It's daily. It's random. It's GABI.

It's another blog of nengaudrey.tumblr.com. Will provide you the silly random thoughts that happen in Gabi's mind.

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2015

I don't know where to step, cause everything feels like a trap. Every second I want to move out, you always drag me back. No, it's not fully your fault, I guess I made some part too. But when you tore mine and poured the salt, all I tasted was blue.

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When I like someone, I wouldn't dare to ask them out. I wouldn't dare to say "Hi" at the first place. I wouldn't even dare to stare at them.

I am that awkward, coward kind of human being.

It's not because I'm a woman, it's just me being too scared, too insecure.

But what scares me the most is I'll miss things out just because I'm too scared to make a move and probably will end my old days alone.

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Commuter Line 21:58

Mata-mata yang lelah

Leher yang tertunduk menatap layar ponsel

Telinga yang ditutup rapat oleh karet penghantar musik kesukaan

Yang tertidur lelap sampai menganga pun ada

Tidak ada yang lebih sibuk

Tidak ada yang lebih penat

Semua sama-sama ingin sampai rumah dengan selamat

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Kadang kita merasa resah karena tidak bisa memahami suatu hal. Yang kita lupa adalah tidak semua hal harus dipahami.

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Mata Kuliah 40 SKS

Berdamai dengan diri sendiri itu tidak pernah menjadi perkara yang mudah.

Di sisi yang satu, kita merasa sudah memaafkan masa lalu. Namun, tak jarang rasa sesal dan marah mengetuk ingin masuk lagi. Sekadar menyapa, tapi membekas.

Berdamai dengan diri sendiri mungkin memiliki beban SKS 40. Kalau kuliah, sudah dapat gelar magister. Tapi tak semudah sidang tesis lalu lulus dan jadi the most valuable bachelor.

Berdamai dengan orang lain jauh lebih mudah, jabat tangan dan selesai. Dengan diri sendiri? Mau jabat tangan dengan siapa? Alih-alih jabat tangan, kita kerap menyerukan tudingan pada diri sendiri, "coba kalau dulu saya tidak melakukan hal itu."

Menerima kekalahan di masa lampau bisa jadi salah satu cara. Menerima dan mulai melangkah. Jangan tengok-tengok lagi! Nanti kamu jadi tiang garam. Maju dan maju terus, sampai ketika kamu menanyakan kabarnya, tak ada lagi rasa tersayat di dada, tapi sekadar ingin tahu sebagai teman lama.

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Saat Teduh

Sesungguhnya kedai kopi di pagi hari bisa jadi tempat bersaat teduh paling syahdu.

Sambil menunggu kopi dan roti, kulipat tangan dan pejamkan mata.

Buat orang lain, mungkin aku terlihat seperti sedang tidur, namun dalam hati, doaku terucap.

"Tuhan, kalau boleh, berikan aku kesabaran yang lebih hari ini. Biarlah mulutku hanya mengucap berkat, pikiranku hanya berpikir yang baik, dan perilakuku memancarkan kasih."

Ku pikir, bersaat teduh hanya bisa dilakukan sebelum tidur atau saat bangun tidur. Ternyata kedai kopi di pagi hari bisa jadi tempat bersaat teduh paling syahdu.

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You look "healthier"

Just a thought of this morning. What made people think it's better to say "Oh, you look healthier" or "You seems getting happier and fresh" to someone when actually what they mean is I look fatter than the last time they met me?

Do they think it's more polite to say it that way, when I actually know what they actually want to say? I prefer someone say it to my face that I gained some weight. No sugar coating, straight to the point.

If you can't say the exact expression about how you feel about my weight, don't say anything at all. And what made you think that your opinion matters? Just because I'm writing this down, doesn't mean I care that much.

Yes, I'm fat. So?

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Haitian Griot and Pikliz

Keep reading

[lecataste]

Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie | We Should All Be Feminists | 2014

[washingtonpost]

“It’s not your job to be likable. It’s your job to be yourself. Someone will like you anyway.”

Women, stop worrying about being liked — Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie’s advice for living boldly (via washingtonpost)

[valleyfolkgifs]

[theawkwardlifeofapsycho]

Why is this not taught universally.

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Corners.

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Masyarakat yang patriakal banyak mengembankan nilai-nilai yang harus dipanggul oleh perempuan. Sementara perempuan sendiri banyak yang merasa perlakuan ini tidak adil dan membatasi gerak mereka. Maka itu kupersembahkan sebuah tulisan jujur dari perempuan itu sendiri.

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with Natasha at Hause Rooftop – View on Path.

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Happy Eid, everyone!

[astrologyoverload]

“You don’t know my story”: Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio, Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo

Bitch, I watched it on snapchat: Leo, Taurus, Aries, Aquarius, Libra, Capricorn

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Lol!

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the "I told ya'll this would happen but nobody listened to me" squad

Virgo, Taurus, Libra, Cancer, Leo, Aries