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PSALM 139:14 📖 ❤Chamomile│Matcha│Cinnamon❤ Wattpad⭐unpluggedvoice│Twitter/IG⭐blastomycasis REGISTERED MEDICAL TECHNOLOGIST 💉🔬

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THIS MAY TAKE YOU LONG TO READ GUYS, BUT I HOPE YOU ENDURE WITH ME AND LEND ME SOME MINUTES TO READ MY STORY.

It was Feb 10, 2017, 6–6:30am. On the way ako to duty sa National Kidney Transplant Institute (Medtech-Extern ako doon). Nagpababa ako sa driver sa may pedestrian lane sa tapat ng Gate 1 ng QC City Hall. Papasok na sana ako. But then, pagbaba ko sa jeepney, I looked first left and right para malaman if may mga padating na sasakyan. Well, I saw some coming but it was far. I was on the right side and far from naaninag ko papadating ang jeep, taxi at motor. However, di ko na alam ang sunod na nangyari.

Nagtaka ako pagkagising ko (dahil parang 30 mins ako nawalan ng malay; tinanong ko agad kasi ’yung rescuer anong oras na — 6:30am na daw). Nasa tabi na ako at may mga police, guard, and rescue team. And then I asked kuya rescuer, “Anong nangyari?” “Nasagasaan ka,” sabi niya sa’kin. Tapos nun napahawak ako sa mukha ko dahil puro dugo nakita ko sa kamay ko at pagkatapos nun sinabi ko kay kuya, “Tulungan mo’ko kuya!” Napaiyak ako din kasi nang sabihin niya na wag ako malikot at dahil nabalian ako, dun ko palang narealize lalo na masakit yun, at umiyak na ako ng sobra. Pasalamat na lang din ako kasi walang nawala sa gamit ko.

Tumatawag si boyfriend nun; pinasagot sa’kin ni kuya at sinabi ko nasagasaan ako. He was in a rush and went to me from Legarda. Thankfully they asked me if I have a friend to come with me at si Ram, ka-extern ko sa NKTI, he went with me after ko siya tawagan (pinatawag sa’kin ni kuya rescuer; ganun din na pinatawagan niya sa’kin si mama ko). Mama talked to the rescuer & told them to go immediately to the nearest hospital. Luckily I was an intern before at East Avenue Medical Center, and some of the people knew me and helped me.

I forgot the ortho doctor’s name who straightened immediately my fractured bone. I thank Ram, for he was with me and he talked to my ninang also and other relatives (sorry, Ram, if you got screamed at that day, everybody was in shock that time). Afterwards my boyfriend came too. After a while, the mother of ALBERT IBAJO TORRES — name of the person who got me in that situation (maswerte siya napilayan at bugbog lang siya) — tinawagan daw siya ng anak niya kaya siya napunta doon sa’kin. I can’t believe she came din.

To make the long story short, I was shook when I saw one of my tooth was broken and my enamel showed — how unfortunate I am. By the way, they provided the titanium plate for my fractured femur bone. (My diagnosis: Fractured closed complete comminuted displaced m3 right femur.) The plate is worth 45k. I thank them for they provided it; however, when they knew that we had a discount in PhilHealth (Mom used my PhilHealth) she got angry! Excuse me? It’s my PhilHealth diba? Actually, they really need to provide all our bill because it’s her son’s fault.

Our bill in hospital: 44,425 Php. With discount… only 20k+ ang na-charge. So, si mama dahil maawain siya, sinabi na lang niya na bayaran ’yung 20k+ namin. But then, after ma-discharged and some check-ups, the mother of ALBERT IBAJO TORRES, Tess is her name (I don’t know the whole name), provided the fee for check-ups and continued to pay the balance for the bill. Pero when we came back for my 3rd month of check-up, nagbago ang lahat. Nag-try si mama to reach her, tinawagan niya sa phone but she didn’t answer until my mom decided to call her in the house where she works as “kasambahay.”

But things changed! She was angry and told my mom, “Mag-antay ka. Kasi wala nga akong pera diba?” Sabi naman ni mama, “Ano, mag-aantay ako? Nag-usap tayo ha, nagpirmahan pero hindi kayo tumutupad! Idedemanda ko kayo.” Then she fought, “Sige idemanda niyo!” My mom was triggered by that. So afterwards we filed a case and after some weeks, a subpoena came to our house pero nung pumunta kami sa 1st hearing di sila pumunta. Tinamad na din kami kasi parang wala din mangyayari. Mahirap pa mag-asikaso dahil we’re from TONDO tapos the case is in QC pa.

Nangibabaw din sa heart ni mama yung awa kasi may pamilya ’yung nakabangga sa’kin. Sabi nga sa Bible:

ROMANS 12:19

Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.

Pero kinaayawan ko lang doon dahil matapang pa siya — matapang pa siya ipaglaban na hindi kasalanan ng anak niya yun. Well, kung tutuusin, pinagtataka ko noon dapat jeep or ’yung taxi ang mauuna kasi sa case na yun… nasa right side ako patawid, yung arrangement nila from right to left is JEEP—TAXI—SINGLE MOTOR of Albert Ibajo Torres. Ibig sabihin po talaga, he was driving more than the required limit. His motor really broke down when I saw the pictures from the MMDA.

From that time na matapang pa si Ate Tess, we never contacted them again or asked for help, at hiningi pa yung balance ng bill. We just asked the Lord na Siya na ang bahala sa pamilya nila. Sa therapy ko, hanggang sa makalakad ako, wala naman sila naitulong e — actually hanggang doon lang sila. Walang palabra de honor e.

God said also in: PROVERBS 3:8 📖

Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones. ✔

In addition, I should look forward now because I conquered everything! I am now a strong woman. I wanna thank all of you —

Nagpapasalamat ako sa ninang ko, Ninang EMILY AGASID, for helping without hesitation, lalo na financially. She was really a blessing to me at sa family namin. I pray to God na i-continue Siya i-bless sa family niya rin and business niya.

I also thank my DEAREST PHYSICAL THERAPIST, Ma’am Nikko, for helping me to step up again and be confident in every walk of my life. Hihihi.

Thank you din sa mga friends ko na pumunta sa’kin nung nasa hospital ako — napakarami niyo. Most esp. Ronny, Rose, Ate Roch, Ram (2 weeks ako sa hospital, 2 weeks din sila dumuty sa’kin. Iloveyou guys ☺☺☺). Thank you for being with me guys and gals — AU FRIENDS AND MGA KA-INTERN FRIENDS KO and other church friends ☺☺☺

PS: Sa mga friends ko na malayo na chinat ako to send prayers and support. So many to mention, thank you po talaga 😍

Also din po sa CLGF Family for being there and praying for me too.

Sa mga other relatives ko na dumalaw din, esp. Tita Ana, Tito July, Tita Achie, Tito Angelo and his wife. Maging sa tita kong pastor, Tita Josie, sa pagbabantay din sa’kin sa ospital. Kay Ninang Theresa Cordero, Ptra. Mercy. Salamat sa prayers po.

Thank you din po sa NKTI Family, thank you sa pagpunta niyo po that time sa’kin; esp. sa mga Senior Staff and CMT namin. Sa EAMC Family, mga staffs ko doon for helping me.

Sa mga kapatid ko, Ate Joy (emotionally and financially) at Ejboy (sa pagpapasaya sa’kin). Kay mama at papa kong mahal — sa pagmamahal at pagpapalakas sa’kin lalo na si mama na walang sawang nag-aalaga sa’kin hanggang ngayon, sa’ming magkakapatid. ❤❤❤

Especially my boyfriend, who helped me until now, bearing with me. Mostly sa time na naisip ko nahuhuli na ako dahil wala pa ako experience sa lab work. Yung tipong isang taon na akong medtech pero wala parin akong nagagawa — frustrations ko bilang medtech na wala parin akong kwenta… salamat, pinalalakas mo loob ko lalo na sa pagsama mo sa mga laban ko sa buhay. Alam ko maraming nawala sa’kin na chance this 2017 but I look forward na sa 2018 everything will change (as what you say din).

Salamat din kahit napakadami ko ng stitches sa katawan ko, you always tell me pa rin na “I’m the most beautiful girl.” And the scars are just marks of how strong I am. ❤ Thank God He gave me you. Thank you for being patient and supportive to me. Iloveyou babe, iloveyou always and forever.

And most of all, I thank the Lord God Almighty, for giving me this 4th life since the day I was born and suffered lots of operations and life & death situations. I thank the Lord for comforting me and continuing to heal me physically, emotionally, and in my health issues. I LOVE YOU LORD. Your mercy endures forever. The grace of the Lord is sufficient for me. ❤❤❤ All glory belongs to the Lord. Hallelujah. Amen!

I’ve wrote this as an open-letter to everybody, to show how good the Lord still is despite nagkukulang tayo sa Kaniya, and I wanted to show how awesome the Lord is with His miracles in my life. ☝

I DECLARE BLESSINGS TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE READ MY LIVING TESTIMONY.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE A BOUNTIFUL NEW YEAR! 🎆🎆🎆🎁🎄🎊🎊🎊

PS: Thank you sa naging best bud ko for 6 months — my yellow crutch. A thing I leaned on sa road to learn to walk (again hihi 😁). ✨

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Franz Kafka, from a letter to Felice Bauer written in 1912, featured in Letters To Felice

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God can use pain to deepen our shallow understanding of who God really is. Do we recognize the difference between merely knowing about God and truly knowing Him?

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Perhaps we are surprised that in this account God affirms that Job was right in what he said about Him. We have never seen any recognition up to this time that Job had said right things. In fact, much of the book is aimed at pointing out that Job was wrong in his attitude about God. Although both Job and his friends say some wonderfully true things about God, and there are great passages of brilliance and glory that depict something of His power, beauty, and wisdom, Job himself admitted that he spoke in ignorance and folly, and he repents of this and puts his hand on his mouth. So it is rather surprising that God twice admits that Job has said that which is right about Him.

In what way did he say what was right? First, when Job could not see the sin in himself, he did indeed charge God with unfairness, but the moment God shows him the sin that is still deeply embedded in his heart, he immediately repents. There is no hesitation, no argument, and no self-defense. He admits immediately that the problem is with him and not with God.

Second, Job is always true to the facts as he sees them. He did not see them very clearly, and there are things about himself and about God's rule in the universe that he did not understand, but to the point where he did see things, he was always honest. There was no distorting or twisting of the facts to fit an inadequate theology.

Third, he took his problem to God, even though God was his problem. That is an admirable thing in Job. You remember how all through the account he is breaking into prayer constantly. Out of the torment and anguish that he feels, he always ends up laying his complaint before God. The friends never pray for Job. They never ask God to relieve his suffering; they never ask for help or wisdom or understanding on their part. They simply ignore all contact with the living God themselves, but Job is forever crying out before God and bringing his problems, his bewilderment, and his bafflement to the Lord Himself and asking for wisdom and help.

Finally, when Job does repent, he declares without restraint and reservation that God is God, that He is holy and wise and just and good, even when He seems to be otherwise. Ultimately, that is the highest expression of faith--that we do not trust our human observations of what is happening. We understand the limitations of our humanity, and we do not assume that we have all the facts so that we can condemn and judge a holy God. That is what Job does. He pronounces God as just and holy in all that He does.

AFTER READING THE BIBLE, THE BOOK OF JOB.

Friends of Job did not emphasize the Lord accurately but its only Job who do own anything after all have seen God's love after all the things he had been through he remain his CONFIDENCE IN GOD.

THERE WOULD BE TIME IN OUR LIFE

We thought we had everything, and ask God why do such things happens to us when we are serving Him, thinking "that" we dont deserve it; but knowing we live in flesh there will be certain things: in our acts, as we speaks, what our mind wants and needs, our motives... that may GOD CAN CLEARLY see so He challenges us with our faith. He let sufferings and trials but remember He will be with us, we just need to remain our beliefs and faith onto Him (like what Job did). Giving all to God without any hope in others only to His greatness.

Job 42:7-8 After the Lord had said these things to Job, he said to Eliphaz the Temanite, “I am angry with you and your two friends, because you have not spoken the truth about me, as my servant Job has. So now take seven bulls and seven rams and go to my servant Job and sacrifice a burnt offering for yourselves. My servant Job will pray for you, and I will accept his prayer and not deal with you according to your folly. You have not spoken the truth about me, as my servant Job has.”

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“Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.”

— Mandy Hale

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"Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you" [Ephesians 4:32].

The word "kindness" is missing in today's vocabulary, isn’t it? So many people are rude and self-centered, worried about themselves, and not very much worried about others. Paul in Titus 3:3 said, "At one time we too were foolish, deceived, enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another."

You see, "We were hated and we hated one another. That’s the way the world behaves.  "But when the kindness and love of God our Saviour appeared, He saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of His mercy."

It is only because of the kindness and mercy of God that we are saved. If God reacted to us the way we react to one another, He would have given up on us long ago. But instead, He reached out to save us. Paul said, "Be kind to one another because God has been kind to us."

Today, be a blessing to somebody, reach out to someone who needs your help. Talk to someone who is lonely, say a kind word to someone who has been rude to you. 

Jesus said,  "Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:16

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LIFECONNECT 7PM | 7.28.2022

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“I am sorry someone loved you badly, and that they made you feel like you take up more space than you deserve. I am sorry they abandoned you when you need them the most and it has made you believe that love is an awful thing that hurts.”

— Nikita Gill (via resqectable)

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“A gentle reminder that your heart is a muscle and so should be exercised regularly. Love often and love deeply.”

— Beau Taplin (via quotefeeling)

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“You can’t betray yourself too often, or you become somebody else.”

— Ed Harris (via perfeqt)

[savedbyloveforgivenbygrace]

AFTERMATH OF SWAB

All of us in the Lab, waited for almost 2weeks for the result of our swabbing test. Unfortunately, one of us Got positive result! She had her result before we received ours.

After 3days of waiting too, our result got out majority of us had a "NEGATIVE" result (for now I guess.)

My concern for now,

Weeks passed by before we knew that she was POSITIVE for covid19.

For you to know, I had a contact to her a "CLOSE CONTACT!" I was PM duty before the result came out she was the NIGHT shift on that day.

It so happened that the people duty on PM shift was a friend (I can say have mutual feelings regarding the happenings in you know! Hahaha) so we bursted out laughs and some jokes.

And she has a close contact also with my other Laboratory staffs.

WHAT MADE ME FEEL SO ANNOYED...

one of my workmate, got check-up with our in-house physician (A doctor whose assigned for all the employees).

I do understand, that she had a close contact with her also. Its was just so unfair to leave your workmates behind that you've got symptoms and didn't even properly said any word.

So, what happened my fiancé needed to take on the duty she left! (I do understand she need to quarantime tho, how bout dont we think of that also and dont we deserve it too?). He was only about to have 2 night shifs in a week. But it happened to be have 4 night shifts for the God damn sake of her! I feel anguish about it. It was not the only time when she was absent and some of my workmates, my fiancé and I too needed to replace her absence.

And now, she's sick leave til monday! And I hope she will get well.

I DO HOPE OUR HOSPITAL MUST HAVE CONCERN AND PRIORITIZE THE NUMBER OF EMPLOYEE GETTING POSITIVE & ALSO THE EMPLOYESS WHO GOT CONTACTED THE INFECTED PERSONS.

we all know that, every person who had contact with infected person must be in quarantine.

Hell NO! THE RULE (maybe what the head departments or the high persons in charged says...) "NO QUARANTINE, NO MONEY! NO STAFFS LEFT TO WORK IN THE LAB!"

FUNNY? They care 'bout only the duty NOT the staffs.

Keep working even if you have contacted an infected person/workmate.

THE ONLY THING YOU NEED TO DO IS OBSERVE YOURSELF! That's the first thing to do actually.

I envy those government or other hospitals that needed to be shut down first to prioritize disinfection and their employees health. In filipino term "SANA ALL!" 😏

back to my workmate —

SHE IS NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO NEEDED ALSO REPEAT SWAB.

as what the in-house physician recommended her: She needs to re-swab because she's HIGH RISK* WTH! HOW ABOUT US? WEREN'T US HIGH RISK TOO?

ALSO ALL OF US, who works in the LABORATORY needs repeat swab test.

HOWEVER,

IT IS NOT POSSIBLE! For me it is, simply because our own departmet head seems to be concern of herself and her favorite staff(s) only. REAL TALK! I DO NOT FEEL HER SENSE OF FAIRNESS OF CARE TO EVERYONE.

WHY?

she cares what will be her swab result and even dont bother if some of her staffe had not even tested for covid19 (swab test).

she cares about her alliance to her favorites babies in the lab. She seldom shows her concern; she may tell or express her care but not all the time because you know that she is really "BIAS!" 😒😬

I thought that the institution I'm working on is a good example of a God-fearing hospital and really cares about the patients and employees.

ON THE CONTRARY,

it is NOT A GOOD HOSPITAL TO WORK WITH.

This pandemic, kinda had a good side; because It showed the real color, the real motive and the things the hospital wanted or needed! and is "MONEY!"

You read it right!

M-O-N-E-Y. 💰💰💰🤑

They say, it is a NON-PROFITABLE institution.

BUT THERE ARE INVESTORS! The Board of Trustees.

They allow out-patients (because the hospital has no earnings anymore)

even if the first memo told that they wont accept any out patient and prioritize IN-PATIENTS, PUI/POSITIVE Patients. They revoked it and accepted OUT PATIENTS again!

But for you to know, some PRIVATE HOSPITAL here in MANILA was firmed NOT TO ACCEPT any OUT PATIENT. WHY?

TO AVOID CROSS-CONTAMINATION.

I'am very sorry for the pregnant patients in our hospital who still went to have their lab test(s). They have no choice. Maybe because we're the only open institution to cater them; around their area.

I hope those patients who has been requested for Fastings tests and NOT FOLLOW UP TESTING..

Please, I beg you,

DO NOT ATTEMPT TO GO TO HOSPITAL FIRST. IT IS NOT THE SAFE PLACE TO GO TO AT THIS TIME!

In our institution, all patients must undergo the ER-TRIAGE! Imagine how many people may come by and you NEVER KNOW if the person you're being with or waiting for their turn is infected.

You can have your fasting tests after covid pandemic is over. You may do alternatives like doing exercises, yoga relaxations with proper meal and diet.

THIS QUARANTINE PERIOD IS A TIME TO GET YOURSELF PUMP UP FOR THOSE WHO HAVE MUCH TIME! TO HELP AND GET YOURSELF BE HEALTHY, BE FIT AND FORGET ABOUT STRESSFUL WORKLOAD IN YOUR JOB. seize it man!

I really wanted to quit, not because I don't like to work yet I want to quit because I've reached enough complains about the rules and how the management of my hospitals does.

I am just enduring, what was happening and will happen in the Hospital. If I can't bear it anymore, I guess I deserve to quit from the exhaustion and stress in the workplace.

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SWAB FOR FRONTLINERS?

Does it necessary to be swab for covid testing sa mga frontliners? I guess, Yes!

We face differrent patients a day, we dont know whose infected and whose not.

so, for my opinion...

I think its good to be tested. And a must for all healthcare workers some manifest the disease withouth symptoms, some may have.

YOU KNOW WHAT'S CRAZY in our HOSPITAL?

other staffs aren't get tested. They have a plan but NEEDS APPROVAL FIRST!

What the hell needs approval for the sake of what?

There was an implementation of Mass testing. But, for us we ain't getting prioritize sa hospital.

We need to swab other employee, but as the lab people didn't have any chance to get tested?

Up until when we will wait?

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FRONTLINER

Here we are, frontliners who still goes to work para sa bayan? Ang Unang tanong WORTH IT PA BA?

Honestly, i felt the anger, the sadness.. mixed up na actually. You can't seem all filipinos are cooperating with what the Government wants.

We are so demanding, lahat ng goods and reliefs we received imbis na ipagpasalamat ikinagagalit pa. I don't know if I'm proud to be a filipino pa. Nakakaiyak talaga sa totoo lang dahil kung makikita niyo po, napakadami paring tao sa labas ng bahay lalo sa parte ng tondo. I live here for 26years and it was very saddening to see how some response with the law.

Secondly, The hospitals. I work as a medical techonologist. I dont know if some hospital (PRIVATE/PUBLIC) really provide well the staffs needs; PPE and financial support.

i wanted to tell you honestly,

what i am experiencing in my workplace ⬇️⬇️⬇️

we weren't able to get tested/swab bcos of we dont have symptoms (even if we had a contact with some Pui's and (+) patients. They say we're low risk bcos of the PPE. Maybe they got a point. But the worry kills us.)

Nurses and doctors and other staff of the hospital got tested bcos of contact tracing but as in the Laboratory no one cares.

The head of our department only says we're all exposed. (so tuloy ang duty no need to worry bcos of contacts). It seems she was just half-hearted. You dont know of she's concern or not. Actually kase walang duduty na malalagas kami; I guess she's afraid for us to get tested and to know results.

Then says "We're strong and healthy", as a respond to one doctor asking if why the laboratory people aren't get tested. But deeply, all my workmates are NOT physically and mentally healthy.

There is NO UNITY in our hospital. Per departments care for own selves.

They want us to swab PUI patients.

THE PROBLEM!

I DO NOT WANT TO SWAB PUI PATIENTS NOT BECAUSE I'M AFRAID OF!

I am NOT SATISFIED with the PPE's we have.

Pinipili lang bibigyan ng PPE. some says..

"Baka may mas kailangan pang iba ng PPE."

it broke my heart into pieces.

which means.. I really don't NEED PPE? And there's some people in the hospital needs much more than me, than us?! MEDTECH?

Doctors, Nurses, Medtechs, Radtechs and all other staff in the hospital are exposed we know. But we had this kind of different level of exposure. We knew that. But why dont the management understand the point that we're also much more in need. I want to say honestly that DOCTORS AND NURSES are much more PRIORITIZE in our Hospital. To tell you, we're just you know lab people. TF who cares? Ganon ang level ng datingan.

I hope if we do really need to swab PUI. may the hospital provide a GOOD QUALITY PPE and wag kami tipidin! Maging increase sa HAZARD PAY!

Because we're risking out lives too.

If we're demanding too much, Im sorry to say. This is the reason why some people choose to go out of the country or quit on their job.

LET'S JUST PRAY FOR NOW THAT THE PH WOULD HAVE A GOOD SYSTEM AND LAW IN COMES TO THIS AND ALSO TO EACH HOSPITAL TO HAVE A FAIR SYSTEM IN EVERYTHING.

I only trust God may heal our land. And to strengthen the healthcare workers more.

Lastly, for all the filipinos please bear with us. kailangang hindi umabot ang covid sa rainy season! For you to know, RAINY SEASON is the peak of dengue season and Leptospirosis. And if this all sickness have been together, malalagas po kami. We need to work triple or quadruple for there's lot of patient in the hospital in that season. Sana makicooperate kayo. Wag muna tayo magkania-kania. Magdasal at sumunod muna po tayong lahat.

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[savedbyloveforgivenbygrace]

When you posted about rants or opinion that seems to be harsh, your friends online gone mad and commenting and asking question. But when it comes to sharing GOOD VIBE quote, bible verses and about God. They didn't even say something or respond good thoughts too, worst they ignore lots of time.

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