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i have a cool little sideblog now (khrkin)

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if u haven't folowed me to @khrkin yet get with it

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thots

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a who the fucck are all of u

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hewwo! a lil reminder after th death of this blog that i still do khr related stuff on my sideblog (khrkin) if that’s what you used to follow me for lmao

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hot take: yamamoto takeshi isn’t “acting dumb on purpose” nor is he “actually super dumb”, his questions are structured differently. trying to work through things with a different and sometimes scrambled mindset usually makes things seem a little off. though i agree his canon mental illness (that was made into a gag :))) ) probably comes into play when he laughs certain things off, i’m just gonna pitch it out there that his easygoing self is a natural part of him and he’s wholly on a different depth perception and slower to realize the more obvious things thanks

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I’m pretty sure yamamoto was based on the happy go lucky guy trope, but i kindaa head canon him as someone who tries to deny reality?

Maybe he knows that deep down, he should be avoiding his friends because of the mafia influence. But he just really likes them so much so that he tricks his mind and pretends that they’re playing a ‘game’ so there’s no actual danger in getting involve with them.

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mmmm he was but that was before the manga developed into more than just its gag origin and hes been developed further than that now.

thats a fair hc i’d say it started that way maybe very plausibly? i dont think that was the case with all the arcs though because you can only keep denial that heavy up for so long, no matter who you are and considering they’ve had to fight for their lives (and people have died/ nearly died) it’d be more of a daily life arc through ring battle arc hc at most sort of thing. 

mental illness can be a combination of multiples and lack of situational depth/cues is a major player. we don’t know his diagnosis bc i’m pretty sure he never went to get clinically diagnosed (or it wasn’t mentioned) so the only clear sign is severe depression which was clearly enough to convince him that jumping from a school roof was all there was left to do. i mean it’s all open ended because none of that was ever explained just literally happened and no one spoke of it again aside from tsuyoshi finding out his son tried to end his own life :))))))  how he naturally thinks and his mental illness play off each other and i honestly just made this post bc im sick of the two troupes i mentioned. they’re everywhere and they don’t even make any sense

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To be honest I didn’t quite believe it when you said he might have depression, because from my impression (It’s been forever since I read or watched KHR), he was a peppy young man who knew how to be serious as well.

But after googling a bit of depression’s symptoms and re-reading Yamamoto’s chapter in the manga, I think you might be on to something, whether the author was intentional or not.

This is Google’s result:

Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness:

Self-loathing and maybe loss of interest and daily activities:

I feel like the strip above is more of him thinking that by failing baseball, he has failed everything and therefore, he is no good.

Reckless behaviour:

The other points I can’t prove as I don’t think I have seen those symptoms from the manga, but I could be wrong.

But I also think the symptoms doesn’t necessarily point to depression, because I’m sure most people will feel depressed for a while, Yamamoto hardly shows any of the symptoms anymore in the later chapters (maybe the author just forgot about it or discarded it?), and I’m more convinced that his decision of wanting to jump off the roof is something decided at the moment.

Might be unrelated to the point, but I’m sure that Yamamoto wanted to have someone or a friend who can relate to his situation well, when the people around him just see him as a perfect person who can’t possibly have flaws.

Yamamoto asked for advice and Tsuna just says “Just try your best??” and Yamamoto’s all on board about it and practices till his wrist or arm broke.

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weep wop guess who’s back from the dead for one hot minute bc I didn’t even see your reply holy shit. 

But this is a good addition and there are a lot of open ended theories abt Takeshi because Amano never retouched on any of that Shit which kind of disheartens me seeing as how it was written off as he’s just ok after that and nothing more because of the aforementioned gag manga chapters the issue appeared in. 

As someone who (bringing this up due to the heavy subject of suicide/depression) attempted to end their own life on several occasions and came very close to succeeding. Jumping from a roof is way too out of bounds to just be an impulse of the moment decision, no matter how ugly your thoughts. Ending your own life is planning, and thinking, and playing with idea for usually a long time and buddy you’re in somewhere so dark and hopeless when you try. No one who is temporarily depressed (that’s a thing?) eg: for weeks or some months (as far as I know, I could be wrong) would go so far as to be two seconds away from doing so.

Usually it’s smaller actions that start out like self harm. It’s a slow decline. Depression is thrown usually bc a lot of our generation has it, suicide is being backed into a corner with no more options left.

And absolutely I believe Takeshi was lonely and starved even for a friend who wouldn’t idolize him and put him on this pedestal of always being the best. Who would at least listen, coming from a place maybe even darker than his own. The panels are him seeking help. They’re kind of obvious attempts at red flagging to Tsuna without literally saying it that “hey I am not okay! I need help!” only Amano doesn’t touch on that well because mhmmfnhn it’s supposed to be Funny Look At This Idiot Jumping Off A Building And Talking About Baseball Gods. Also a plot device for Tsuna to become closer to Takeshi.

Maybe the point is that it could go either way and no one is really wrong in their HCs because we still don’t know shit. I don’t think Amano intended them to be signs of depression either. But they’re blatant signs just the same.

People can become dangerously talented at hiding those things especially if they fear rejection or don’t even recognize it for what it is. Takeshi was most likely not even taught that was something he could have????

This became so long I have apologies forming in my dumb head as I type this but buddy I am Passionate abt this, lord willing. Just know that,

Takeshi Yamamoto attempted to jump off a building several stories high and if that doesn’t scream warning signs I don’t know what will.

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that’s it i’m mcgone kinda no more in the queue

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i’m still here once or twice a day to answer messages about my new url!! it’s ok if we don’t know each other, aren’t mutuals or have never talked to still ask. the worst i can do is politely decline

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moving!!!

i’ve moved to a new blog! message me if you’d like my new url & i’m about to queue this so many times someone screams

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moving!!!

i’ve moved to a new blog! message me if you’d like my new url & i’m about to queue this so many times someone screams

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moving!!!

i’ve moved to a new blog! message me if you’d like my new url & i’m about to queue this so many times someone screams

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moving!!!

i’ve moved to a new blog! message me if you’d like my new url & i’m about to queue this so many times someone screams

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“In a game with no consequences, why are you still playing the ‘Good’ side?”

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Because being mean makes me feel bad.

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23 fucking hundred years of philosophy and this mother fucker on tumblr gets it in a meme

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The first time I saw Takeda I was sure he was the little giant and I still kinda want him to be xD

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i might restart my main and kinda “abandon” this one aside from whats already queued? don't know yet but seeing people reblog the r/\27 things or old k/ h/ r posts/ships and frankly things i dislike from old me is giving me a lot of anxiety?? and this blog is a negative energy because of the mess. dunno

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how do i delete 3 n a half years of things off my blog

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somebody had to do it  (blank credit)

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