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YAS KIDS IM BACK ON TUMBLR LIKE IT'S 2013 AND THAT AINT SOMETHING YOU NEED TO GET RIGHT NOW ANYWAYS PLAY ME SOME DAMN FINE POWER POP

[savingskarabees]

does everything i do have to serve a bigger purpose? does everything i do have to be important? what happened to doing things purely for your enjoyment? should all your actions be driven by a desire to be deeply impactful?

[tangerineseed]

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do you ever feel like everybody's doing their own thing while you're hung up on shit from years ago although you occasionally make peace with it do you ever feel like you're late in life you hear your friends talk about things that seem so foreign to you the way they talk the way they enunciate things the way they carry themselves the way they spend their money the way they dress and they seemed to have grown up but not you and you become scared of arrested development but it's a crippling fear rather than one that pushes you to go forward

[skinty-fenian]

Irish people cutting onions:

[animentality]

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barakallahou fik, gonna show this to my therapist

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sometimes twin peaks clips i completely forgot about grace my youtube feed and make me very very happy at 2 in the morning. david lynch and mark frost, you absolute treasures, i strive to one day create something as iconic, sincere, inventive and as longstanding as twin peaks

[girlrustcohle]

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

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what the actual fuck

i do NOT know SHIT about ANYTHING ANYMORE

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hell yeah

i remember the sun i remember how hot it was i remember the giant lcd in front of which i felt really tiny i remember the summer i remember what i played on ps2 i remember that one of those games was Graffiti Kingdom and it was clunky and weird and kind of ugly but maaaaaaaan, the soundtrack just elevated that game and it left such an imprint on me

Chikuridori

Yasunori Mitsuda · Song · 2004

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okayyyy im getting a little emotional bois n gals n every other gender but if i had to give yall advice pay attention whenever u talk to someone u like and who KNOWS u like em, be careful that ur not used as a free egoboost card and also if u spend too much trying to crack someone's uh shell? in order to make them more sincere and genuine and get closer to them, there's def something wrong with that because it uh it ain't exactly ur priority

that is, even if they're nice people, good people (we all know those arent necessarily devoid of insecurities haaa)

i think it mainly boils down to learning to let go of people and to not overcomplicate ur social relationships; i think love, platonic, romantic or whatever, should be natural, like i look at all the people around me who are there for me and it's uh it hasn't been difficult to love them or for them to love me and that's why they're awesome and cool and they matter

but it's okay whoever u are wherever u are i wish u the best of luck u gotta get hurt to grow n that's how u grow to become sharper, nicer to urself and overall a better person

[savingskarabees]

I had thoughts that were related to this post today i have a certain taste of acceptance that spread to my cheeks because i have this sort of 'itizwhatitiz' facial expression ive been displaying for a good 40 minutes or so and it just happened when i was listening to Ichiko Aoba on the train and her voice very much soothed me to the point where i wondered welp itizwhatitiz and wondered when was the last time i didnt have this desire to be loved by the wrong people stuck in the back of my mind and i just accepted some things like itizwhatitiz and the music is good and hopefully there are great things awaiting

[savingskarabees]

heyaaa just wanted to tell yall things get better u meet new people u try ur hands at dating u get ghosted once or twice u curse the ever living shit out of every dating app u try but it gets better; at some point those people u need they dont have any poetry left in them and u drift apart naturally and it's the most beautiful thing because u discover ur life works wonders without them and without their attention and u accept that there might never be a cathartic discussion to seal the deal and move on, to get closure because there is no need for it and the hatred goes away and the anger goes away and the grudge is buried too deep for you to dig it up again and u choose not to obsess over it and ur fine if yall never cross each other's path again

[savingskarabees]

okayyyy im getting a little emotional bois n gals n every other gender but if i had to give yall advice pay attention whenever u talk to someone u like and who KNOWS u like em, be careful that ur not used as a free egoboost card and also if u spend too much trying to crack someone's uh shell? in order to make them more sincere and genuine and get closer to them, there's def something wrong with that because it uh it ain't exactly ur priority

that is, even if they're nice people, good people (we all know those arent necessarily devoid of insecurities haaa)

i think it mainly boils down to learning to let go of people and to not overcomplicate ur social relationships; i think love, platonic, romantic or whatever, should be natural, like i look at all the people around me who are there for me and it's uh it hasn't been difficult to love them or for them to love me and that's why they're awesome and cool and they matter

but it's okay whoever u are wherever u are i wish u the best of luck u gotta get hurt to grow n that's how u grow to become sharper, nicer to urself and overall a better person

[savingskarabees]

I had thoughts that were related to this post today i have a certain taste of acceptance that spread to my cheeks because i have this sort of 'itizwhatitiz' facial expression ive been displaying for a good 40 minutes or so and it just happened when i was listening to Ichiko Aoba on the train and her voice very much soothed me to the point where i wondered welp itizwhatitiz and wondered when was the last time i didnt have this desire to be loved by the wrong people stuck in the back of my mind and i just accepted some things like itizwhatitiz and the music is good and hopefully there are great things awaiting

[savingskarabees]

okayyyy im getting a little emotional bois n gals n every other gender but if i had to give yall advice pay attention whenever u talk to someone u like and who KNOWS u like em, be careful that ur not used as a free egoboost card and also if u spend too much trying to crack someone's uh shell? in order to make them more sincere and genuine and get closer to them, there's def something wrong with that because it uh it ain't exactly ur priority

that is, even if they're nice people, good people (we all know those arent necessarily devoid of insecurities haaa)

i think it mainly boils down to learning to let go of people and to not overcomplicate ur social relationships; i think love, platonic, romantic or whatever, should be natural, like i look at all the people around me who are there for me and it's uh it hasn't been difficult to love them or for them to love me and that's why they're awesome and cool and they matter

but it's okay whoever u are wherever u are i wish u the best of luck u gotta get hurt to grow n that's how u grow to become sharper, nicer to urself and overall a better person

[savingskarabees]

ossm stuff #1

do you want to be loved or do you want to be yourself? by Sisyphus 55

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Been watching the shield lately i'm about to finish season 3 and this show is pretty great it's intense and hard hitting apparently the best is yet to come but nvm that i'm enjoying it either way but i wanted to talk about how one of my favorite aspects of the show is the documentary-like directing, with those shaky cameras and those agressive zooms it moves A LOT sometimes you'd have the strike team barge into a house and the camera follows them for a few seconds without cutting and it's so immersive like it's brutal and it doesn't sugarcoat any of the terrible crimes that they stumble upon or that they are subject to, neither does it ignore the effect that it has on the characters you FEEL the characters being worn down by what they hear or see or have gone through

if two characters fight the camera work is still shaky but the action doesn't get blurry and their fight is perfectly raw in the sense that it's got a lotta breaking things a lot of sloppiness a lot of jiggling on the floor but also a sense of weight in every punch the characters give

i also noticed that sometimes (most of the time?) when they make an arrest in public the camera moves to show the reactions of other people and the ones that stuck with me are the window shots, when the camera shows the windows with the people watching the criminals being arrested and sometimes they're kids idk it stuck with me how the show shows (ha) the reaction of the outside to the arrests that are being made

two other things that add to the grittiness of the show imo are the film grain (i think it was shot in 16mm??) and the general absence of music, outside of the diegetic songs or the songs that play at the end of an episode (in pure 2000s fashion) which really helps us immerse ourselves into Farmington and the daily job of the police

all of this also really helps with the warmer, more tender scenes, which contrast with the brutality of their daily work; there is a shower scene in season 3 that ends in an embrace, and it made me feel so giddy bcs it felt so tender and the last shot was this shot of the hand of one of them on the back of the other, under the shower, it was very sweet

all in all this show is really something, really excited for what comes after!!!

[savingskarabees]

a few weeks ago i just went on huggingface.co and typed 'joe biden meets joe biden at joe biden's house' and i got like nine pictures and i also really like grizzly bear so this happened

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THIS MEANS WAAAAAAAAR

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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAR

man IDLES slap

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lif's hard mann but im ok tho