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Ingrid! 22. I'm never here

[0knesf1]

I’m not sure if I’ll ever finish this, but I like it as a quick sketch. I just finished the series, and it’s sad to admit how much I’m going to miss them

[hsm2]

Toby Stephens as James Flint | Black Sails VII.

[rival2lover]

oh, i'm gonna be a real man

[my-2nd-account]

Ilya points out Shane getting hard in the showers then proceeds to jerk off in front of him. "I thought you might chicken out" as if he wasn't losing his mind having an identity crisis in that elevator. Ilya makes fun of Shane for coming quickly his first bj when his time is only like 5 seconds more than Shane's. Ilya makes fun of Shane's sexting as if his loser ass horny texts are any better. "Remember when I made you come hands free" Ilya sweetheart you're lucky Shane was on his hands and knees too busy with his own orgasm to hear your pathetic (affectionate) "oh God, Hollander" right before you came so hard you almost blacked out. "We are not anything" proceeds to freak out the next time he sees him and makes a folder named "boring" of the photos they took as a bit. "Not as person, of course" when he came up with a whole plan to convince him to stay the night, gave him his clothes, made him food, and is looking at him like he hung the moon. "We get together we fuck is simple" cut to him two weeks later confessing his undying love on the phone.

Ilya you're a fucking hypocrite I love you <3

[shillanov]

these boys each scarfed down a tuna sandwich and then proceeded to breathe fish fumes into each others mouths and that was when they both realized they were in love. when you put it like that you just really believe. that anything is possible

[archbudzar]

Imbolc

[bratboymolloy]

this isn’t even a revolutionary thought but like. making daniel old in amc iwtv was such a fucking cool and important choice that forces people to deal with their ageism and how much of that is linked to aesthetic beauty. and daniel is beautiful because he has aged. like almost every single other character is years upon years older than him and yet because they look young they move through life forever being seen that way. and now we have a vampire who wasn’t turned as a young adult but has lived a full human life with all the hardships and struggles that come with it and has grown old and sick and jaded but is also experienced and wise and a pro at what he does and only now after he’s spent years coming to terms with his own aging and the decline of his health, is he gifted with vampirism. a thing he thought was only accessible to him when he was young and eager and hopeful. and his maker wouldn’t give it to him then, and louis wouldn’t give it to him then, and if you think for even one second that armand turned him out of spite then you don’t know what it is to have loved someone the way armand has. and armand has loved him, for an entire lifetime, watching him grow and fail and change and begin that death march and still he waits until there’s no other choice, and he’d rather do a thing that makes him sick, that he swore he would never do, and yes it’s selfish in a way because it’s armand who can’t bear to lose him. but it’s also devastatingly poetic because young daniel didn’t deserve to have life taken from him but old daniel has EARNED the right to die with dignity. and armand SHOULD be the one to give it to him because loving daniel meant taking their shared memories, loving daniel meant watching him from the shadows, loving daniel has always meant letting him go. except now. except now. loving daniel means letting him Be.

[sunnys1de-d0wn]

so i was watching heated rivalry (again) and paused randomly on the gem of a moment that is david assuming they've been together since the All-Star game and i laughed so hard because THIS-

is the face of a man who's going to have to tell his parents that no, it hasn't been about 6 months, maybe try 7. Years, actually. of him fucking his arch rival and proceeding to pathetically fall head over heels for him. Despite said arch rival being a man. And his rival. And an egoistic asshole, in theory.

AND SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO HIM IS THIS GUY-

who whored himself out put unspeakable amounts of effort into kickstarting this situationship-turned-marriage before his career even took off solely to witness this exact moment in time HES SO SO PROUD OF HIMSELF LOOK AT HIM OHMYGODDDD IM CRYING💀

[snap-crackle-cunt]

what shane says: im gay

what shane means: i can never love a woman in any way resembling the way i love you and when i tried she called my shit IMMEDIATELY so what im trying to say is i can't sidestep whatever we are the way you can, i will never ever love anyone but u

what ilya hears: somewhere along the line of our multi-year situationship that began with me immediately sucking ur dick, i have determined that i like men.

what ilya says: ya no fucking shit bro what

[ranrandraws]

just finished s1 and i feel so many things …

this piece was inspired by @/asntde :)

[sobadbad]

I should go.

[sobadbad]

I should go.

[handsywoman-ep2]

full Hollanov tongue slip

reposting my banger after tumblr terminated my original blog follow for more <3

[academicblorbo]

What makes episode 5 so incredible in my opinion is that Shane never asks for more. He says "you feel it too, right?" and "I can no longer pretend I don't like you". He never says "I want more from you", which is a very standard thing people say when they want more out of a relationship.

Later in the episode we learn that something that kills Ilya is that everyone who never appreciated him always asks for "more, more, more". Shane hears that but doesn't understand, of course. It doesn't matter that Ilya said it, because Shane didn't understand it. And yet, he never asks Ilya for more. Even when he asks Ilya to come to his cottage, it's not "do this for me", it's "it is going to be nice, you will be able to be yourself, to rest" and what Ilya hears is "I just want you, close to me. As you are. As the person you have been for 10 years. I just want you" and now im crying

[thisshitisridiculous]

thinking about the end of the 2 weeks. the last morning. the absolute reluctance to get out of bed. ilya zipping up his packed bag. the last time together making them run late. the kiss before they’re out the door. the one in the driveway. the last one in the car before they get to the airport. holding hands throughout the drive. the curt heartbreaking goodbyes because they can’t do anything else. because they already had to leave that all behind in the private safety of shane’s home. knowing they’re going forward but it’ll still be weeks, months before they’re back together again. the last look before ilya has to turn away and leave. shane sitting in the car watching ilya walk away. ilya walking into a crowded airport with the sting of it in his eyes. they saved my life not putting any of that on my screen id be suicidal

[lavenderprose]

Honestly? Honestly the idea of Ilya Rozanov sitting himself down at twelve years old and saying I have GOT to get out of this country. It killed my mother. It's going to kill me. And then growing up a little bit and realizing some Things about himself and saying I have GOT to get out of this country. I have tried and tried and for some reason people keep Knowing What I Am. Ilya, young bisexual man with an apparently pretty clocky affect to his speaking voice. A strong young man with a natural and lovely flamboyance in him, a sweetness he tries to smother and the ability to play hockey like it was bestowed upon him by GOD. I've GOT to get out of here, he thinks to himself. And then he leaves (but not really) does some more growing up and he falls in love only he can't let himself be in love because the lead weight of this country is still tied to him and he thinks I have GOT TO GET OUT OF HERE. Then his father dies and the man he loves says "Come with me" and Ilya says I am NEVER going back!! I will wear my mother's cross and I will think of her every day and she will forgive me for never visiting her grave because her beautiful boy got OUT. I will go to a place where I am loved by a man A MAN who I love more than I ever thought I was allowed. Who holds my face and my hands and my heart. I will find a home for myself in his arms. I will never go fucking back.

[jadenvargen]

wip : D printmaking for ncv!