screaming to the empty void

•unapologetically christian•double-sided • “faith, trust, and a little pixie dust” • “life is more than just existing”• sahlo folina• infj-t• gryffindor• dragon rider•

[semi-automatic-chaos]

I’m sad in a do I buck up and deal on my own or buck up and tell my friends kind of way. I don’t want to be labelled as attention seeking or manipulative or problematic or whatever though.

[semi-automatic-chaos]

I get that people are well meaning but “it’ll happen when you least expect it” … “it’ll happen when you stop looking” … “enjoy this season of singleness” … etc. all invoke a rage in me when I hear them say it. All I want is my person and I can’t manage to even find a date.

[semi-automatic-chaos]

I feel like I’m screaming to an empty void and it hurts so bad. I’m okay, it’s just hard watching my friends get married… have kids… do all the things my heart desires so much and I can barely manage to get a date

[schalotte]

it's so crazy how you actually have to live through everything

[isseymeplease]

living through everything is intense, and it rarely plays out in a straight line. you can’t skip the process, and sometimes it becomes repetitive. the cycle will either feel like growth or like being trapped, depending on where you are in it. but living through it is the meaning and that surviving isn’t passive it’s a quiet revolution.

[hamletkin]

creating a book series called "big fear shakespeare" where i expect you to know every reference and definition and instead there are comments in the margins saying things like "what kind of idiot wouldn't know this?"

[jordeclans]

"i asked chatgpt" okay i asked the magical sentient forest that i sacrificed my eyes and hands to... we r not the same

[alwaysbeenjessica]

ray bradbury

[surqrised]

“You will have days where you feel better, and you will have days where you want to die. Both are okay. There is no magical cure. You just need to close your eyes, and trust that the waves will pass, and soon you’ll be able to breathe again.”

— Unknown

[averagefairy]

this is a message for everyone who is 22. if you’re 22 please stop worrying. take a deep breath eat a bagel maybe. everything that feels impossible is going to work itself out. have a great day

[fibonassi]

do u have a message for 25 year olds

[averagefairy]

uhhhhh 2 bagels?

[thisintermezzo]

I'm 32. When I was in my early twenties, I overheard a pair of 50ish year old women talking about the ideal age to stay at permanently. One said, "Everyone says 25. I wouldn't want to be in my twenties forever. Everything is hard and you get upset too easily."

Hearing her say that helped me so much. I thought about it countless times. Every time things felt overwhelming, I remembered what she said. The words of this total stranger, who wasn't even talking directly to me, brought me a lot of comfort, so I hope they can help you, too.

[throwingmenthols-deactivated202]

all debates abt the artistic merits of fanfiction fail to recognize the purpose of fic. you don’t write fic to be published or to learn how to construct a narrative although you can use it to develop style. you write it so that your friends will message you “bestie you’re utterly deranged for this one im eating dirt” 

[semi-automatic-chaos]

Some of the most well written things I’ve read have been fan fiction. Some of the most deranged things I’ve read have also been fan fiction

[resqectable]

“I have a list in my head of all the feelings I still want to feel before I die. And you have ticked so many things off that list.”

— Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You

[semi-automatic-chaos]

I updated my tumblr bio and account for the first time since I created it all the way back in middle school over a decade ago…. I think it was long overdue and I’m still not sure I like it

[chaotic-academics]

I'm here! I'm bored! Tell me about your D&D characters or other favorite OCs! Give me as much rant as you want!

[semi-automatic-chaos]

I’ve convinced myself that I am mentally stable but I’m not so sure if it’s that or if I just get small bursts of serotonin from occasionally being with my friends

[semi-automatic-chaos]

Feeling hurts and you made me feel again. You healed me and made everything better while we were friends. And I fell in love along the way. But you picked someone else.

[semi-automatic-chaos]

You made me feel electric. You made me feel like I could not breathe when I was around you. You were my rock. My calm in the storm. But you were never mine.

[semi-automatic-chaos]

I fell in love. He chose someone else. They ended. But he still would never choose me.