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I went on Instagram to look at something, I don't even remember what, and it just kinda made me sad. Not sure why. Sucks.

#sigh #probably therapy #meh

Fuck fucknfuck fuck idk I can't do this, I can't make this work. I can't. It won't. I can't I am breaking. I feel it. I feel feel feel feel it

#tw

I feel like I'm too anxious to function. Mostly social anxiety, including virtual socializing. I'm constantly thinking about what I say, how people perceive it, if people are being mean/rude to me, what their intentions were. I post one thing in, get a response that isn't quite understanding my original post, and I'll think about it for days.

I fucking hate myself for being like this. This is like a constant state of existence I'm in.

#tw

I feel like something in me finally snapped

It would be nice to not have feelings like this

Being alive feels like too much work. Too much anxiety on a daily basis. Too many unknowns.

I am a ball of sadness often lately and idk when it will get better. The world just feels so terrible and I'm anxious about so much.

#i am sad #sad #sigh #but i will not admit depression

Those anons were so fucking awful? How can you actually talk to someone like that? I didn't even say anything aggressive about the politician! Why do you feel the need to tell me to die

#cw death #idfk #anons are mean #mean #mean people #fuck you

Great job, dumbfuck.

You said it and you can't unsay it

You ruined it

You ruined it for them

You ruined their happy escape

You're the worst, they deserve better, you should just leave them

#bad bad bad #regret #can't unsay #cant take it back #anxiety #depression #quarantine

You know...i miss self harm

#tw #self loathing #self harm

My job is giving me mixed feelings about a lot of things...

#what am i doing #but i cant complain #i should be thankful #anxiety #existential #jobs