24th ward guardian!

Touken / kanetou hardcore shipper. my posts are exclusively about Tokyo ghoul. I had a Touken wedding, I have no regrets, just be aware from my screaming every Saturday. Header colored by @aleshathesuperman❤️

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Oh… She’s wearing her husband clothes… What a lovely wife… *Sob*

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Oh my dear god how didn't I see it😯😭❤️

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Just tell me that you guys didn’t jump from your seat when you first saw this beautiful face!!

I can’t begin to tell you how happy I felt😭❤️

Oh come on now Hide, you’re the most handsome guy in here and you know it😭❤️

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Clearly another persona of Kaneki has been born,I wonder when will we meet him 🙂

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Just noticed that there are no words at all in the spoilers.....

Ishida-sensei wants us to feel terrified and know how the situation is very dangerous ;-;

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the eyes shout what the lips fear to say.

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I’ll start giving my students classes about the Touken love..👌🏻

Me tomorrow:

Okay, you’re at high school already people. Boys, start searching for the barista that'll change your life. Girls, find yourself the one eyed king that’ll make you his queen. 

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Let’s get drown in Touken feels

Basically because I’m a hopeless Touken shipper, I had to post one of my favorite Touken moments (Even though it’s pretty old by now).

These panels guys from chapter 72!

When Kaneki came for Yomo, Touka and Ayato’s rescue, he pretty much talked only to Ayato telling him where to go, without any word to Touka (Sorry Yomo-san, you aren't that much of a talker anyway XD).

But Touka knows better than letting him fight Arima before a single question, she just needed to test how her words would affect his decision. And the reaction he gave by (a single call) from her gave her the answer.

You see how Kaneki flinches when he hears Touka calling his name? You see that twitch?

Usually you get this reaction from a person who is waiting (and knows) that you’re going to call for him but is not ready. He’s willing to talk but doesn’t know what he’s going to say. Even the way he slightly turns around to see her, you can’t actually meet his eye this way, as if he’s avoiding the eye contact as much as he can, but why? Touka knows the reason, and that is why she calls once again.

She get why he’s afraid of making the eye contact with her. You know how does it feel when you miss someone way too much to the point where seeing their face would flash back all these nostalgic memories? Where all the feelings and emotions you once had come again with heavier effects? That’s the moment when people become afraid to meet the gaze, they don't know how to handle that much of feelings, not to mention someone who’s prepared to die, a person who gave up on living.

Kaneki’s eyes here are telling what he feels, it’s like if they’re saying: “I knew I shouldn't look at her eyes”.

The unfairness Kaneki talks about is the effect Touka has made on him, all his determination to die the whole time has been reconsidered again by this fleeting conversation they had. And scratch that, it wasn't a conversation where she had to convince him, she just asked him a question which he couldn't answer, but couldn't get it off of his mind either.

“Even a faint of warmth is reassuring as long as that support on which we lean does not rot away”. - Ishida Sui.

Come on guys, add in your favorite Touken moments, I want to get drown on these feelings until next chapter.

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I’m having a Touken feels storm running in my heart!

My emotions have been on a roller coaster for the last couple of weeks

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Take a look at Touka’s expressions in tg chapters 58 and 59 after Yoshimura tells the members of Anteiku that they may not be able to have contact with Kaneki anymore.

Doesn’t it look kind of similar to how Kaneki looked so stricken and devastated at the realization that he may never see Touka again?

Furthermore, they are also both extremely quick thereafter to declare that they will do whatever they can to protect/ rescue the other so they can be together once again no matter what the obstacle:

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I love how Ishida-sensei makes their love clearly noticed at their hardest moments, and even more at the breakdown points.

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Mama Haise and Baby Kanekis..!

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The one eyed king t-shirt, I’m still celebrating yesterday’s chapter ☺️❤️ Long live the king! I’m reeeeally really overjoyed 💃🏻

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A Rock and a Hard Place

killing children to protect children; dying and the resulting deaths

So I’ve decided to do something terribly stupid and try to address a really difficult aspect of this week’s chapter: Kaneki’s decision to kill Hajime and the Oggai. 

First and foremost, I want to bring us back to the middle ages, to Yamori, when  two inherent flaws in Kaneki’s personality were revealed in full to us. His discussion with Imaginary Rize involved his token slogan “be the one who gets hurt, not the one who hurts others”– a gift from his mother, which he has struggled to loosen his grip on throughout his entire story. 

Unknowingly, Yamori challenged that belief of his with an ugly mind-game:

By not being able to choose (despite Kei’s insistence to save her son), both mother and child were killed. He failed to even try. 

Kaneki faltered like any person would have in his situation, but it underscored what would become a huge problem for him in the future. He has always struggled to do harm and to make difficult decisions that hold him responsible.

Fast-forward to today’s chapter, we find Kaneki faced with a magnification of the same situation. At the end of E14, Touka, Hinami, and a flock of starving ghouls unable to fight– many of which are children– are backed into a corner by an inescapable death. Nearby, Kaneki is laying in a bloodied, limbless, lifeless heap, surrounded on all sides by a hoard of deadly child-soldiers.

Without Kaneki’s intervention, Goat’s children will be slaughtered like lambs. However, in order for Kaneki to intervene, he would have to slaughter children himself. It’s a total conundrum that Ishida has purposefully created; a twisted, horrifying, challenging predicament for us to muddle through… hence the name of the Oggai: 

Death, mirrored. A behemoth wrong from all angles.

With this, Furuta is Yamori dangling lives in front of his face once more. He’s Arima, handing Kaneki the opportunity to win on a silver platter….

… But more than anything, Furuta is Furuta: a man barefacedly showcasing the CCG’s dirty little secret in a stunt that the average investigator is still willing to overlook.

Furuta confirms here that it really is no problem controlling the masses. So long as they feel unified on the front to Defeat Evil, a person won’t look at their own wickedness in the mirror. 

The last chapter was the first time we heard Kaneki reflect on his decisions and life choices outside of admitting his inability to do so in Cochlea. But unlike Cochlea, we finally see him take a grand step forward. He considers dying here (also knowing that a chunk of his adopted family is in grave danger), but despite adversity, FINALLY digs his nails into life and comes tearing all horns and thorns back to the surface.

HOWEVER. I want to reiterate that what he’s done is still sickening. It isn’t the Oggai’s fault that they are who they are, and no less now that Furuta has fanned the flames of their personal vendettas against ghouls. They are all just children who– like the Garden Kids– have been exploited by means outside of their control.

Has Ishida made this theme blindingly apparent yet?

The thing is, Kaneki understands the nature of act he’s about to commit. It doesn’t necessarily make him right, but he understands the gravity of the situation.

He does interject with uglier thoughts (”I don’t care”, “I will kill”)– BUT! He also considers those old flaws of his and finally, finally kicks them aside. 

Furuta accused him of never learning; of always choosing himself. He’s always put his own moral righteousness above actual life. He’s never killed humans, never choose one life over another, and never made an honest decision that forced him to take responsibility for his actions. And for all of that, he has done nothing but suffer. 

But now, in the face of all that, Kaneki gathers up all of his experiences over the last several years, pins positives against each other, outweighs the cons, and for the first time ever reaches a solid conclusion: kill, and put an end to the senseless murders the Oggai might commit in the future. Kill, and save those innocent children and the people he loves. Kill, and take control of the the life he’s been handed. Kill, even at the expense of others. 

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Stunning! Even if what he did would hurt him and he might blame himself even more after this fight. But this chapter produced a real development for Kaneki. These developments come with prices, it is a trading matter.

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By his own free will!

I’m freaking out right now because of a real amazing thing I noticed about Kaneki this chapter, where he had an “illusionary” conversation between his multiple personas inside his mind.

Since the beginning of this series, we’ve encountered multiple moments where Kaneki breaks down. And in each moment he gets up using the help of the others, or by others’ will.

Starting with his first mental breakdown, where he gains the power by Rize’s influence created by his imagination.

Here was the born of the so suicidal persona of Kaneki, and I think there was no other of his personas that is worse than “Shironeki” except for “The black reaper”.

His motivation at this moment was nothing but to keep fighting and getting, stronger, in order to be stronger than his loved ones and protect them. He even pushed himself to work hard enough to the point where he lost the sight of his goal.

He lost his own humanity, he returned to the starting point, he still kept on getting himself hurt (emotionally and mentally) to protect the others.

Bad result of his conversation with Rize. Nothing actually exists for Kaneki to look forward in living!

Then once again, the born of a new persona was created by his illusions, “the black reaper”.

A bad influence was this child Kaneki iin here indeed, yet can not be blamed. The child who carried all of Kaneki’s memories and misery, his ghoul figure who didn't want to be erased yet wanted to die in style. He wanted to give himself one last moment to be remembered as “a hero”.

Even a worse outcome from this conversation! Instead of finding something to live for, he found a reason to die in the name of achievement!

Then we have a new persona, the one who started to believe he there might be a reason to live for, the one who embraced the OEK title.

The very first positive conversation created by his imagination, and of course by Hids’s help! He didn't give him an exact reason to live for, but at least pushed him forward to find one for himself.

And yet, Kaneki didn't take Hide’s advice fully to himself, he mixed it up with others’ will once again. He becomes the one eyed king.

This is one of Kaneki’s complex flaws, he needs to be encouraged to take a step in his way. He needs a guide, someone to tell him that it is okay to wish, hope and try to take a step forward. And sometimes this flaw leads him to take actions he doesn't want to do.

An amazing outcome truth be told! But still he needs improvements.

And last comes the conversation between all of these personas. Each one of them started (was born) based on a whole different reason from the other. Each one of them has his own desires, started with a goal to achieve which is completely unrelated to the other.

One wished for this outcome.

While the other was happy being Sasaki.

And all of them fought over their previous actions and decisions.

Until comes the ugly truth.

Their heavy silent moment.

This situation was built based on the actions of all of them. They might argue over who did this and why you’ve done that, but they agreed on this.

This is his first illusional conversation where he asks for something he desire for himself, not taking titles, dying or even fighting for someone else. This thing is for himself: “I want to see Touka”. Not Touka needs me, not I need to protect my loved ones. But “I want to”, he wants to.

And so, all of these personas come together. No pressure at all, no outside opinions. But by his own free will.

So this fight he is charging is for himself, this is the thing he wants for himself. Not for someone else’s sake, he isn’t searching for someone to think of him as a hero, but he wants to continue on living this life he just built!

This chapter got me reeeeeally hard!

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I don't know what is the definition of ugly to you Kaneki Ken, but I definitely won’t say it to these.

And absolutely certainly definitely would never allow someone to say it to this face...

All hail the king!

Long live the one eyed king!!

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HE’S REPEATING HER NAME LIKE A MOTTO!!!

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It’s Day 2

And I’m still not over Tokyo ghoul :re 143.... Kaneki’s realization of the outcomes for his own decision is far more tragic than Tokyo ghoul’s ending....

[akn-luv]

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You’re surrounded by amazing people Kaneki, only if you’d rely a little bit on them ;_;

(Amazing art btw!)