This is Everything I'm Wanting to Forget

Back after deleting my old one. 31, they/them, shape shifter with an unstable form

[screenshotsofdespair]

[fascinationstreetmp3]

twin peaks: fire walk with me (1992) dir. david lynch // the secret diary of laura palmer, jennifer lynch

[selki-sepulcher]

The institute doesn't know I have any social media, I just need a place to be able to express myself freely, or at least know I can when I want to.

Shifters are rare, but I don't feel like I'm being studied as much as I'm being supervised. I feel like there are things I'm meant to feel. Things I shouldn't feel.

I'll tell the truth. I don't want to use my shifting to better society. I don't want to do it for any reason. It's just the way I am. I shift moment to moment. Sometimes, I stay stable for weeks. Sometimes, my appearance is nearly liquid. When I force my form, I feel like I'm suffocating.

I don't believe in true forms. I don't have one. There isn't one "true Selki." I'm my form, my moments in time, I'm the way I feel. My form in the moment is my true self. That's what I really think.

[mymelodramaticmelodyisdead]

[traumatizeddfox]

[bunnighost]

[abuzd]

[simonn0el]

Inspired by this post.

Prints available here

[goddteeth]

i will never leave this house

[zombieeyes]

[stupidwittlebaby-deactivated202]

Shoutout to folks with dysphoria that can't be fixed.

To folks with gender dysphoria that is so specific, no combination of HRT and surgery could give you the correct body (at least with where medical science is now).

To folks with species dysphoria, who were straight up born as the wrong thing.

To folks who can't figure out why they're dysphoric. Something doesn't fit right, but why? What would be better?

To folks who struggle with depersonalization, who know that no matter what their body looks like, or how much they like how it looks, it'll never be exactly right.

I hear you.

[morggo]

I looked in the mirror and did not recognize my own face

3.75" x 3.75" pen on paper

[selki-sepulcher]

I look into the rippling lake

my reflection looks like me

but when the waters surface stills

there's nothing left to see

[selki-sepulcher]

They said

my body has no meaning

no true form

a cloud of lies

They said

that I hid my honest face

a face they've never known

a face I've never had

And I wonder

If this shifting body

Is so meaningless

why does it

change everything

about me

I wonder

why when I

feel at my most true

do I have

no face at all

[mycptsdstory]

Found on twitter

[seasonofthebxtch]

Crazy accurate

[selki-sepulcher]

Everything will be okay. I understand why no one wants to see me. I understand that people look at me and get upset. It's no ones fault.