guy who thinks he yaps a lot (he doesn't)

meow meow meow meow

[scrambledomelets]

intro・自己紹介！

hi i'm scrambled. or omelets. or tamago. i'm a pharmacy student... i go by he/they and i love men!!!

what the blog is abt

i'm ngl i don't know how to use tumblr very well. i'm just going to be myself on here whenever i remember to post. so that involves me just posting my writing or whatever stuff on my mind. oh and me being unfunny

interests

hypnosis microphone. my favorite characters are saburo and doppo...

revolutionary girl utena and madoka magica (lowk due for a rewatch)

fashion, j-fashion but specifically ouji fashion

learning about other people's interests (please yap to me)

twinks and cute boys (in a non-sexual way of course)

writing

i write poetry and short stories. a lot of my poems are kind of evil sorry! i sometimes write evil short stories too. by evil i mean, they explore my trauma in interesting ways. almost all my writing lives in google docs or pencake (gatekeeping from the public). i wanna make a visual novel one day with my 3 ocs.. maybe i will yap about them here idk. i'm very shy talking about stuff like that xd

vtubing

i'm also a vtuber! i'm tamago_atsuyaki on twitch, an eggy magical boy :). i stream kind of sporadically loll. no need to check it out unless you wanna see some dumb twink yapping

other

日本語を知っている人なら、僕と話してください！お願い！もっと練習したいんだ～

if you are a proshipper or loli/shotacon please do not speak to me

please ask me many questions on the ask page :)

saburo jumpscare

[scrambledomelets]

Im lowkey screaming. I didnt look at this app for a few days bc I was slaving away crocheting a doll for someone but also there was a post I wanted to read later when i had more time. But I reopened the app and now it is Gone. I might die.

I think i missed some other stuff too lol. I promise I dont hate anyone. I was just preoccupied with other stuff wahhh

[willgrahamscock]

stop trying to silence me

[scrambledomelets]

Lalala its 2 am. I want to write but im too tired. So much on my mind. My bad day became better at night but im worried its just a farce. Whenever good things happen to me I cant dwell on them for long cause what if something bad happens? Id have to be prepared for it

Im so tired wow

[scrambledomelets]

I love when I spend my time scrolling tumblr when I can be writing or literally eating food or crocheting or doing like anything else bruh

I also think I got triggered by some sa mentions um......... sh is also becoming slightly triggering to me even if my own scars aren't that visible and I feel stupid because of them. Erm.....

Its so hard being around people who dont want to heal and show no signs of wanting to get better. It drains me so much. I need to not be around those people

[treasuredplanet]

in hindsight sending the number one digit at a time created the funniest half second of either of our lives

[scrambledomelets]

new fanfic alert !

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

yeah so um. i was super into genshin for the past few weeks and i was grinding primos like a madman to pull lohen and then. yeah. this fic also happened.

i just saw someone on twitter mention that childe and lohen would be freaked out together cause they both love fighting and i was like "hmm" and started brewing. so um,,, varka is also there and he gets jealous or something idk,,,

my bf is lowkey obsessed w lohen tho. not just cause he's a bunny boy but cause he relates to his character. i relate to his character as well (not just cause he's a twink...). but maybe i will yap about this later

[scrambledomelets]

Im going to kill myself i think I just saw someone with a twink oc. Why can I not be normallll

I need to get off this site and sleep but I wanna yap with people urgrgrgr. I hate that I get so talkative at night and that all my demons also come out at night. Im either obsessed about my hyperfixations or wallowing in depression and my shortcomings with no inbetween. Or maybe they might fluctuate so fast that it appears like both is happening at once. I dunno, physics was never really my strong suit

[scrambledomelets]

more evil poetry that I didnt even edit but this time im posting it at the same time rhat I wrote it (it is late here)

tw: violence, slight gore, somethinf like that

I just realized the last line is part cut off whatever

[scrambledomelets]

casually discussing sex with my friends

[tofutomato]

you gotta read, you gotta write, you gotta draw, you gotta watch films and shows. there is literally NO time to be employed

[scrambledomelets]

Lowkey why are twinks my entire personality

Do people secretly hate me

I thought i had become a more interesting person who is able to provide nuanced takes on things. But now I just made some other thing my entire personality now

I wonder how i can even make friends like this

I guess people do hate me. I wonder why they aren't telling me. I wish they could just be honest about it and stop me from guessing. I'm so annoying and they aren't even telling me. It's such torture

[scrambledomelets]

I cant believe i had a whole phase where I was losing my mind over luin from wacca

This is him btw

Actually nevermind overture is a good song. And mobius too. Dam.

[scrambledomelets]

I'm gonna cry bruh... I relistened to the song and I remember now... it is all coming back to me

The va doing the singing is honestly voice goals. I hope I can cover the song one day idk.. merp

I wanted to be a cute boy singing so badly a few years ago. Now im slightly closer as I'm doing vtubing and taking a few singing lessons... I just need to continue practicing Japanese and get more familiar speaking it rather than just typing it 😭

[scrambledomelets]

I cant believe i had a whole phase where I was losing my mind over luin from wacca

This is him btw

Actually nevermind overture is a good song. And mobius too. Dam.

[quietwingsinthesky]

we’re so lucky that gilgamesh survived and is a banger. can you imagine if we found the oldest written human story ever recorded and it sucked balls.

[scrambledomelets]

I'm gonna explode and cry cause why does it feel like I just larp all my interests. Like for some reason it's like I dont have enough energy to sit down and bang out 5 billion fics or the attention span to consume all the media and know every interacate detail of everything that has ever happened like other people I know.

Am I really a fan of something if I can only remember a select few details of my favorite character? If someone else knows more about me and they correct me on something? It's embarrassing. It feels like I'm a fraud. Like my autism isn't strong enough (as crazy as that sounds).

Do i just lack passion??? Is this my depression coming back to bite me?

I wish I could write fic without feeling like every detail has to be perfect. Like I need to have all the answers inside my head. Like I need to read every page of the wiki just to fit in.

I wish I could have a sunny afternoon to myself to sit down and write what makes me happy without some part of my body hurting or my room feeling like it's baking me alive. I wish I could use fanfic to explore my favorite characters in a way that makes sense to Me without feeling like I need to appeal to some larger audience

I wish I could just have fun and share it with everyone, but the pressure to be perfect is too great

[scrambledomelets]

Go my old unedited poetry

I still feel these feelings very heavily though

**tw: implied sa????**