[schuyu]

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[wolf-elf]

Jenny Holzer, Survival, 1985, cast aluminum, New York.

[tracheotomys]

Takato Yamamoto, Saint Sebastian (聖セバスチャン), 2005. Illustration.

[he-wears-fine-things-well]

“What’s so bad about being with me?” You raped her. You changed her so fundamentally she is literally not the same person anymore. You took her body and her mind with no consideration for her own feelings about you. You dominate her life in a way she no longer has a life. You took everything from her but her life. She begged you to kill her but in your mind her not loving you was a fate worse than her death. It was never about you but you made it so anyway. She literally doesn’t exist without you. That is what your obsession did to her

[somedaywewillshinetogether]

french vintage tiered black ribbon skirt

[peashooter85]

Wheel-lock pistol, Spain, dated 1614

from The Victoria & Albert Museum

[closet-keys]

the medical system is constructed as an incredibly complicated obstacle course that facilitates the social murder of anyone too disabled or poor or abandoned of social support to get through it

and then doctors have the audacity to talk about patients who are “trying to game the system” to get access to treatment. it’s like, yeah if the medical system is set up like a game that only awards healthcare to people who play it well enough, patients will try their best to win that game. what is their other option?

of course people are going to learn exactly what to say and how to perform to get the treatment they need. if there is no other way to survive than fawning and soothing doctors’ egos and listing off textbook descriptions of things in order while acting like they have no knowledge at all of their own body and no capacity to make decisions on their own —then people will do that. to survive.

if you want honesty then you have to prove that honesty will not get patients killed. this issue is not on patients. it’s the medical system that needs to change.

[inkskinned]

Every day I handle more money than I will ever make. Every day.

At the start of my employment, my boss showed me videos of people stealing, and we both had a chuckle about it. How silly they were! There was a camera overhead, and it’s not to watch the shoppers. See, we can’t actually stop shoplifters. They get away with it maybe nine out of ten times. But we, who are watched and tallied and witnessed? We are always caught.

At first it was hard to hold one hundred dollars bills. An amount I had never seen before. An amount that didn’t exist in my household. It’s normal now. Here is something that is not for me.

“What the hell, I’ll take another,” says the man, pondering our 200 dollar watches. What the hell. Total comes to 580 and not even a flinch in his face. I have been working for 11 hours today and made only 110 dollars. It will go to my rent. Today I work for free, it feels. When I get my check, I will have 35 dollars left for food and saving.

The six hundreds he hands me go into the cash register. For a moment, I imagine having money. Then I put it away, counting out his change.

I know for a fact we sell our products for double what they are worth. That I could be making commission. That they could hand me those 580 dollars and change my life and not even mark the difference in their checkbooks. He’s not the only sale they make today, but I am the reason they made it. He’s not the only one spending 600 dollars, but if I hadn’t spent two hours with him telling me about his life, he wouldn’t have spent any. I go home. I don’t own a watch.

I have watched and rewatched a video on how to make salmon four ways. My shopping list is always the same. Pasta. Rice. Tuna. If I can afford butter it was a good week. I dream of the world I will never walk in, where I can throw the best fish fillet in the cart with a shrug. I hold hundreds in my hand and look up at the camera. I put them under the cash drawer.

I go to work. I scrap together my savings. I eat my bowl of rice slowly. My manager takes a paid week off from work just for his birthday. He owns a yacht. 

I’m not worth the cost of a watch.

[inkskinned]

i wrote this while i was working at orlando’s walt disney world parks.

i was part of their college program. i moved to the state for it. they legally owned the building i was living in and still charged me rent. i ostensibly was being charged to work for them. it was a 2 bedroom apartment and they placed 6 adult women in it in forced triples.

as many as one in ten disney employees have experienced homelessness while working for the company. despite huge efforts to unionize, strike, or otherwise demand fair treatment; disney has refused to increase employee quality of life.

disney admits publicly that a good portion of their success is because the employees (“cast members”) are dedicated, passionate, and selfless. this is never reflected in pay. even “face” characters (ie those that are princesses etc) make barely above a minimum wage.

at the time that i worked there, i made $8.50 an hour. at one point i was asked to create a human shield around a bag because a bomb dog had alerted to it. for eight fucking dollars an hour.

i now work a very cushy office job. i have bought the salmon and cooked it all four ways.

i go to the store. i am nice to the person behind the counter. she looks up at the camera while she counts out my change. there is nothing fundamentally different about her and i.

we are both worth more than the watch, anyway.

[dickgraysonsptsd]

i think MORE characters should be rape survivors. i think more characters should be csa survivors. i think more characters should be dv survivors. i think strong and noble and attractive and charming and brilliant characters with indomitable spirits should be survivors. i think the most powerful characters in the world should be survivors. i think characters who are cultural icons should be survivors. i think victims and survivors should see ourselves in the most admirable and beloved characters around! i think we should be protagonists!!!

[dickgraysonsptsd]

#‘it’s so unnecessary’ . okay . god yea this one drives me CRAZY. people will yap all day long about how it's "unnecessary" to make a character a survivor like do you think it was necessary for any of us to be abused or raped irl? was it narratively essential? did it teach the audience an important lesson? why do we, who have to justify our experiences and existences and reactions all the time in real life, also have to justify why we should exist in fiction? people act so repulsed by the thought of us. i've really fully and truly had enough of that. there is nothing so uniquely disgusting or repulsive or unspeakable about our victimhood or our survival that justifies this obsession with keeping the reality of our existence hidden

[dualcasterjay]

"oh but talking about it can be triggering for victims :(((" you know what else is triggering? living in a world that insists that we cannot be open and honest about what happened to us. maybe if we had, oh, i don't know, prominent examples in our cultural stories of people who are victims and are competent and strong it might be easier (for everyone, not just victims) to have the discussions we actually need to have about our trauma.

[incognitopolls]

This is asking only about movies, not episodes of a TV show. Assume you're only watching one movie at a time.

Assuming you had access via streaming at home and no obligations that day, how many full-length movies (90+ minutes) could you stand to watch in one day?

I can't make it through even one whole movie in a day

Only one

2

3

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8+

I could literally watch movies for 24 hours straight (up to 16 movies)

Voting ended onMay 5

Definitions of "feature length" vary and can include shorter films, but this is mainly asking about modern mainstream movies, which typically are at least 90 minutes.

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We ask your questions anonymously so you don’t have to! Submissions are open on the 1st and 15th of the month.

[evil-puppetmaster]

I’m grateful that we still have a real cigarette emoji. It makes certain expressions much stronger 🚬😌 but I do still grieve the real gun emoji… it was so much easier to threaten ourselves and others back then… 🚬😔

[stlamb]

ghost textures ifm / alice auaa dilara findikoglu / blumarine issey miyake / yves saint laurent

[phleb0tomist]

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[threedollarsdotcom]

age regressed 2 weeks so I can fail my finals again

[theartoffromsoftware]

Eileen the Crow

Concept art for Bloodborne

Artist Unclear - possibly by Kitao Masaaki

[adampov]

absolutely love that scene in secretary where mr grey asks lee about her self harm habit. absolutely gives off the vibe of someone having rehearsed over and over in his head how the situation is supposed to go and then completely fucking it up. like. i guess his plan was to boost her confidence, then to assure her that she can confide in him while offering the hot chocolate, she's happy and they have a cute moment where he takes her picture. but then she doesnt get what he means with the telephone, he tells her he's shy, asks her whether she's had sex with her boyfriend, and it's such a weird moment when he suddenly pulls the hot chocolate from behind the sofa, which i am sure is Not hot any more. anyway. movie of all time

[hennyfay]