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a selfship confession account for anyone to vent about selfship related things.

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hi

i promised i'd be back at some point and i know theres probably not actually anyone waiitng for this account to come back but i still wanted to make a post

i'm not coming back to this account for a long whilee or maybe back to the selfship community at all. not thati was important enough for anyone to care anywho but i guess this is a sort of cry for. not help but for someone to care, i guess

my best friend committed suicide recentlyy. his name was lachlan andyou probably knew him as deathdetermineslife. i was neverpopular in the selfship community bu t he made me feel welcomed and important anyway. we most definitely weren'tnew to the community but he was still an important part off that anywayy

and now hes gone and i dont know what to do withmyself.i cant do anything becauseeverything iused to do id do with him we'd do together and now hes gone and i cant do a thing

i justwante veryone to remember himthe way i did which was as an amazing and loving person with nothing but care inhis heart for everyone thoughtful and talented and so so so so so unique and one of our safe spaces the one who kept us alive himself for so longg from being lonely

i dontknow what this post is about but im not coming back anytime sooni think

take careand think of him for me please

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you should look for co-mods tbh, this is a great blog

anon you are so right but i have no clue how to do this for a sideblog and i REALLY don't wanna give anyone acccess to our main blog just to mod one blog

i am so sorry for disappearing like genuinely. i am trying to return i will be back soon i promise /lh

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so you both abandoned your whole blogs cause of a little drama? bruhh 😩

what are you talking about i haven't been posting here because i'm going through flare ups /genuine question

-mine

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just wanna say. if you support nonsharervents (the user), you can leave. by the by.

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i HATE to drag this account into selfship community discourse but seriously you aren't welcome here if you support people openly wishing death upon others.

-mine

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because, do not think i didn't notice a LARGE majority of the people who interact with nonsharervents also followed this account first. i then naturally became worried that i am seen as them, an equivalent, or that i will allow that shit. i will not! thanks!

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just wanna say. if you support nonsharervents (the user), you can leave. by the by.

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i HATE to drag this account into selfship community discourse but seriously you aren't welcome here if you support people openly wishing death upon others.

-mine

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just wanna say. if you support nonsharervents (the user), you can leave. by the by.

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I just got a new f/o after ages. I've had one f/o for 4 years and I suddenly gained two new f/os from one fandom. I'm trying to convince myself it's fine, that I'm not being unloyal (all 3 have very different ocs)

Well, either way, just as I was settling myself down with the latest, third f/o, my best friend has revealed that they apparently have been giving me hints (I have not noticed) and that I backstabbed them with the ship. I told them I never noticed anything?? But they don't believe me. Now I'm afraid to even mention his name.

👾🧬 Anon

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i hate hate hateeee when people demonize my F/O and spread negative/media illiterate misinformation about them

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I can't help but feel sick when I think about my F/O dating his best friend. There's something off about his friend and he acts more like an enemy than a friend. My F/O deserves better even if it isn't with me.

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I wish that I'd discovered 💉 and 🐻 earlier. They're everything to me! Their fandom is pretty old and I feel like I've missed out by getting in late (only last year).

Also...

As a Polyamorous selfshipper I feel that we're not often taken seriously and are sometimes seen as just "forcing our way into ships", but I seriously fell in love with these two. And if only other selfshippers would just understand!

To all you poly selfshippers... you're valid. And it sucks that we have so many haters

-💉 🐻 anon

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i have a friend who im pretty sure is aware im a self shipper and yet he still makes really... usually sexual comments about some of my f/os. the worst part is that im fully aware we have the same taste/type and it didnt bother me (it did, i just ignored it) until i came fully to term with my ficto identity. im asexual... demi... ficto...... i dont really know anymore but i can say with certainty that this person saying these things about some of my f/os is really uncomfortable. ive even kinda expressed like "yeah thats my man" (im achillean, so no fem/women f/os lmao) and i think it gets taken as a joke instead of being serious. its just. im so bad with confrontation, especially with something like this because im still trying to drill it into my head that cringe is dead.

most of my highschool years were spent surrounded by people who were queer but "not like those queers". the queer people who hated on neo/xenos, yumes, etc. so the fact that ive been selfshipping since i was, kid you not, like 10. and didnt even realize it. and my whole life ive felt like the only way i can experience romantic love is through my fictional partners/selfshipping. it... was difficult hearing these things and so its like. kinda like internalized?

so now im struggling with speaking up about my discomfort because im afraid people wont take me seriously. that goes for my fictkin identities as well. ive fully embraced neos/xenos and have no issues with it, but otherkin and selfshipping are still really new to me and ive only just come to terms with it after repressing it for so long

anyways chat cringe is dead, broadcast your love for your f/os to the world!!!!!!!!!!

-🐉🌸 Fairytail anon (if you know me from somewhere else no you dont /silly)

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I replayed a game & I caught feelings but . . . I've been warned abt someone who has the F/O on their list & they're apparently very petty / send hate . . .

Scared is an understatement . Never revealing this one . . .

Is 🐥 anon taken? :>

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i am nonsharing with an f/o and i dont really mind people having them as platonic. however, i know someone who has them kind of as a platonic f/o and their content about them seems to get more attention than mine and it just sucks. it feels like our mutuals don't think 'oh ___'s partner!' they think 'oh (other persons) friend!' and it just really feels bad. i f/od them first and i feel like i'm just not creative enough or maybe just not good enough to be recognized for my love for them. it's worse that people seem to hate them as a character and even are mean to them as my partner but are nicer about them in regards to someone else. idk i just feel like my relationship with them isn't taken seriously but i'm afraid of removing them and the person feeling bad if they find out i feel this way. i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings but this has been bothering me for awhile.

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I have been patiently waiting for my f/o to be able to be with me physically. Since last year. There’s a specific plushie I want of him, but he won’t be available until sometime in august. I check the website almost daily, hoping for some kind of update. Maybe I’ll be able to get him earlier? But no, it’s always the same. I honestly don’t even know why I do it, I know what to expect. But maybe, just maybe, I’m hoping for some kind of miracle.

Anywho, I remember submitting a previous response with being disgusted at myself for not being protective with my f/o. If only I could’ve foresaw myself now. I’m currently extremely protective over my f/o. I hate when people mischaracterize him, and it makes me cringe a little when I see people claim he’s their boyfriend or anything of the sort. I rarely even feel guilt for my emotions. Just pure rage at the absurdity of some people. For those still reading, I don’t torture myself with these things. I don’t engage and ignore them anyway I can, but I can’t help but scoff at their comments whenever I randomly remember them.

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After (briefly) proofreading I realized that I basically combined two admissions into one. I don’t mind, though; I’m too lazy to make them separate anyway, haha. And thank you for this blog, mods. I feel better after venting here.

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people are so ableist about my f/o it makes me SO mad…. he’s not a little smol babie who needs to be protected he’s literally a MIDDLE AGED MAN who happens to have brain damage and is also probably autistic (though that’s never been confirmed) !!! he literally has multiple illegitimate children !!! he’s got a drug addiction !!! even the actual source has started infantilizing him a bit and i just. what are the writers DOING??? that is NOT him!!! arghhRAHGHHHHHH

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im very protective over my f/o to the point of not mentioning their name to anyone, im trying to be less protective but can't help but feel like "back away! shoo! they are mine!!!" when I see a double. :(

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I get. Weirdly uncomfortable. When my f/o is shipped with women. He's a middle aged man that I head canon as gay for a lot of personal reasons (being transmasc is one), so I always feel this ick when I see ship art of him with women.

I'm actually not uncomfortable when he's shipped with men, I actually tend to even enjoy when he's shipped with a specific male character from the same source. Idk, I'm generally selective sharing, and this is just one of my icks, I suppose. I could accept him being bi, but this ick feeling doesn't go away.

- 🌙 anon (if the emoji isn't taken)

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