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i need to up my lying skills in case the day ever comes that i need to pretend i never noticed them

#this is about something irl that's currently melting my eyes and brain #i am trying so fucking hard not to think about it #🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

I FUCKING LOVE BERRIES!!!!!!!!!!!

why are so many men totally incapable of handling embarrassement. the worst teenage guys i know hold that title because they refuse to seem embarrassed (act nonchalant in literally every fucking situation even when it's detrimental to them). almost every time i hear about some middle aged man bitching out some poor undeserving person it's because he got embarrassed somehow and couldn't handle it like an adult. i think in the case of old men it's often more of just the being old makes you refuse to be embarrassed but again, old man needs help with something thx to being old? no no NO! he doesn't need help. he's not going to be embarrassed by asking for help.

#obviously any kind of person can do this #i just notice it as being far more common in men than any other gender #mannnnnnnnn #i just think abt the teenage guys #cuz you are going to get yourself in trouble not being able to act humble #not to mention you can't be genuine even with people who are ostensibly your friends cuz you're unwilling to let people know #that you're embarrassed #but like srsly #i know a group of guys who fucked up big time #i was in the room when they were getting chewed out for it #and they just could not seem to act sorry #i do actually think they were #but even though they would have been forgiven faster and their “i'll do better next time”s would hold way more weight #they just would not act like they felt bad about it #cuz that's embarrassing #“what if they realize i'm a human with human emotions and make human mistakes!?!? ahhhhh!”#also ik it's def tied to the shitty idea that men should not have or show emotion #it's embarrassing to be a man and show emotion #and embarrassement is an emotion and therefore men should not show it #but damn i thought we were past this bullshit

i just spent 6 hours at a movie theater so now i'm eating possibly the most health-food meal i've ever had in my life. cold greek pasta salad, chicken breast, assorted berries and i'm drinking water. it's frankly delicious i'm not eating popcorn for at least a week.

#cw food

man i love angst and really drawn out hurt/comfort but i think i've been spoiled by my first & favorite long h/c fic being one where the character literally is in therapy. i get sooooo mad when the fic ends and the character is happy but like, didn't resolve any of the actual problems that put them in the situations. i guess i could also just stick to h/c about like... not being mentally ill? idk if people even really write that.

#reading angst like that makes me feel like such an angry person #cuz like i would absolutely not be able to stand for that shit #like character internal monologues about how shitty it is to be ignored all the time #and in like the very next scene (tbf they were pretty distracted)#they get blown off by another character #sorry i think i would kill them #wdym you're just like chill now #^that's kind of my reaction to all h/c fics even though i love reading them #all that and you're just... fine now? you didn't even fix the thing that made you upset #the fic i just finished also (hilariously imo) made me literally growl out loud about hating alloromantic people #cuz a lot of the time i'll read shit where everything sucks and character is in an awful mood but romancey shit makes them #totally change their mood when it really should not #and i'm like mannnn wtf are people actually like this?#but this one i swear the mc was halfway to killing themself over smth the other character did #so seriously that the author wrote an alternate ending where they do die and said that was their original plan #and they kind of confront the character and the character is not giving a fuck #and the tension gets higher and i'm like yess please be mad for once #no they make out #and then mc is worried about the other character and relatively calm #what #that can't be a real way people react to things wtf #in the end the mc never even got to talk about their issues or like had any sort of catharsis #it was a happy ending but in the “i got to finally express my feelings and then we worked it out and i can be happy”#there was no expressing the feelings #it's just so dissatisfying to me #even if they're not gonna blow up you have to at least like make them communicate or learn something that alleviates the mental pain #it just feels like throwing a bandaid on a gunshot wound to have a happy romance or any sort of happy ending without actually resolving #the cause of the angst in the first place

i actually don't know what to do i'm so sad. i've been waiting for an opportunity to get these as something really special for myself and it's just gone? what do i do now? what kind of limited release lasts for two full years anyways?

#mayla

i'm actually going to spontaneously catch on fire what do you mean one of my favorite fashion brands stopped selling the collaborations i liked as soon as i have the opportunity to get something from them. like it's not even funny what do you mean they've been selling these for years.

#mayla

recently i've been going thru old photos and i realized that for some reason having blonde hair (for hair dye lol) makes my hair look longer

marble-sodaa

yesterday's accessories!

greystuffwall

kiyogakukai

greystuffwall

v1 kaito x v2 gakupo

seo-m-e

i think i'm getting ragebaited for real rn. either that or i'm talking to the stupidest person alive

seo-m-e

they blocked me for telling them that the dictionary and the special olympics website (the org that afaik started the campaign against using the r slur) and wikipedia and multiple papers on the r slur were better sources than them, an autistic person

i think i'm getting ragebaited for real rn. either that or i'm talking to the stupidest person alive

#they say “the r slur isn't just targeted towards people with ID it's against autistic ppl too”#i say “it's used against autistic people but the slur means that you have ID”#they say “nuh uh”#i find several sources proving that the r slur originally meant (at least a form of) ID #and still does #they say “i'm autistic so i'm a better source on this than the dictionary and you're a bigot”#like seriously am i falling for something #or can this person possibly actually be alive out in the world somewhere

unteriors

SE 8th Street, College Place, Washington.

i gotta wake up at 9 am to call about a job and it's currently 6 am. how fucked am i

man i have to write a speech about someone i'm so fucked. idk why i didn't start doing it earlier i had like half a week to do it. i'm literally the worst person to do this i should have asked to write for myself and then blown it off 💔💔💔💔 ik it's not really my fault but i feel like such a horrible person cuz i can't write sentimental shit and i have an awful memory so i can't even just tell stories about them

#vent #i'm just not the kind of guy who thinks like that #like yeah ur cool and i'm glad to have met you #and i really really really mean that #but that's about the extent of my ability to express my care for someone #i literally don't have the capability to translate how i feel into words when it comes to being sentimental #and i would just go the tell a bunch of stories abt them route #but my memory is actually so shit #i just can't remember conversations or like kind of anything #and it's not a person i spend a lot of time with either #essentially i have to write a speech about a work friend #i'm so fucked #i feel so bad for them :(

snow-priestess

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