shameoutlives

""Like a dog!" he said; it was as if he meant the shame of it to outlive him." https://archiveofourown.org/users/shameoutlives 18, any/all just a place for me to talk about and post my writings not new to tumblr but new account!

[triangleguy]

[computercarcasses]

[oohyuck]

Oh, right. The poison. The poison for Kuzco, the poison chosen especially to kill Kuzco, Kuzco's poison. That poison?

[teh-nos]

oh no my pornography is turning into an angst-filled character study

[renee561]

Oh no my angst-filled character study is turning into pornography

[evilphrog]

[allpiesforourown]

[robinstome]

there's no fucking way

[descensos]

The beauty of woman is the greatest snare. Or rather, not the beauty of woman, but unchastened gazing! For we should not accuse the objects, but ourselves, and our own carelessness. Nor should we say, Let there be no women, but Let there be no adulteries. We should not say, Let there be no beauty, but Let there be no fornication. We should not say, Let there be no belly, but let there be no gluttony; for the belly makes not the gluttony, but our negligence. We should not say, that it is because of eating and drinking that all these evils exist; for it is not because of this, but because of our carelessness and insatiableness. Thus the devil neither ate nor drank, and yet he fell! Paul ate and drank, and ascended up to heaven!

St John Chrysostom - Homily 15 on the Statues

[darnitjack]

The man with the golden mouth strikes again

[talesfromthecrypts]

I’m so good at video games

[verthachtd]

decadence rust

[thelunar27]

Tomodachi Life: Living the Dream but with 60 clones of the same guy

I've been loving the hell out of Living the Dream and I've always had one Mii who I absolutely adore. If you've ever seen my account, you know who I'm talking about considering I draw him all the time; Quit!!!!

^ here he is on my main island. So I decided I wanted to run an experiment: I would make an alt save with 60 of the same Mii. Every single Mii will be a clone of our beloved Quit (seen above) with the exact same personality, voice, face, dating preferences (all Quits can date all 3 gender options), everything. The only difference is that 20 of them are male, 20 are female, and 20 are nonbinary (because I'm curious on if Mii gender impacts how a Mii forms friends). It was a lengthy process making 60 of the exact same Mii, but finally...

Welcome to Quitland. My general rule for this save file is that I must interfere as little as possible with the Quits lives. I'll only give them food, new clothing, treasures, or new housing if they directly ask me for it. I can't force any relationships either (barring the tutorial which forces you to do so). I want to see how these 60 clones all grow and adapt, and how they will eventually differentiate themselves. I had put all 60 Quits in at midnight so right after doing so I decided to head to bed. I then proceeded to spend the chunk of my morning doing quite possibly the stupidest thing ever:

Creating a giant pixelated Quit to put on the ground. From there I learned about something kind of interesting. Turns out when you create 60 Miis all at once, with all of them having no little quirks, friends, or really anything to define their AI past their basic personality, they become... ...kind of stupid. Here are some examples of small groups of Quit randomly choosing to follow one "leader" Quit for no reason. They REALLY enjoy doing this. Its not uncommon for small packs of Quit (usually containing 2-6 members) to just stalk another Quit for extended periods of time. I believe they are developing pack-hunting strategies. This scares me.

They also enjoyed talking. A lot. My entire island is just constantly full of random Quit chatter 24/7.

I'll admit though it is very rewarding just seeing all of them standing about, doing weird Quit things. I feel like a proud father of 60 single-celled organisms.

Also I got quite possibly the funniest Tomodachi Life clip I've ever seen:

There ain't a single brain cell between any of them. Honestly it was really fun just watching them frolic about, like an ant farm made entirely up of brainless homunculus.

In terms of actual development between the Quits, some of them became acquaintances and a few even became friends, but the REAL development was between Quit 1 (known as Original Quit) and Quit 3:

Quit 3 started crushing on Original, and just a few minutes after that Quit 3 surprised me by deciding to just up and confess to Original. This was pretty shocking...so far, every other Quit has been fairly reserved in making relationships. While plenty of them became "like-minded" (not surprising considering they all have the same mind), few were brave enough to become friends, let alone lovers. Perhaps Quit 3 is some kind of deviant Quit???

Well lucky for Quit 3, their boldness ended up paying off...and Quitland got its first couple!

I wonder how long it'll last... Besides that, only one other romantic event happened. Which was Quit 48 developing a crush on Quit 28. (I know it's hard to tell that this Quit is different from the Quit above...but trust me, its a different guy.)

...could this be considered an example of egomania...? I mean they look identical...

And that was about everything interesting that happened on day 1 of my little experiment. I might post more if anyone has any interest in the Quit ant farm. This is a little different from what I usually post so hopefully the people who follow me just for the art don't mind a bit of a change lol. To end off, here's some group pictures after I finally unlocked the photo mode:

Personally I'm a really big fan of chicken Quit right now.

[is-this-post-edible]

This post is… EDIBLE?

[luna-azzurra]

Growing up feeling like you didn't quite belong anywhere is actually incredible training for writing characters. because you spent years watching how groups work from the outside. how people perform for each other. what the room looks like when you're not entirely in it. you thought you were missing something. you were actually just taking notes from a very uncomfortable angle for a very long time. the belonging thing still stings a little. the writing is very good though.

[starlitmyre]

"what if they fucked" WRONG. what if they ruined each other's lives irreparably. what if there was nothing left but a smoldering heap. what if everything that brought them together twisted and corroded and ripped them apart. and then they fucked.

[shameoutlives]

every single piece of feedback i get for my writing is always too verbose, too convoluted, too lengthy..and this is for every form of writing i do, not just creative but essay writing also. its so irritating because when i try to fix it and shorten things i feel like my work then just lacks the voice i want which is usually...a convoluted voice.

could it be that my writing is lacking in other areas and my length is compensation? maybe narratively or something like that? but then sometimes im like UGH i dont care if its too complicated to read!! just dont read it then!! i like it so what matters!!! but i cant exactly say that to my uni professor.

what i do

[gethighdropacidneverdie]

[shameoutlives]

I LOVE writing evil things I LOVE immoral behaviour I LOVE relationships that will never work out i LOVE horrible people. but my gf loves joy and happy endings and love...and my characters have suspiciously started to get away with being happier recently...

[kafkasapartment]

In the Silence of the Green Garden, 2024. Bat Ella. Acrylic, oil and pigments on canvas.

[despazito]

i feel myself becoming more stupid each time i watch this but i can't stop

[nebivalta]

ADAM MY BELOVED 💔😭