Hey there. It’s been a while, right? Do I even still have active followers? Tumblr has always felt like I was invisible and could use it like a diary type monologue thing anyway so who cares. Okay yeah a couple years ago, I left. Life happened, I mean that’s easy to say but it did. I was just getting started but then everything fell apart and I couldn’t get back up for a while. Ultimately I’m okay, I only regret losing the friends that I had made back then but they never really checked on me so how good of a friend were they anyway, ya know? It’s fine. Got out of a toxic relationship. Moved twice, to Paris and back. Got diagnosed with depression (no shit) anxiety (no shit) and bpd (oh. shit). Had no idea what to do with that information and just let life happen to me like I was watching everything from the outside. I wasn’t that motivated to get better tbh, I wasn’t motivated to do anything at all. Certainly not paint. Everything just feels so dull sometimes. Like I am so incredibly bored but nothing would make me happy or excited. I managed to hold a job for a year and a half but it’s over now. But anyway. All of this mess lead me to where I am now. And I have a project, which is almost unheard of for me. I hope you will enjoy it as much as I do. I will have to rebuild from the ground up, as I am pretty sure no one remembers who the frick frack I am. (Also holy shit bangtan got super famous while I was gone, I was definitely holding them back) I do want to talk about bpd more but I feel like this art blog isn’t really the place for it. I’ve been wanting to make a video. We’ll see. How do people end posts like this? Like a letter? Congratulations on the wedding grandma! Wait uh-
