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You do not have to do this but since in the boys universe, supes with animal powers also get their behavior habits, do you think you could write a fic on how Benjamin would deal with going through Diapause where he becomes very sluggish, stops patrolling for bit, and seeks out sheltered, quiet hiding spaces to conserve his energy during the winter. And how would Homelander and the team (A-Train, Starlight, Black Noir, Queen Maeve, Deep) would take this and how they would help him or at least try to, since from what I am getting from your fics is that Benjamin is probably the most liked teammate.
aaa GOD this is such a cute and cool idea 😭😭😭 . my brain has mostly let off the gas from writing content for this fandom (though i genuinely want to come back to it someday, 10000%), so i'm not sure when i would, but i definitely want to explore that idea!!
thank you so much for this! it's something for my brain to chew on for sure about ben :D
I love your Homelander fanfics. To me, he's one of those villains I know I should hate, but the actor who plays him is so hot that it gives me conflicting feelings about him. I don't know if you feel the same way but it's good to find someone who also likes such a controversial character, there aren't many people I can talk to about him.
💚thank you!!
and same lol. i'm no stranger to liking characters that are horrible people so i've never really been shy about yapping about homie. i went as him to a couple cons and would have random people being like "man FUCK you, you're evil" (addressing me like I'M homelander, which is just??? lmao). there are some good places to talk about him though for sure. there are some discord channels floating around and some tumblr communities i think that are full of people that love homelander. great places to be honestly, and it makes it a much less isolating feeling to like a character like him
I just wanted to say thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for bringing cardboard-biting fanglander to life! I love him so much!!
Lmao, it's no problem!! ❤️ With Homelander's super strength I bet he could bite holes in anything. You could kill an afternoon just seeing what he could bite through, and give him a lil' designated box full of stuff to nibble on when he needs to blow off steam.
the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.
You stand next to the bathtub silently and watch the recently emptied tub fill once more. Fresh waves of steam fill the room and gather on your skin. A bead of sweat trickles down your spine from the humidity. You’re warm, too warm. Especially with the body at your back, standing close and resting gentle hands on your hips. His grip is soft and tender, like you’re something so fragile that a single sudden movement could smash you to bits. It almost makes you forget what happened to lead you both here and the awful mess he made when he cradled your head in hands that shook with restraint.
You should run. Logically, you know this. You’ve always been aware of the danger lurking beneath the surface of him. You’ve been bombarded with warnings from worried coworkers ever since you started regularly bringing him your baking. Ashley is convinced you’re insane. She tells you stories and you believe them. You see how much he scares her. You aren’t blind to the news reports and viral videos either. You’ve been whistling merry tunes and playing the sweet swooning girlfriend, but you’ve always been aware of the teeth around your arm.
But that’s the thing.
He’s never bit you. Instead he’s sweet and chivalrous. A little bit of an oddball who sometimes seems more mannequin than man, but who is always painfully human to you. He isn’t just an out of your league crush, he's your friend. He’s your confidant. He calls and you ramble about your baking till he gets bored and then he’ll talk philosophy while you ask questions even if only to keep yourself awake. You listen to his venting while he’s endlessly entertained by stories of your boss's neuroticism. You watch movies together on your couch, wrapped up in blankets that have begun to smell like him. He cradles you in his arms when the thunder rattles your teeth. When the tiger only ever acts like a housecat, it’s easy to pretend that is all it is.
Even now, bloody from his hands and emotionally wrung out, you fight the urge to collapse into his arms. You want to let your legs give out while you fall back into him, knowing he’ll catch you. You want to forget the carnage and the mania. You want to ignore the mix of terror and rage in his eyes as he shook you hard enough for your head to ache. Your arms are tender from bruises but that’s all they are, bruises.You’ve known what he is but you don’t care. It worries you but not only that…you’re worried for him. You recognize that look in his eyes.
You recognize them from your childhood, another friendship gone wrong.
Another supe with insides made of shattered glass.
You reach down to turn off the stream of water but make a pointed decision to add some bubbles first. An action that fills you with heat at the implications that you might require some cover. You’ll be naked with him…exposed. He’d wanted you to join him in the filthy bloody slurry of soap and gore, yet there are things you won’t do, not even for him. So you waited for a clean slate, waited with his hands on you and his breath on your neck.
Let me make it better
You suppress a shiver as you remember the softness of his tone, how gentle and earnest it was. It’s everything you want. He’s everything you want. He shouldn’t be, but he is. He killed for you. He killed for you. He protected you from the scum of the earth and while the guilt of being responsible for another person’s demise weighs heavy, it also fills you with a certain warm euphoria. After so many years of your pain and humiliation being seen as an afterthought, he took action for you. The dried blood on your cheeks itches.
Even after the stream has stopped, a few drops exit the spout to drop into the tub, the sound of water on water is deafening in the silence. You know what comes next. You know a line is about to be crossed that can’t ever be uncrossed.
“Do you mind?” You ask shyly as you gesture for him to turn around. He gives a soft amused little huff that fills your body with heat. It’s a strange juxtaposition, how the mere thought of intimate contact horrified you only a few hours ago and how Homelander’s hands on you had felt so heavy and final. How Tiger Stripe’s filthy hands had you nauseous, sex seeming so animalistic and disgusting. You don’t know what real sex beyond the efforts of your hand feels like, but his presence made you never want to try. With Homelander, intimacy still feels terrifying, but in the way the hill of a roller coaster does before you are swept away into the thrill of it. The lump in your stomach feels less like trepidation but anticipation. It makes it easy to forget his rough handling, whether you should or not. You need comfort right now. You need a distraction.
Of course, you might be getting ahead of yourself. You bathing him was a practical affair, maybe he intends the same with you.
He taps his fingers against your hips for a second, each tap thrumming deep in your bones.
“If you insist, I’ll give the lady her privacy.” He teases before removing his hands and turning around, hands crossed behind his back. It’s weird seeing him like this, stripped of all his layers. You take the time to truly look. A light pink towel is wrapped around his slender hips giving you the chance to admire the muscles of his back. He has a runner’s build, such a juxtaposition to the thickness of his suit, much more fitted to a body builder than to Homelander’s svelte physicality. You prefer him like this. You feel like he’s someone real now, like he’s someone you can be with outside of your little world. He’s not some mythical figure that you feel deluded to think you’d have a chance with. He’s just a man…a man who wants to bathe with you.
You take a deep breath and grab the hem of your oversized sweatshirt, pull it over your head and drop it on the ground. Homelander’s fingers twitch at the noise and he shifts on his feet. For a moment, you think he might turn around. But he doesn’t. You’re almost disappointed but mostly relieved. You put your thumbs in the waistband of your sleep shorts and tug them down along with your underwear and kick them to the side. The muggy heat feels obscene on your bare skin and for a moment you consider backing out. This is unfamiliar territory.
You don’t. Instead you take a deep breath that Homelander mirrors as you step into the tub. The water is one digit away from scalding and the shock of it is welcome as it distracts you from your racing thoughts. You slowly sit, letting your body adjust to the temperature. Sweat beads at your temples and rolls down your neck. The crusted blood feels even more coarse on your skin as every nerve ending fires at all cylinders. You sink into the water, letting the bubbles cover your chest before you call out to him shakily.
“All good. You can turn around now.”
You expect him to waste no time but instead he leisurely untucks the towel around his waist and lets it fall to the floor. Your breath catches in your throat and you freeze as his body is exposed to you. You know you should give him the same privacy that he afforded you, but you feel frozen as your gaze rakes over his body. You flush at the sight of his pert ass and the two dimples at the bottom of his spine that you ache to touch. He’s beautiful, better than anything you could have imagined. But as he turns you remember yourself and avert your gaze, staring pointedly at your knees sticking out of the bubbles like little mountains. He chuckles, no doubt picking up the embarrassment on your face. He doesn’t seem offended.
You see the shape of him in your peripheral vision as he walks closer. His footsteps sound slightly slick on the damp tile floor. You can feel your heartbeat between your thighs. You expect him to get in with you but instead he kneels. You look at him shyly and notice he’s grabbed a fresh washcloth. He doesn’t grab the unscented soap this time. Instead, he grabs the container of brown sugar scrub that you made. You make a soft sound, about to tell him that a sugar scrub and soap aren’t the same thing, but you can’t seem to make words work. You suppose it will at least get the blood off either way.
He unscrews the lid and dips the washcloth in, gathering a small amount. He reaches a hand up to cradle your face gently just like you did his. His thumb swipes briefly over your bottom lip and you sigh. His eyes crinkle at the corners as he smiles.
“Scrub a dub dub!” He sing-songs as he waves the cloth at you before dabbing at the streaks of blood on your cheekbones. The cheesiness of the saying mixed with the tickle of the cloth makes you burst into giggles. For a moment, he almost looks offended, his eyes wide as he tries to deduce whether your laughter is genuine or mocking. But he soon grins and chuckles right along with you, scrubbing a bit at the sensitive spot behind your ear now that he’s figured out you’re ticklish. You playfully try to shy away at the sensation and the push and pull causes water to splash all over Homelander. Drops of water catch in the hair of his chest and all of a sudden you can’t look away. The air feels heavier and his eyes are darkly amused. The flighty animal from earlier is gone, replaced with something slightly less dangerous but even more predatory.
“Careful Missy, we don’t want you wasting water.” He purrs, the hand holding your face shifting to firmly hold your jaw in place so you can’t shift away. He begins washing your other cheek. The roughness of the scrub makes your skin tender but in a way that feels…good. His firm strokes go straight between your legs, every nerve ending feeling over-sensitive at each pass.
“Homelander…” You whine mindlessly, carried away by everything that is happening.
He jolts and for a moment his grip on you tightens like he’s trying to use you to steady himself. His eyes go wide and his tongue darts out to wet his lips. He whispers your name in return and causes goosebumps to erupt all over your arms despite the hot water.
“I…” He pauses, blinking heavy-lidded as his eyes scan what bits of your body are exposed. He swallows heavily. “I’m going to get in now.”
This is it. This is the point of no return. Whatever happens after this will be forever colored by this moment in time. How are you supposed to come back from this? Only a few hours ago, you thought he’d wanted nothing to do with you. Now he’s killed for you. Now, his naked skin is about to be pressed to yours in the steamy haven of your small bathroom. The emotional whiplash is no doubt affecting your decision making when you nod and pull your legs up tighter, giving him space at the other end of the tub. You discreetly turn your head to the side, giving him some privacy as he stands. You can feel the heat from his body and when you realize how close…parts of him are, your chest constricts like you just got sucker punched.
You focus on a small crack in the wall as the water shifts and swirls around you when he gets in. He sighs at the almost scalding temperature and groans as he fully sinks in. His legs are longer than yours and in order to fit comfortably, he stretches them out on either side of you and brackets you between them. Your heart pounds as your feet nudge against his inner thighs, close enough that if you stretched your leg out a bit, you’d be able to brush against his…
Fuck, you feel like a teenager again. Sitting in class and getting flustered by even the no nonsense lecturing of the sex ed teacher. You can’t look at him but you feel his eyes burning holes in you.
You’re not a prude. You’ve watched porn. You have a fair selection of smutty romance novels. You’ve used your showerhead after you’ve finished a phone conversation with Homelander more times than you can count, moaning and writhing in the same tub you’re squeezed into now. You know exactly how to touch yourself to get yourself off. You’ve imagined riding him like a pornstar, him spreading you out on your kitchen counter and eating you out, you mouthing at his cock while he holds you in place and coos sweet nothings at you. But imagination and reality are two completely different things and right now, you couldn’t feel more out of your league if you tried.
“Your heart’s pounding. Are you scared?” His soft voice jolts you out of your reverie and you turn to look at him. His gaze is piercing with a slight mocking glint and you can’t tell if he’s teasing or if he’s serious. His eyes flick down to your chest where your heart flutters under your skin. You gulp, sweet heat flooding your veins and gathering between your legs. You imagine him pressing you into the tile floor, fucking up into you while you moan.
“I’ve just never been naked around someone else before. It’s…intimidating.” You reply and he gives a soft hum that you can’t read. He smiles and reaches out to pat your knee, rubbing it with his thumb gently. You can’t help but shift under the water and he watches the movement closely, tongue briefly flicking behind his teeth.
“I got naked first.” He replies, cocking his head with a smile. His thumb keeps making those tiny circles. It reminds you of the second time you spoke to him, how he’d rested his hands on yours, and how the feeling of leather against your skin haunted you for days. The feeling of his skin on yours is even more intoxicating.
“Yes, but I’m sure you’ve been naked around lots of people.” You huff, suddenly aware of the huge gap in your experience levels. He dated Queen Maeve for goodness sake. You’re just you.
He goes quiet and looks at you, eyes narrowing for a moment. You feel small under his scrutiny and you worry that you are going to come up lacking somehow. Instead he leans back, and you mourn the loss of his hand on your knee, even if it means you can think a lot more clearly.
“You’re a virgin.” He says matter of factly, his mouth twisting into a smug smirk. It’s a statement and not a question. He doesn’t seem at all surprised and the blunt way that he states it makes your whole body go up in flames. The hot water feels suffocating now instead of soothing. Your whole body throbs and your nipples stiffen under the water. You cross your arms over your chest.
“I fail to see how that’s relevant to this situation.” You snap. For a moment you wonder if he’ll get offended by your tense demeanor but he laughs. Cocking his head playfully, he rubs his bare thigh against yours. You jump at the sensation and spill water all over the tile flooring.
“What situation is that? I’m curious.” He purrs, leaning back indulgently as he slips deeper into the water. You have to scrunch up your legs tighter to protect your space. Every inch of your body is wound tight like a spring. Your skin feels painfully sensitive, every sensation amplified. This frightens you even more than when he was breaking down on the fire escape. That was about him and you could lose yourself in the act of soothing him, as intense as the moment may have been. Being the center of his attention like this, when you aren’t even sure how to handle that attention, when you are fully exposed and vulnerable, means you can’t hide away with polite smiles and sweet smelling gifts. It means he has to really see you.
“Taking care of me.” You whisper, echoing his words from earlier. That’s what you really want. You want him to comfort you like you did him. You want him holding you so close and tight that everything bad slips away. You want him to feel solid and safe. You want him but you also want the man who holds you after a storm and giggles with you on the phone long after any decent person should have been in bed. You bite your lip, hoping to somehow convey that to him.
The smirk drops.
His expression flattens. He looks away then down as he gently shakes his head. His eyebrows furrow and for a second it looks like he’s having some sort of inner argument that you aren’t privy too. You wonder if you said something wrong.
But when he opens his eyes and looks at you again, his eyes are contemplative. He still looks hungry but it’s something gentler. He’s not looking at you like some prey he’s just waiting to devour. He just looks like…him. For the first time tonight, you feel like you see your Homelander.
“C’mere.” He reaches out for you and beckons his fingers to gesture you closer. He tilts his head and gives you that warm smile he does whenever he first sees you. His eyes crinkle at the corners and you notice a lock of hair has limply fallen over his forehead. “Let me take care of my girl."
My Girl
You can’t resist that.
You rise up and shift on to your knees, one arm still wrapped across your breasts. He grabs you gently and arranges you against him till you are resting against his chest and nestled between his legs. He holds you tight, exactly the way you’ve been needing him to. All of the tension and sorrow and horror just slips away down the drain, chased away by his embrace. You melt into him and you can feel a rumble of contentment deep in his chest. His hair is soft on your cheek. Slowly, the anxiety about your nudity begins to slip away. This feels natural. This is safe. You can indulge in the closeness and warmth of him. The pulse between your thighs still pounds, but it’s a soothing steady beat and not an ominous drum.
You close your eyes and bury your face in his neck. He shudders and bucks slightly underneath you, adjusting the angle he’s holding you so he can shift underneath the water. You hear the squelch of a wet washcloth and a jar being opened before you feel the cloth gently rub your back. It’s slightly gritty, a sign he used the body scrub again. Every nerve lights up like a christmas tree as he proceeds to wash you. There’s a slow pass down your arm, a brush against your hipbone, a quick massage at your neck, he’s making sure to leave no part of you untouched by his cleaning efforts.
A quiet sob that you didn’t realize you had been holding in bubbles out of your chest. You try to muffle it against his skin but he knows. He pauses, muscles briefly going tight at the sound of it. Each silent second passing feels like a year. You cling to him tightly with one arm while the other continues to protect your modesty. Your nipples are still hard beneath their cover. You wonder what would happen if you moved and rubbed yourself against him. What would he do?
He continues his efforts.
“I know I was a bit…intense earlier.” He rubs against a stubborn knot in your shoulder. You sniffle and nod, snuggling in closer, needing to feel the solidity of him.
“Don’t wanna talk about it. Just want you to hold me.” You whine, a bit pathetically. You know you should talk about it. In fact, that should be your first priority. But the two of you have talked enough today. What can you even say? What can you do?
Homelander seems more than happy to oblige. You feel his grin against your temple.
“Can do, Buckaroo. Want me to kiss it better?” He asks, barely finishing before you’re pressing your lips against his desperately. You’d crawl into his skin if you could. Now that the invisible barrier has been broken, you ache for him and the comfort he gives you. You’ve missed him so much. You’ve been so lonely.
Lonely. Lonely. Lonely.
Anything is better than that.
His lips are soft but insistent against yours. He returns your kisses with quick teasing little pecks, pulling back to make you chase him. The washcloth is tossed to the floor with a wet squelch but you barely even notice. He wraps his arm around you, drawing you in close and brushing his fingers tenderly down your side. You shiver, just on the verge of ticklish there. He hums into every brush of your lips against his, always drawing away right when you attempt to deepen the kiss. You quickly grow frustrated. You want him to stop smirking and let you have him. That untethered feeling from before is coming back, that gut sense that you’re playing a game that you don’t know the rules to, when he’s sitting there with the fucking handbook.
In your desperation, your self-consciousness is pushed to the wayside. It’s inconvenient. So when he leans away to tease you again, you remove your arm from your breasts so you can grab his face in your hands and keep him still. He grunts and his mouth opens in shock at the feeling of you fully pressed against him. You take the opportunity to slip your tongue in, brushing it shyly against his before retreating. Your nipples ache at the scratch of his chest hair. He moans, loud and desperate. The sound fills you with a smug sort of satisfaction that goes straight between your legs. His hands twitch at your hips, like he wants to grab you but is too afraid.
In a mere instant, you go from unsure to powerful. You weren’t even trying but you managed to somehow tip the scales in your favor. It no longer feels like you are being sized up by a discerning eye like a piece of meat on a butcher block but as an equal, equally hungry for what he can give you. In a bold move that shocks even you, you throw your leg over his hip and straddle him, slyly grinning against his mouth when he whines.
You press closer as you wrap your arms around his neck, slotting yourself fully against him. He’s lean but you can still feel the strength thrumming under his skin. He’s soft on the surface but there is steel underneath. Luckily for you, he’s malleable beneath your touch as he responds eagerly. You’re so close that you can feel his heartbeat against yours. It is absurdly intimate and a syrupy sweet sort of pleasure builds in the pit of your stomach. He’s panting against your mouth more than kissing you, each minute shift of you causing moans to spill from his lips into yours. His hands find their place on your thighs as he tugs your bottom half closer. His grip is measured and patient but inescapable as he maneuvers you slowly with trembling hands.
“Yesyesyes” He whispers desperately, eyes closed and more whine than word. You nip at his bottom lip experimentally, surprised but pleased by your own boldness. You don’t feel helpless or trapped despite his hold on you. It’s the opposite. You feel free, free to touch him, free to love him. He’s easy. You realize with a giggle that is quickly cut off with a gasp.
The world suddenly shifts on its axis.
All of a sudden, you feel him. His adjustments and insistent prodding now has you pressed against him fully, no longer just heart to heart, you are connected in every way two people you can be. You freeze and he lets you. He changes tactics to place wet desperate kisses against your jaw as the realization hits of just how close you are.
The first thought that runs through your mind is how hot his cock is as it rests between your thighs. It’s like he’s running a fever, every inch throbbing and warm against you. You swear you can feel his pulse matching up to the pounding you can feel in his chest. He’s hard too. There’s no give to him as your hips give an experimental buck, a wanton noise leaving your lips that you can’t even hear through the ringing in your ears. The pleasurable sweet feeling in your stomach erupts into licking flames as your clit grinds against him. It’s obscene. It’s like nothing you’ve ever felt before.
Even your own hands never felt this alive, this raw. You were no stranger to rubbing yourself off. But that was always under the sheets with the lights turned off or in the shower, a quick nasty affair to take the edge off. It had always felt good, especially when the scent of him still lingered around you. You’d get that beautiful burst of release but it always faded as quickly as it came and you moved on. This was agony. Your shyness and reservations having no choice to be stripped away. There’s no hiding underneath cover or in the dark. You’re exposed to him. And you know he can feel you just as vividly as you feel him. Your face burns as your thoughts race, imagining him and what he’s thinking. He can feel how soft and wet you are, the hard nub of your clit rubbing against him. The slick mess between your thighs is so different from the water surrounding you.
It’s like a hug.
The thought comes to you unbidden and the innocent association makes you shudder and grind against him, this time your body moving independently from your mind. It has no adjustments to make or conflicting thoughts to parse through. It knows what it wants and is impatient in the pursuit of pleasure.
“I really made you hard huh? I can feel you pulsing against me.” You groan. It’s a rhetorical question, more directed at yourself than him. The thoughts in your brain are so loud that you can’t help but speak them into existence. His hips jerk gracelessly at your words, an automatic firing of his nerves like the last desperate brain firings of a dying man. His cock twitches amidst the folds of your cunt like it has a mind of its own.
“Hngngn fucking slut.” He sighs, eyes scrunching closed with effort like he’s trying to fight something off. The harsh degrading word should have hurt, should have stung. Especially considering your earlier conflict, how in his anger he accused you of something so horrible that you’d wanted to push him off your fire escape then and there. If it hadn’t been for the fear in his eyes, you’d have believed he’d meant it. Even the memory of it now makes your throat close. But you aren’t in that memory. You’re here, in the tub with him. When he moaned, it didn’t sound like an insult or a jibe. It felt reverent.
He removes one hand from your thigh, nudging it between your chests so he can cup your breast and toy with your nipple. You never particularly considered your breasts to be that sensitive before. But now, you feel like you might come from his touch alone.
“Christ, these tits. Wanna suck on them all day.” He pants, his eyes glazed over. You aren’t entirely sure he’s even aware of what he’s saying. He cups you, bouncing your breast in his hand to test the weight of you in his palm. Your nipple feels like a sparking exposed wire against his skin. His hands are soft and smooth, no callouses or marks anywhere to be found. Of course not, he’s incapable of being blemished that way. You’re dripping onto him, there’s no amount of water in the world that can wash away the mess you’re making.
“Think about it…hng…all the time…AAaaAh. Can smell you in the halls…gnhh. Wet little pussy and no one else knows…FUCK…FUckng Fuuuuuuck.” He rambles, trailing off and groaning when you rub harder against him with each word.
A wave of pure embarrassment floods your body, little bites of shame sinking their teeth into you as the thought of him being aware the whole time of your…eagerness around him. If you were anywhere other than where you are, you’d have been mortified and humiliated. But he’s so desperate under you that all the initial discomfort turns into something blinding and brilliant. Here you were this whole time, worried that you were the perverted one. Thinking that if he knew that he couldn’t even give you a friendly wave without you twisting it, he’d have left you in disgust. You laugh breathlessly. It seems silly now. You were so convinced he’d been avoiding you because of the incident in your room.
Although to the part of you deep down that isn’t lost in pleasure, this thought isn’t a comfort. It means it could be something even worse.
“Think about you too. Didn’t think you’d want me.” You confess and he huffs in disbelief. He paws at your ass, grabbing a cheek and prying it open. His fingers barely brush against your hole, just on the verge of nothing at all. You jolt, the feeling completely alien to you and your toes curl at how illicit it feels. You brace yourself for more but instead he uses the leverage to control your pace.
“Fucking ridiculous. HNg. Every…shit aaAah…every time you’d bring me something…huh huh, wanted to eat you instead. aH! Taste even sweeter I fUckINg know it. Hnhhhhh.”
You have no idea if he’s telling the truth or if the pleasure is warping his brain and causing him to make shit up. You desperately hope it’s the former.
“Homelander!” You moan and he makes a noise that’s almost a sob. He leans down to mouth at the space between your breasts. He buries his face in you so you can’t see whatever emotion leaked out around the pleasure. He kneads your breast desperately, like he’s clinging to a lifeline. He mumbles something against your skin that you can’t quite make out. It almost sounds like a name. You reach down to run your fingers through his wet and messy hair and again he muffles the word into your skin. It’s a bit clearer this time and you realize it is a name.
John
“John?”
He seizes up at the sound of it, every muscle stiff and frozen as he pants heavily. His grip on you tightens bruisingly and when you try to move in his grip you find yourself trapped. His breathing is ragged as he tries to regain composure. His pulse flutters wildly in his chest, beating against his skin like a frightened bird. He cock twitches and throbs against your pussy like it has a mind of its own. His eyes are screwed shut as he grimaces against your skin. For a moment you worry that he’s in pain. You shift again, trying to pull away so you can take better stock of him in your concern. But he makes a strangled noise like someone punched him in the gut.
“Don’t! Don’t…hngn.” He buries his face in your neck and pants, each labored breath ending in a choked whine. “Gonna…hng.”
It takes you a moment before you realize what’s happening. He’s trying not to cum. He’s holding back with great effort. There’s something about it that’s deeply endearing to you. The raw sexual energy that took you over softens, no less intense, just different. Seeing him like this, lost and vulnerable, makes you want to care for him. You want to hold him while he tips over the edge, wanna whisper sweet nothings while he lets himself go. You want him to feel safe in your arms. You’re almost certain who the name belongs to.
“Is that your name?” You ask gently. He whimpers and nods, hands flexing against you.
“PLeAse!” He begs in return although he doesn’t reveal what he’s begging for.
“Want me to call you that?” You coo. A strangled noise rips from his throat. You swear you can feel tears on your neck.
“You feel so good, John.” While his hands are still holding you in place, you snake your hand down between your two bodies to gently palm his cock. For such a lean man, you’re surprised by how thick his cock is. It fills your hand perfectly. You don’t stroke or rub him. You just cup your hand over him, letting him feel the warmth of it…like a hug.
It barely takes a moment before it happens. Just that soft touch undoes him. His cock spasms wildly in your hand and his mouth drops open as he lets out a loud groan that’s animalistic in its rawness. His hands immediately leave your body. Instead he grips the edges of the tub until you hear an ominous crack. His whole body is trembling and flushes red. It thrills you. You’ve never seen him blush like this. You certainly never imagined you’d be the cause of it. You follow through on your desire from earlier, holding him through it as he works through his pleasure, whispering his name and a myriad of other praises in his ear while he writhes against you. His hips twitch and buck up into you and you can’t resist a debauched moan of your own as your neglected clit is suddenly getting stimulated again. Your pussy flutters against his cock.
He whimpers what you think are apologies although his words are too slurred to tell. His eyes are screwed shut. He looks so beautiful that your chest squeezes painfully. You did this to him. You’re the one who made him feel this good. The feeling of it is like a drug, making you feel euphoric and hazy despite not reaching a peak yourself. A few blissful moments pass.
His eyes fly open. His gaze is glazed over and hazy but there’s a blank determination in his eyes that pushes through. His hands grab at your thighs to help you wrap your legs around his waist. He stands up shakily, legs still weak and trembling with pleasure. For a moment you worry that he is going to fall and drop you to the floor, but he doesn’t. You wrap your arms around his neck, kissing at the damp skin behind his ear. He tastes faintly like soap and there’s something deeply erotic about the mundanity of it. He doesn’t hesitate, clearing knowing where he wants to go, even if he’s not at the point to be capable of forming words yet. He carries you to your bedroom, stepping over the trail of bloody towels, a reminder that despite how the evening has turned out there is still a mess to be cleaned up that a simple bath can’t touch. He dumps you unceremoniously on the bed, not caring that your wet body is soaking through your clean sheets.
Before you can even get your bearings, he’s ducking down to suck at your nipples, giving each one a few seconds of love, teasing them back into hard aching peaks. You reach down to cup his cheek as he suckles but he’s already moving. He leaves eager messy kisses down your body before he kneels beside the bed. He’s barely situated before he’s yanking you forward by your knees and carefully draping your legs over his shoulders. Your heart stops as you realize what’s happening. Your bare pussy is bare in front of him. He can see all of you, every detail, wet and glistening for him to admire at his leisure. You want to know what he’s thinking, if he likes what he sees. Or if you’re boring and lackluster compared to all the other lovers he’s had. You clench around nothing, torn between wanting to hide and wanting him to get closer and touch you. But he makes a decision for you.
With no preamble or build up, he leans in to lick a broad hot stripe through your folds and your vision goes white. You faintly hear an obscene moan, like something that would sound too desperate even for porn, somewhere in the background. You’re too busy getting fucked by his tongue for you to realize that it’s you. He’s sucking and licking at you like he needs it to live. Making pleased little grunts of effort as he nuzzles against your clit and laps at your twitching hole. You’re too far gone to be embarrassed but if you were on the outside looking in, you’d be clutching your pearls at just how sloppy you are, the slick sounds of your sopping pussy filling the room. You didn’t even know it was possible for a person to be this wet. When he comes up for a breather, you have to turn your head away at the sight of his dripping face. The graphic evidence of your own arousal is too much to take.
Seemingly sensing that you are becoming overwhelmed, he briefly pulls away to lean in for a kiss. He deepens it instantly, softly sucking at your bottom lip till you open up and he slips his tongue against yours, filling your mouth with your own taste. His mouth is wet with you. While he kisses you senseless, he begins to rub at your clit with his thumb, keeping it company while his mouth is occupied. You moan into his mouth and he smirks against your lips.
His voice is low and gravely, sticky with satisfaction, as he murmurs against you.
“Nothing sweeter than cherry pie.”
You want to smack him for that, mortified at the subject of your virginity being brought up again in this way. He’s turned the tables on you again, making up for his vulnerability by exploiting yours. Almost like he’s taking revenge on you for making him come so soon. But despite how he’s flustered you, your body gives a hot eager throb, clearly loving the attention. It’s almost as if the more shy you become, the wetter you get. You hope he can’t tell but the glint in his eyes tell you he does.
He slips two fingers into you and he has you so wet that despite the aching stretch, they slide right in. Your eyes roll back, glad you can’t see the smug look on his face as he feels around with the tips of his fingers, leisurely curling them until he finds a spot that makes you go blind. You’ve never felt ANYTHING like this when you’ve touched yourself before.
Satisfied by your pathetically desperate state, he kneels back down to suck at your clit while he scissors and pumps his fingers into you. Your hand buries itself in his hair as your hips involuntarily grinds against his face. He looks up at you, eyes sly and crinkled at the corners as he drags you closer and closer to that precipice. But despite the carnal ferocity of his mouth and fingers, his free hand strokes the outside of your thigh soothingly. You reach down to brush against it and he takes your hand and intertwines your fingers. It’s a sweet gesture and the tenderness of it mixed with the debauched things he’s doing to you unravels you.
Something deep inside you cracks open as your entire world narrows down to the blinding pleasure between your thighs. It fills your veins like liquid gold, slow and warm, each heartbeat pumping more and more sweet joy through your blood stream. You moan loudly and he echoes you, so loud and desperate that you think he may have come again himself. He continues to pump his fingers into you while he switches from sucking on your clit to giving it soft messy kisses instead as he gentles you down from your high. He’s a fascinating creature, so capable of cruelty and violence, but with a surprising capacity for tenderness. He switches between these parts of himself so easily, based on some internal whim that you can’t begin to fathom. It’s inexplicable that the hands that handled you so harshly and the mouth that talked to you so coldly, the man who covered you in blood and slaughtered a man without a care, is so careful with you now.
You whine and push at him when the sensitivity becomes too much and his touch begins to sting. He complies, giving you one last kiss.
“For good luck.” He says with a wink and your heart squeezes painfully. His expression is soft and boyish, which is only amplified by the fact that his productless hair has dried into a fluffy mess. He looks almost innocent despite being buried face first in you moments before, chin still slick with you. You remember what he asked you to call him earlier.
“C’mere John.” You beckon.
His eyes widen with surprise and for a moment you think he might cry. His lip trembles slightly. Your stomach drops and you worry that you may have crossed a line. But no, he crawls into your arms and draws you close. You stroke his hair and his shoulders as he nuzzles against your collarbone. He shakes in your arms as you cradle him but he doesn’t cry. He reminds you of a shelter dog being a pet for the first time, craving the gentle touch but unsure of what it is. His intense reaction just to his name gives you pause.
Another face flashes through your mind.
Big scared eyes and bloody hands.
Just a child.
No older than you were when the accident happened.
In the silence of your bedroom, as you finally have the time to process the chaos of everything that is happening, you get a sick feeling in your stomach as you begin to drift off in his embrace.
Okay. I'll admit it. I am in LOVE with your Homelander omg
He's wonderful
Awww, thanks so much!! I'm honoured you like my art, that means a lot to me. ❤️ Big Homelander's a bit of a handful but that just means there's more of him to hug, lol.
And just because you sent me other asks I'll answer them under the cut:
Yeah, I don't know who exactly was the first to shorten Homelander's name to "Homie" but they are a genius lmao. I think it suits him more than shortening his name to "Lander" or something, because "Homie" is cute and he is a cutie so he should have a cute nickname. That's my scientific analysis anyways, lol.
And hell yes brother. We stan Homelander's fangs in this house. 🙌
If we make an au from this au (like an au²), where Homelander didn't gruesomely kill his mother in the delivery, damn would big!Homelander's birth be painful
Lol well, luckily for Homelander's mother he was a smaller-than-average kid. He didn't start shooting up like a rocket and getting scary tall until he was about 13. I did write a fic a couple years ago going into his childhood a bit more; basically Soldier Boy's DNA and the excess Compound V in utero caused him to undergo a super-charged puberty. But prior to that he was a wee bab.
@homelanderbutbig I couldn't submit this via the ask button, since asks apparently don't support these types of tumblr links, but this made me think of your little guy. Zero pressure, but what if he improved his mental health by biting into a piece of cardboard?
Homelander was never really the problem itself, he was a consequence of the problem. A product of it. The real problem is Vought International’s ultra-capitalist structure and its criminal neoliberalism. The problem is treating people as products. The problem is conceiving human beings as objects. The problem is that they decided to play god.
Killing Homelander at the end changes absolutely nothing if they don’t dismantle Vought, because Homelander is ultimately just an experiment that went wrong. And honestly, Butcher is right about one thing: eventually there will be another Homelander. Where he’s wrong is in believing that Supes themselves are the problem. They aren’t. The machinery that created them —the establishment itself— is the problem.
The solution was never “kill Homelander” or “kill all Supes”. The solution was to destroy Vought. That’s why the ending feels so morally questionable and ultimately unsatisfying. Like okay, great, they beat up the bad guy and kill him after he’s committed countless atrocities. Fine. But then what? Marie was simply lucky that her powers manifested later in life. That’s the only reason she avoided ending up in a laboratory like Homelander. Otherwise they would’ve done exactly the same thing to her. And knowing that Odessa succeeded, they could easily continue experimenting, continue testing, continue manufacturing more Homelanders. So in reality they solved nothing. They just slapped a bandage over the problem.
And honestly, it feels incredibly USAmerican in the worst possible way, because the United States has this recurring inability to understand that the issue isn’t just individual megalomaniacal narcissists with god complexes, it’s the system that allows those people to rise to power in the first place. A system rooted in neoliberal capitalist individualism, in the destruction of collective consciousness, and in the commodification of absolutely everything, including human beings.
If this series had been written from almost any other political perspective or national context, it would’ve been obvious that the real target should’ve been Vought itself first and foremost. Kill Homelander too if you want, sure, but the actual enemy is the machine. Instead what we get is: the bad guy is dead, but the machinery of evil is still completely intact, just rebranding itself and continuing to exploit people. And somehow that’s supposed to feel like a happy ending?
Vought won. The house won. Nothing actually changed. The world is still the same, the state machinery is still the same, the establishment is still the same.
