Schwarzer Zwölfender (Black Twelve-pointer)(2020/2021)

[briarpatchfinn]

I read that "dump your p*ppygirl" article and now I have to live with my poor decision.

Someday the memory of me begging for communication from partners who made me feel abusive for having boundaries will be overshadowed by good communication experiences with people who care about me.

I don't know how I would have even gotten this far without good faith and kindness in response to some of my problem behaviors.

[briarpatchfinn]

Really genius brain day. Woke up asking myself "How would I respond if someone made a call out post demanding accountability for every interpersonal conflict I've ever had?" and haven't been able to stop drafting statements in my head.

And like realistically I know I'm pretty low drama these days and there's no evidence anyone is making 300 page dossiers about my deleted midnight traumaposts and past friend/dating woes. But brains are gonna brain.

[briarpatchfinn]

cw: psych stuff, trauma

I remember the time a guy at the psych ward let out a blood curdling scream, hit his head against the wall, and then said, "I'm sorry, my memories are hurting me." Mood.

[briarpatchfinn]

I've been on tumblr since 2010 and I was this week years old when I learned how to automatically unblur "mature content." I don't have any issue with nudity filters that people actually opt into, but it's way too hard to actually turn these things off. It's always some hidden setting you have to go poking for.

I don't need nanny state protection, I'm nearly FORTY.

[beifongkendo]

Cherry blossoms in Osaka, by Korean artist 90gram

[retroscifiart]

‘Tower City’ 1968, by Alex Schomburg for ‘Isaac Asimov’ by James Gunn. Image from The Chesley Awards Retrospective

[briarpatchfinn]

I posted about this elsewhere already, but I got detransitioned by the passport office this week. I submitted a renewal application and they just changed my gender back from M to F automatically. Grumpy.

[gideonisms]

I think it's so important and crucial for 20 year olds to witness older people who are genuinely bad at some aspects of being a person but are still living lives they find meaningful and enjoyable. Not just "oh I got married and you can too" but like. sometimes you cannot for the life of you finish college or find a good job or stay in a relationship or arrive to locations on time or whatever it is you think when you're 20 that you HAVE to be able to do. But you wind up finding a place in the world anyway. It happens!

[briarpatchfinn]

I'm far enough away from my trauma now, where I can just about see how cruel it was the way people scapegoated me to avoid dealing with their own fears. But not quite far enough that I can stop shaking when reminded of it.