Eugene

★~ |Autistic & Deaf | Suspected NPD | Self-taught artist and animator !! | System | Feel free to ask any questions ! (I am Anti-darkship/proship)

[azureansys]

i do not ENDOGENIC, i do not WILLOGENIC, i do not MIXED ORIGIN, and if its not traumagenic IT IS NOT A SYSTEM

[gluexgirl]

Phrases I’m learning to use more as a narcissist with know it all energy

- “tell me if I’m wrong but…..”

-“I’m still on the fence about …..”

-“I do know about XYZ, but keep going”

-“personally, I see XYZ as….”

-“I still don’t have a solid opinion about XYZ but I’m willing to learn”

-“XYZ, but I know my experience is different”

[disability-shout-outs]

Shout out to folks with Narcissistic Personality Disorder!

[anti-willo-solivan]

Never thought I'd see the day where a famous pro-endo is sexualizing someone with NPD all for the sake of owning those filthy sysmeds.. Man, what a sight.

Anyways, don't project your fetishes or kinks onto pwPDs. It's.. gross. Their disorder doesn't give you consent to do so. EEEYYYUCCKKK!!!!

[anti-willo-miku]

And if i said theres no such thing as a “harmless” transid bc they serve as a gateway to get u to accept the harmful ones and also lump transgender communities in with their bullshit?

[se4liestm3rman]

EUGENE MENTIONED?? HELLO??? HE WAS MY HYPERFIXATION LIKE THREE YEARS AGO HOLY MOLY... THE MEMORIES ARE ALL COMING BACK TO ME NOW

HELP YESS!! I AM A FICTIVE OF HIM 🥹🥹 I consider myself to be fictionkin as well!! HI HII 🌊🌊

The hyperfixation is still going strong !! We've loved Hilda since 2018 !! -🐟👑

[se4liestm3rman]

Oouhh spooky dookie...I haven't been online in forever...👀 /Silly

Anyways, I have come to grave you all with my art about our favorite rabbit, Vinny!! (Yes it's some vent art ...)

This vent art was inspired by when I came out to my crush and he didn't immediately get upset at me or do anything harsh, which obviously confused me because I kept setting myself up, thinking that he would absolutely hate and despise me.

It always comes as off or abnormal to me when I accidentally upset a friend and they don't immediately hate me or drop me. I keep expecting one of my online sisters to hate me for accidentally breaking up our friendship those years ago, all because I couldn't accept she had a different opinion and I kept arguing. I also fully believe that my other online sister hates me too, mostly because we aren't on speaking terms.

I hate that every so often my brain will start telling me that no where is safe, that everyone's against me or that all my friends hate me. I hate having to feel like a rabbit, scared, alone, small, and actively being hunted. Hunted or betrayed.

[se4liestm3rman]

Oouhh spooky dookie...I haven't been online in forever...👀 /Silly

Anyways, I have come to grave you all with my art about our favorite rabbit, Vinny!! (Yes it's some vent art ...)

This vent art was inspired by when I came out to my crush and he didn't immediately get upset at me or do anything harsh, which obviously confused me because I kept setting myself up, thinking that he would absolutely hate and despise me.

It always comes as off or abnormal to me when I accidentally upset a friend and they don't immediately hate me or drop me. I keep expecting one of my online sisters to hate me for accidentally breaking up our friendship those years ago, all because I couldn't accept she had a different opinion and I kept arguing. I also fully believe that my other online sister hates me too, mostly because we aren't on speaking terms.

I hate that every so often my brain will start telling me that no where is safe, that everyone's against me or that all my friends hate me. I hate having to feel like a rabbit, scared, alone, small, and actively being hunted. Hunted or betrayed.

[mingyiii]

using narcissist as an insult is corny as fuck, especially if you insist on using it even when corrected by a narcissist. it doesn't matter if the person you're referring to "fits the criteria", it's still incredibly fucking ableist due to the derogatory context of which you're using it in. stop trying to justify your ableism, because there's many other words that can substitute for it. ☺️

[sysanamoly]

"omg hahaha! the anti willo blogs are getting deleted they're PUSSIES!!" yeah cuz you keep HARASSING them you fucking creep

[anti-willo-miku]

"I wouldn't say I'm anti tulpa but I'm not pro tulpa and I'm not neutral I have opinions on it.. From my research it seems like a programmed system if we did our correctly.. Now those who use tulpa as a culture appropriation are wrong and I do NOT support that

I also feel that the culture is wrong for traumatizing someone to a point of forming a whole ass disorder"

How do you feel about this (Original poster asking)

I’m so confused how did you jump from tulpa to programmed system.. i dont know much on the history of tulpamancy (the actual practice nor the butchered western version of it endos use)

[anti-willo-lingulini]

i feel like the person doesnt fully understand what tulpamancy is.

Tulpamamcy in its original form was called “sprul-pa” and was part of a buddhist religion called Tibetan Buddhism, which involved meditating to summon a higher being to teach and liberate you.

The philosophy and basic teachings of Tibetan Buddhism is not closed, but higher and more advanced practices involves a deep connection with the culture, as well as your teacher/mentor.

endos have taken that practice and turned it into a westernized and watered down version where you create them via daydreaming or just because they wanted to.

Neither sprul-pa and “tulpamamcy” involve traumatizing yourself.

programmed systems are in a whole different vein i fear

[i-lwk-wanna-kmseli]

(my old account got deleted sigh)

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ I'm Ella

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[shadownymphette]

You don't have siblings because you are responsible for BOTH of their deaths

[i-lwk-wanna-kmseli]

who?

[shadownymphette]

Good morning Elaine does the names Elizabeth and Eli ring a bell?

2 people who died of suicide? Due to childhood trauma caused by an older sibling? Or do you want me to give full details of what abuser said older sibling caused

[se4liestm3rman]

The fucking audacity for them to go "who?" 😭 I think it's pretty clear about who you mean. It's so strange they they didn't immediately gather what you meant, especially since they mentioned not having siblings. I don't find this as a surprise because they're problematic. Problematic idiots are always so damn proud of their harmful behavior.

[anti-willo-miku]

Btw being against fakeclaiming also means not to fakeclaim pwcdds who are pro endo

yes theyre wrong. somebody having a disorder doesnt equal theyre opinion.

thank you for coming to my miku talk

[cdd-positivity]

the radqueer community has genuinely got to stop with this "race dysphoria" bullshit.

there is no such thing as "race dysphoria"; that is called internalized racism and internalized colorism, also known as endophobia.

yeah, the endophobia that the (pro) endos are constantly trying to use to paint themselves as the perfect little victims.

both communities genuinely fuckin' piss me off. you're both predatory as fuck.

sincerely, a person of color who genuinely struggled with endophobia/internalized racism and colorism as a result of actual purity culture being imposed on us since infancy.

[anti-willo-miku]

Notice how pro endos claim CDDs are part of plurality and then claim that plurality does not include CDDs depending on which claim is more convenient for them at the moment -🌌🪽

i think its more plurality is:

“I LOVE POSERGENICS!!! SO EPIC AND VALID!!! (oh and uhh you guys too. i guess :/)”

ive never seen pwcdds prioritized in “plural” spaces

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

Either you need to be less relatable or I need to see a psychiatrist

sorry the relatability won't be stopping, so go with the other option

[bemyhowhigh]

what do you mean I don’t have Nutting Prodigy Disorder , ? what do you mean there’s something wrong with me ??? no come back ,

ⓘ this blog is by a low-empath narcissist, for other narcissists. chances are , it doesn’t care what you think.