Akii.ra

The Unhappy One 🌙 | Sleep Deprived 💫 Emotionally Constipated Mind ⚡

[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

Are you ready to take this leap?

[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

if you would just get tired and leave me in the future, let's not risk it don't get any closer. Call me coward or names, I know love can take me to the highest cloud nine but I've tasted what abyss feels like and I barely recover. Sometimes, I'm tired and broken and yes, I know how magical love can be but if it would wrench me and my soul... I'd rather walk in my own two feet instead of floating on cloud nine with the risk of falling to drown in the abyss.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I drown with tears but I breathe in deep waters.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

Have you ever consider that change can be so drastic that it damaged a person?

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

Someday, I'll meet you when the moon is on its most breathtaking moment and I'll finally tell you how much I like you and at that time I'll finally be ready to move on after letting you go so you can be with your happiness.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I was so bored and I still need to wake up early later for my graduation ceremony (I don't feel excited at all), Goodnight.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I guess what we had doesn't worth even a goodbye.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I closed my eyes, clenched my teeth, fisted my hands and took a deep breath.

Because I know better than to let my emotion take over.

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[juansendizon]

“I am tired of pain. This thing that’s necessary, inevitable and leaves too many scars. I am tired of being so sensitive to anything that triggers my wounds to bleed.”

— Juansen Dizon, Tired human

[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I used to believed that choosing you means choosing myself.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I heard stories about death, about how someone's life ends and people wondering what happened.

I witness death, the suicide of a man who suffers and people wondered how could he do that.

I hope for my death, as I face my daily struggles and people wonders why would I wish for that.

Every day someone in this world dies because people are not aware of what is happening because people don't see another person's suffering. With a daily occurrence of painful experience, one can lose their will to live and yet many people continue to trample on other people's feelings. You don't get to know what's running inside somebody else mind, so, please do not be too quick on making comments, joke or insult others. We all struggle and suffers, we are on different levels of how we can still endure. Do not let someone dies just because you can not stop yourself from having a smartass opinion, be more careful and balance whatever that you think can harm someone else feelings.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

The hardest part of living in a society where no one has respect for others feelings is when you have to give up and let go of your dream.

Dreaming is the most wonderful thing next to love. Having the freedom to see yourself in that happy moment. To have something to look forward to. To feel the urge to work hard. To have the strength to face every challenge because you are looking ahead, thinking that after all this rain would be a rainbow, that when this cold darkness is over the sun will finally give you the warmest smile. We would be so lucky if only the obstacles that we face would be rainstorms and cold nights, but unfortunately, what blocking our way and pulling us down in the abyss of despair are the people who disregard what we put our lives for.

I hope someday, one would understand how to appreciate or at least respect other people’s dream and hard work– not removing their freedom to express their opinion but at least to have a bit of decency to not run their mouth as if others do not have feelings.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

The hardest part of living in a society where no one has respect for others feelings is when you have to give up and let go of your dream.

Dreaming is the most wonderful thing next to love. Having the freedom to see yourself in that happy moment. To have something to look forward to. To feel the urge to work hard. To have the strength to face every challenge because you are looking ahead, thinking that after all this rain would be a rainbow, that when this cold darkness is over the sun will finally give you the warmest smile. We would be so lucky if only the obstacles that we face would be rainstorms and cold nights, but unfortunately, what blocking our way and pulling us down in the abyss of despair are the people who disregard what we put our lives for.

I hope someday, one would understand how to appreciate or at least respect other people's dream and hard work-- not removing their freedom to express their opinion but at least to have a bit of decency to not run their mouth as if others do not have feelings.

akii.ra_respect and dreams// 031819

[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

Maybe the moon, the stars, and everything else about the universe and sea is supposed to be loved from a far, because it’s only when we’re far that we see their utmost beauty. Believe that there are things that is better of untouch by us to preserve its beauty and worth. We must be capable of loving things or human from a far for it doesn’t have to always be in our reach or have it belong to us. Letting it grow by itself and preserving it’s purpose is also a form of showing love.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I mean why we all ask for someone to accept us? Look for someone who will understand our quirks and flaws? Someone to Love us unconditionally and won’t ask us to change?

Why can’t we be that kind of person?

Someone who will accept, understand, and unconditionally love ourself but more or less the people that would come to our lives Because maybe sometimes it’s not supposed to be the other one but ourselves.

(July 28, 2018)

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

Being lost sometime is not as bad as you think. Being lost means as much as having a broader perspective of what’s around you, being able to be more understanding and observant. Being lost would brought you to different places and gives you different feelings, memories that might break you but would make you strong or bring you happiness that would always be im your heart. Being lost is learning about new things, to meet people and experience adventure.

Being lost sometime is what actually take to find and know where we are suppose to be. By being lost we learned to appreciate the little things that we kept on missing when we tried to fit it into the place we force to belong.

Being misfit would always bring you pain that would scar your heart. So don’t be scared about being lost, you might be alone from the start of your race but you’ll see that being lost in this world would make you tougher and would let you meet the people that would be blessing into your life.

The solitude of being lost would bring you great happiness. Once you learn that you are not actually lost, you are being freed… you are living on your own not into the world’s or any one’s standard but on the things that makes you happy.

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[scatteredpiecesofmysoul]

I can’t wait for the time to come when I can finally cry with tears of joy. For that day to finally come when my heart no longer aches but beat fast as if it’s bursting out of happiness. When tears do not mean pain nor sorrow yet it would be meant as relief and satisfaction.

I wish for that day to come, always.

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