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Honoring Liam Payne: A memorial across time and space

As we continue to process the heartbreaking news of Liam’s passing, I’ve created this tumblr as a space where we can come together and remember him.

Several of you, including some anons, suggested the idea of holding an online memorial, especially for those who can’t attend the services being held in various cities. I believe this is a beautiful way to honor him and support one another.

I’ll be posting more details on Monday, as it’s quite late now and I’ll be travelling tomorrow to attend one of the memorials. But I wanted to get this blog up and running to share a date and a way for us to contribute.

We’ll be holding the online memorial on October 29th. The time doesn’t matter — just join in whenever it’s October 29th where you are, so everyone can participate in their own time. What can you share?

You can contribute in any way that feels right for you —whether it’s edits, fan art, poems, a personal note or letter, song lyrics, gif sets, your favorite photos of him, special moments, stories… Just tag me and I’ll make sure to reblog it.

Please, take care and be gentle with yourselves during this time. I’m sending love and strength to all of you 💕

alarrylarrie

It just… it wasn’t supposed to go this way. He was supposed to get the help he deserved and recover. They were supposed to eventually get back together and rob us all (happily, of course) blind of our life savings for their reunion tour tickets. I was supposed to be able to see him in person, bounding around stage, singing his harmonies and verses, doing mic flips, saying “sing it” and reading silly fan signs. He had so much more life left! He had so much more to do!

This isn’t fair! It isn’t right! This shouldn’t have happened! It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

frankenawus

londonfoginacup

Hey just a note about grief.

At some point, and for some of us it will be very soon while for others of us it will be a long time from now, you will start to feel like you want to listen to One Direction, or to Liam’s music, and simply enjoy it. You’ll watch This is Us or San Siro and you won’t be in mourning, you’ll be enjoying yourself. You will look at Liam and think only happy thoughts, and you will know that he is gone but in that moment it won’t hurt the same.

And you may, in that moment, feel supremely guilty about it.

I need you, when it happens, to take those feelings of guilt and let them go.

Liam, I am so certain of this, would not want you to feel guilty for not feeling sad. Liam, with his big heart and his joy and his happiness, would want you to take delight in what he made for you. I know and believe this with everything in me.

We have all suffered a deep loss that will change everything, it will change how we view our fandom time forever, to varying degrees. But someday, your heart will say, I want to let life in. And you should let it, when that happens.

Grief is a fickle thing, but some of us will approach a moment when we are tempted to take joy in Liam’s life, joy in what he has given us. Let yourself feel that joy, when it happens. Let Liam’s memory be a happy one when you can.

lastgirlonearth999

forever. ❤️

leodette

When it suddenly crashes on you that it is real and not just a nightmare, and the dam of tears breaks 💔

masqueradehfx

An Old Man's thoughts on Grief - 1D Edition

Today is my 50th birthday. Less than 24 hours ago I saw the news that a 31year old deeply troubled man died in a tragic way. It was through Liam Payne that I was able to make some great friends on here, such as @thisiskatsblog, and find a community of people who actually helped me through a very difficult time. Liam was 3 years younger than our foster son.

It occurred to me this morning that for many 1D fans this is their fist taste of something that those of us of a certain age have started getting used to: the mortality of idols. At the age of 16, Liam became a god to millions of adoring fans, and while his followers diminished over the years, for many he was still the god of their formative years. And now god has died, and with him a piece of the youth he helped to form.

I've been through it many times in 50 years: Robin Williams, David Bowie, Michael Gambon, Donald Sutherland, and the list goes on (and keeps on getting longer!). When gods die it remind us of our own mortality. For many today, this is the first time their mortality is a real thing in their life. Sure, maybe their have been other deaths - pets, grandparents, other relatives, etc. - but those could be rationalized away. But this, this one is going to stick.

All this is to say - no, to BEG - please be kind! Liam wasn't a god; he was a very troubled and flawed human being. There are decades ahead to discuss his flaws and possible crimes. But for right now, in the soul of many of your friends both real and online, their god has died and for the first time in their lives they are realizing that they will inevitably die too. This is scary as hell the first time. But it will pass. Grief will pass. Fear will pass. But if you chose today to be cruel, that cruelty is the only thing in the world that is truly immortal.

kingsofeverything

I keep thinking about that time a fan asked Stephen Hawking about Zayn leaving the band and how he said there are infinite parallel universes and that in at least one, Zayn would still be in One Direction.

The thought that there are infinite parallel universes is comforting to me right now.

tommosloueh

Louis and Liam pouring gatorade on each other during Best Song Ever, 28/07/15

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ashleyrguillory

The namesake of the comic series.

Thank you, Liam. Thank you for the music you gave us. But more personally- thank you for all of the friends. I have so many friends all over the world now because of you and the buck wild experience that was being a Directioner. I still call many of those people my friends to this day. It would have never happened with you.

How…

what the actual fuck…

I don’t know what to say.

#liam #liam payne #1d