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don't go into the humanities because they're unprofitable and don't go into stem cuz its getting torn apart right now and don't go into buisness because it's competetive and speculative and don't go into education because it pays like shit. Just lay on thr ground. Just lay on the ground.

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Growing up being affected by misogyny is extremely traumatizing and is something that those affected will never escape. Little girls don’t have the words for misogyny, they’re not analysing systems or unpacking theory, they’re just living it. You grow up being talked over, corrected, made smaller, and all you actually know is that you are somehow less than the boys around you. That gets built into you before you even understand what’s happening. So no, trans men and trans mascs will never have 'male privilege' or live a life where 'misogyny no longer affects them' because they've already been brutalized, traumatized and scarred by the misogyny they faced growing up. I can't believe this even has to be said.

genderkoolaid

im reading a book & uh. wow. trans men&mascs really have been getting institutionalized as insane and killed for centuries huh

genderkoolaid

In the mid-1870s the police regularly arrested a person called Jeanne Bonnet who always wore “male attire.” In contrast with DeWolf’s dress reform clothing, Bonnet preferred the stylish “hoodlum” suits worn by the city’s young and rowdy working-class men; with her short hair, narrow build, and a penchant for hard liquor, she regularly moved through city space as a man. Bonnet hung out in the bars and brothels along Dupont Street, befriending Barbary Coast women and persuading at least one local sex worker, Blanche Buneau, to leave prostitution and her exploitative lover. The police arrested Bonnet more than twenty times for cross-dressing and occasionally brought additional charges. For example, when the police realized that the masculine figure drinking at the bar was a woman in men’s clothing, they arrested Bonnet for violating not only cross-dressing law but also the local dive laws that banned women from entering bars. This harassment ended only in 1876, when an unidentified gunman shot and killed Bonnet in Blanche Buneau’s bed. The murder was never solved, and Buneau disappeared from the historical record. [...]

In October 1890 a judge sent Dick/Mamie Ruble to the state insane asylum because of “a hallucination that she should wear men’s clothing and wants legal authority for doing so.” Ruble was arrested for violating cross- dressing law, but the case took a dramatic twist in court, when Ruble refused to identify with available gender categories and explained to the judge, “I’m neither a man nor a woman and I’ve got no sex at all.” While many cross- dressing offenders pled for mercy and claimed their crimes were innocent “pranks,” Ruble challenged the judge to locate femininity on his/her muscular body: “Did you ever see a woman with a hand like that Judge . . . ? Look at that muscle. Oh I tell you I couldn’t pass for a woman anywhere, even if I tried.” Unimpressed by Ruble’s declarations, the judge called in the police surgeon, who referred the case to the Insanity Commission, located in a small basement room in city hall. The two-member commission reviewed the case, declared Ruble insane, and ordered his/her indefinite commitment to the Stockton Asylum, where the admitting doctor noted that Ruble “imagines she is a hermaphrodite. Wears male clothing. Wishes to have legal authority to wear men’s clothing.” Such “evidence of insanity” doomed Ruble to life in the asylum; s/he remained there for eighteen years, until dying from tuberculosis in 1908. [...]

Similarly in 1899 the commission found Sophie Lederer to be insane, noting that the twenty-three-year-old domestic worker “talks irrationally— acts silly and claims to be a boy.” Pohlmann spent two months in the Stockton Asylum before being deported to Germany, while Lederer effectively received a life sentence, dying in the asylum of heart disease in 1908.

From Arresting Dress: Crossdressing, Law, and Fascination in Nineteenth-Century San Francisco by Clare Sears

Its just like. wow. we will never know how many cases of this there were. everytime someone talks about how "oh they just didn't care that much" "women crossdressing was never a threat" "trans men can pass effortlessly" like!!! survivorship bias!!! this book specifically highlights how wealthy socialite women were treated totally differently & could get away with crossdressing by appealing to their status and cisness. while poor, non-white, and sex worker people could not.

Ruble and Lederer died in asylums. Lederer was twenty-three and he lost the rest of his life- nearly a decade- imprisoned for expressing transmasculine desire. Ruble lost nearly two decades. Both in famously misogynistic institutions where they were seen as insane, sexually deviant failed women; God only knows what they experienced during those lost decades. Bonnet was actively and constantly targeted by the police, and their murder was never solved- which reminds me of Big Cliff Trondle, another working-class FTM crossdresser (& sex worker) who was harassed by police and ended up murdered. They also remind me of other instances of institutionalized like Harcourt Payne, Edward De Lacy Evans, and Evan Keleman (who is a modern example).

genderkoolaid

two other modern example are Pauli Murray, a Black feminist legal scholar and the coiner of the term "Jane Crow" (from a biography of the same name by Rosalind Rosenberg):

Although Murray always denied being a lesbian, she occasionally admitted to “homosexual tendencies” as the only available descriptor that people would accept. As for the report that she was taking hormones, nothing in her correspondence with doctors supports that claim. She wanted testosterone badly enough, however, that she may well have told the corrections officer that doctors had agreed to give it to her. Barry did not arrest Murray for hitchhiking but rather escorted her to the New York City Police Department, where officers decided to take her to Bellevue Hospital. There, Murray poured out her story to a psychiatrist, who gave her a diagnosis of “schizophrenia.” In the doctor’s view, she suffered from a delusion: she believed that she was a man. Permitted to call a family member, Murray contacted her “cousin” Mac. The next day, Mac checked her out of Bellevue and, probably on the recommendation of Dr. Chinn, took her to a private psychiatric facility, Dr. Rogers’s Hospital, at 345 Edgecombe Avenue, on the corner of 150th Street. Murray was lucky. If Mac had not come to her rescue, Bellevue psychiatrists were prepared to seek her commitment to one of the vast, overcrowded state hospitals for the mentally ill. On the typewriter Mac brought to her, Murray itemized the causes of her “nervous collapse”: overwork; lack of desire to either eat or sleep; anxiety over parental responsibilities; and the “temporary disappearance of a friend.” All of these factors played a part; however, Murray believed that the principal source of her emotional crisis was the same problem with which she had wrestled for a decade: the fact that she repeatedly fell in love with women without having any “opportunity to express such an attraction in normal ways,” that is, as a heterosexual male in love with a heterosexual female. The only people who seemed to accept her for who she was were “the unsophisticated people in the environment” [people like her aunts and the ever-loyal Mac] who “accept me pretty much as one of nature’s experiments; a girl who should have been a boy, and react to me as if I were a boy.” Doctors at the Rogers hospital proved no more willing to cooperate in Murray’s efforts to become the man she knew herself to be than those elsewhere. When they released her in mid-March, she had nothing to show for her stay beyond a medical bill for $80, which she could not pay.

As well as Dylan Scholinski, who wrote a memoir called "The Last Time I Wore A Dress" about their experience being institutionalized from ages 15 to 18 in the 80s for being a gender non-conforming girl. They recently re-released the memoir under their chosen name and with a new foreword; I recommend reading it but massive TW for all kinds of child abuse, sanism, and queerphobia. From this interview:

Alison Stewart: You were able to access your medical records and you put them actually in the memoir. Dylan Scholinski: Right. Alison Stewart: What did the medical records reveal to you about how the medical establishment was thinking about you and then they were thinking about your treatment? Dylan Scholinski: Well, some of it was very diagnose-based. Like I said, I think they saw the cure for my depression if I would just learn how to be more feminine. That was the treatment that I was supposed to learn about what boys like. They actually put me in some really unsafe situations, hoping to inspire sexual behavior in order for me to be more feminine. They were putting me in situations that seem really unreasonable and unsafe. Alison Stewart: Could you share a few? Dylan Scholinski: When I was put into my third hospital, they put me on an all-male unit. I was the only girl on an all-male unit. I was the first girl to be. That's when it switched to not being an all-male unit. That in and of itself, you're like a little piece of meat there in the middle of 20 young men. That would be an example, or having me in four-point restraints and having male patients sneak into my room while I had no way of defending myself. Alison Stewart: At one point, you had to start wearing makeup in order to gain good points for good behavior. Dylan Scholinski: Right. Alison Stewart: What did it feel like when you wore makeup? Dylan Scholinski: Oh, my God, you feel dead. It causes a separation from your body. That is kind of hard to explain. I was on a point system. I would receive points for good behavior and lose points for bad behavior. My treatment was I was supposed to learn how to apply makeup and then say something nice about myself. Nice not being like I'm really good at baseball or I can really hit the ball or I can run really fast or any of these other things, or I can draw things that I was really proud of. Instead, I had to say things like, "I love looking pretty." I would feel like such a liar that I was performing and deceiving. I think they were hoping if I repeated it enough that it would change who I was going to become.

You cannot understand the history of (anti-)transmasculinity without seeing how massive a role sanism, medical trans/misogyny, and institutionalization has played.

genderkoolaid

@redliongeneral yes!!!! i wrote a whole post on jeanne d'arc & how her crossdressing was very much not just a protective measure, but something personally and spiritually significant in itself. And it was her commitment to wearing men's clothing that got her murdered.

From the transcript of her trial:

It is sufficiently notorious and well-known that for some time past a woman calling herself Jeanne the Pucelle, leaving off the dress and clothing of the feminine sex, a thing contrary to divine law and abominable before God, and forbidden by all laws, wore clothing and armour such as is worn by men; [...] Asked whether her saying that she would take a woman's dress if they would let her go, was pleasing to God, she answered that if they let her go in a woman's dress, she would at once put on man's dress and do as Our Lord commanded her. She has said this before. And she would not for anything take the oath that she would not take up arms or wear male dress to do Our Lord's will. [...] As to the Thirteenth, accusing her of blasphemy [in saying that it was at God's command that she put on male clothing, 'violating canon law, to the scandal of her sex and womanly modesty, and to the perversion of all decent behaviour.']: She answered: I have blasphemed neither God nor His saints. And after it was explained to her that according to canon law and the Holy Scriptures the taking by women of man's dress and the taking by men of woman's dress is an abomination before God, they asked her whether she had taken the said dress by God's command, she said: You have been answered as to this before: and if you wish me to answer again, then grant me a delay, and I will answer you. Being asked whether she would take a woman's dress so that she might receive her Saviour at Easter, she answered that she would not leave off her [man's] dress either to receive her Saviour or for any other reason. She added that to receive her Saviour neither man's nor woman's dress made any difference; and It ought not to be refused her on account of this dress. [...] You have said that, by God's command, you have continually worn man's dress, wearing the short robe, doublet, and hose attached by points; that you have also worn your hair short, cut en rond above your ears, with nothing left that could show you to be a woman; and that on many occasions you received the Body of our Lord dressed in this fashion, although you have been frequently admonished to leave it off, which you have refused to do, saying that you would rather die than leave it off, save by God's command. And you said further that if you were still so dressed and with the king and those of his party, it would be one of the greatest blessings for the kingdom of France; and you have said that not for anything would you take an oath not to wear this dress or carry arms; and concerning all these matters you have said that you did well, and obediently to God's command. As for these points, the clerks say that you blaspheme God in His sacraments; that you transgress divine law, the Holy Scriptures and the canon law; you hold the Faith doubtfully and wrongly; you boast vainly; you are suspect of idolatry; and you condemn yourself in being unwilling to wear the customary clothing of your sex, and following the custom of the Gentiles and the heathen. [...]

genderkoolaid

From January 14, 1860:

“An extraordinary case of a girl concealing her sex for many years, has been brought to light at Peitiers, France. Augustine, alias Augustus Baudouin, a young person of 17, was known in the town and neighborhood as an active lad, and had been in place in respectable houses as “odd boy.” This individual was lately tried for robbery, and while in prison, the authorities conceived some suspicion, and ascertained her to be female. On being asked what reason she had for wearing men's clothes, she said she had observed that men got their living easier than women; but she refused to give any information as to her birth and parentage. She was removed to the female wards, but her repugnance to appear in woman's attire among her fellow prisoners was so great, that she committed suicide by hanging herself on an iron bar with a pocket handkerchief.”

thepinkpestilence

"why are people who are being regarded by the state as gross women talk about misogyny so much?? why are people who are men yet dont gain any cis male privilege and are being forced to detransition talk about misandry so much??:(("

hideyourautumn-milkteeth

people in the queer community will full chested say shit like "THESE HYSTERICAL UTERUS VAGINA HAVING TRANS PPL ARE SOOOO FUCKING PRIVILEGED AND SELFISH AND DID I MENTION HYSTERICAL??? THESE USELESS EMOTIONAL FEMALES-I MEAN MEN- REEAALLY WANT EVERYTHING TO BE ABOUT THEM ALL THE TIME!! WE NEED TO SILENCE THEM!!!" and be completely blind to all the layers of just how fucked that is. Awwesoooomee.

accelerationist-king-piccolo

rimonoroni

Day 180 since Craig moved in. he clearly thinks he’s dating one of us but we can’t figure out who. it’s possible one of us is lying about it for some reason but so far our efforts at inquisition has led nowhere. we would kick him out but he’s been doing the dishes for us. we’ve decided that for the sanity of the polycule we’ll keep up the charade. if all of us continue to be flirty with him, he’ll project his attraction onto whoever the hell he thinks is into him. this house of cards is delicate but necessary

elamarth-calmagol

It got funnier

lmtyl

This is how cats domesticated themselves

naga-noia

Is it actually internalized misogyny or is it just a resentment/aversion born from a lifetime of being forced into a suffocating box of femininity and womanhood. Or hell is it literally just someone saying “I’m not sure if I like being a girl very much”

next time you want to snark at a transmasc/trans man please ask yourself this question, because those things are not one and the same, and need to stop being treated as if they are

lichor

ppl act like stealth trans men have perfect lives with 0 problems as if the entire stealth trans masc experience isn't just a never ending stream of

*lets go of microaggression to not out himself*

*puts up with microaggression to not out himself*

*doesn't comment on microaggression to not out himself*

*denies an entire part of his early life and refuses to comment on or relate to anything having to do with a uterus or experiencing sexism as to not out himself*

like bro this isnt privilege. denying whole parts of my identity isn't a privilege. its in fact very isolating and othering and doesn't feel good. I dont feel like im getting away with anything, I feel like no one in normal working life can ever truly know who I am as I have to constantly edit and filter myself.

being stealth should not be seen as this holy grail that every trans person should aspire to reach and its damaging as fuck to act like denying parts of yourself is somehow a good thing.

degenerate-elite

Are you BAF or BEX? (bigotry affected or bigotry exempt) Gotta know before I follow thansk🥰 and make sure to put it in your bio too, so that people will know if you face bigotry or not

Zomgggg you're so right 🥺🥺🥺 I'm BAF actuallyyyyy yes EVERY bigotry belong to me. . . . I am going to build a bomb to kill all BEX. . they will never see it coming 😈😈😈

tmasc-confessions

Like this post to add 1 more kg of gunpowder to build the bomb that kills all BEX because we BAFs are tired 💔💔💔💔💔💔😥😥😥😥😱😱😱😱😱😣😣😣😣😣

eldritchboything

Something I've been thinking about is how much it bothers me that transmascs and trans men are never considered authorities on our own experiences. It's a kind of testimonial injustice. Someone else always thinks that they must know better than we do. They don't even stop to consider it: They see a trans man say something about his own life that goes against their preconceived notions and simply jump to correct him, thoughtlessly, because obviously he is wrong. The idea that we have interiority, intelligence, the ability to recognize and describe our lives, is not so much rejected as it is never even on the table to begin with. It is a particular kind of dehumanization, I think, to deny someone the ability to speak authoritatively on their own experiences.

I have had other trans people tell me to my face, flatly, that something I described (related to being transmasc) did not happen. It is straightforwardly an accusation of lying, but it's rarely phrased that way. Instead it's usually posed as a challenge to the idea that I could possibly have any idea what I'm talking about. "Are you sure that really happened?" in response to recounting an instance of transphobia, or "Want me to prove that's not true?" when a claim about some specific transmasc oppression is made.

And when concrete evidence is given that, e.g. transmasculine people as a class face more sexual violence than transfeminine people, the problem escalates. When we cannot simply be dismissed out of hand as wrong just "because," they have to find another way to discredit us. Since their dismissal of us is based in transphobic bias and not in any real grounding, it's not acceptable for us to prove that we're right about anything. This is where you get situations like r/trans censoring transmascs after one provided citations about violence against us, or people nitpicking studies and claiming their results are biased. It's also often when the slurs come out (if they hadn't already), because there is no greater defense against evidence than to simply stop engaging with reality and call the other person a fembrained theyfab instead.

It's part of a wider pattern, too, not just in interpersonal exchanges. The lies told by the groups oppressing us are taken at face value by the majority of people, including other trans people. "Trans men transition into privilege" and "trans men transition because of internalized misogyny" are literal TERF talking points that are also accepted uncritically as true by a portion of our own community. "AFAB only" spaces are imagined to be havens for transmascs when any of us with experience can tell you what the reality is. People that recognize transphobic lies about trans women willingly swallow those lies whole when they are about trans men.

Even when it isn't straightforward lies told by bigots, people tend to make assumptions about transmascs with no input or research and then treat them like unassailable truth. Writers like Julia Serano simply "suppose" that a person read on the street as transmasculine will face less violence or harassment than someone read as transfeminine. People will confidently say that they "feel like" the stats on violence against trans men must be wrong, based on nothing material. Someone speaking on queer history will do no research into the contributions of transmasculine people, and then assume that we did nothing.

When it comes to the lives and experiences of transmasculine people, anyone and anything, including assumptions, conjecture, feelings, and outright lies, is treated as having more authority than our word.

centaurself

in celebration of april 13, i present all four known photos of neil, who banged out the tunes 19 years ago today

source: theagilerat.com (click right to see all four photos!)

starberry-cupcake

killian-ob99

apollosfallen

The only way forward is to stop treating masculinity as synonymous with harmful, monstrous, or dangerous.

apollosfallen

There is a fundamental difference between "men are dangerous" (wrong, bioessentialist) and "the patriarchy allows dangerous men to exist unchecked" (true).

clowncarpool

cheese sits on the toilet while we take showers, and i like to stand on my tip toes and draw his silhouette in the steam from a high angle, then stand back to see how warped it is from his actual shape

oil and acrylic on masonite